I would like to begin this blog with a disclaimer: I'am not nor have I ever been emo, I'm not big on emotional heartfelt blogs unless of course it deals with a seething hatred towards certain video games and or movies. This is simply something I noticed over the last week or so, it suprised me and I'm really not sure why. (thats for those of you in the The Last Rolos)

Where to begin, Some of you I talk to more regularly know my story but for those of you who dont, here's some insight. About a year ago I lost my job, I worked for a contractor and I did most of his carpentry and drywalling, I got paid very well for it so needless to say it hurt financially when I lost that job. I went for a few months living on what I had but I quickly ran out of money, lost my car, I was sharing an apartment with a friend and he also lost his job so we lost our place, I pretty much would have been homeless without my parents. I live in Tennessee and I really couldnt find a job where I was so I talked to some family that I have here in northeast Ohio (where I was born actually) and a few people knew of some odd jobs for me to take here, so I came back and have been staying with random members of my extended family working on and off in construction and at a grocery store for the last 5 months.

Now I told that story to segway into this, I hate living here in Ohio, mostly because I really dont much care for city life, I've lived the last 10 years in the country and I do miss it, it really is a different way of life, its much slower and people are more casual, its a bit more laid back which suits me far better. And when you take my personality into account, the fact that I'm not a very emotional person, its gotten to the point at times that people have gotten mad at me for not reacting certain ways to some situations, I dont really get riled up over things, when something bothers me I usually just bottle it up. I realize that may not be the best way to deal with things but its how I am, I cant change it. What I'm getting at though, is that I dont usually get "emotionally attached" to anything or anyone for that matter very easily, I'm not the type of person who usually calls everyone my friend either, if I do call somone my friend we're probably very close and I would do next to anything for that person. As a matter of fact, the only reason I am in such a hurry to get back is because of three people, thats it.

What suprised me on the other hand, I've only been in this state for almost six months now. there's three people here who I did get rather close to and I will miss quite a bit, I never expected that to happen.