I am the biggest bundle of nerves right now. My fiance got a job interview over on the other side of the state. It's at the same company he works for now, only he'll be second in charge and it comes with a huge pay increase. I told my work what was going on, and we've been looking at a house. It's a HUGE house, about twice the size of the one we live in now with a gigantic shop for the boy to work on the cars and a dishwasher (yay!) and granite countertops in the kitchen. The kids love it. His daughter who is 6 actually called it her "dream house."It's god awful ugly on the outside, but I love the inside and the landlady seems to be tripping over herself to rent to us.

The only thing is that he doesn't technically have the job yet. He is supposed to speaking with the woman in charge today to find out, but as hard as I've tried not to, I have my hopes sky high right now. This would mean that we'd be moving back to the area we moved to Seattle from.This is where most of our family and friends live. Ireally, really want this to happen, but if he doesn't get this job, there's no way we can make it work. I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack.

So I got an email indicating someone had bought something for me on Amazon. Before I reveal the results, lets look at the voting.

In the lead we have Shadow Hearts Covenant withn 7 votes, second is Persona 3 with three votes, and last is Suikoden III with zero votes (World of Warcraft was also nominated but since Chris is a stupid dog fart, we're not counting it).

Clearly Shadow Hearts was the favorite. But was it the winner.

I am pleased to announce that I have added (dramatic drumroll) .................................................................................................................

SUIKODEN III to my game collection. Thanks to all who participated. You're all losers today, but you will always be losers in my book.

So because of the extra cash we got this month, Jed is buying me a game. I have so many I want, I couldn't pick, so I gave him three choices and I am leaving it up to him to pick which one he wants to buy me. He's not telling me what he's getting, I'll find out when the arrive at my house VIA Amazon.

I want YOU guys to try to predict which out of the three he will get me. The winner wins the prize of being right.

The three choices are: Suikoden III, Persona 3 FES or Shadow Hearts Covenant. Have at it guys!

I'm not in the habit of being a whiner about my life online. As my friends in the Temple can tell you, I'm a tough girl. A hardass, if you will. Today has turned me into a quivering, weepy shell of a woman.

Apperently someone took a crap in my boss' Cheerios this morning, and she decided to unleash a turrid of hellfire upon me as soon as I walked in the door, jumping on everything I did and even some things I didn't do. The fact that her customer didn't pay her? My fault. The fact that a customer she lent a display faucet to got all scratched to hell at their jobsite? My fault. Also for some reason I have three hours of overtime clocked on my timecard. I'm never early, or late to work I never leave early or late from work, but somehow the time clock messing up my hours? Still my fault.

Later on in the day I'm trying to show a couple customers a handshower on a tub filler. Now some idiot at this particular company decided it would be a marvelous idea to put a porcelain handle on a handshower that sits on the most rickety, unbalanced cradel ever. I barely even looked at the thing and it takes a kamakazi dive onto the stone floor shattering into a million pieces. TOTALLY MY FAULT.

Then there's all the other stuff. We're totally broke for the rest of the week, nevermind the fact my car is running on empty and we're supposed to be adopting this dog at the end of the week. I'm riding the crimson wave so I'm even more of an emotional wreck than usual, and the fact that we're supposed to be getting married in MAY and we haven't done ANY preparing.

If I were a real woman, I'd want some ice cream and a weepy movie. Right now I just want some booze and a dark room with my PS2.

I am overloading on games. I have too many games I want to play at once, too many games I need to beat and too many games I want to buy.

I'm nearing the end of Arc the Lad Twilight of the Spirits and I'm still way into it.

I'm almost at the end of Shadow Hearts, I just need to do some grinding and I'll be ready to tackel the final dungeon, I'm getting the end of the game ADD I always get and I just don't want to play it.

I've pretty much given up on Mass Effect and Fallout 3 because they just can't hold my intrest right now.

I'm 1/3rd of the way through Kingdom Hearts RE Chain of Memories but the boss fights are so freaking hard I keep throwing it down in frustration.

I like Castle Crashers but it's so hard to make time for it in addition to my "real" games.

I want to play Rogue Galaxy so bad I catch myself reading the FAQ's online longingly.

I want Guild Wars but I'm worried it's going to cut into my console gaming.

I still haven't played Persona 3 or 4.

Suikoden is on the PSN, but I can't justify getting it.

Then there's all my other must have games, Valkyria Chronicles, Star Ocean, Prince of Persia. I'm never going to live long enough to beat all these games.