Well it's been about 3 or 4 weeks since my last blog and I figured that my life here is kind of dying slowly. So, I thought I would just give you an update or two into things in my life, in what will be one of my last blogs here.

I guess I started my blogs here not realising what it would turn into. I started off with my first blog back in September 2005 with a kind of rant about San Andreas. About how angry the game made me plus a mega-rant about the final mission. I then started blogging every time I levelled up here on Gamespot and my blogs kind of developed more and more into my personal life. And looking back on them, I've noticed a vast improvement in my grammar, typing speed, and that I've made some great friends here on Gamespot.

I suppose the deeper I went with my blogs into my personal life the harder it is to take steps backwards away from it and so I think with this blog I will give you my last few weeks and what I hope to come in my life.

Well my last blog was about The Dark Knight which has quickly become one of my favourite movies and has me almost infatuated with Heath Ledger... Who now ranks highly with my favourite actors... Christian Bale, Ben Affleck, Mark Wahlberg, Clive Owen, Gary Oldman, Jean Reno, and the list could go on and on. So, I have now seen The Dark Knight 5 times; once more and I match my personal best of Small Soldiers in the cinema when I was younger.

The job at the local Cinema is going well, its long hours and pay isn't pretty but getting a payday every fortnight is nice and you can't really argue with free films!

Oh and I almost forgot, yesterday our A Level results were out. Considered I could have tried harder if I were aiming for going to University or something, I am quite pleased with my 3 passes But as I said, right now, I'm not interested in going to Uni, when you start earning money Full Time, it's tough to go back to learning and earning less. With my first paycheck I thought I'd treat myself so I bought a limited edition hand-painted 10" Joker figurine... With only 6000 being made and officially licensed this is surely an investment at £80 too. So that was a sort of congratulations to myself, not many people nowadays apply for their first ever job, and get a first ever interview and get the job! I have since bought a new cell phone/mobile phone with my paychecks and about 40 new DVDs in the space of a month

In future, I intend to rent a place with my best friend and just have a lot of studentesque fun. Obviously right now I am happy with the money I am earning considered the type of work I do, but will certainly try to further myself into something more suited for my abilities. I don't know what I will be doing with my life as nobody can predict the future, which is scary, but I gotta hope for the best I suppose.

So, I suppose this is goodbye.

It has been a rollercoaster ride over the past 3 years or so but overall it's been a nice outlet for me to spend some free time, chat about some of my favourite things in life.. Games all over the site, films at The DVD Collectors Union, and all things British in the UK Discussion

I would like to thank everyone who ever took an interest in my blogs and life, and in some cases for your kind and inspiring words. Thanks to you all and I wish you all the best in whatever you do in your lives.

Much Love...

Le-Beave

P.S: Keep on gamin' dudes & dudettes!

Working in a Cinema has it's benefits! I got to see this at a Press Screening TWO DAYS before the Premiere Release!!! So without further ado... My Spolier-Free Review:

Absolutely magnificent. To start with, Heath Ledger has totally eclipsed Jack Nicholson as The Joker - in what has to be his best performance of his short life. He is possibly the best actor around at 'becoming the character' and I think thats clearly shown in his rebel-austrian kid in 10 Things I Hate About You, Cowboy-yank in Brokeback Mountain and now terrifying mastermind criminal The Joker in The Dark Knight. If there isn't an Oscar in the cards for him then the planet simply cannot recognise real talent. But back to the movie itself... Action sequences - While it's intense with powerful soundtrack to pump the blood to your heart faster and faster the actual hand to hand combat is a little slow and can be seen how 'rehearsed' it must have been. But the Special Effects are faultless you really couldn't tell CGI from Real Life. The characters - all brilliant including Aaron Eckhart whom I am not such a fan of bringing an arsenal of acting abilities to the film. Maggie Gyllenhall who replaces Katie Holmes is her usual dull and boring talentless self but all that is really just splitting hairs. The Joker is possibly the best villain in all of the Batman movies and certainly the best of the century so far. Christian Bale, as per usual, puts in a riveting performance and is accompanied by Michael Caine as Alfred with some quirky comments and heart-felt speeches to Mr Wayne. Now this is two and a half hours long so it's not short of action, but what really makes it is the dialogue too. Most notably in the speeches and comments of The Joker who brings some very funny moments to the screen too, after all.... Why So Serious?!?!?!

Well, as you know by now, I sat my A Level exams and left school in search of bettering myself, goals were based around Job, Car, House, Family etc. I have been applying online for a few things just sending CV's to places like BLOCKBUSTER Cineowlrs etc. Well Thursday I took steps a bit further, I went down the Job Centre. I had arranged a meeting to see if I was entitled to Job Seekers Allowance - of course how else am i supposed to live if i have no income and no job etc. and then a woman tried setting up steps to focus me on career goals etc. Her main questions were obviously based on what I want to do with my life. After some deliberation I reeled off a few I would like to do: Photographer, Media based work eg BBC/Cinema, Estate Agents etc. Ultimately she shot me down saying how the UK have like more people with Photography degrees etc than the rest of Europe so I can't do it, and the same with the Media, she said theres too many people doing Media Studies courses which essentially are now meaningless. So she focused on the Estate Agency thing. Anyway, it went well I think.

Then later in the evening of Thursday, I had a few mates round and hosted a 'Games Night'. I hooked up a friends 360 in my living room and left my PS3 in my bedroom so we could alternate and not all crowd in one room. I have to say it was a success, we had a few gatecrashers, but really they livened up the gig And cleaning up the next day i was suprised at how much alcohol or more importantly, Pizza we had consumed. And I was amazed to see a Semi drunk self teamed up with a friend who has no consoles at all beat one guy (who is genuinely better than me at FIFA.. i can beat him 1 in 3 times really, and his partner, they both fell to the greatness of myself and my partner pulling off an amazing 3-1 win and i didnt realise i was being recorded so people now have me screaming obscenities and somewhat offensive material on their mobile/cell phones.

Anyway, it was a success, and then Friday morning at about 11am, after most of us gained consciousness (I was already awake as I just pulled an all-nighter), the telephone rang. "Hello, may I please speak to Mr Steve Matthews" to which I replied "Yes, this is he". "Sorry to call at such short notice, but we received your CV online, and we were wondering if you would be available for a job interview with us at 7pm tonight at Cineworld." I was gobsmacked, I really did not expect this at all. So, the day went on and my nerves got the better of me - This was my first ever job interview. I struggled with one or two questions and had to have a glass of water, but the questions I was ok with I would answer genuinely, honestly and the best I could. My blogs don't really reflect that, but I am actually quite a well-spoken person. So, I thought it went quite well.

When I returned home I hung out with friends for a bit more with even more pizza and drinks and sat to watch a film called Farce of the Penguins with voice-overs from lots of B Listers and narrated by the legendary Samuel L Jackson. Well, half way through this film, at approximately 10.10pm, I received another phone call. "Hello, is this Steve Matthews?" It is indeed "This is cineworld calling and if you are interested we would like to offer you a position with our company" I was just so shocked, at how fast this was all happening, I'd never had an interview before, and 2 hours later I had the job! I will be starting Sunday (tommorrow) for my training days so I'll see how that goes.

So, thank you for reading, I just thought I would keep you all up to date with my life's events, and this is a major step forward for me and I think it will be nice with coleagues and earning myself some money too

Thank you for reading

Well, if wanted to make a few fresh blogs lately but im finding it tough to think of anything to say, after all, I am really not doing anything lately, just job hunting and playing games. So, the main reason for this blog, and I know this is kinda weird, but I was wondering if there was anything you guys wanted me to blog about? Just any ideas? I think it might be an idea just for something out of the old routine and going by what you wanted to see.

Like I said, I was struggling for things to say, so i'll just give you an update - I've got a few parties coming up... A few friends turning 18 so i'll be out drinking again... Then there's the Prom on thursday for leaving College.

In other news - I've taken quite an obsession to two people lately. One, a Welsh-born actor (yay) Christian Bale. I love his movies and his ability to become each character... Im looking forward to watching American Psycho and Equilibrium sometime, i really enjoyed other movies like Batman Begins, 3:10 to Yuma, The Prestige, The Machinist and others. Christian Bale, the legend... I salute you!

The other person who I have grown especially fond of, is Billie Piper. She hit the music scene at the age of 15 with 3 no.1 hit singles and released two albums. She later went on to acting where she is probably most notable for playing Rose Tyler in the new series of Doctor Who. And perhaps more recently, the star of Secret Diary of a Call Girl (I saw the first episode and really need to see the rest). So, I've been listening to her old music which is really fun, it's very pop-esque but it's cheery and always got for those on a down day. Then, I started watching Doctor Who and I think it's safe to say I have a schoolboy crush. Still... She's only 26, I'm 18.... what are my chances?

Well, a few more days have passed since I promised you, my friends, a greater activity on my part in blogging and just being around the site. So, I was thinking what to say today and thought since my previous blog was announcing my return and giving my hopes for the future, I figured it might be worthwhile in taking a look at the past. The recent past, that is.

So, what has been occuring recently in the life of Steve Le Beave? Let's take a look...

Obviously leaving school and the A Level exams.
My PC's graphics card overloaded and died preventing my PC from working for a good week or two.
The house is being decorated .
Myself and a best bud decided to get good jobs and rent a place together.
Since exams ended, played alot more games e.g:
FIFA up to 89%.
Guitar Hero - now playing on Medium difficulty, averaging 4 or 5 stars, will never play Hard though.
CoD - Got to rank 51 Online, but have been getting urges to play Campaign again.
Applied for a few jobs, however no repsonses as of yet.
Been going Music Mad, listening to my iPod & iTunes almost every hour of the day.
Got a suit for my Prom.

Yeah, all in all, things are going quite well lately. Sure every now and then there's a speedbump in the road whether thats lack of cash preventing me going out, or any other reason, ultimately, I'm thinking of a quote from a movie called Harold & Kumar Go Get The Munchies (or Go To Whitecastle - for my transatlantic cousins in the USA ):

"The Universe tends to unfold as it should".

Looking at things with a sort of happy-go-lucky attitude in recent times seems to be working well for me so i suggest you try it!

Thanks for reading guys and gals!

Hey!

It's been a good month or so now but I am back. I spent some time away trying to find what to do with my life etc as I leave College. Well, as you know I had my A Level exams, which i finished my last one about an hour ago and it went brilliantly so I have ended them on a high note Overall they went quite well and I took your advice to gear my butt in gear to revise too. Thanks! Out of all of them, there was only one exam which was a abit 'meh', but i suppose that is bound to happen.

Anyway, now I am free of Education, and out into the wild. So, I now plan on getting a job, a flat with a friend and enjoy my remaining years of youth. My fitness plan went kaput as the exams approached but now I plan on getting back on track with that... Get that six-pack we all love so much Anyway, I was never happy in School and College, so now I am 'turning over a new leaf', and going to break free of the depression and boredom and malarky which came with that, and just enjoy myself.

I hope to get back into my blogging and to pay greater interest into yours too.

Thanks guys, it's good to be back

Friday (tommorrow) is my last ever schoolday... At 16 i decided to stay on to Sixth-Form (college) to study for two more years and get some A Level Qualifications. Wow, that was two years ago now huh. Well time has flown by, and it's my last day tommorrow, but while people are calling it the end of an era and getting all upset and emotional, im looking to be the only person who is optimistic (for possibly the first time ever). I hated every last minute of school and education. The endless hours of homework, essays, coursework, relentless teachers, and people who call you their 'friends' yet stab you in the back at the drop of a hat. It all ends tommorrow. Sure, you are probably reading this thinking i sounds like i am going in with a machine gun and wasting everyone, I probably am like that as I have just hit the last mission on GTA, but lets stick to the point.

I've never been so terrified in all my life.. Nothing i am pressured to go to.. After pretty much being forced to attend for 13 or 14 years... I am free I guess. But it's scary... I've mentioned before people are afraid of spiders and snakes and heights.. My only fear is not knowing what the future holds... And in this situation i've never been so excited yet terrified at the same time. Sure, it all ends tommorrow, but i will have to actually sit my exams in the next few weeks, and what then? Full time job? Car? House? Family? The whole life shaboodle? Hopefully. Well i'm probably not making too much sense right now and i'm sure this is the worst presented blog i've ever made.

Anyway, i just thought it was worth blogging about. Thoughts and feelings and advice appreciated...

I know almost everyone has already started their revision, but I just can't or maybe more accurately.. wont. I don't know why, but i've never been good at getting my brain in the right mind-set to do it, and i know people say these are the most important exams of my life but that just makes me want to put it off more (dont ask why - I don't know). So, any advice you can give me to help get my butt in gear?

In other news - I am really getting into GTA IV now and am probably nearing the end.... I've taken my time with it as I don't need to worry about 360 acheivements as I'm playing PS3. A great game

If you want to say or ask anything then feel free to comment...

Since my Monthly Blog went a tad pear-shaped, i think my eventful week shall have to substitute for that. So, let me briefly sum-up what went down this week. Then if you have the time, i wil go into them in more detail further on.

• I had a Welsh A Level Speaking Exam. It went well
• GTA - Played some missions and now im stuck on two very similar ones.
• Got back on the old FIFA... Feeding my Challenges addiction again
• Did a Camera Challenge (explained further on), and it was a great bonding and fun day (probably one of the best days of my life).
• Went to see Cardiff City FC play Barnsley in the final match of the season (final league match at least).
• Discovered the most amazing song ever, sure, it's cheesy but if you're like me then its such a good Theme Song for my life.
• Dilemna: Two parties, one night.
• Last night - Sixth Form Party Finale: The end of an era. Got drunk and realised some things.
• Today.. ill
• Realisations and My Future

Exam

Well, as you know i am extremely passionate about my country and any of you who actually know the Welsh language will know how beautiful it can sound and that's why we have some of history's most beautiful literature. So, I decided to take Welsh as an A Level (and im first language English so it doesnt really come naturally). Anyway, we (myself and buddy Mike) had to speak with an examiner for 45 mins on Theatre, Film, TV, Radio, Newspaper, Magazines, the play Siawn by Saunders Lewis and answer a Synoptic question (could be anything so we couldnt prepare for it). Anyway, i must say the examiner lady was a lovely lady and made us very comfortable. It went well and the Synoptic turned out to be on Love & Marriage - which i was quite comfortable talking about, I even managed to crack off a little joke too

GTA

Well i've played through a little bit and I don't like rushing nor playing it too much because i find failing the missions drives me mad. So, now i'm stuck on The Snow Storm and Final Interview. Both are very similar and frustrating. So, maybe i'll give them a go later... It makes the missions fifty times harder when it's nighttime too because i can't see anything!

FIFA

Had a friend around who got me playing this again. I am at about 83% complete... Even though the real aim for these games is fun... I just figured 'why not?'. So i've gone back to do the Challenges which almost gave me a heart attack last time... ish me luck!

Camera Challenge

Right, the objective is to be in a group of 5 people and you are given a set of pictures that have to be taken around the City. There's about 25 pictures to take each with a different challenge, for example: 'Pretend to be an aeroplane outside Top Gun Fish Shop', 'Have a team member jump a river', have a team member get a bucket of water poured all over them', 'have a group photo on a see-saw', 'get a piggyback from a stranger' etc. So we did this on Monday from about 10am to 5pm and it was amazing. My group consisted of myself, best mates Mike and Daz, and awesome girls Rach n Elle. It truly was one of the best days of my life. So much fun, just joking around and spending time with some of my fave peeps. When we got the pics developed and rushed to Megabowl to see if we had won (there were about 5 other teams competing), it went down to a tie breaker worth 20 points. The tie-breaker was this - 3 team members eat an entire pack of the worlds spiciest chillis, first team to do so, wins. However, as only myself and Mike were willing to take on for the team, it was 3-on-2. Inevitably we lost my one chilli. It took me about an hour for the pain to go away and 8 bottles of Fruit Shoot and a heck lotta water. I would put pics up of the actual Camera Challenge, but my friends might not appreciate it.

Cardiff Match vs Barnsley

It was a good match which we comfortably won 3-0 i think. A good way to end the season.. Now we set our sights on Wembley.

Song

I was bored and whilst eating a pizza 3 days ago I asked my sister if she happened to have any DVD's i hadn't watched. So, i ended up watching John Tucker Must Die. It was cheesy and i won't go into detail but overall i gave it 3./5 But there was one moment in the movie where John kisses the main girl in the film and the sprinklers in her garden come on and they get wet and basically she runs indoors and he stands there smiling as the moment was interupted. A song came on. It was Just the Girl by The Click Five.

Dilemna

Like i said, two parties in one night. I'm torn and don't know what to do... Any thoughts?

The end of an era

Last night was the Final Sixth-Form (College) party we will have as Students at the school i go to. I don't usually go too often but figured 'why not, i'm 18 and can legally drink, and after all, its the end of an era'. So I went and realised I had not eaten i well over 24 hours so I rushed to Sainsbury's to buy a sandwhich and minutes later I started drinking. After the first 45 mins of the party i had only had about 4 drinks and was already feeling the effects of having not properly digested my food. I kept on drinking as the night went on and even bought a drink for someone i kinda like Although she dismissed it really, well, said thanks but really thought nothing of it if you know what i mean. I got pretty bad by the end of the night and have been finding pictures on Facebook and thinking 'when the heck ws that!?'. I remember getting the DJ to play Mr. Brightside by The Killers which was awesome. And also went crazy with my friend screaming 'que sera sera'. Oh and even made a Lil Jon shoutfest catch on as we were being kicked out at about 1.30am, we all went screaming 'WHAT!? YEAH! OKAY!'. Was quality. I saw my best friend kiss the girl he has been after for a while. and I enjoyed a good 40 crawl back to my house

Sick Day

But today it all caught up with me. Sleepless nights, lots of alcohol, no food in my system. All caught up with me and i have been 'ill' all morning. I managed to make it to College for one lesson, but ran home because i could feel it coming if you know what i mean.

Realisations & The Future

Yes, once again my mind is running rampant. So many thoughts flying through and I really don't know where to begin. But I had a few ideas before starting this Blog and this was to be the main bulk of it, but as I left it for last I have now forgotten what i was going to say. But i've just been having thoughts about my future... We leave College in less than a month. I'm not going to Uni so i suppose a Job will have to be looked for. Thinking about getting a Car and looking into all that. Thinking about friends, family and relationships. Thinking about my money or the lack thereof. Thinking about happiness and my future. I made a Video on my Playstation Eye a few weeks back when i was feeling a bit depressed and named it 'My Depression Confession' and said that the only thing I am afraid of in this life, is not knowing what the future holds. Or how i can shape my own destiny. If there is such a thing.

So, I just want to thank you for reading this and i greatly appreciate any comments and/or advice you may have for me. Thanks!

Unfortunately, I typed out my Monthly Blog, and even though it contained to expletives etc. I repeatedly received the message 'One or more words within your message were automatically censored'. I have read the blog about 15 times and in honesty... I'm pretty sick of it. There is nothing wrong with it, yet GS continually refrain me from posting it. I've contacted the Technical Support Board but nothing has been done yet... I'll Edit & Add my Blog in here sometime if I get a chance....

If it isn't possible then i'm sorry for this guys. But regulars to my blog will already know this was to be my last Monthly Blog for about 2 or 3 months as I have A Level Exams and other things to sort out. I did plan on giving something special but, unfortunately, that's not possible. Maybe next time.

My apologies and Thank You.

Yes once again the time has come
for my whole world to come undone,
April is the month i fear
As all my cash has been spent on beer,
And a few more pounds for GTA
But i kinda guess it's worth the pay,
And in some days the exams arrive
lack of knowledge on which i thrive,
but surely when the time will come
I KNOW i'll feel... like a bum,
with no job, money or car
I feel im going not too far,
not even friends can help me now
bursts of sweat upon my brow,
but i guess... i can try at least
i wont get angry... i'll cage the beast,
And all this stress I know the best
so much so... it hurts my chest
So i hope you can wish me the best of luck,
Cos without it... I know i'm f*cked,
And im sorry for my petty rhyme,
But I thank you all... for all your time.

Note - In case that wasn't clear enough i have alot on my plate lately: Jobseeking, Carseeking, Driving Lessons, Ill family, friendship strains, no money, exams approaching extremely quick etc. So i'm letting you know in poem form that i won't be around as much as usual... I hope you enjoy my next Monthly Blog, as it shall be postponed for 2 or 3 months minimum after this months. Thank you for your time.

FYI = I have never written a poem or anything like that before, i just thought it would be something different to have for my Blog, variety is apparently the spice of life so i hope you had fun. Comments appreciated. Diolch. Thanks.

A guitar hero that is. Yes after Harmonix signed a deal with the devil himself at Microsoft to ensure an exclusive Rock Band release on MAY 23rd (further delaying the PS3 release) I jumped ship and picked up a copy of Guitar Hero 3 for my PS3 yesterday. I've only played a few hours and have almost completed the Career mode on 'easy' difficulty. It's such good fun, although it's alot more fun i can imagine with some friends, pizza and drinks in. Nevertheless, it's always enjoyable and i'm looking forward to giving it some 'oomph' online too. I had one try at 'Ruby' on 'Expert' and failed after 6% it's incredibly difficult and i'll show you why by relocating you to some guy's blog, i have the same issue only mine seems slightly worse :

Click Me to see why i will fail at being a GH3 Expert.

So, my pinky problem forbids me from hitting the last fret therefore i doubt i will ever be able to acheive my maximum potential on this game, which is a shame.

In other news i HMV sent me my copy of 'I Am Legend' on Blu Ray today - even though i think release is on Monday. Still, im not going to complain! Good service from them on that.

So, with my new game i'm betting i'll find less & less time for CoD, even less time for FIFA and even less time for Revision for my upcoming A Level exams.

Oh well, just thought I'd keep you all up to date with things. Short & Sweet i hope.

Thanks for reading and bye!

EDIT/P.S.: If you would like to see what a real life hero i am then read PJ24s Interview with me, I'm sure we'd both appreciate it, it's a very good read, turned out better than i think we could've imagined! Hot Girls FTW! :p Click here to see it.

Just a short blog today to keep me on my toes and something i'm sure almost all of you can relate too. Upcoming Games.

I've pre-ordered my copy of Special Edition GTA IV for ps3. And knowing this will be released in two or three weeks it's making me very excited. But i've also been playing alot of CoD4 which i recently bought and cannot get enough of. So, i'm weary of whether or not i'll be playing it much anymore after April 29th.

Also i'm growing in anticipation of Metal Gear Solid 4, which shall be my first MGS game that i will have pre-ordered and actually looked forward to. I bought MGS2 a few weeks back, but haven't really played it, my ps2 is back collecting dust for the next few weeks i guess.

Finally, Rock Band. I was furious to find out (after about half a year of delays in Europe) that the Euro release on May 23rd will be solely on Xbox 360. Yet again Bill Gates has scr*wed over PS3 users. I just think that there is no respect not only for European gamers who have waited so long, and now they delay the PS3 one... It's incredibly disrespectful and makes me sick. We should be entitled to play games as soon as they are released Worldwide. Thank goodness GTA IV will be a worldwide release. Rockstar may make some sick games... But at least they respect their market.

EDIT = Now with a Price Tag of £180 (pretty much a few bucks short of DOUBLE what the US payed)... This sh*t is beyond the joke...

As you will have read in Part 1, I went to Wembley (England) to wacth the Semi Finals of the FA Cup (soccer). In the semi final match was Barnsley and Cardiff City. I of course, went supporting the Bluebirds, my hometown of Cardiff. A team that hadn't even reached the Semi Finals since we last won it in 1927... That's 81 years! Now being from Wales.... That's right folks... Not English! Being from Wales I along with most of it's enhabitants have great passion, a great pride in my country. We recently won the Grand Slam and the Triple Crown in the Six Nations (Rugby), our musical talents keep doing well in the music charts, actors or should I say legends being recognised for what they so rightly deserve. It's a proud time for me. So of course queuing for 6 hours in the freezing cold to get a ticket for this match was well worth it.

I left at 7.30am on April 6th in my Dad's car... I managed to fall asleep due to me playing CoD4 online ALL NIGHT (1am to 6am) so lack of sleep caught up with me. When i woke up 45 minutes into my sleep there was SNOW everywhere! I was loving it! We got there early and i'll spare you the details but we parked a while away and got a train into Wembley. We got there... Took a bit of a walk around then followed like a herd of sheep up to the stadium. What a sight!

(Me in front of the stadium).

We walked around looking for entrance A and managed to do a complete 360 We went from left to right assuming that going from P backwards would lead us to A, instead it was right next to where we started. But no worries, for I managed to get a quick snap of the famous Bobby Moore statue. Lots of people were shoving to get a picture in front of it, so i had to be quick when getting it done. But here you go...

Then we walked around some more and managed to find a small cafe where I had a cup of tea and a burger. I actually out of sheer luck walked past a car park and saw City player and former Liverpool Legend Robbie Fowler getting out of his car and going to the hotel. Seemed a nice chap but i couldn't speak, i assume the car park must have been restricted access. But i grabbed a picture while I could

(He's the one in shorts on a day it snowed lol).

And then I made my way to the stadium... Got in early, got a programme and started getting my voice in tune ready for the chanting. Managed to grab a snap too

What a great Stadium, but it can't compare to the Millennium Stadium

The teams came out and we outsung the Barnsley fans and shook the ground with our thunderously loud and passionate chanting. We knew that we were the favourites and we knew that Portsmouth had already qualified for the finals, and after their shady performance the day before, we knew we could take it. The game started City's (Cardiff's) way, we managed to get in their Defence right away but seeing their Goalkeepers performance vs Liverpool I knew he would make things tough for us. Luckily about 9 mins into the first half, we had a throw in which was launched into the box headed on by Hasslebaink i believe and then struck with sheer quality, precision and ****by Welsh International Joe Ledley. We were 1-0 up. The chants came thick and fast "It's Cardiff City, Cardiff City FC, we're the greatest team in football, the world has ever seen" "Bluebirds!" "Sheep Sheep Sheep sh*ggers" "Davey Jones' Barmy Army". But Barnsley weren't out of it yet, they put up a brilliant attack and the goal didn't put them off their task... They took it to Cardiff with hundreds of crosses into the box, Odejayi managed to get through 1 on 1 with our Goalkeeper Enkelman and still managed to scuff the shot wide. Things looked more and more bleak for the reds.

The second half Cardiff began to pick up their form and get on the attack.. The introduction of 17 year old Aaron Ramsey sent half of us nuts, watching a local lad with the future of football at his boots. The attack went from end to end from both teams and on the 90 minute mark... 4 minutes of added time were announced... We were furious... More so when in total that was dragged out to 6 minutes! But we held on and were triumphant.

We are going to meet Portsmouth on May 17th at Wembley Stadium in the FA Cup FINALS! Can we do the unthinkable... A Championship team that hasn't won in 81 years overcome the odds to beat a team in 6th place in the Premier League? You better believe it!

Let's keep this a nice, brief blog today, therefore in Small Paragraph form!

The Bourne Collection seen in my Monthly Blog has been cancelled I instead get the original little Boxset with no goodies

I bought Call of Duty 4 for PS3.

Went out Clubbing again last night for a friends Birthday. I spent a total of £30 for the night, including travel & entry & alcohol. Not bad.

Practised some golf (for the first time in over a year) with a friend, now i remember why i gave it up... I'm crap... But i guess i'll stick to what i do best... Table Tennis, Pool, Poker & other Card & Gambling, Badminton, Soccer, Karting, Bowls, Bowling, Extreme Dodgeball (not sport, just local fun... but i'm good ). So i suppose Golf is just one thing on a small list of things i suck at. And if you include stuff like Air Hockey and Chess as sports... I'm good at those too, oh and Table Football (Foosball).

I'll be back to College in a few days And i've done ZERO work over the past 2 weeks off.

Introduction

I'm hoping to integrate a few more pictures this month but don't want to overdo it, so maybe just pics of the important stuff. So, I hope you enjoy this Monthly Blog, and without further ado, my March...

New Acquisitions

Games Bought:

• Pre-ordered Special Edition GTA IV for PS3.
• Metal Gear Solid 2.
• Dead or Alive 2 (Platinum)
• Enter the Matrix
• The Matrix: The Path of Neo

Movies & DVD's Bought:

• 3:10 to Yuma (Blu-Ray).
• The Ultimate Bourne Collection.
• Pre-Ordered: I am Legend (Blu-Ray).
• Chasing Amy
• The Pursuit of Happyness
• The Simpsons Movie

Music Bought:

Got some singles:

• Rock is Dead - Marilyn Manson
• Nine in the Afternoon - Panic at the Disco
• Sleeping Satellite - Tasmin Archer
• The Big Bang Theory Theme Song - Barenaked Ladies
• Wake Up - Rage Against the Machine
• Turn Me On - Kevin Little
• Get Low - Lil Jon
• Daddy Wasn't There - Austin Powers
• Pontypool Front Row - Max Boyce
• Opposites Attract - Paula Abdul
• Calm Like a Bomb - Rage Against the Machine
• I bet that you look good on the dancefloor - Arctic Monkeys
• Sleeping Awake - POD
• When you tell me that you love me - Westlife ft Diana Ross
• Superstar - Lupe Fiasco
• Naïve - The Kooks
• Relax, Take it Easy - Mika
• It's gonna be me - N*Sync
• Low - Flo Rida ft T Pain.

Random Purchases:

Ø Magazines: EMPIRE & PSM

Ø PS2 to PS3 Memory Card Adapter

Ø 4 New T shirts - A cool Eagle one, a glitter one, a cool Batman one and a Scarface one.

Ø Total of £80 on alcohol.

Ø Football (soccer ball) = £3

Ø Trendy White Shirt from River Island (picked out wrong size though ).

Progress

Gamespot Progress

Ø 0 Levels (from 25.30 to 25.81) .

Ø No New Emblems.

Ø 6 new friends (up from 274).

Ø Blogs = 6 (including this).

Game Progress:

Started with endless hours of Online play of FIFA08... But let's see how it went as the month progressed....

Ø Played my 300th Offline FIFA match... My record with that is 290 wins.

Ø I decided, well actually had an urge to play Scarface: The World is Yours on my ps2... The quality was poor because it played on my HDTV, but I managed to complete two missions and put me up to 40 missions complete... Leaving me with about 5 or 6 remaining...

Ø DOA - Completed, Hated, Traded back in

Ø Metal Gear Solid 2 - Played a few minutes of it and realised immediately that this may be one of, if not the toughest games I shall ever play. We shall see.

Ø Enter the Matrix... Good fun.. I've done quite a lot of this game... Possibly about half way through by now..

Ø The Matrix: Path of Neo... Played about an hour or two on this and thoroughly enjoyed it... All the acrobatics as Neo etc.

Ø FINALLY... Got a chance to play Okami.. I won this in the GS:UK Podcast LAST MARCH!!!! Finally played it... It's very strange, but I'll certainly give it a chance... I just didn't like that I could only seem to Save it every 35 mins or so... So far...

Personal Life

Movies watched:

• Hairspray
• Blades of Glory
• Outlaw
• The Matrix
• The Matrix Reloaded
• The Matrix Revolutions
• The Departed
• The Pursuit of Happyness
• 3:10 to Yuma
• Chasing Amy (x3)
• (Jason Statham one)
• Meet The Spartans
• First Sunday

TV watched:

• Skins series 2
• The Big Bang Theory
• Reaper
• Jonathan Ross
• Two & a Half Men
• South Park

Favourite Song:

Stop & Stare by One Republic.

Favourite Picture:

Favourite Quote:

A short quote this time but a good one in my books nonetheless:

"Sometimes it feels like the world left us behind a long time ago." Clerks II

Favourite Word

This month's word is...

Passion.

Why choose passion? Largely because of the fact I was filled to the brim with it this month. For my Country as we won the Six Nations, Grand Slam, Triple Crown in Rugby, for my City as we progressed to the Semi-Finals of the FA Cup at Wembley, for my Boxing heroes Enzo Maccarinelli and Joe Calzaghe who fought or prepared to fight. Then there was a song about Wales that made me smile. The passion for my country kept growing. I realised that at that moment of my desperately depressing life, my passion for my country kept me going. My wish is that I can serve her back one day to show my gratitude. Please people; be passionate in all you do.

Best Moment of the Month:

Would be stupid if I didn't say my Birthday Trip to London now wouldn't it? Like I said.. Visit this blog...

Thoughts & Events

1. My Birthday & trip to London... see this this blog.

2. Went out clubbing for the first time where I could get served alcohol. Spent £50 in one night. Was not amused L Another £30 the following Thursday.

3. Got ill for a few days. Took some time off college and watched lots of DVDs.

4. Went to Ninian Park to see Cardiff City beat Hull 1-0.

5. Bought Krispy Kreme donuts in London... Were worth killing for... Oh the deliciousness: P

6. Went to the City Centre a few times with friends and had a brilliant time.. One of the best times of my life last Wednesday!

7. Went down to Ninian Park to pick up my ticket to Wembley!!! It meant queuing from 3:30am until approximately 9:15am in the FREEZING cold... See my previous blog if you so wish...

Possible Purchases/Things I considered & Nearly Bought:

Ø Call of Duty 4 for PS3.

That's All Folks!

Thank you all for taking time to read my Monthly Blog, I hope you enjoyed reading about the uneventful events in my life

If you've noticed any major mistakes I make, I am now asking you do comment on them so I can improve it in future etc. Thanks!

Comments are, as usual, appreciated and shall be reciprocated (returned), so until next month... That's All Folk's!

Hello. Today marks the first part of something I have not tried before... A two-part blog. So, here's how I intend this to work... Part 1 shall be about the background etc and the ordeal to attain a ticket to see Cardiff City v Barnsley in the FA Cup Semi Finals at Wembley Stadium. This shall be followed in a week or so by Part 2 which will focus on the journey to England, the Stadium, a match review and anything interesting I can throw in there too... I'm hoping to get some nice photos if possible also. So, without further ado... Part 1 - 'Guess who's going to Wembley!?'.

Hello. Last night I received zero hours of sleep as I waited until 3am to go down to Ninian Park to begin queuing for our tickets for the match. When we arrived there was already approximately 400 people in front of us some in tents, some on deck chairs, sleeping bags etc. I made sure that I was prepared for this as the tickets didn't go on sale until 9am. So, i took my iPod, a camping chair, and wrapped up warm with the essential gloves, scarf, beanie hat, thick jumper and coat etc. But most disappointing is that I knew it would be freezing cold (Welsh weather huh? ) and wore Thermal socks, yet my feet were the only parts of my body that were cold... That was money well spent.

We stood around watching the night turn to day and watching the hours passed as we shared jokes with fellow 'City' supporters. At about 6am a female steward walked up the queue and we were informed that there was now about 3000 tickets left (rather than the 10,000 we originally thought). With our place in the queue, unless some person was buying an entire Block of Wembley, we were confident we would get our seats. As time passed it did so slower and slower, the final hour was murder.

I must compliment the Club as the organisation inside of the grounds was impeccable, and it wasnt long at all before we found ourselves chanting "Wembley, Wembley, Wembley!" to a BBC cameraman just inches away from the ticket salesmen(and women). We got our tickets at about 9:30 and then went to the Club Shop to find people scrambling over merchandise, thats not a bad thing, yours truly did so too. . I managed to nab me a foam FA Cup Wembley thingy and a commemorative FA Cup scarf of the Bluebirds which will be nice to treasure. Why? Possibly because we havent been this far in the FA Cup since 1927 when we last WON it . So this is possibly a once-in-a-lifetime thing and i'm milking it for all i can, as tickets to the final (provided we make it there) will be impossible to get - no matter how long we queue for.

So, the Road to Wembley has begun and I shall return in a week or so with Part 2 on how the Match went aswell as the journey to & from, any pictures, or anything you might enjoy hearing. I hope you enjoyed reading this... My sleepless hours keeps on increasing... Been about 48 hours now...

Thanks, see you at Wembley

I don't usually make two blog posts in one day.... But this is a special occasion. I figure that i am genuinely happy, for the first time in months, possibly going on years. For once my day had NO negative points and i can actually sit around in my house wearing the biggest smile. If i'm honest, i'm so happy I could cry, that is genuine happiness in my eyes (and i was raised by a man who implied it's wrong for men to cry lol). It's almost unexplainable...

I think it's best i give you an overview of things in my life before today (bear in mind im revealing things here that i never have before and probably shouldnt):

• I have depression (the clinical illness... i aint messing around).
• Parents recently split & certain members sending death threats to others
• Grandad contracted Brain cancer a few weeks back, can barely walk or remember people.
• Friends have betrayed me
• Got a bigtime crush on someone...
• Approaching A Level exam = pressure from teachers etc.
• LOADS of essays & coursework
• I've been on the tubby side for years so recently tried kicking myself into gear (lost 3 stone and put on some muscle but the constant thinking about what im eating healthily etc is a downer).
• I'm quite short for my age, in comparison to friends at least
• mild acne - but its a pain in the ass looking in the mirror
• and here's the best part.. a FAILED freakin suicide...

BUT FEAR NOT! For today I was happy, I finally received the 'Good' day i deserved. It's been a long time coming too. Here's my day.... 26th March 2008.

• Woke up and ate leftover Pizza Hut from yesterday & watched a cool film called Cellular i think it is.
• Went to the bus stop and sat and talked with the only girls in the world who have ever given me a second look One of them happens to be the afforementioned crush.
• Then i was in town my my best friends, had a gorgeous Hot Chocolate & Triple Chocolate Muffin from Costa Coffee.
• Bought a very nice football for only £3
• Went to a park with best friends had good fun playing football and frisbee.
• Almost bought an Xbox 360 and loved having the cash to do so (i didnt though) and then almost CoD4 for ps3.
• Then bought 4 ps2 games for ONLY £10!!!! See last Blog for more info.
• Enjoyed a pleasant walk home and saw a stunning rainbow (i'm a big admirer of my environment and cool naturey stuff.
• Watched England vs France in the football on TV.
• Managed to un-tangle to billions of dusty cables behind my TV and unplug my broke VCR & unplug my PS2.
• Set up my ps2 downstairs without any manuals & did it the old fashioned Man way
• Listening to 'Its Gonna Be Me' by N*Sync - It's upbeat and really helping my current happiness.
• Soon I intend to cook a fresh pizza and watch my *NEW* Simpsons Movie DVD whilst relaxing with a well-deserved Kronenbourg 1664 (Lager).
• Now i'm speaking to my best friends on an Instant Messenger and having fun joking around with them whilst listening to happy music.
• And of course taking comfort in blogging all this and knowing there are people who will take the time to read this and actually care... Thanks!

So thats my past and current day. Thanks for reading, gosh i'm soooooo... Happy really isn't the word... Ecstatic!

Thanks for reading... Hope you all find true happiness too!

Hey guys, just a short blog for a change.

Today I went out with some friends into City Centre and I bought a Football (needed a good one for weeks) and a muffin & some Hot Chocolate. But my dirty little bargain was this. A section in Gamestation had 4 ps2 games for £10. Now as you know I play PS3, but with the upcoming release of MGS4 and my recent rampage/addiction of The Matrix I thought 'Why not'. I almost went completely crazy and shelled out £50 for Call of Duty 4 for PS3. But in the end decided not to. So the four games I bought and am eager to try out are the following:

• Enter the Matrix
• The Matrix: The Path of Neo
• Metal Gear Solid 2
• Dead or Alive 2

I almost bought GUN but it was in a 4 for £20 section and couldnt find much reason to buy it really. I havent played any of the afforementioned games neither the original MGS or DOA games but I have been informed that MGS2 is the best of the series & the forthcoming Metal Gear Solid 4 carries of from number 2 which is a good thing right? Well just letting you know theres some good deals around so keep those gaming eyes open guys!

Thanks to all the friendly staff at Gamestation too!

Just a little blog today to keep you all entertained with recent events in the life of Mr. Beave.

First, I think i'll start with a social section. Since my coming of age my social life has been running rampant. Trips to the pubs, clubs, parties etc. But it took it's toll lately as the lack of sleep and overdose of alcohol put me in bed for a solid day. At first I thought it best to balance it out, but i've made the radical decision to cut alcohol out of my diet completely. Not forever obviously, and maybe not completely But i mean, I went out last Thursday, spent £50 on alcohol and weighed half a stone heavier in two days later. It's a silly thing to do considered i've been working hard from January to get fitter, build my stamina & endurance and hopefully get a job in the Navy. So, i've started to get back on track with that from today. Later i'll be off to Rileys to play Pool, but i won't be drinking I can assure you.

Secondly, a sporty section. Somebody once asked me "If you could be anyone in the world, who would it be?" and I replied Christiano Ronaldo. His tremendous finishing and accuracy, speed, agility, skill, not to mention... He's not a bad looking chap and rolling in cash... He was my answer. But lately, my eyes are fixed upon another footballing sensation. That of Liverpool's Fernando Torres. There is no one word to describe how magnificent a player he is. Again, he shows the skill, passion, flexibility, determination, accuracy, and consistancy & intelligence. He has scored 20 goals in his FIRST season for the club. It's unreal. I stand in awe of him and i've really enjoyed watching him play. He's a delight and really makes football the beautiful game that it once was.

Well, that's just some stuff i wanted to get off my chest or whatever. Any comments? You're more than welcome to share....

Diolch yn fawr iawn! (Thank you very much!)