Hehe. Finally I got to watch episodes 409 and 410 of Supernatural... And, wow! That was wow!! In two episodes they manage to give us what happened to Sam, what happened to Dean, info on angels and demons and more than a few tears. Really loved the episode, and really loved that finally someone had the same idea I did... Uh, can I comment on it in case no one read yet? Lemme pull a trick frommy long lost daughter's handbook, or time machine, hehe;

I always thought that if you need a body, why not get one that can't be used for anyone else. which means I just loved the fact that Ruby's new face is an empty shell except for her. I still don't know what her deal is, but I think if she does betray them, it's not gonna be for some lowly reason, it's gonna be major. After all she's been through for them, , for Sam, hehe, well, either she's not lying, or she's got higher stakes riding on it all. And that thought keeps coming back to my mind when I'm watching, always. I guess I'll just have to wait and see. I really liked Anna and I wish we'd see her again in a small part maybe down the line, though I suspect her having gone back to being an angel will maybe have made her more like the others. .

I started watching Dollhouse, at least the first half of it, which is all that's downloaded so far. I think they're doing an intro thing, but I feel maybe like something missing. Let me get through the rest of it before I comment further, haha.

I do think I'll really like it though.

Oh, and what's happening with my real life/ Just got stabbed in the back by my insane supervisor, which has resorted to meeting me in hallways and saying I'm not there at all, and wants me to strip my report down to nothing and has tried to put a document through saying I was incompetent and didn't show up on time - hah, I'm one of two residents who do get there on time! - and luckily the pple he gave the paper to called me and told me what he was doing, so now it's war. The problem is I'm still just a resident, and he's a professor, so I'm really scared that I'll lose.

well, gonna go have dinner now.

Hugs to all!!!

Wow, what the...? I've come by here and given up about three times bc the page took soooo long to load. Okay, so my internet is slow.... But still... Why am I here today? Well, I can't sleep, and I thought I'd see if there was news on Dollhouse. Page took so long I gave up.

Hopefully everyone's been doing great and having less stressful days than me.

I've managed to keep up with The Mentalist (up tp ep 10) and Supernatural (downloaded til 410, only watched til the Halloween episode). Loving Supernatural!! Too bad about Pushing Daisies... So, second reason I'm here... hehe Guess. No guessing? Okay, so I can ramble endlessly, of course. I just finished watching Accepted for the umpteenth time to see if I'd better my mood, but now I'm just spiralling into thoughts of anger again. Not good...

So, for anyone who still remembers me and maybe remembers my mentioning I have an insane professor as my advisor, here's the straw that broke the camel's (aka my) back: I'm finishing up my first year as a resident this feb, and I have to renew for the second year. We had an unrelated confusion last week when the hospital director decided she didn't want any of the surgery residents doing surgery, and told us to simply go home. Since we're not on vacation and she didn't hand in anything on paper, we're not insane enough to actually do as she says, so we just hung around and not did surgery, hehe. Anyways, when I stopped by her office to ask for those instructions in writing, by coincidence my supervisor was there and when the subject somehow turned to my second year of residency, the director asked me how I was planning to do that without a supervisor. I asked my supervisor what she was talking about and he just stared at me!! Since everyone else is on vacation, they were the only two professos at the university friday, so there was no one else to talk to.

Okay, so I spent friday panicking, got on a bus to my hometown not knowing when I'd come back, spent saturday calling professors and appologizing several times for calling on a saturday morning, hehe. And spent the weekend in despair... This week, I started trying to get things straightened out. All he had to do was give me a written statement saying he doesn't want to be my supervisor anymore, but he wouldn't. Whenever I asked for one, he'd just insist that I wasn't going to have a second year, therefore I didn't need him to say he wouldn't be my supervisor. Finally, the mess got to such proportions that the hospital director called him today and asked him to put it in writing. He started yelling at her over the phone. The entire conversation lasted 30 minutes, and the short version of it is: No, he doesn't want to be my supervisor. No, he will not put that in writing because that would fit into some conspiracy theory that everyone is out to get him (I'm not joking). And if it comes down to putting it in writing and remaining as my supervisor (which requires no written statements) he'll remain my supervisor!!!

Is that really screwed up or is it just me?

Well, I put up with one year of humiliation, being yelled at in front of pet owners and students and teachers, listening that I wasn't worth anything, that I didn't know anything, but this was literally the last straw. I'll try to find a peaceful way to get transfered to another professor, but if I can't, I'll give him the fight he wants. I drafted three sets of papers, one of them is him saying he doesn't want me anymore and all he'd have to do is sign. The other is one in which I ask to change supervisors, no reason given, and the third is my asking to change supervisor with some lame excuse about wanting to study neurology (which is true, but still...). He'd have to sign that also, but I know he won't. The problem is that at the end of the day, I am a mere student and he is a professor, and he doesn't need to respect me, but anything I do will be seen as disrespect towards him. Did I ramble on enough already? I just really wanted to get this out of my system. I'm having trouble focusing on what I have to do, and I'm so stressed that weird stuff is manifesting like allergies on my skin and I don't have allergies.

I lost any confidence I still had in him, and I can't really spend another year feeling like some puppy's chew toy. You know, the one the dog leaves in the corner cause he doesn't want to play anymore, but if any other dogs come near it or if you go to put it away, he runs up and takes the toy with him for just as long as someone else is showing interest. I am that chew toy, and the professor doesn't want to sign the papers saying he doesn't want to be my supervisor anymore because then I'd go to another supervisor (which he loathes).

Now I do think I've ranted enough and hopefully I'll manage to stay calm tomorrow when I try to talk to someone about this. The problem is I don't know who. The director is his best friend and she doesn't like me. The professor in charge of the residency is just tempoarily in charge bc the other guy quit and so he doesn't want trouble in his couple of months on the job, and no one else wants t pick a fight that isn't theirs. I guess I'm screwed then. Great.

I should really go to sleep.

I wish it didn't take so long to load the pages for tv.com on my computer, that way I could actually look up the series I was meaning to when I got here.

Hopefully this blog will manage to be posted.

Good night and until the next blue moon.

Okay, so I have a temper, and I'm not good at controlling myself. Uusally when someone upsets me, I just turn around and walk away to take a deep breath and calm down...

The bad thing I did today? I kicked a student out of the OR. Not literally kicked him, I just pointed towards the door and told him to get out enough times so that he knew I really wasn't joking. The thing is I couldn't leave because I was the one doing the surgery. I was a bit stressed with his behavior aforehand with the hovering too close, talking too loudly and too much, but still that doesn't justify it. I know I over-reacted... I cut my finger during the surgery and he started making fun of it, and since I couldn't go anywhere and I didn't feel like being made fun of as my finger bled, I just told him to get out. I felt much better for the rest of the surgery, but now I have a guilty conscience.

Is my lunatic advisor rubbing off on me, maybe? hehe I have no idea... I know I have to appologize to the other resident, because the boy I threw out was his "intern", but I'm not sure about appologizing to the boy... I don't know... Anyways, tomorrow is another day and another chance to get yelled at by my supervisor, hehe. Thefun never stops, right?

Oh, just so theres something TV related in this blog, I'm trying to download the rest of the Mentalist to watch.. I saw the first 10 minutes and it seemed like something I'd like to watch.

Saw an ep of Prison Break this weekend and realized I have no idea what's going on there, but I was really upset to hear they'd killed the doc.

Anyways, good night to all, happy dreams of tv's and channel surfing.

Hugs!

I finally have internet at home away from home on minicompy... Hm, should I explain that or is knowing that I'm unbalanced explanation enough?

I missed you all so much! I finally managed to get a day off... Oh, the horrible ordeal we went through to get a day for studying or something... Anyways, I went out to get a bus pass (because I hurt my ankle and even the 15 minute walk to the university was painful), and I also bought one of the portable modem thinguies for my new computer (my faithful compy having died a couple of months ago). sniff...

Anyways, the internet works so-and-so or okay, or not at all depending on what it feels like, see I get really bad reception where I live.

My supervisor is still completely loony, and the past two weeks he went from adoring me and helping me out to telling me to shut up and not speak to any of the students even if they asked me stuff bc they're not suppowed to be asking me anything, they're supposed to be asking HIM... So I basically gave him a salute and sat down in the corner of the OR and studied neurology. At least I think I finally can name all the cranial nerves.

Anyways, they had told us we'd have vacation in january, everyone... And now they say that's not it at all, we'll each have to ask for vacation time separately... Don't know if that's good or bad cause dec and jan are already taken...

Anyways, enough on the depressing update on my life.... I finally managed to start watching Doctor Who's latest season, only up to The unicorn and the wasp. I'm actually having fun watching Donna and the Doctor, hehe, and the familiar faces popping up here and then is really great. Can't wait to see the rest!

I still haven't managed to see the last eps of last season's House. Waiting anxiously for the next season of Heroes (until I remember I don't have TV here), and then I just think that I might as well wait until whenever it comes, no hurry. Finished watching New Amsterdam, except for the last half of Love Hurts. Too bad it got cancelled, I liked the idea. It was a different twist to the immortal thing.

I'm looking forward to the new season of Pushing Daisies, which I just adore for all it's color and ridiculous fairytale narration. I just adore it. And Ned and Chuck are so adorable together, hehe.

After what seems forever I finally got through Firefly and watched Serenity!! OMG!! Loved Objects in Space. hehe I laughed so hard watching it! Another great show cancelled before it should have... Which brings me to Joss Whedon's next try at something interesting and different: Dollhouse. Saw the trailer and can't wait for next year, hehe. It'll be one of those shows I'll be counting down the days.

I took a look at a few of the shows and I think I've already decided which ones I'll watch: The Mentalist, Castle... There's another one that slipped my mind now... I glanced at Fringe and Eleventh Hour, and there's something that doesn't capture my attention there, even though they both look like something I'd enjoy. It's a bit like Bones, looks like something I'd like, but there's just something there that doesn't capture my attention... As for the american remake of Life on Mars, I don't know.... I'll probably see it to see if I like it, and maybe they'll change it a bit so that people who watched the original one won't get bored... I'm watching both the UK and US Touching Evil series, after all, hehe.

I'm considering checking out Sarah Connor Chronicles despite the fact that it bothers me somewhat. Reasons why I wanna give it a try: Summer Glau is a machine, hehe; it's part of the terminator world, and, well, I'm a bit bored over here. Especially weekends when I couldn't go home and so I just stay here, studying and watching recorded series on minicompy.

Is there anything you guys think might be interesting in the coming series?

Okay, have I rambled enough for old times' sake?

I didn't even talk about my cats, hehe, which I miss terribly...

Hugs to all who still might remember who I am! hahaha

Oh, I read noahcrash's anniversary blog today... How's that for incredibly late? Thanks for the mention, Joey!!!! Love ya!!

*glances again at the internet signal strength* Hope this doesn't crash when I click on post *Crosses fingers*

Hello!!!

I think I'm still here, aren't I? hehe

I'm missing you guys everytime I watch something cool (on my computer cause I don't have tv anymore), don't have internet either, so I ask my dad to download the stuff and then I take the DVDs with me and then I watch them whenever I can....

So, I finished watching Torchwood's second season! I cried so much, but I thought it was such a great way to do it.... Really really sad, of course, but I loved it. I tried going through it in my head, thinking of what they'd do next, but maybe I've been outta the loop for so long, I can't think of anything that easily.

I watched the first episode of DW's 4th season too. I have to say I wasn't all that excited about the new add-on, so to speak, but I think they might be able to make it work, even if it's with a hightened sense of comedy to it all, hehehe. It is Donna after all, right. Loved the surprise at the end of the ep. Had a dream about that before I watched it, which was totally weird...

Sadly, I've fallen way behind on my Supernatural and House watchings, but fortunately some of the stuff I like is taking a midseason break so I won't be too far behind... I'm dredding the start of Heroes bc I won't be able to watch it!!!! That's just so cruel!!! hahaha

I'm catching up on my long overdue Stargate SG1, I can't believe I'm nearing the end of the series!!!! I really like it...

Also I'm reading a lot, not really studying, but re-reading the entire Hamish Macbeth series by MC Beaton. I really love it.

Let's see, what else can I put down here before I start anoying the hell outta my friend's brother for being in his room using the computer and typing as fast as I can?

Oh, the residency is a little better, maybe because I'm learning to deal with the complications a little easier. I learned a lot of new things, and I noticed recently that the time it takes me to do stuff is less, so that's really great. I lost a couple of patients recently, two cats (for those who don't know, I'm a vet, hehe. I was really sad about that, especially bc I had such a feeling of impotence. There was nothing I could do. One of the cats went and got opperated on at some other place and died there, and the other one was in really bad shape and had to keep coming back, but the girl's mother said she wouldn't give her any more money to treat the cat. I really hate those cases in which the owner sets the limitations you can work with, but unfortunately that's what we usually have to work with...

As for my supervisor, and I use the term loosely, he's been in a good mood lately, maybe bc there's a bunch of guys from the army watching him work everyday, hahahaha. He loves a man in uniform, so that might be it. He's supposed to be on vacation, so I had made up my own schedule for july, and then he just started showing up there. Several pple pointed out to me that he probably worked through his vacations bc he has nothing else to do, and that's probably true. Sometimes I feel sorry for him, but my life is really more calm when he's not yelling at me. Anyways, july here is vacation so in some ways it's really calm and quiet without all the classes.

I get sad sometimes when I think that I won't have a vacation until january, so that means I won't get any rest until january. I'm always so tired, and half the time I wish I could sleep in sometimes, but I get a guilty conscience even on the weekends bc I think I could get up and study and stuff...

Anyways, hope you all haven't forgotten me, especially my long lost daughter, hehe.

Good night!!! And until next time!!

Hugs!!!