OK, I know I said that I wouldn't post any messages or respond to any PM's, but...I just had to post this. Remember I wrote the poem about the cute blonde guy Eric, well turns out the goddess I saw him with was actually his sister, looks like gorgeous runs in the family.  He was having to play chauffer until she got her driver's license back. I've been seeing him all over the place. Anyway, I go to my local tanning salon and see him there again playing chauffer to sis. He asks if he can call me sometime and of course I say sure. So we talk for a few days then finally he asks me out. So (OK, heart beating too fast here), we go to dinner then he takes me to the river where the city has like this boardwalk set up for people to walk and shop on. Its like whoa outside. Big beautiful moon, great atmosphere. So anyway we're walking hand in hand talking and then its like all of sudden he stops, spins me into his arms and....(blush)....kisses me! Oh! I could have melted there on the spot. At first it was a quick, "Is this OK" kiss then it became like that Daisuke Riku kiss at the end of DN Angel (stupid Youtube pulled the episode). He is so great guys. So I'm posting these songs, listen and enjoy, I am and thinking of him!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLHiIZoZfJw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=prApsRRbCzc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zM9cxcYQIUQ (if you watch this and wait for 3:26, you will see the kiss I was talking about)

Things have been so crazy for me. I kind of got busted on the computer for sending e-mails to a certain someone (you know who you are ops and can only post under the most dying circumstances, but this was too important not to share. I miss you all!!!

Jonas wanted all of you to hear the truth from him...so here goes...

All of you who are my friends and family (Kris included , I think we would have bene fine frinends and if you give me my msn Kris we shall talk things over) ...... Ok you guys this must be the last massage to you guys from me...... so `ll start from the biggining with the truth ..everyoen who has involved with me or Kris must read this so be kind and tell others please, it will be the last thing I ask you as Jonas_kun ......ok most of you know that I made this blog about how I want to change , to change myself from a charecter Jonas to actually beeying myself...this part wasnt made up, it was true ..I tryed and I failed..in teh end I just created a chrecter Jonas_kun who was a hardass and always speeked execly than he wanted and what he wanted , wouldent take crap from no one and always play mind games on people ...but this was all an act I think..I mena Im not at all thsi person in real life.... I think Im totaly difrrent, this must jsut be what I wanted to be cuz I thought it was so cool .. but it wasnt cool , it jsut hurt a lot of people.... Im sorry for that, sorry for beeying mean for no reason at all and allways playing mad as soon as someone tells something diffrent than I want to hear ...... anyways not short time after I wanted everyone to be my friends and make peace in this forum ..that was true also my heart disered that ... but than Kris showed up ( I knew some guy like him will show up, a voice inside told me that) and I knew he will cause problems..he had created this Kris_King charecter cuz he said he likes to act, and there is no doubt about it, we still dont know how Kris is outside his charecter, maybe some day I`ll find out..... ahe studyd my charecter Jonas_kun and found I was best man for him to play his charecter Kris_King on .... so he played the role of Kris .... and after that I all told you im gonna leave cuz Kris was so evil to me and he won..but it all was jsut a big mind game, I had a plan how to show hm not to play sucha stupid tricks on people...but something went wrong, one of my friends banned him from teh site... he was out for a week and he returned after a week, he lied about apoligizing, all he wanted was come closer to nikki... So this time I wanted to do something huge ... I told myself, damn it I must stop this guy , hes goying straight down in hell with his attitude, he wont last. I wanted to  be his real friend and show him what friends are really about... I wanted to show he had a choice to be a good friend and a good family member and that I care for him as much as for any of you my friends and family, he was as good friend as any of you, dont go and thing thoughts like hey Im not liek Kris Im so better than him, if you do that you are worse than Kris to me, you are falsely claming you are better than over human beeing ..sucha things doens texist all humans beeings are the same in heart and soul (or at least I believe so) .. so I had no choice but to create this new charecter Dark_Jonas and join forces with him to come closer to who he is...believe me it hurted more than any of you to tell that filth how I hate you and how I became a devil ..I felt every single insult to you in my heart ... yes I was inspired my King bokah on my charecter you were very rihgt there sienfield , cungrats by finding it out , yes it was liek a heel turn, it was exacly what I had in mind ..and brother part was inspired by a guy named Liquid snake from metal gear solid...there is no other guy in history who says word brother wiht more passion ..so in the end I created King Brothers ...it might seem lame to you but I thought it was really funny to play that part..I mean it jsut was so fake I hoped you would figure it out that it just was fake .... anyways but jsut to days after I first began to troll someone banned me ..and they made huge favor and I was counting on it .. I made a mistake, I mean I said I would not play any more mind games on you guys and I still did and I would have gone with my Dark_Jonas charecter for really long while (a mont or so) so you saved all my friends for torture so I thank you deeple , and I will not take any kind of revenge on you , dont worry , you did the right thing while I was wrong..... last word to Kris_King..Kris I hope you gonna give me your msn man, I want to know you better , if you wont man just be care ful out there and dont play more charecters, be yourself, you dont need any charecters to fullfill your porn dreams ...I mean be a decent human beeing or you will hurt yourself, I hope you will have a good life "brothe" (and yeah nikki told you that you send allour messages to her)..adn now to all my brothers and sisters I hope you good luck in your lives, it was really nice to get to know you all, peace to you all , and protect and serve each other no matter how diffrente you are, you do that adn you`ll become a true familyand I must sak my mentor sweet_jane to put this up cuz she is the biggest light on this site ... goodbye ... With burning of light in my heart heart Jonas..may all the lights of the world be with you *turns into the light and goes towards it*

I knew when Jonas started posting that he was joining Kris, something didn't feel right because thats just not Jonas. But each day and each post made it seem like my worst fears were true. However, Jonas sent me a message last night through my hotmail account...it was all just an act. He was trying to find out who Kris really was and he thought that by joining him he could expose him and possibly stop him from hurting others. He was trying to help Kris and well, things didn't quite work out as they should have. He was banned and said he doesn't know if he will ever come back. He didn't mean what he said and he seeks everyones forgivness.  

I hate that something like this happened and tore our family apart. And in addition to Jonas leaving I also announce that I will no longer be returning as well. I know I've said this before, but as long as Jonas was here I felt like I had a reason to return. I don't know how many of you know this or not, but I fell for Jonas right after we first met. I carried it too far and put my heart on the line and while its been broken for a few days its starting to mend. Unfortunately the damage has been done. I'm not living outside this world we've created here and its starting to affect my school work, life, and lives of those around me. So I'm going cold turkey. I may check my mail once or twice to see if anyone has sent me anything, but as far as posting or PMing I won't be doing any more of that. I'm sorry. I know we were all just getting to know each other, but I have to ask, whats more important, that I'm playing at living here or that I actually live? So goodbye. I love you all and you are all important to me. I won't forget any of you.

Please tell me who reported Jonas and Kris. I fear that Jonas has been banned because both he and Kris's pages are wiped clean. I didn't want him to be banned...I don't care what happened to Kris, but I don't want Jonas to leave. This wasn't about starting a war, it was about stopping people from getting hurt and I didn't want Jonas to get hurt. You can PM me if you would like to tell me, but I would like to know the truth.