Happy birthday to me?

Well today is my birthday and you think I would be happy but no. You see we found out yesterday that Grandma died. So I'm getting ready to take a 6 hour drive to go to her funeral. Now for some reason I just feel blah and I don't know why. It's not like I don't want to go to her funeral. Maybe it's because I have alot of stuff to do with school but for whatever reason I feel the way I do.