I had to start school on August 1, and it's boarding school in NYC, and I'm from Massachusetts!! it's an all boys school, I have to share a dorm with another boy, and if we were to hold any parties, they could only be held on Fridays from 4-6pm, and there's no dancing because we are all boys!!

But it's cool though, on Monday we got to attend a Connan O'Brien show taping, and next month we are going on an expedition in Jamaica. Plus, I get to go home every weekend.

I'm confused, and confused some more, and I sort of don't know anymore!!

I mean, I am confused because there is this very very very very very very good friend of mine at school who I really like.( I refer to this person as "IT.") The problem is that, I don't exactly know if "IT" likes me back. I mean, some days such as today, I kind of think that it does like me, because we had a really fun day, we joked, we laughed, we had a lot of fun, but then, there are days in which we barely talk, and it is then when I start having doubts about "it's" feelings toward Mua. "IT" and I have a lot in common with each other, we think alike, we do many of the same things, and we pretty much feel the same way about many things. I just freaking wish there would be a way for me to know how exactly does "It" feels about me. I can't take it anymore, I've been depresed ever since late september of 2004, when I first realized that I felt this way about "it". Last week in school, I was so sad, that I cried in my school's cafeteria during lunch, and I did not speak to anyone for the whole day, and I kept my hood on for the whole day at school which is something that I never do, because it's kind of disrespectful. I wish I could just tell "it" how I feel, but I'm afraid that if I do, "it" might not feel the same way about me, and "it" might want to end our friendship.

How the heck do I find out if "it" likes me, how?

IF YOU'RE GOING TO LEAVE A COMMENT PLEASE BE SERIOUS, SERIOUSLY PLEASE BE SERIOUS!!

Home sweet home at last, I just got here, and I am just incredibly happy that I'm back.

I am tired and going to sleep.

My life is freaked up.

I mean, damn it, I took of from the airport in freaking Barcelona, about 5 hours ago, and as of this moment I'm waiting for my second flight connection at the airport in Dusseldorf, Germany ( which by the way has the most delicious pretzels in the world) I have to stay here for another hour or so, and then I go to freaking Ireland, I stay there for 2 hours, then England, and finally BOSTON, BOSTON, BOSTON!!

And the best part is that I have to go through all of this, with a fractured left hand, which I injured last sunday at the airport in Zurich, Switzerland. Why can't I just be given a direct flight schedule, from Barcelona to Boston, and from Boston to Barcelona WHY?