So yet again I call at 10am to make sure MEPS is a go... get told he'd have to call me back in 15...Gets the nice sinking feeling.

Well nearly an hour goes by before recruiter calls back...CANCLED AGAIN "No estimation on when there will be one" .

Apparently last week when it was cancled, it wasn't because of Thanksgiving the week before. But it was because the Proctor incharge of running it just up and quit, to go work for the A.C.E. So now we don't have one for the area. They are working on trying to get someone in, but it will take time, plus, with Christmas coming up, it is going to be hard to find someone to fill in.

Now he's trying to get hold of the local Job Corp campus to see if he can't get me and the 3 others in to take the ASVAB there, so atleast we can get that out of the way, so we can try and SAVE A SPOT IN OUR MOS (job), becuase they are still being filled by alllll the other locations and the longer we go without saving a spot the greater the risk we can't get a slot for training, so eiher we have to take a different job - don't want anything different - or we have to wait for another 5 months to get to BCT/AIT. I already know that in the last cycle the slots for 31b were filled and over filled, so a bunch of people had to be delayed to this one - the cycle I SHOULD be going into. So the slots that were already hard enough to get are even harder as it is.

So at this point it looks like my shipping to BCT will get bumped later no matter what , March is lesssssss and lessss likely each day I get delayed. And it sucks. If I have to wait till Aug/Sept to go, then I'll be heading to Ft. LW, MO in the onset of winter, and it gets freaking cold there at that time of the year been told by many is sucks there in the later months, I won't be able to do nearly as well as I could in better temps.

I really don't want to have to switch recruiters, because mine is really cool, but... I can't sit around and wait forever, if I don't get to MEPS soon, and risk losing out on 31b because they can't do it here, then I'll have to find a recruiter in Spokane to work with so I can get this done already. Or demand that my recruiter sends me to Spokane for MEPS next week if he can't work something out this week.

Okay, just like last Sunday when I posted...

I'll be going to MEPS tomorrow and the day after (as long as they don't cancle it AGAIN :evil. ASVAB tomorrow evening, and physical/eyes/ears/teeth/paperwork/ sworn in on Tuesday.

Had time to get in a few more practice ASVABS, up to 87.9% on there , good score overall.

I found out that to get the MOS 31b (MP) I'll need to get a "ST:90. Skilled Technical: GS+VE+MK+MC" - combination of 4 line scores - General Science (GS), Word Knowledge and Paragraph Comprehention (VE), Mathematics Knowledge (MK), Mechanical Comprehention (MC). So I'm not totally sure how my total practice scores broke down only gave me an overall number. I know on the real test in those areas there are 110 total questions (thus I can only mis 20 questions or no MOS) 200something total questions for the test. There are also other subjects covered that will count for overall score, but not included in the line scores - Auto / wood shop, electronics, and something else - those only matter if that's the type of job you are going for...

Okay now I'm rambeling again .

I've been using a free pass to Anytime Fitness . Nice place, Wens - first day - got in an hour, just tryin the place out, did the bikes, olyptical mac, some weight machs, and wht not. Not tooo hard of a work out, but good. Thurs I got in 1 hour 15 min, more reps on the weights, felt it a little that evening. On friday I got in a full 2 hours and 20 min NONSTOP, worked my ars off. was a little sore that night, but felt fine yesterday . I would of spent more time there Friday, but these two guys there were being total jerks, kept laughing AT me, making snide remarks, because I only had 50 lbs on each side of the butterfly thing ( I don't know what it's called for sure) = 100lbs total, and they were benching like 250lbs. They kept it up each time I went onto a different station. I acted like I didn't notice, and I wasn't going to tell them to shut up or the trainer to tell them to shut up because I didn't want to give them the benifit of acting like it was pi$$ing me off. Yes, I'm a girl, Yes, I was lifting lite, but I'm just starting. By the time I ship to BCT I want to be doing atleast 200lbs. In the 3 days I've been there I've added to how much I lift, how many reps at th machs I do and how long I'm there. So those two guys can just go *bleep* themselves.

Starting to see som definition in me muskles , not a ton but some. Lost a few more pounds

Couldn't go in Sat or today - closed to non-members this weekend. So they'll extend my pass two days this next week. Going to start up a membership, 129$ for 3 months, to get into shape. It's gonna be my birthday + Christmas prez. With the membership I'll get access to a trainer so he can whip my a$$ into shape, no letting me stop/slow down when I'm tired . Can't do the bike outside anymore, waaaayyyyy too cold now, been in the high 20's in the day to like 7 at night.

Although I do find it sooooooooooo freaking funny that when the kid at the print shop - 20 - found out that I was starting at the gym he made the comment "Oh, she's gotta man up?" (mind you this is the guy that is like a foot and half taller than me, skinny as a pole) he about died when he found out I put in over an hour the first two days, he can only last 15min each time And on friday when I went in to pick up mom the boss asked how my day went and I said I did over 2 hours, her son Mark - a County Sheriff - jaw dropped, he couldn't even believe I could do that much

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Gotta try and contact AIS again to get my transcripts... still haven't gotten hold of anyone in person yet, just a stupid automated system. It's a little hard to have them sent if they only take the order by Fax if I don't have access to a Fax mac and I need them ASAP, because they'll be going on vacation in a few days and I can't wait till they get back. I so don't want to have to drive over there to get them... over the pass in the mid of winter with a crap car and no heat in it...

Anyway, it all things go well I'll be back Tuesday night with good news .

Later for now.
*hugs*

P.S. Today would have been grandma's 80th birthday .

Called the recruiter at 10 to find out what other papers I needed to take with me... he got called earlier this morning, MEPS was cancled for this week thanks to Thanksgiving last week. It has been moved to next Monday/Tuesday... Yay, more waiting.

Aaahhh I hate that freaking "HTML not well formatted" crap.

Tried like 6 times to post the original blog, but the darn thing won't let me and I don't have time to retype it... THERE WERE NO TAGS IN IT

So here's the super short version.

I'm going to be out of town for the next two days. Going to MEPS - for my physical assesment for the military. Taking the ASVAB tonight - been doing good on the online practice ones so hopefully I do well on the one tonight so I can get my MOS 31b - MP. Although the thought of takign it is kinda freaking me out, because if I do bad I'm S.O.L. and have to wait longer to retak it so I can get the job I want. Tomorrow is the rush and wait stuff - physical tests, check eyes/ears/teeth. fill out more paperwork/contract, and get officialy sworn in (as long as all els goes well)

Thanksgiving didn't help with the weight loss - oops - food was just toooooooooo good. But have been able to do 2-4 miles a day on my bike for the last few days.

Didn't expect MEPS so soon, but there was an open slot for this one, so I can get it out of the way. Gotta find a gym when I get back to town - sucks being in a small crappy town... only found a Curves and 123 Fit thus far - only circut training places so 30 min a day with no more than 3 min per station not helpful when trying to build up for BCT. Gotta find out from a cop friend where he goes.

Well, gotta run and get ready to go.
Talk to y'all in a few days
*hugs*

First, sorry I didn't get the planned motivators posted this past week. Thanks to PhotoBucket upgrading I can't just put the pics in my albums like before... have to do the email thing, so it takes like 20 min per pic to send... if it dosen't time out that is. Can't upgrade my webbrowser at all, running windows 98 and they stopped making upgrades for it and not going to put the money in to buy a new OS - plus buy upgrades in hardware for the comp torun the OS, just so I can upgrade to new browser. I've got to go down to either the print shop or to the library to upload them. Will do as soon as I can. Trust me they're worth the wait... even if it is a little longer than expected.

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LOVED the new SN ep... *cry*, (spoiler) So at first when I thought they were just going to kill off Jo hated her - like right after the attack - I was all happy because she was finally going to be gone , but then later when she was being all honorable with the plan to kill the hell hounds, I was actually beginging to like the character, even somewhat sad for her. But then when Ellen said she'd stay too *cry* Darn that EK!!!, turns Jo into a hero, and kills our beloved Ellen.

Just when you think the show is kind of hitting a lul, a slow run in eps, now sure there were several humor eps in a row, but not high on substance, they throw us a HUGE ep .

But if they are still considering a 6th season they may want to stopp killing off characters, come on they are running out of recuring characters there's only Bobby, Cas, and Rufus left (and Rufus isn't really a popular character as of yet ), I'd say Meg, but come on, the new actress is no where near close as NA was as Meg so if she goes noone would really care.

But dang have to wait till the end of Jan for the next episode ... May not get to see the end of the season... ***leads to the big news***

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So some of you may or may not have seen mentions in past blogs about my considering joining the US Army. Let's just put it this way, it's more of a set direction now. It's time that I do something important with my life, rather just sitting around and thinking about doing something.

I've been in to speak with my local recruiter, I've been on the GoArmy.com site - reading and requested an informational pack (have to say I was a bit let down that the info pack - a 6 page pamplet - didn't help, just restated nearly word for word what was on the site) also been talking with Army soilders on FaceBook, looking at the sites for both Ft. Jackson and Ft. Leonard Wood aka "LostInTheWoods", and several other sites.

I will be going in on Monday to begin the process, take in the documents I have, possibly take the moc ASVAB test (basicaly an aptitude test that covers Math, English comp, and some other stuff)- get an idea of what my score will be on the real one, so I know what MOS (military occupational specialty - job) I'd qualify for. Hope to go for 31b - Military Police, my grades in college, and the fact I have no criminal record will come in handy. If I don't take it Monday I'll be taking it soon, need to get stuff rolling so I can go to MEPS (a processing thing so they make sure you are physicaly able to join, also where tyey give you the real ASVAB test ).

According to what the recruiter said (yes, I know not to take him fully at his word... but he was upfront about he dosen't get paid if I join, no bonus for it) if things go well and I clear thru everything I need to get thru my ship date - to BCT (Basic Combat Training) would be at some point in mid March, but it all depends on training slots, and if I'd have to wait longer for AIT as 31b (AIT is the advanced training that covers your MOS - job) so it would be a 22 week long boot camp all together. But if I have to wait for AIT then it won't be till after March... Thus not seing the end of the season.

During the wait between processing and BCT, I'd be a FST - Future Soldier Training. where basically I'd still be at home, but in constant contact with the recruiter, ensureing I meet specific goals - weight, fitness, and be given information that would come in handy during BCT - military phrases, map reading, stuff that will make BCT easier. Because I'm female I'd either go to Jackson for FLW, they are the only two that offer training for women, the other 3 are men only. If I make 31b I would deff go to FLW because it is the only base in the country that offers the Police training.

Thanks to the college degree I'll be able to go in as either an Officer, or E-4 rank (Enlisted with higher pay). Will go in as E-4 because I'll have better options to repay my school loans, get the training I'd miss if I go directly to Officer School (including working as part of a unit, drills and such) then I'd be expected to be incharge of people and not know specifics behind it. Plus, at any time I can go "Green To Gold", put in my papers to go from Enlisted to Officer, pay bump to E-5, but I'd like to start at the mid bottom and work my way up. And, going in as an Officer I'd have WAY less choice of what MOS I'd want, as an Officer, they tell you what job you will do, because they fill the spots they need. So My luck I'd be placed in Water Purification, or some job I'd really hate to have. At least the way I'm going I can pick my top few choices.

I had considered going into the military before. Right after high school I thought about it, but the timing just wasn't right, stuff with the family was really messed up. Was looking into it again before I got into AIS, but when I got accepted in the school I knew it would be better to have my degree either way, so I chose school.

Now that I've done the school route, I've done what I wanted to do outside the military, it's time to follow my other life's path and join the Army.

I'll try and come on here a little more, but don't know how my schedule is going to be, know I'll be busy during the days, but not so much at night, so we'll see.

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Going to go in later this week to see if the temp place has anything for me... not that they have in the past 6 months. Two of the places I've called about job postings told me the postings were wrong, so no jobs, why is it lately every place I call tell me they don't know why the job search sites have them listed when they aren't looking???

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Guess that's all for now
*hugs*

So I went to that thing at AIS...

Let's just say the morning before I went was a totall stress out. I was up until after 5am trying to get my website to work... it works. And figured okay, after 4 days of not sleeping (was gettin to the point where I started to hear things and see things crawling under the walls ) I should/ could get a couple hours of sleep in. So I set my alarm for 10am - need to get my overnight bag packed, and find my portfolio (discovered that night that I had the empty one in my room and my final one had to be packed out in the garage stupid move on my part )

Anyway...

I overslept, totally ignored the alarm and was woken by mom at 11:28 when she got home to take me to Seattle. AHHHHHHHH. Had to skip my shower, tore the garage a new one trying to find my case... found it . ran back inside, changed my cloths, threw random crap in my bag and we left, pissed I was going to be late, because we were already an hour and 10 behind on my timeline.

Got to Seattle/AIS just about an hour early so atleast I had time to destress. They've done some painting at the school, so not all the walls are that nasty off white color. They put chairs in some areas of the hall, so no more just standing in the halls. but for the most part not much changed in teh near 6 months sens graduation.

Anyway...

Met up with a couple of people I knew, chatted before it started...

There were 5 panalists there: one each from - Sandlot Games, Digital Kitchen, ArenaNet, Cricket Moon, and Flying Lab. Unfortunatly 3 of them were 2D specilized company, so they were out of my range of work... Only left with ArenaNet and Flying Lab for the ones I could talk with after... Neither one of them were hiring directors, or project leads, just regular employees so didn't seem like there would be chance of them hiring me. Nor did it seem like printing out new resume packets (resume, busness card, taresheets ) worth it because they wouln't take them.

For about an hour and a half they were talking. Some of the stuff was common knowledge type of stuff, about the industry, how they got their jobs and what not, so kind of dull. Some of the stuff they talked about was sort of helpful, about how to focus a website - the school required us to show a large range of skills, rigging, textureing, lighting and all that stuff - but according to the speakers, with most of the industry, they want people to focus on one thing, be it modeling, animation, rigging, and not cross into other parts because they have different departments for each.

So all tht stress I was putting myself under to not only model new stuff over the past days, and then WASTING hours on end unwraping them and putting in temporary textures was not important. I could have used all that time to just make models. Rather than only getting one new model added to my site I could have finished 6.

And it was really not nice, but nice, to hear that alot of people were having the same problem I'm having... Sending out dozens of resumes and not hearing back from ANYONE. Even one of the guys that is an amazing artist, who helped teach some classes, hasn't landed a job yet... Although, that makes me feel worse, kinda, because if he's that good and not working than I'm totally out of luck...

At 5:40 we had to clear the room because there was to be a class in there. So the 5 were going to go out into the lunch room and sit and talk with us. About half stayed = the rest had classes to go to = it was nice, to have small one on one groups. We talked about stuff for about an hour.

I was talking with L. from Flying Lab. She said they were looking for asset modelers... MEEEEEE!!!!... for a project tthey are currently working on.. a kids game. So she gave a couple of us her direct email address, to send her our website addresses, and she'd pas them along to the department directors : rather than keeping us in "Human Resources He**" where we won't hear from anyone.

The job...well, internship would only last thru to January, so I'd be back to looking for work again, but atleast it gets me into a company. If I do a good enough job, then it might lead to a hired on job, but we'll see. The "other" Kim had her interview this afternoon, she starts work on Monday. She's going for Animation/Rigging.

So that's where I stand for now, just wating to see if they respond back to me or not... Thus far not.

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SN "Changing Channels" was an ok ep. Had issues with the twist to the Trickster, but won't comment on it until later, as to not spoil it for others.

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That's all for now.
*hugs*

Quick fly by.

So been working like crazy on new 3D models, for the last few days... Nearly non-stop each day for more than 20 hours a day... Very little sleep.

Getting ready for a thing at AIS on the 4th. The school is hosting a panel discussion with members from some of the local (Seattle area) game studios, including Flying Lab, Arena Net... Grads and current GAD students are invited, and some of them are accepting resumes. Thus I need to get my webpage done (quicker than I'd like, so no revamping it just yet, just fixing broken links and adding a couple of the new mods.)

I figure maybe if I can give them the papers in person, rather than emil it may help me land a job. Or, atleast I can show them what I have and they can tell me what to work on before I resubmit a resume.

After I get back home I've got to fill out an application at the hospital where my Aunt P works - data entry/billing stuff. I'd be scanning documents, and doing data entry stuff - serious snooze work, but atleast if I get that job, I'd be in Seattle (most likely living with her for a couple months ) be closer to the game comps, and be able to save up some money.

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SN pics: Dayyyyysss ago, while messing with PhotoShop CS3, I came up with some SN goodness, Posted them to the Pic thread.

Getting the last few Motivators done, and plan on getting some posted, HOPEFULLY, next week... Just depends on how things go in the next couple days... (hopefully it is that I get a job ).

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Well, back to Maya... Will post a couple renders of the stuff on here next week.

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*hugs*

Howdy all *waves*

So as most of you have noticed I've been about 96% M.I.A. from these parts for the last two-ish weeks, give or take a lurking post here and there. Thankfully that is about to change... well sort of.

We went back over last Thursday night. The memorial was this past Saturday, it was nice, more than 100 people showed up. About an hour for the service, hour for the reception then a bnch of people went up to Grandpa's house... Mostly just relatives and close close family friends (a large number that were at the service were members of their church ).

AND thankfully Uncle C's wife didn't fully turn the reception into a "Look at us (their family) we're rich and putting on a party" - they always like to show off and be all important - and it would have pi$$ed grandma off if they pulled it, but we kind of rigged stuff to keep them from doing it.

Anyway...

I could only stay up at the house for about an hour before I finally had to split - too many people + small spaces + loud screaming kids = panic attacks for me, thus, I had to take off for a couple hours to clear my head and let some of the people leave, go do something else. Even mom knew it was getting to me. By the time I got back most of thm were gone. We got back home lastnight. Shouldn't be driving back and forth every weekend anymore.

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Been having serious internet issues. Would stop working for hours at a time EVERY SINGLE DAY for the last week and a half, more than half the day it was out each time and they couldn't ever freaking tell me why, but I was able to get them to comp me a week on the bill, so atleast won't be paying for not being able to use it. Looks like it is working now , haven't had any problems... in the few hours I've had to use it that is

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Saw a movie over the weekend too... Any one guess what it was... Little hint, they come out every Halloween (well the last 6 of them that is )

If you guessed SAW 6 you would be correct ... And before you say it, yes weird timing to see that movie, but I needed the time to just enjoy something.

It was good, interesting traps, good deal of blood and pain. New information was added to events of the past, expanded on things. Perfectly wove this one into the criss-crossing of timelines spanning the franchise. Had mostly intresting twists (except: [color=white]bringing back the lady detective and having her nearly instantly suspect Hoffman... weak twist, too quick to have them turn on him after the events in the last movie, where her boss was all but kissing Hoffman's a$$. ) Plus, I wasn't to happy with the aftermath of the first trap - don't get me wrong it was a cool trap - but, they freaking showed who survived in the ads for the movie, so you knew who "gave their pound of flesh", hate when they give stuff away like that. I was about 97/98% correct in what I figured each of the twists would have been, not going to give away any details because I know there are some who want to see it but may not have yet. But soooooooo glad they left yet another open door to connect with Saw 7... Pick up right where this one left off. Little hint, late night delivery of an envelope in an office door. They are already in Pre-Production for it, and Toby will return, but they don't have any other info on it, except that it is supposed to be the final one .[/color]
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And I was given the software I was sooooooooooooooooo waiting to get... and shortly I'll be switching off this computer and switching on my good one to load all 10GB onto it... Should take roughly an hour or two to fully load all of it... CS3 Master Collection , and ZBrush. Well, first I gotta take about an hour to move some of my old files to CD/DVD to clear up more space. Take off old software and what not.

So you know what that means... NEW AND IMPROVED SUPERNATURAL ART/CONTENT coming soon to a SNPic thread near your . And now that I actually have time (and better software ) to do it I can finally get some work done.

But... This is where the I'm not going to be fully around here as much comes in, will be spending more time working on the 3D and pics stuff, but WILL, try to be back on here more, closer to like I use to be .

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Oh, one last thing. Bobby has lost his last baby fang . He lost one of the top ones while we were gone, and lost the last one this morning, I have it on my dresser. It was so weird last week, he had both sets of teeth - 4 fangs on top, his lower ones came out before the new ones grew in.

He had to be the odd one of the bunch, with the other three cats their baby teeth fell out and were gone for a couple days before the new ones came in. He deceded to hold on to his for a bit extra .

He is growing into one handsome little guy (well, big guy), figure he's going to be bigger than Bit in no time flat.

Got him a little skull bandanna for Halloween looks sooooooo cute in it.

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This is all for now. Hope you all had good weekends.

*hugs*

On one hand it's hard to believe grandma passed a week ago today (well at this point it's almost yesterday, only 30 min of today left ) and on the other hand it seems like a lifetime ago (no pun intended ).

We haven't stopped for more than 5 min sens then. Back and forth between here and Auburn (over near Seattle ) making plans/arangements, making sure grandpa hasn't spent more than one night alone in his house, and trying to keep everyone from falling totally apart. Just got home again about an hour ago.

Last Monday I tried to take a bus to Seattle from here spent 7 hours at the GreyHound stop - in freezing cold wind (they don't have any kind of shelter...or benches for us to wait on ) THEN...the bus never even came. So mom had to drive all the way over here to get me then we turned around 3 hours later and drove back to be with the family, so that made an extremely stressfull/sad day into more of a stress. came home early, - 5am early - on wensday so she could get to work, then we left again yesterday morning and back tonight. Going back again next weekend to show them what we have for music and the photo boards for the memorial service, then the weekend after is the service. Mom is doing the boards, the memorial book - guest book thing, the memorial programs, I'm doing the music cds and making a base for her ern (wood, and stained the same color as the shelf a few weeks back ).

Grandpa looks like total hell, he hasn't slept much, he isn't eating and his blood presure is so high his face has been deep red for almost the entir week. He freaks out over weird things - mom left her hair brush there last time and couldn't find it, so today he's rumiging all over the house looking for it, she tells him it's allright that it isn't important adn can't get him to stop looking, and he gets mad he can't find it. It's like he needs to be able to "fix" something, to make that alright, because he couldn't save grandma.

They would have had their 63rd wedding annaversary in March, and it was to be her 80th birthday in December - so not only is it coming up on her two fave holidays, but her birthday. He wants to just pack hsi bags and move out of there house, right now, like he seriously wants to move out now, can't be in their house without her. So Uncle A (the one who livs in NM ) is planning on moving up here asap and moving into the house (in the room in the basement) so he can be there to help him out.

Uncle A was just laid off from his job (got a year's pay out of it, full year of medical benifits ) so it sin't like he's got anything holding him down there anymore. He'll be able to calm grandpa down, and help fix up the house to sell it later. We've got to make sure he doesn't make any rash decisions he's gonna regret later. He still isn't really dealing with what happened (keeping up a strong face for others, and not letting himself just breakdown and cry ) so he's got to deal with things first.

Other than that I haven't had much time to do/think about anything.

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Didn't get the programs this go around, A only had one disc with him, so when he comes back up in two weeks for the service I'll be getting the Adobe CS3 MASTER COLLECTION (could have gotten CS4 but I haven't used that one and I know 3 rather well... plus not everyone is using/has 4 yet ) AND he's bringing ZBrush for me. so now I can't go in and fine tune my models to look more "realistic".

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Did have time to watch last week's ep of SN...Hilton didn't suck up the ep toooooo much, so it was better than I thought it wouldbe, thankfully. Did love the "in-jokes" they made about House of Wax, the look Jared gave to the "I didn't even see.." comment Dean made was priceless .

So they've made references to Jared's past works in several eps, wondering why they haven't made any cracks really about Jensen's? Like they can't work in a Smallville / Dark Angel, Devour / Bloody Valentine /or Ten Inch Hero jab here and there, give him a nod now and then.

The next one looks really good

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Well, guess that's it for now, gonna go check the emails and get some sleep.
*hugs*

Got the worst wakeup call one can get.

Grandma passed away this morning at just after 9am.

R.I.P. Dorris Lockheart Driscoll - October 4, 2009
Love you grandma.

So I JUST got off the phone with mom.

And I guess, when mom got over to Seattle last night (nearly 11 pm by the time she got there - stuck for almost 2 hours because of construction ), everyone was sitting in the room upset, told mom that grandma had been really bad for a couple hours, but had finally leveled off not long before she got there. They suspected she was going to pass lastnight, but she's still holding on.

Grandma had another stroke , that caused her to go blind in one eye - now clouded over, she dosen't seem to hear anything - even with the hearing aids in, and she hasn't spoken a word or even tried to speak sens yesterday. She hasn't even opened her eyes all day, except for once when grandpa kissed her on the forehead, and it was only barely open.

The people at the nursing home had to put her on a special air matris because she now has bed sores - not from them/or the other hospital neglecting her, but from the fact she is soooo thin and frail the is literaly skin and bone, the thing blows up and deflaits.

She's back to refusing to eat, won't/can't do anything . They are taking shifts at the nursinghome, to make sure someone is with her 24 hours a day. Aunt P was there all lastnight-and today, and will be there tonight, mom's going up there at 2am to take over, Aunt M will be up there by mid-morning to take over for them.

Sure she's been able to bounce back a couple of times over the last few weeks, but I honestly don't see her bouncing back anymore, nobody does. She's going to die, and it's no longer a question of how long, it's a question of how soon.

In a strange way it seems only fitting that today is the first day that it has rained here in town in MONTHS, it's cold, windy, dark and gloomy outside. Grandma always liked the rain (the cold, not so much).

For the first time sens all this started to happen, the topic of preparing for a memorial service has been brought up .

We're all supposed to find pictures of ourselves with grandma... I don't have any , I never thought about it before, but I don't have any of just me and her, I don't even think I've got one of just me and my grandfather, sure I've got big family photos or small groups, but not just the two of us. Atleast I've still got time to get some with him.

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That's all the news I've got for now.

*hugs*

Let's start off with the bad.

Most of you saw my posting a few weeks back - Silverwood trip with Steven, a friend from high school. Saddly his father Alex passed away on Sept 30th, after a long battle with a heart condition . If it wasn't bad enough that he died but Steven will be getting hit doubly hard in a few days, because his father's 60th birthday would have been in just 7 days (Oct 9th ).

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Grandma update:

First off I'd like to thank each and every one of you for your kind words and for keeping my family in your thoughts during this time. I may not always respond to your comments, but they do mean alot to me.

So a few days ago it seemed she was doing better (eating a few spoons of food, sitting up and such ). It seems she had ANOTHER stroke 2 nights ago - she had another "attack", was in pain, moaning, yelling, and once she calmed down (meds ) she was confused, face drooping, and slured speach. Thankfully she seems to have bounced back from that , as much as she's going to. But... the doctor said she could have many more "mini-strokes" several times a week until she passes .

She was MOVED, to a nursing home. The psych hospital she was at couldn't see treating her anymore. Basically they deemed her dimencia not to be a "problem" anymore, and decided it was time for her to move to a long-term place where they could just focus on the medical part - this whole complicated thing I couldn't even begin to explain. I think it was more of a case that the nurses got tired of having the family around nearly 24-7. **It was sad there. In the 2 1/2ish weeks she was there, we were basically the only visitors at all. When we'd sign in and out each day we were the only ones on the list (we were filling up the sheets ), save for 1 guy coming 1 time - when he dropped off his mom/aunt?, he didn't come back while we were there. It was like people just dropped off their family member and forgot about them. Even the nurses said that some of their patients (some there for months/years ) NEVER had family come to see them . I don't see how anyone could just "forget" about a family member, put them in the hospital and never look back .**

Anyway, she was moved yesterday just after noon.

This morning she was strong enough to get out of bed (in wheelchair ) and go into the dining room to sit with everyone for breakfast - she only had a few sips of broth - but it's something so we're glad with what she can do.

It's scary to hope this up-swing lasts, because each time she rebounds she crashes again. So it's like on one hand being happy she is getting "better" but just having to remember it won't last, that even though it means we get to keep her around just that much longer, it means it's gonna hurt worse every time she takes a turn. Or that she could be in the middle of an up-swing and having her pass in the middle of the night, so we have no way to brace ourselves - or be there for her when she goes.

Mom is heading back to Seattle either after work tonight, or first thing in the morning. Depends on when she can get tires on the car - I told her I WON'T let her drive over the pass again - especially now that it's starting to snow up in the area - with TOTALLY BALD tires - the front two are totally smooth, great for drifting not for driving, the last thing I need to worry about is her getting into an accident with either sliding off the road or blowing a tire. And with all the constructon going on, stop and go traffic, she needs to be able to stop safely.

I'm staying home this go round - have stuff that HAS to get done around here before winter sets in (covering pipes, pulling in the hoses, mow one more time, fix the fence... ), we've put it off as long as we could. Plus, I've got to get some 3D stuff done and update my website - once I find a way to get access to th program I need - if I ever hope to get a job.

++ Have to admit that I do have some bit of joy at this time (eventhough I don't think I should with all that's going on ). My cousin down in NM is sending me the Complete Adobe CS3 Suite (or it's CS4 can't remember ) the $7,000 one - technicaly it is already here, my Uncle A brought it up with him, Mom's gonna get it from him when she gets over there. He use to be a big computer repair/programmer up until recently so he's got tons of programs.

Now, if it is the one I think it is, it will not only include PhotoShop (heck just on it's own it would make me happy - imagine the graphics I could pump out with that one all the custom burshes I have for it that I haven't been able to use with my crappy version 6, were talking over 1,500 of them) but it should *fingers crossed* also include DreamWeaver - I could update my webpage on a constant basis (I currently don't have access to the program so I can't update squat - not even my phone number ), AND it should have Flash and AfterEffects I could update my demo reel, do animated logos, ALL THE STUFF I WANTED TO DO FOR MY SITE THAT I COULDN'T DO WHEN I WAS AT AIS - because DW was only in 2 labs, that were always booked for classes, so I only had 4 hours a week to work on it (while IN my portfolio class ), thus the lame site I have. Maybe if I can get back to working on stuff they makes me happy, that I LOVE to do, maybe it will help me pull myself out of this depression, so I can help mom out of hers. Have a few hours a day to just be in the moment, not always worring about everything else (if that makes any sens ), to focus on something I can control, and not on the stuff I can't ++

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Now, for those of you wondering about the SN motivators. Don't worry I haven't forgot. Now that things have calmed down, if only a little, I will try to get a couple done over the weekend - see if maybe I can get destressed and inspired (have a couple ideas already, just need to work em' out ).

Do have to admit I have missed the last two eps (well, have seen a scene here and there ) BUT, before you kill me I DID record them on my computer (to answer I believe Rocio from a few blogs ago, on this subject - on my "good" computer I have a media center thing, where I can run the TV/Cable thru the computer and can record it just like a VCR ) and will be watching them very soon - and burning each one to DVD.

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I think that's enough for ya'll to read for now, I'll let you know if something new comes up.

*big hugs*

Sorry I haven't responded to your comments on the last couple blogs, things have just been and I've just not wanted to spend much time on here, or anywhere really, so I've kind of slacked off. Plus was gone for 4 days...

Got home lastnight, long not fun weekend.

Let's start off where I was going to update on Thursday. Mom hurt her leg - BAD - Wens night so most of Thursday afternoon we were at the hospital to see what happened - doc thought it might have been a blood clot that burst - thankfully it wasn't. It was some weird thing in the muscle in her calf that ruptured (she is still sort of limping but atleast she can walk on it again )

That night we got word from Grandma's doctor that they finally figured out what the infection was - ecoli - but he figured with some meds she would do fine. Her teeth are now begining to rot so there is a slight infection in her mouth. For most of last week she seemed to be doing better - talking, eating, taking her meds, doing better, out of bed for meals (eating in the dining room ) sitting in a wheelchair and sitting with others, so things were looking up.

Family members looking around at different nurcing homes to put her in - my stupid uncle and his family FINALLY came to the conclusion they needed to stop trying to push the idea to put her in a group home because NONE of the ones they picked out were good. They were dirty, overcrowded, understaffed - and with grandma's medical issues she needed 24 hour care, not the check on them 4 times a day care a group home offers (they are still in the frame of mind that her condition is just temporary that she will go home - her home - soon so why look for long term care like a nursing home :rollL:, don't want to admit she won't ever go home ).... Things were starting to settle down, we were planning on going over Saturday and coming home Sunday, just to go check in on her.

That changed on Friday at noon, when a nurse called and told us grandma took a turn, we tossed our stuff in our bags and headed to Seattle.

Grandma's blood count was crashing, her breathing was distressed, she wasn't eating, drinking, wouldn't get out of bed... lot of issues. We got over there around 6pm (thanks to being stuck in road construction for nearly the 182 miles of road - delayed almost an hour just on one stretch alone ).

By the time we got there they had stabalized her. Went into the room and she doesn't even look like my grandma anymore, she looked - can't even think of the words to explain it - but it took all my strength not to just break down at the sight of her. I thought I'd seen her at her worst back when she was at home, but now, .

She would wake and mumble a few words and fall back asleep. She did recognize us tho , when she saw me she did/couldn't speak but she did make the same - squinty face - she's made at me for the past 20 years, and she made a face at mom. We stayed there for a couple hours, part of the family was there (8 of us ). She was doing much better by the time we had to leave the hospital.

Saturday morning was BAD BAD BAD, we thought she was going to die...

We couldn't go up to the hospital to see her until after 11am so we were just getting ready to eat breakfast when my aunt P called, grandma was crashing BAD. She was moanin in pain, crying out sh was dieing, she was in serious pain, her heart rate was all over the place, there was loud crackeling in her lungs...

Mom, me and grandpa jumped in the car, and were part way down the hill (at his house ) and started calling everyone else - we left in such a hurry we totally forgot my other aunt (and her husband +2 kids ) were on their way up for breakfast - they pulled in the driveway like 2 min after we pulled out...

Anyway, we are flying down the freeway at over 80mph when my cuz called, I picked up the cphone to have him tell us he doctor though she was having a heartattack . When we got there they had her heartrate back under controll, she was asleep on her side... Now 16 of us are croweded into her room (even her roommate cleared out to give us some extra space ). Called uncle A in NM, he started his 24 hour drive up.

They took an x-ray - she has nemonia - ontop of her conjestive heart failure, failing kidneys, failing liver, an anurisum on her heart ready to burst at any moment, dimentia, dehydration, she can't swallow anymore so now she can't take her meds or eat, PLUS... we figure she had another stroke during the crash, because now the side of her face is messed up and she was sluring her speach even more.

AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF this stupit Bit## charge nurse started a fight between my aunt and one of my cousins not to mention she lied to the family.

Basically - when the respitory nurse came in to give my grandma a breating treatment my cuz and aunt - both nurses themselves - simply asked what drug she was using (vapor breathing thing ), the lady answered, and my cuz asked if it had the same reaction in the elderly that it had with kids (she works with babies and they don't give that drug because it would make the nemonia worse ) the resp nuse goes out to recheck the order. The BIT## charge nurse starts saying my cuz is causing a problem, the nurses are all upset and can't do their jobs and won't call grandma's doctor because she "Can't call the doctor more than 2 times in one day, because he won't accept any more calls on her case " BULL!!! the doctor IS A FRIEND OF THE FAMILY, AND HAD ALREADY COME IN EARLIER WHEN SHE HAD THE CRASH AND SAID WHEN HE LEFT TO CALL HIM AND HE'D COME IN FROM THE OTHER HOSPITAL - AND... she tells us that the doctor said that he believed it may be better to transfer her to the main hospital (out of the psych hospital part ) HE ALREADY TOLD US IT WOULD BE BETTER FOR HER TO STAY THERE AND NOT MOVE HER. Things just got worse, to where the nurse we were already upset with thinking she might die that day, the charge nurse was constantly butting into our room, then on of the other nurses got after my aunt M telling her SHE couldn't help turn my grandma but allows my cuz to help - pissing off M because it was her mother and she wasn't able to help but my younger cuz could.... Then the BIT## calls us in a different room to tell us there were too many people there, we were keeping them from their duty making too may demands (no demands were ever made, and when a nurse had to tend to someone we got out of the way - ALL THE OTHER NURSES LIKED US, save for BIT## on her power trip ) Aunt P got the final word, because she reported PENNY for being on the word without having proper ID on - she in the 3 days NEVER once had her ID on at all - and my Uncle C reported her to the hospital management for the crap she tried to pull - with lieing to us about calling the doctor, and his demand to move her...

Anyway. By later in the evening she was doing somewhat better, awake on and off for a few min at a time, she was able to recognize everyone (off and on she couldn't tell who people were earlier in the day ). my cuz JH (the one who's son was kidnapped last year, tracked down in another state ) is really close to grandma so he was having a really hard time with the day - he was there in the room for the earlier attack - and he's having issues with the baby's mom (she keeps messing with his visitation with his son - demands more and more money, won't let him se the boy when she's in the area unless he pays, demands him back early... ) so he's stressed wayyyyyyy out by the that. And decided rather than staying in the room with us he'd sit out in his truck getting drunk - uncle D had to go talk to him. The last thing JH needs is to mess up and lose any chance of getting custody of his sun. So now we're all worried about him too. She was sound asleep when we left.

Sunday on the other hand, she was worlds better. She was talking better, her skin color looked better. They have her on antibiotics for her lungs, and on a breathing treatment (that won't cause things to get worse ) and has an IV to keep her hydrated.

Grandpa signed the DNR order and has told them not to put inthe feeding tube or do a PEG (put this thing in her stomac that sits under the skin that they would inject into with a thing to feed her thru her side ). She had said for years she'd never want to have tubes or have her life prolonged if she'd have no meaning full life and would be in pain. She's already in pain, and they can't help her with it - the meds to help her would make her heart work harder and would cause more pain. A feeding tube would only help boost up her energy not help her brain to stop dieing, or with the liver/kidney failure. Because of all the radiation she had for her cancer treatments if they try to do CPR they will crush her ribs and cause massave pain and may not be able to save her, and if they do she will be in extreme pain until she passes. So for now they are only to give her IV sailne (dehydration is an extremely painful way to die so they don't want her to dehydrate, it won't prolong her life just make her a little more comfortable ).

Because she was doing so much better we had to come back home - mom doesn't have any more vacation or sick days to take off work. (speaking of work, nope didn't get the UPS job she never called me back - figured she wouldn't, she made it clear she figured because I have a BFA I'd be looking for work elseware anyway. )

TODAY: At noon aunt P called, grandma actually took a couple sips of soup . So now we don't know what to think, will she continue to go up and down everyday, will she level out, or is this what the doctor told us to expect, that she will rebound and look really good for a few days and than pass in the night. Wish they could just tell us what is goiing on. Most of us, (not my youngest aunt our uncle ) expect that she won't be around much longer, she just keeps going down hill. But than again, she is one stuborn woman, so she may stick around - she's already lived 5 years longer than she was supposed to with the cancer, and 1 1/2 years longer then they expected her to when she had her last bad stroke and illness.

So if I'm not online again it means we had to go back over if something happens.

*very tired and stressed hugs*

First off thank you all for kind words and putting our family in your thoughts.

Just got off the phone with mom again. (tried to talk to her at noon, but she had to get off the phone real quick, grandma was ranting and raving in the background, pissed at the situation, didn't know what was going on, mad at everyone for putting her in the hospital - psych ward at that - and even yelling at ME for not having the guts to be there to bully her around in person with the rest of them - I know it is the dimentia talking but she just gets more and more abusive, can only ignore being called a worthless Bit** by someone so many times before it starts to hurt and that point has come and gone a long time ago )

The new blood work and some of the otehr tests aren't back yet - the infection is slightly worse than it was before, but they still don't know where it is. They have her hydrated back to normal, they are making her take her meds so slightly better on that front.

But.

Her doctor did say he won't let her go home, has ordered her to be placed in a hospis type place - medicaly staffed thing (can't remember exactly what she called it ) but it is a step down from the hospital but a step up from an old folks home. We figured that might be an outcome.

She has to stay there until the family finds a perminent place for her when/if she gets stable enough to be moved, but she's never going to be strong enough to go home - Puts Grandpa in a bad way, he now feels like a piece of crap because one thing they always promised each other was to never put the other in a retirement home (part of why he asked to have the control taken out of his hands, so she would't blame him for breaking the promise - something he's already doing to himself ). They have to go over the final test results and do whatever on Monday - mom may come back over the weekend but she isn't sure.

I'll be going into the shop to fill in for her in the morning - she gets to talk me thru the files over the phone.

My head has been pounding all day - didn't sleep at all lastnight and figure I won't sleep tonight either. May go out and take a walk down to Safeway, buy a coke, clear my head.

*hugs*

First off a couple updates to get out of the way.

Sorry I didn't respond to the comments on my last blog - totally spaced that I had posted the last one going to go back and I did read them *scared with the Misery comment, hides wood blocks and sledge hammers*, will go back and comment on them later(depending on how the rest of teh day goes )

Did interview Monday, lasted all of 10 min, it went well I guess. She said if they decide to have me do round two interview she will call by next Monday. Hours would be (if I get ) midnight to 4am no later than 5am - works for me I'm a night person. Taking boxes from trucks and moving thm to other trucks.

Bobbie had his little nip-tuck. He was groggy lastnight but is 100% fine today , no pain, no fussing. He WILL HAVE to have the 3rd set of shots next Monday. They are to prevent upper respetory problems - and eventhough he is an indoor cat he could get a cold from us, so looks like he gets to be down and out for a few days again .

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So from the title you can guess what this blog will consist of.

When we were there a couple weeks ago it took us almost 1hr and 45min to get her dressed and down the stairs to get her out of the house and to dinner. She was really weak and still losing weight. Never seen her this bad, her skin is even getting opaque (see thru)... The last couple weeks there have been some serious talk about putting her in a hospis/retirement home, to help both them out (their house is too big, and it is too hard for him to care for her and keep the house up by himself)

At noon today when mom came home for lunch she told me that my one aunt called her, got grandma's blood test results back (taken to dr. on Friday for being so weak and super bloated), and gm took a turn for the worse when it comes to her physical ability.

Apparently she has been in bed for 4 days straight, she refuses to get up, sleeps for 20 hours a day, refuses to eat or to take her meds, when she has accidents she refuses to get out of bed, took my aunt almost 2 hours to get her into the tub (gm was refusing to tak a bath even after she messed). Grandpa did what we were afraid he'd do... Hurt his back trying to lift her out of bed. Just what he needs right now, is to put himself in the hospital too. She has been runing him raggod - when she's awake that is, yelling at him, being physical abusave - she is weak but can still cause damage.

Anyway, today was the straw - mentaly she can't comprehend/focus, grandpa's health is a risk from the stress, and the blood work shows she is suffering from a massave infection (don't know where it is yet). Both my aunts, my mom and my uncles decided it was time to take drastic measures (at grandpa's request to take presure off him). They asked her doctor for some help in evaluating her status, he recomended putting her in the hospital for eval and observation.

She is now in the Psychiatric ward, needs to see a specialist in the morning to see how much of her mental capasity is gone... She can't follow conversations anymore, she asks the same stuff over and over and over, has no concept of time, can't remember talking to people 10 min after seeing them, stuff like that.

So atleast with her in th hospital they can force her to take her meds, she will eat (even if they have to put a feeding tube in) and she will have a staff there to help her - giving grandpa some needed rest. They figure it will take a couple of days to get things figured out and any tests done, before they can decide on what to do, keep here there or move her to another hospital for observation (regular one ). BUT, she may not make it out of the hospital, with as weak as she is and if they can't get the infection under control she may not survive the next week. And even if she does survive this go round she's not going to be around much longer, she just gets worse and worse everyday.

Mom drove over there earlier today, she's going to help clean up the house get things in order and all of them (except the uncle that lives in NM) are going to find a place for grandma to go IF she gets out of the hospital. I had to stay over here. Still need to find work - and if UPS calls me for the next interview I have to be here. Bobbie still needs to be watched to make sure his stitches don't come out, plus the cats need to be looked after. If something comes up at the printers I can go in and cover for her if needed, so atleast work is covered for her. Plus, to be 100% honest, mom told me she knows I don't do well in hospitals in these kinds of events (stress like this + crowed places + confined spaces + emotional stress = extreme and uncontrolable panic attacks, something they don't need added in the mix, ya know )and told me it would be better for me to stay here and keep an eye on things rather than going and being stressed there. In the event something happens I can catch a bus over the mtns and get there in a few hours.

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That's all the info I have for now. May get more info later tonight, but mostlikely not until tomorrow afternoon.

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Guess that is all for tonight, going to go back to my stress cleaning.
*hugs*

Got an interview at UPS on Monday at 2pm - for part time package sorting, for swing/night shift (so much for thinking I'd be home to see this season of SN live, but I'd rather be making money ). It's one of those "group" interviews. There will be several of us there for the job, be a tour of the warehouse, then one on one interviews after, don't know how many others will be there. But thankfully I've had experience doing that sort of stuff (package handeling/sorting/shipping ) in a couple jobs, so hopefully it will give me an edge.

Bobbie goes in to get his little snip snip on Monday morning at 7am. Hopefully the interview will be over before I need to go and pick him up in teh afternoon

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17 Hours 25 Min till SN

Thanks to Puma's newest blog, I've got plenty of new ideas for some SN S4 Motivators (once my DVDs come in).

Plan to record the new eps on my computer this season, that way I can do "up to date" motivators for EACH week Love the screen caps button .

So, while the ep is on - no net - have to hook the monitor up to that one, not this one.

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Happy B-day (friday) to Pix .

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Yep short this time.
*hugs*

For those of you who commented on my last blog I did respond to them. And now that the stom that was in town most of the day has blown over the net isn't constantly cutting out, so I can post this.

Yesterday was amazing!!!

Got up at 6, got to Medical Lake to meet Steven right at 8:20 - he looks about the same as he did back in high school - maybe a bit taller, shorter hair and a bit more muscular. It was just me and him for the day - his old roommate had to cancle because she was sick as a dog with the flu (started feeling ill on Thursday night, worse Fri and really bad Sat morning ). We headed out of town, and got to cut both the time to pick her up and the time to pick up the tickets out of the trip - he got them the night before. So... we ended up at the park an hour before it opened , so we just sat in the car and talked, catch up on the last 8 years.



They've changed the park sens I worked there (some rides are gone, some moved, more venders with "midway" games in random areas, the uniforms look more relaxed, they updated the bumper boats *will get to them later* ). Now when you come up out of the tunel (have to go under the highway to get frm parking lot to get into the park ) there is a security station set up - they randomly search bags - didn't get searched .

First things first... In the park they were having a HOT ROD show in the field and part way on the airstrip as we walked around the first bend in the sidewalk, walk past the line of trees I saw them, three gems sitting in a row 3 I said 3 67' Chevey Impalas The first one was charcole grey with white pinstripes on the sides and front with a tanish interior, the middle one was black and grey with a dark grey interior, the third one was so nice it was a really rich dark dark blood red color with a two tone fade (the front was the red and faded into a black back ) with a dark maroon and black interior The guy that owned that one was talking to another guy and said it took him almost a year to completely rebuild it. Steven thought I was weird because I was so fixated on them If I would have know the show was that week I would have had my camera with me, I could have spent all day walking thru the cars

Anyway, then we made a beeline to AFTERSHOCK (built last year )

**It is important to keep in mind, I am DEATHLY AFFRAID OF HEIGHTS, but I LOVE Rollercoasters - yes, I'm just sick in the head that way **



There are 2 190 foot tall towers. When you first get loaded on (this one has the seats where your feet hang down - lap belt, over the shoulder harnes, and a belt that attatches from nub on the seat between your legs to the shoulder harnes ). 8 rows of 2 seats. you sit either in "inside" or "outside" seats - inside seats are side by side to the person next to you and you sit under the center of the track, outside seats have you hanging farther away from the center (the people in the row infromt of you aren't in your way ) and there is a large gap and bars between you and the person in the seat next to you. They alternate in, out, in, out... We got "inside" seats.

Then the floor drops and you are slowly, and then more quickly are being pulled BACKWARDS up the first tower, your full body weight is dropped against the restraints (serious feeling you are going to fall out of them and you feel as if you may just barf on the people in front of you. it climbs and climbs (from the ground it doesn't seem so high, but trust me when you're on the thing it's way way way higher )

It hangs there for a moment (all of like 5 seconds ) you hear a click, and suddenly you drop (at 65mph ) you shoot thru the station, up a thing upside dwon, flip right side up, go down and around a vertical loop, shoot up the second tower, get pulled to the top, sit for about 8 seconds then it goes thru the same thing BACKWARDS, shot backwards thur the station, up the first tower where a wire catches the train ( *pain* when it stops the ride it has one he*l of a kick, feels like you got hit in the heart with a sledge hammer - they need to fix that part ) it lowers you to the station and you off load. Entire thing lasts all of 1 min 30 seconds. You get really dizzy from this one.

We got off and did it a second time .

All in all we did AfterShock 3 times,



worked on that tower a few times


Tremors 2 times (this one goes underground 4 times - first one at the bottom of the first drop ) Steven elbowed me in the head the first time we were on the ride he had his hands up and the train hit a bump and his arm jerked to the side and hit me right on the left temple outch - when we got on the second time I told him no elbows this time lol, Timber Terror 1 time (would have done it more but the lines were really long ) CorkScrew 3 times, Log ride 1 time (got soaked when a did set off the water cannon on us ), Thunder Canyon 2 times (this one 8 people sit in a round raft thing and you go down a river and get wet - both times we barely get wet and the others in the boat get soaked not fair ), Bumper boats 2 times (multi funny things here, see next section ) and ended the night on the Tilt-a-wirl. Wanted to go on the Plundge ride (where literaly you are siting in seats that go round a pole, they hoist you up like 150 feet and they drop you to within 5 feet of the ground ) but the line was too long each time we went by.

We never ended up going to the waterpark part , it was too busy, and it never quit got warm enough during the day, but we made up for it .

They updated the bumper boats area. Now the water is clear (used to be dyed a deep bluish color - think toilet water color ). The boats are different, they now spray water out of the front and, along the one side of the pond, up on the right side, they have 6 sprayer stations, where people can pay like 25/50 cents to spray at the boats (that get into range ). The first time fun, both got fairly wet, spent a couple hours drying off on the other rides.

After the second run on Thunder Canyon we weren't too happy we were dry after that ride so we decided to take a second run on the boats, the line was almost full in the Q area - about a 20 min wait, not too bad, than the girl working it needed two people to fill the space in the next run, and out of all the people in line we were the only group of 2 so we got to cut the line, went in the exit and waited by the side till the group in the water was done.

Now, we are kinda chatting while we watch the girl using this long skimmer try to get the sunglasses a lady dropped out of the edge - using a skimmer with a 10 foot pole in 3 foot deep water - nearly falling in . Well, when she got the glasses she dropped them off the screen and then used the skimmer to reach out and get a floating wrapper. Apparently she forgot how long the pole was and jerked it back to get to the skimmer... HITS A GUY IN LINE RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF HIS FORHEAD we both saw her do it and tried not to laugh but dang

When we got into the boats I headed straight for the guys with the sprayers - 1. because we could spray them with the boats, 2. I wanted to get soaked - and did big time , I was able to sit there for about a min getting hit with the water, but it got hard to breath with the water in teh face, so I took off, and at the end when the last guy was focused on Steven I snuck up on him and hozed his leg and side before he turned the spray on me . I was drentched by the time we got done Then we went on the log ride to ensure total soak

At around 8pm we hit the Tilt, then went back to the BBQ place, he got another burger, I went over and got a funnel cake and a SW drink cup to replace my old one, and we decided we were both tired and still rather dizzy from the entire day, plus we were cold from being wet (almost 4 hours after the boats ) so we left the park and headed home at 8:30. As we were leaving the park I bought a light sward thing to bug Bobbie with (he likes the think, jumps at it ) By the time I got home it was like 12:30ish almost 1am - thus me not posting this then, or responding to the posts on the last blog. But I am glad we didn't stay till 10 like we had planned because that would ment not getting home until like 3 am.

Anyway, it was the best day I've had in MONTHS, really needed the recharge Being totally exausted from having fun is wayyyyy better than being tired from being bored all the time .

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That is all
*hugs*

Yesterday morning I almost thought that my hours of torture looking for the swimsuit was for nothing - Steven called early in the morning and told me it may be a no go to Silverwood, because his boss called and said he "may have to work Saturday night" but thankfully he got called a couple hours later and was told, nope they found someone to cover the shift

So lastnight (at 5:00 ) as planned mom and I went to GoodWill to see if they had any cheap board shorts... We almost didn't make it there ...

We get stopped at the ligth down by where we have to turn off the main strip infront of where WalMart, Big 5 and some other stuff are. We are in the far left turn lane (turn only lane ) then there is the middle lane (turn left or thru lane ) and the far right is a thru only lane.

Well, the turn light changes, and rather than staying in HER lane while we go round the turn, mom drifts all the way over into the right lane (turning onto a 2 lane each side road ), into the lane that the guys in the middle lane turn into.

shock: *FEAR* scream "MOM WHAT THE HE** ARE YOU DOING??? THERE'S A CAR IN THAT FU**ING LANE!!!!!" *as I'm holding on to the seat for dear life, right hand flat against the window (as if that would keep me from being killed)*. Not just a car but a freaking lifted Ford 4x4 where all I see is a big freaking tire right next to my window

The guy fortunatly (was paying attention to his driving - unlike mother ) was able to hit the brakes and ver to the side of the street - allmost running up on the curb - she doesn't so much as look back or try to get back into HER lane. But proceds to bit** at me for harping at her about her driving then claims she never saw him - "Was in my blind spot". WTF!!! does her blindspot have to do with a fu**ing thing, she cut into his lane!!!

Then when we get to GW she again isn't paying attention and almost rearends a minivan - and she wonders why I don't like her driving...

Thankfully they had the shorts there (only one pair - but it fit ) AND WE MADE IT HOME WITHOUT BEING KILLED .

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Won't be online all Saturday - even have to get to bed early tonigh - getting up at 6am, driving into the other ML (Medical Lake ) about 1 hour 45 min away. Haven't been back there in years, apparently it's changed a bit. Will get dropped off to meet Steven in the parking lot of the store (wish me luck to arrive alive ) Then he's gonna drive into Spokane Valley (35 min ) to pick up another gal (his old roommate ) And off to the park (almost 2 hours away ) by the time it it opens.

So by the time it closes at 10 we'll get back to ML just after midnight, and it will be just after 1:30am by the time I get from ML to ML - long, but hopefully fun day.

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Called Tri State but the mannager wasn't in, so I don't know if I did or didn't get the job.

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6 days till SN

Rather annoyed that CW didn't show the SftD promo after they reaired LR lastnight just showed the stupid fluff one from the start of the summer twice (the one where they iner cut the clips of the girls skipping in the field ) Heck, they could have atleast show the "O' Death" one - that they never aired here, atleast that one was cool. they had a number of them for the season 4 DVD sets, like 5 for VD (no not that one , I ment Vampire Diaries ), a couple for OTH, MP, GG, none for Smallville tho - would have thought they'd have ads saying it moved to friday, but no.

Yet today, over on the SN board, a link was posted to YouTube that showed the one that Science aired for SftD, and it was soooooo cool. DARN YOU CW!!! JUST WHEN WE THINK YOU ARE SHOWING SUPERNATURAL SOME RESPECT WITH THE ADS YOU'VE BEEN SHOWING ALL SUMMER, YOU GO AND DO THIS, AND SNUB US ONCE AGAIN.

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Well, better head off to bed.
Talk to y'all on Sunday.

*Hugs*

I had to get a new swinsuit today - oh do I hate that chor . Going to Silverwood this coming Saturday, with a couple friends from high school, and I needed a suit. Simple trip to the stor right... NO

We get to W*M we head down to the normal area in the clothing department, and what do we find??? Freaking WINTER PARKAS Christmas patterns, and looking down towards the end where they JUST had the summer stuff, was FULL FULL of Christmas decorations, trees, displays WTF?!?!?

Did I walk into some sort of freaking TIME MACHINE??? Nope, I look at my phone and the date said "OCT 31"... Hel* they skipped Halloween and Thanksgiving and gone right to Christmas so much for enjoying the end of summer.

Anyway, we find a clerk to find out where they put the swimsuits - cause heck, live in a city with a huge lake, and a water park, you'd think they would still be selling stuf for it. NOPE, she directed us to the ONE clearance rac where there were only a few items left.

We can only find 3XL and 4XL sizes way way way way tooooooo big for me. Go back and ask if there are smaller sizes anywhere els, nope...

So, we drive back to this end of town, go to a small clothing place by Safeway, they didn't have any anymore . We drive up to Tri State Outfitters (a sportings good/ hunting/ fishing ) place, They had some to the sum of $75 each and they were ugly.

As we headed out saw a sign they were hiring, so grabbed an application and they still have paper ones ... Dang, haven't seen a paper application in YEARS. Going to take it back in the morning - hopefully I can get hired on there, NEEEEEEEEDDDDDD a job, been bored out of my freaking mind for weeks.

Anyway... Drive to the W*M in Efrata (yeah, I have no clue how to spell it ) and they too don't have anything, EXCEPT MORE DANG CHRISTMAS STUFF The clerk there told us to try Big 5 here in town.

We drive back, and thankfully they had some got a black Nike one for $34 (on sale ) now I just need to hunt down some board shorts.

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SN is just that much closer 11 more days (well 12 but how's counting the next hour and 30 min till midnight ) . Saw some new posted clips for season 5 .

More of the hard core SFU members are coming back.

Seeing the season 4 DVDs ads on numerous channels, SyFy is really showing them ALOT , and a couple chans are even showing the promos for this season so maybe the numbers will be better .

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Well, guess if I'm gonna get this application in in the morning I better fill the sucker out.

*hugs*

Yep, just your everyday, random grab bag of stuff.

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First things first, lastnight - well, more like thismorning (6:30ish am ) I updated my signature - first time in like what 2ish years. Added my new SNS ( Supernatural Sadists ) banner. Thanks Tox for letting me in the club .



Got this done in about 30 min, needs some slight tweek, but at 3am I wan't really in the mood to finish it. It's a good thing too cause it may never have been put online anyway...

PhotoBucket decided to update "New And Improved" (my but t ). SO I SPENT 4 HOURS THISMORNING TRYING TO UPLOAD 6 FREAKING PICTURES . Their stupid "Upload" system changed and now the normal (old version) isn't even there anymore so after going thru the FAQs page and the Tutorial page (looking to see if I missed something - didn't was doing everything right ) I tried the "Bulk Upload" and it didn't do anything so several hours later I finally got the "Email" thing to work, but now the pics are just in the first album - not where I want them.

But atleast they are there for now...

Anyway, so now the SFU, SNS, and Bones sigs are in one image.

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As requested from my last blog. Here are a couple pics to show how the shelf turned out. Sorry if the color appears dark, couldn't seem to get it lit up enough to show off how nice the color is.



This one sort of shows how close the color matches the cab, but still doesn't do it justice.



Works perfect for the DVDs, may have to make a pattern and make a few of them myself - only a shelf taller and slightly wider.

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Bobbie is learning well, he knows a good show when he sees one.




He sat up there for almost the entire episode watching. And YES he WAS watching, he was following along with his head bobbing around. Plus, he is a total "SamBoy" almost EVERY time Sammy was on he'd reach down and pat him on the head

Also got him watching Family Guy .

UPDATE: He is fully recovered from his shots.

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That is all

*hugs*