i am not looking forward to go to work tommorow because my sweetheart is sick aka my cat peyton. its not that i mind taking him its because he is so bad at the vets because he get so scared. usally i plan taking him so i can get some meds to take the edge of the stress of him going. but this time i don't want to wait 24 hours because with him vomiting 3 or 4 times tonight. because i don't want him to get dehrdayde so i guess work is going to kill me tommorow lol. i just hope its just a little virus and not nothing serious.

this guy in my life one time i thought was special just can't deal with us being over with. he just won't quit calling me and its really starting to make me feel uneasy. it looks more and more every day like i'm going have to change my phone number but i don't want too because i like this number. .. i know its betting bad because he just tried to called me 3 times in 3 mins!!.

i'll try to update more later.

edit: at 9:00 pm he just called again!! thats 8 times this week and 4 calls alone tonight.

Today was a very sad day at work. we had to put down one of the dogs that live there. Rosco was such a sweet heart. You could turn around and see him following right behide you. The only bad thing about him that he had seizures from time to time. The past few months had been really good to him because the meds we was giving was controling them. But yesterday morning I knew something was wrong when i went to put the dogs up and he wasn't with everybody else. I finally found him in a lower building we had. He couldn't stand and he was a mess. See this dog weight over 50 pounds probbly closer to a 100 pounds and i couldnt get him up so i wraped him in a blanket and ran inside to call a doctor. We finally got him draged up and inside a run. Usally he would sleep a while and would finally start standing up. But he never did it this time. He had at least one more seizure before we left that morning. and i rushed around like a chicken with my head cut off to find some valuim to give him. I came a little early to check on him that afternoon and he looked wrost. See that morning if u said his name he would try to raise his head but by now he wouldn't even do that . Just as the doctor was coming in for another emergey he had another seizure and it was a very bad one. It was decided it was better to put him to "sleep" the let him suffer all night long because this time it didn't look like he was getting any better. So the dr called the owner to make sure it was ok and it was. I can at least say he died in peace and we got him out of the pain he was in and with ppl that loved him. Because Rosco was a great dog and i will miss very dearly. At least now he won't get picked on by the other dogs. Goodbye Rosco I will miss you so much.

i wish life was simpler. but right now i feel like i am being pulled in to two different directions. there this guy that i kind of like and liking more every day but my parents think their something wrong with him. but they won't say what and i can't see what it is. maybe he's a little slower in some stuff but no one can be perfect in everything. he really likes me and its fun hanging out with him when we get the chance. and i know i'm 24 and almost 25 but at the same time i feel being pulled in two different directions wanting to do what they want for me at the same time i want to see what happen between us. i have no idea what to do.

what a two weeks.......2 fridays ago i was getting ready to go to the beach on vacation.. then last friday while at the beach my cousin that was with us died...now its another friday and i don't know its a good friday or a bad friday. i really hope its a good one but i guess we will find out.



but on other news i found out yesterday i finally passed my boards

more news later maybe.