Hi,

As the title might suggest this is gonna be a Torchwood heavy blog... Which of my blog isn't? Might be a question you feel you have a right to ask... Well, None... but you know it's called an obsession for a good reason .

I have only one news and Jodie already know it... I have a throat infection, went to the Doctor's (I wish) and he said I shouldn't talk... Which is hard, I'm always saying something to Pertwee or Phi, I'm trying though, hasn't worked too well since I watched The Dead Line and screamed and squealed after Ianto . The good thing about my visit to the doctor is I finished Beautiful Chaos (Shawn reviewed it in his last blog so I'm not gonna do that) and I loved it!

There's no spoilers in My Thoughts, I was careful and Rach, you have to (really, really, have to) listen to The Dead Line!

Okay, now for the main attraction:

Asylum by Anita Sullivan

Radio 4's description:

When PC Andy arrests a teenager for shoplifting, he thinks it is going to be a routine case. Then he sees the weapon she is carrying and decides to call in the Torchwood team. Under questioning from Gwen, the girl remembers her name but little else, and when she speaks it is in a strange mix of English and Scandinavian, but with a Cardiff accent. Then the girl's blood tests come through and the team is faced with a dilemma.

My thoughts:

I'm not sure I understands the way PC Andy thinks about Torchwood in this play, to me after Exit Wounds there's is no doubt he understands this is about Aliens or something really weird; the author makes it sounds like he is still confused and to my mind he shouldn't be... but it doesn't mean what I think is right on that account. I think the big plus of this story is it's very visual, you really see what's going on so the descriptions are really good. I didn't get the title until the very end; I'll blame that on my being French speaking . It's a good story, exploring what Torchwood could be, not just what it is... Seems to me Jack is moving closer to his goal of making Torchwood more that what it was before he was in charge.

Golden Age by James Goss

Radio 4's description:

The Torchwood team are led to Delhi on the trail of a dangerous energy field. As the field grows, they witness the simultaneous disappearance of hundreds of people. Jack discovers that the field centres on an old colonial mansion, Torchwood India.

Shocked to find that Torchwood India is still going strong after he shut it down himself over 80 years ago, he is even more surprised to find that its members, including his old flame the Duchess, haven't aged a day.

My Thoughts:

My least favorite of the three, I didn't really love James Goss' book 'Almost Perfect' either (Ianto as a girl didn't do it for me...). The biggest strength of this play is that it is set in India, that doesn't say a lot for it. The thing is, that story was so similar to other stories (not in TW, but in Sci-fi) about people being taken out of their time, wanting to be taken out of their time that it felt like rehashing instead of the innovation TW is normally. I didn't dislike the story, it just wasn't very original and we get so few new plays that I would think they would green light only things that would really gel with other TW tie-ins.

The Dead Line by Phil Ford

Radio 4's description:

When a Cardiff hospital is inundated with patients who have fallen into coma -like trances, Torchwood move in to investigate. The trances appear to have been triggered by phone calls, all received on retro phones and made from a number that hadn't been active for over 30 years. Determined to find out who has been calling the unfortunate victims, Jack rings the mysterious number, but the line is dead. But then it calls Jack back.

My Thoughts:

OMG, it was so good!!!! First, the scary bit about the phones which in a way is not a new threat, we've seen phones used that way before, but the twist it gives the story is great! The best thing about this story? It's the Ianto speech and I won't give more details than that, but about almost a year of waiting for some Janto action, it was very nice to have the side of Ianto and how he felt about things for once! I loved the story for other reasons, saw Rhys get involve with solving a case in this one... This is the best and I don't want to ruin it for anyone so go listen to it now!!!!!!!

What can I say more? Have a good Torchweek!!! Yes, it's almost here less than 24 hours to wait!!!

Be good, I know this is not the best quality John Pic, but it's the one I have to (oh, what a life!) stare at for a month (it's July on my calendar and I wanted to share, it's gorgeous in real life ).

I kind of promise someone this picture, I kind of think it's not the one the person was looking for, but we can never get too much John .

Phin xx

Hi,

Really quicky blog from work to say Happy Canada Day to all my fellow Canadian .

And don't forget to listen to Radio4 Torchwood: Asylum, it played in the UK today and will be available on their iplayer for a week (tune in tomorrow and Friday for two others radio play), Torchweek might be next week, but this week is full on TW fun!!!!!

Be Good,

Phin xx

Hi,

My last blog was about 6 months ago so you would think I have a lot to say, but I don't. I am still struggling with the consequences of my psychosis and that's not easy everyday since I also have to deal with the mental illness too. I guess about a month ago I had some sort of a relapse though it came on gradually and I could see it coming (I guess PMs from that time showed it too, sorry), they upped my medication and it went back to normal (well, what's normal now? it's not the person I was before that's for sure). I am so scared of going insane and I know technically that's not what I did, but thinking about it, I think people do mean exactly my situation or similar ones when they use that sentence. I think I would say I'm paralysed by the fear of going insane... Sorry, that's not a cheery way to start a birthday blog .

I'm back at work, seems I'm back where I started, but not really. Things are not moving on the transgendered side of things because of the psychosis (I have to wait a year after to do anything about it... that's frustrating, but understandable); I really don't know where that's going... I hate being in this limbo where nothing happens and yet you get older.

Hey, on the happy note, it's less than a month to TORCHWEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can I say I'm excited? I cannot wait, I bought the Torchwood Archives on Friday and it was a fun read. Yeah, I'm still obsessed with TW and JB... Come on I can't change that much, can I?!

Okay, let's get to the important bit now:

Happy birthday Phyn (Tish)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope you have a good one and that you resisted going into Little J's room until the end (meaning that as a post b-day treat you'll get to clean it up, right?).

We couldn't start without a birthday song.

And cake:

So okay, I'm the one who loves spiders (eheh) so the cake is all for me while the rest of you people cower in the corner... Okay, I'm not that cruel:

I'm sure this one will be more popular .

And what would be one of my b-day blogs without Mango daiquiris? Well, just impossible to imagine:

This time around though I though that maybe not everybody loves Mangoes so there's a little more choice than usually . Oh, oh... we also need margaritas, don't we, it's summer, we need to celebrate the cold drinks!

Now, that we have all a drink and cake (ummm, that's a bizarre mix, but yummy anyway). Let's have a game:

Guess Who

I think the title might give you a clue of what the game is. I'll show you body parts and you have to guess which of Phyn's favorite people it is (don't worry if you know her, you are pretty assured to have a couple of them right...) and Phyn I expect you to have the highest percentage of rights, k?

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Hope it wasn't too difficult!

Now that we had cake, booze and games... what could I think of? I know a sad personal story about our friendship! .

Last year for my birthday Phyn gave me great gifts including a Dalek keychain, I just fell in love with the thing! Anyway, when I had my psychosis in November, I didn't know who was real anymore and who wasn't because I had invented so many people that I got confused. I was asking my mom if Phyn was real and I asked for my keychain which was irrefutable proof to me that the girl was real. So my mom took the Dalek off the keychain and I slept with it that first night and kept it in my hands until I got to the psychiatric ward (about 48 hours after my admission) because it was my tether to reality, I had to let it go then though because it is metal and I couldn't have it in the ward (It could be used as a weapon since it's a Dalek doesn't that make some kind of sense? ).

Okay, sad story, drunkenness... We need songs, don't we? And what party would it be for Phyn without him? I don't want to date myself, but this is the first movie I saw with him (1980!) and it is his first movie too (see I'm so much older than you, I'm gonna cry ). Okay, I'll stop calling him, him since we all know I am talking about Adam Baldwin... don't we? This is what Phyn thinks of Adam...

Technically I've put some picks of Adam already (see that's a clue to the game though I'm sure you had guessed there was some pic of him in that ), but Phyn would not forgive me if we didn't see his face in the blog at all ...

That's it, I hope you enjoyed! I hope all Fathers out there have a Happy Father's Day !

You are right, it wouldn't be a blog of mine without my obsession too!!!!

Be good,

Phin xxx

P.S.: Phyn your b-day gift is gonna be late because I'm mailing it only this Thursday, this week was gift week with Father's Day, Isabelle at work leaving for her maternity leave and someone's b-day at work too so I couldn't fit the mailing fee in my budget, sorry ... since you have to wait until the start of July, I'll give you one clue... there's pictures of Adam in what I'm sending .

Hi,

Because of the snow we are supposed to have tomorrow, I am leaving for my parents' today and so I won't be around until the 26th though you won't be seeing a big difference since I haven't read a blog in ages.

I just want to wish you all

If you are one of us "W" persons enjoy my David and Shawn's in

Mine is at the right .

And finally if you are going to see HIM in THAT role...

... don't mention it or I could forget all about this...

and become homicidal .

Be good,

Phin xx

Hi,

First, I think I've mentioned it before, but I'm now writing a book and so this is the end of my personal blogs, I will continue blogging, but what I'm living won't be as discussed in them. If we communicate by PM or MSN, you won't be seeing a difference; but my blogs will be more entertainment centered in the future.

That said this is gonna be personal.

I want to talk about what happened to me a little more than 3 weeks ago. I had a psychosis and discovered two things about me I didn't believe existed.

First, it became evident that I had split-personalities (two) and I was very lucky because they merged quite quickly (less than a week or about). I'm sorry though that the nursing staff left me near a computer at the time (I had only 20 minutes possible, you can do much damage in that little time) because I was still delusional, but didn't know it so I made inappropriate comments to people. I think I apologized enough about this, it wasn't my fault and so this is not another apology.

My second personality was male and called itself Kiel-Alaric and as he is male, he wants to be recognized as such. So I guess I'm telling you that even after the merge, I am going to change my sex and I just told you what my name will be. I would really love people here stopping the use of the name France even though technically it is still my name. I would really love the respect of being called Kiel or Phin ... Phin is fine, it always was my favorite nickname.

The second thing I didn't believe in is that you can block memories; I've been very good at doing it. I haven't apologized for all my lies, but I think a part of me (the not dominant one: Kiel) was protecting me. I lied through all my life, I think it was mythomania, but now am starting to think it was just me having been traumatized. I will not go into this here, it's not the place and I'm not sure I trust my memories yet.

This is who I am, you'll hear again about the sex change... but for now I'm not working on this. I'm working on knowing myself for the first time and if you want to know me take the decision now, if you prefer to stop tracking me, I'm fine with it too... I always thought no one on the site would believe my story, but some great people (they know who they are) have shown me I was wrong. I hope you are part of them, but if not: 'goodbye' just let me know you are untracking me so I can return the favor. I will answer question in comments if I can, if I cannot, I'll let you know.

Music to Discover: Pellep

This is near my heart because this young man and his brother (he plays the guitar) are the sons of the first person who was my roommate in my room at the hospital and she is now a friend. Great song, even if you don't understand, I'm not translating. I received the CD by the post by Pierrette (their mother) and it is worth it from the first to the last song.

Be good,

Kiel-Alaric xx

Phin xx