This is going to be very short as I'm very tired and I don't yet like the new layout of this site I couldn't let the day go by without announcing that today September 19th is David McCallum's birthday!!!!

The role I love him for atm is Ducky the medical examiner on NCIS

It's also my niece and nephew's B'day I can't understand why they aren't as excited as me that they share their B'day with David

It's also the day I got to see the first ep of S4 of Supernatural "Lazarus Rising" I hope I spelt that right, I'm too tired to check.

So all in all it's been a great day

Depression claimed yet another life 2 weeks ago Wednesday 27th of August when Aussie actor Mark Priestley took his own life Mark was working on the Aussie medical drama All Saints which is my fave Aussie show. It's right up there with Supernatural and NCIS for me – my all time fave shows. It was a big shock when I found out, I loved his character on AS. I still can't believe it, he apparently filmed 11 eps b4 his death. It's weird seeing him on screen in new eps but knowing he's no longer with us. 2 of those eps have already aired, the first a week ago ended with a tribute. Another actor from the show John Howard did a small tribute to Mark at the end of the first ep. It was a beautiful tribute but so sad – I don't think there was a dry eye from any fan who saw it. It didn't help that as John spoke, the pain and sorrow was so evident on his face and in his voice – it's so upsetting. Then they showed a few clips of Marks time on AS – it was supposed to be about his 4yrs with the show but it only seemed to be from eps that aired this year. There may have been one or two that were from other yrs.

Here's the link to the tribute if you want to see it…

All Saints remembers Mark Priestley

It's the 2nd death of a Perth-born actor (Heath Ledger being the first) this year. Not that that means anything, I just can't help but notice it Also the day of Marks funeral September 4th was the anniversary of Steve Irwins death.

Since Marks death there's all these comments and posts of all these ppl mentioning their own fight with depression. Is everyone utterly miserable?! It sure feels that way. Some of the depth of Marks depression was revealed in the following article…

"It emerged Priestley suffered deep depression for months but was unable to beat the personal demons which led him to end his own life this week. The 32-year-old was unable to work on some days and production was re-scheduled around his illness to accommodate him in the hope he would recuperate. Family, friends, colleagues and his Seven network employer were aware and supportive of him during the bleak periods, a colleague said yesterday."

He was apparently getting treatment but obviously it wasn't working or wasn't enough. This apparently wasn't his first suicide attempt. A friend of mine is suffering from a deep depression and is getting treatment for it but I still worry.

A close family friend committed suicide and the anniversary of their death is this month. I would have been thinking about the person anyway but Marks death is bringing it all back. It's also making me think of Michael Gilden a US actor who had a guest role on NCIS around the time he committed suicide. 2 out of my 3 fave shows has had someone take their own life…this is going to sound silly but is anyone keeping an eye on those that work on Supernatural?

Closer to home for me, last Friday night I found out a family friend had committed suicide ...It's only sort of hitting me now.

This is my 100th blog – it's taken me long enough to get here

My thoughts are still with Mark's family, friends, cast and crew of All Saints and his fans. RIP Mark Goodbye Mark, may you have found the peace you were after.

Here are some tribute fan vids of mark…

Remember Me

Wasn't It Good

A little clip from the show...

The Dan and Ricki show

A clip from Mark's funeral of his former girlfriends speech...

Mark's farewell

The episode that aired this week was a little weird at first. They had a lady come into the ED - suspected suicide attempt. They were talking about how depressed ppl can't always talk about it or something. straight after that it jumps to Mark's character Dan. I know that ep was filmed weeks ago but it was kinda strange...

It's Mark Harmon's B'day today 2nd September so...

MARK HARMON!!!!

Atm he's on NCIS but I read in one of the Supernatural mags that I think Kim Manners has worked with Mark b4 and would love to have him on the show for a few eps or something. Give Mark a break so he can go on Supernatural please!! I'd love to see someone from NCIS go on SPN or vice versa He also wants Bruce Campell (sp) from Burn Notice but again, too busy on another show Kim needs to get in quicker with the actors

Is finally here!!!! I have never been so happy to see the end of winter, one of the coldest for over 60yrs apparently. We broke records on the low temps in various places but at least it meant a really good snow season I guess. Not that it matters to me coz I didn't get to see the snow!! It snowed on the mountain near here which I don't think it's EVER done. I was all ready to go and see it but apparently there wasn't much, not enough to warrant a drive in the horrible conditions. I hope I get to see snow one day (other than on TV) That's right, I've NEVER seen snow Oh well, I hate the cold so it doesn't matter. Spring isn't that good coz although we've had 2 nice warm days, it's going to go back to freezing tomorrow apparently. I'll be happy when the overnight temps stay in the double digits

I'm counting down to summer unless spring wants to give me a few 25-30c degree days Spring smells good though with all the flowers in bloom Also baby animals My birds are laying eggs but I'm not sure if too many will hatch

Yesterday 1st September was apparently national Wattle day here in Aus...I had no idea but I do love the smell of Wattle

A shorter blog than I would like to have done but I'm house/pet sitting all this week with no internet access at the house I'm grabbing some net time while I'm at home taking care of my own pets. So I may not be on here much this week (not that I've been on here much lately anway )

16 days until S4 of Supernatural!!!!

First off...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JARED!!!!

To one of the of the best TV shows around

I hope you have an awesome day! (I know he won't ever read this but anyway )

I hope he is able to spend the day with family and friends

Jared apparently likes cookie dough ice cream I went one better and found this...

- Cookie dough ice cream cake A little too much perhaps but it's not real so it doesn't matter

He also apparently really likes white choc macadamia nut cookies - yum

Help yourself to the goodies

*lots of squishy birthday hugs*

Now...finally onto my account of meeting Jared

On the 21st of June 2008 I went to Supanova – pop culture expo in Sydney. I went with Suze (Julsus) and her sis Julie. I had never met either of them b4 but I "met" Suze thru this site. Thank you Suze for helping to make the weekend so awesome

A link to Suze's blog (Julsus) who also wrote about this encounter but I'm sure you've all read it.

The signing on Saturday...

This pic is a screen cap from my video of the signing on Sat. It turned out better than the pics from my still camera

I was calmer than I thought I would be – reports of Jared's calming influence were correct. My hands did get a bit shaky when we were lining up for the autograph but once I got to him I calmed down. He asked us where we were from "where y'all guys from? Are y'all from Sydney?" I couldn't talk – thankfully Suze was there and did the talking for me Thank you Suze

I was wearing my Sam Winchester T-shirt from tvmerch. When he got to me he said "I like your shirt" (I don't know why but I wasn't expecting him to comment on it ) All I could think of was the fact he had already seen the shirt when Jensen wore it at the Chicago con. I didn't say anything (I don't think I did anyway) I just smiled at him

I got him to sign my SPN calendar which I wasn't sure about but thanks again to Suze who said I should get it signed so I did (I wouldn't have got it signed if I was there by myself so thanks Suze ) He asked where to sign it (over the pic of the boys or on the white calendar part) Then he started to tell me about him filming that ep with a broken wrist. I said something stupid like, yeah I knew that or I heard about that. I had things I wanted to ask him about it but do you think I could remember any of them??? I may have been calm but my brain was total mush I wish I had of just let him tell the story coz that ended that conversation. He signed the calendar and said "I'll put a mark on today's date" or something like that (which you can see in the pic below)

He than thanked us, saying something like "we work long hours and it's great to see the fans come all this way to see us" I can't remember what he said but it was something along those lines. He said something similar at the end of the Q&A so he says it a lot. Jared, there's no need to keep thanking us, we thank you more than you'll ever know I thanked him and left the signing area.

After getting our autograph we joined the masses of fans to the side of the signing area taking photos and video of Jared signing and giving out many hugs and taking ph calls from fans which he never said no to. Then wishing I had the guts to ask him for a hug. I have video footage of some of the Sat signing which I am in the process of uploading to youtube.

My signed goodies...

Yay, the 40's chick (our nickname for her ) is blurry but Jared shines through nice and clear

Saturday Photo Op...

We were pretty close to the front of the line on Sat and for some reason this was the first time in my life that I didn't care about having to queue for hours on end It was more than worth it Also I had ppl to talk to which helps Where we were we could see behind the temp wall they had up. I kept looking behind the wall in the hope of catching a glimpse of Jared. After a while I saw Jared heading towards the photo booth area. He was on the phone (we're thinking possibly talking to Jensen ) So we stood there and watched him talk on the phone then he went in and the seemingly endless photos started The man really was a trooper, so many autographs and photos – I don't know how he did it.

Suze and her sis went in for their individual photos and we had told them that we were having a group photo. The security guard then tried to get us to do the group pic and then my individual after but we didn't do as he wanted I got my individual and then we did the group pic which you can see Jared's face for the group pic on Suze's blog.

I walked in and I don't remember if Jared said hi but he probably did. What I do remember is this…Jared "Do you want to stand on the stool so you can be taller than your friends" I didn't even know there was a stool for vertically challenged ppl like myself My brain was still mush and just being in Jared's presence was enough but to have him talking to me!! Anyway, my reply was something like "I don't mind, whatever" Then he says "You don't have to if you don't want to" but I ended up saying yes to standing on the stool, not quite sure how I was able to make a decision but I'm glad I did. It meant I was closer to his face which he put against mine (well my hair )

When I stood on the stool he pulled me in tight which took me by surprise, but it was great Jared is so strong! I remember thinking - this is Jared!! I still couldn't believe I was so close to him! So I was grinning like an idiot for the first pic

Afterwards he kicked the stool out of the way but kicked it so hard it nearly hit the camera guy I think it was He apologised for that but it didn't actually hit anyone.

Love the scruffy look on Jared

On the Sat night he went to a rugby league game!! Yay I wish I could have known about that b4 and I wish it was a Knights game but oh well. I'm just thankful it wasn't an AFL game (ducks to avoid things thrown from AFL fans )

Sunday Signing...

The organizers had learnt from the day b4 and Jared now not only had his own line for the actual autograph. There was a separate table to purchase the autograph and photo tickets for Jared We got our tickets fairly quickly which was lucky coz there seemed to be more ppl on the Sunday.

This time we were further down the line for the auto and they were asking for ppl who wanted Jewel's auto. They then took them out of the line and put them in the other line for Jewel than brought them back to "the Jared line" It cracks me up he had his own line and table

The stall next to the signing area was the JB HI FI stall. Someone from there noticing all us poor dedicated fans having to wait for hours to have a brief moment with Jared. He got together a bag of chocolate goodies and was offering them to anyone in line who wanted one. Glad to know someone was thinking of us all – we were all great full for the sugar hit

We finally get to Jared, this time I got him to sign my Sammy shirt, I had a pen for writing on clothing and asked him if he could use it. B4 that I remember going on about how he will have touched my pen Poor Suze had to listen to my crazyness. Anyway, the whole brain turning to fan girl mush syndrome was back and I forgot to get my pen back

The highlight of this part was Jared remembering us from the day before I can't remember what he said, I wish I could but I can't. After he signed my shirt, I said "thank you so much" I remember looking back to watch him as I walked away (gotta soak up all the Jared goodness you possibly can ) I'm glad I did coz he then winked at us Of course he winked at lots of ppl but that doesn't enter into your thoughts when he's winking at you *sigh* It doesn't matter how many autographs he signed or how many photos he posed for, he can somehow keep up the enthusiasm and make all the fans feel special

There was a guy there who had fake, spray on tattoos – there was of course a Supernatural tat. Suze had an idea for us to get the SPN tat and then show the tat in the group pic. Our tribute to the ep Jus In Bello where we see the boys show off their protection tatts. We almost chickened out on getting the tat but Suze was braver than her sis and I and went and got it done. So then we got it done and I'm so glad we did, I would have been kicking myself if we didn't go thru with it so thanks again Suze

The tattoo guy was saying he was going to try and get Jared over and get the SPN tat (I really wish he could of, I would have loved to have a video and pics of that Also maybe then we could have told him about our idea and maybe he could have done the same?? A girl can dream can't she During Jared's break he was having that ch 10 interview done so no time for the tat

A little blury I know but I only have 2 pics from the Sun signing The other one is from a distance and has fans blocking the wonderful Jared view

The Q&A...

What can I say about the Q&A that you wouldn't have gotten from the many videos of it? Not much except I'm jealous of the girl that asked for the hug I'm still kicking myself for chickening out on asking him for a hug the whole weekend, I need a Jared hug

Sunday Photo Op...

Everyone ran from the Q&A to the queuing area for the photo op We were a lot further down the line this time and there were more VIP ppl that got to go first this time. When we got to the line, we didn't even notice Jared walking past us all Suze spotted him but he had already walked past so we watched him walk out of sight I can't believe we didn't notice him walking right past us

We had to wait a long time this time. Again I didn't care, I was just worried we wouldn't get our pic with Jared. Sunday I was wearing my Winchester demon tour shirt, I saw a few other ppl wearing it too. There were a lot of Dean shirts and I was like come on, it's Sammy here, not Dean

From time to time ppl would read the back of my shirt (which had all the demons listed and what town they were in at the time). I heard some of them, some I didn't notice they were reading it until someone told me. I remember some of them trying to remember what ep went with each demon.

When it finally got to our turn for photos, I went in first for my individual and the security guard was really pushy. He pushed me into the photo booth before the girl getting her pic taken was even out of the booth! When the other girl left Jared said to me "Good to see you again" I wasn't expecting more than "hi" and I had been too busy trying to decide whether I should ask him for a hug or not. Fan girl brain was still there also so once again I said nothing and just smiled at him He must have thought I was very strange, rude or I don't know what! I stood on the stool again to get as close to Jared as possible I was so busy soaking up the moment that I almost forgot to smile I breathed in his scent and he smelt good Again they tried to dictate our pic order but again we didn't do what they wanted The first group pic was the one showing off our JIB tatts Jared was quite surprised by this and was like whoa I don't think he'll forget us in a hurry The next group pic we wanted to ask him if he would do what Suze has dubbed the "heartbreak Sammy face" I thought this is it we have to say something. I quickly said "Can you do the heartbreak Sammy face for this pic?" (maybe he's now thinking, she speaks )He didn't have a clue what we were talking about We tried to explain it as best we could in the little amount of time we had. He had a go and for that I thank him, yet again It turned out pretty good I think even if it wasn't completely the heartbreak face, it still looks good. (see Suze – Julsus's blog for the pic of his faces in the group pics)

After our pics, we hung around outside the photo booth with the many other fans and watched the rest of the pics being taken There were pics taken and I'm hoping video coz of after the photos were over. As he was leaving he kept saying thank you and waving and blew quite a few kisses to the crowd of fans *melts* I just stood there watching him, I tried to take a photo but it's really blurry I wish I had of videoed it coz I can't find a video of that anywhere. If anyone has seen it, knows where there is some video of it can you please let me know???

No more stubble for Jared

I know this blog is long but once I started making points of what I could remember from the weekend, I kept remembering more

I'm so happy about the whole weekend, I had the best time Thanks to Jared of course and Suze

Jared is so wonderful I had heard great things about him and Jensen but to actually see him in person, to be there and experience for yourself how wonderful he is and the photos…an amazing experience that I want again He acknowledged the fans outside the photo booth all the time. Between photos he would look out into the crowd and wave or wink and smile, he was always smiling So wonderful *sigh* I don't think I could ever thank Jared enough for coming over here Esp on such short notice and so close to him going back to work.

Oh Jared!!

For a very special person...Tammy

Happy Birthday Tammy!!!! (July 15th)

Honest

Nah, you can have the cake, here it is...

awww

Or maybe you'd prefer this one...

Now for a little purple and maybe a unicorn or two

Tammy, thanks for being the wonderful person that you are. I hope you have the most awesome birthday ever!

I'm not too good with words hence the many, many pics

Here's some purpley B'day huggy goodness for you