So here I am again, emerging from my dank dark basement to escape the heat to once again become the couch potato that I am for all the shiny new shows. I love fall, summer's too hot, winter's too cold, spring last's like 2 seconds here in Canada, but fall is perfect. Except for school, bleh, can't wait for College.

So my summer sucked, i didn't do anything. I tried to get a job yet again, but nowhere's hiring except the local ice-cream shack. It's un-air-conditioned, coffin sized, and smells like corn-chips and sweat .

In even less exciting news, I started this healthy eating kick, I swear I haven't eaten sugar in 6 weeks. The good news? I lost about 15 pounds, I can run a couple km s without gasping like a lifetime smoker, and my mood is not unlike being on anti-depressants. The bad news? I have physically attacked people who eat chocolate in-front of me .

Anyway that was my summer in a nutshell, riveting huh? Imagine how exiting it is to actually live it. Can't wait for the new TVseason to start so more interesting, pretty people can live for me

TTFN

I had an art exam yesterday, meh it was pretty easy but still you know it was an exam so it's not like I'm all broken up that it's over.

I went shopping with my friend for my birthday and I didn't even buy anything, I have no idea why, I like shopping, I blow my budget every time I go shopping, who knows.

It might be because I've been weirdly depressed these last few days. Don't you hate when no matter what's going on in your life you still feel horrible? I don't know what it's about. Actually I feel all perky now, probably those 2 large lattes, that and I have this play I'm doing coming up, I'm so excited I love being a stage ham.

So I think I'll check out why everyone is so nuts over Ugly Betty tonight. Truthfully I think I'm only watching to see Rebbecca Romain portray a trans-gender woman...don't ask me why...

 So some may know this, others may not but my biological father gave me up when I was a baby.

I've never really thought of him before, to me he was always this myth, like Santa. But the other day I found this old picture, I recognized a really young looking mom and a man. I flip it over and it says: To Louisa (my mom)
Found this picture a few days ago, thought you'd like it, happy birthday, I love you.

So understandably I was freaked out, so I keep looking through this old box where I found it and there was another one, this time it was him holding a baby...as you can probably guess it was me.

I look so much like him, I have his hair, his chin and his eyes, it's just so...surreal.

I haven't told my mom yet because well she doesn't like to talk about him, she told me about him when I was younger, and that I wasn't allowed to try and find him. At the time I didn't give it much thought, but now I don't know.

It's weird to know that you will never get to see your real father, and now all I can think about is him, I remember asking my mom at the time if he loved me, she told me of course he did but I don't know...

I have a new dad now but all my life I've never thought of him as my dad, I wonder if I ever will.

Sorry if I've creeped you out I just felt like I had to write that down.

So everyone else seems to be posting blog after blog I thought what the hell.

Basically the most exciting thing that happened to me was that our power went out for a few hours, nothing terrible happened to us but we were having a pretty bad ice storm so sadly some of my friends are homeless because a tree went right through their house. My friend Deb still doesn't have power, it kinda sucks, for them I mean. Fa la la la la folks.

Yes I finally have my laptop, I'm so happy right now, the only problem is the battery life is kinda sucky, but still i can't complain.

I've asked this on some forums but no one's helped me, so please I'm begging some one out there, anyone, how the hell do you put a picture in your signature? I just can't do it, so please help me, I'm so pathetic when it comes to technology.

I'm really exited I'm seeing my best friend tonight. She goes to another school and we haven't seen each other all summer. Finally I get to be girly again. Nail polish and slutty tops, yay! Sorry TMI i know, shut up SugarySweet? sure you bet.

Anywaaay, we're seeing a play that my other friends are in, which I was going to be in but, well that's another story. And we're havin pizza so I mean what else do you want?

Oh yeah as of that weren't enough I am without a doubt getting a laptop, well okay it like 90% certain 10% doubtful but whatever. Oh yeah and the office premieres 2night, best day ever! I have simple joys but that's what makes me such a happy person.

So I better start puckering up now, cause this is goint to take a whole lot of a** kissing.

I want more than anything my own computer, I mean I need it so badly for school, plus I think by now I freakin deserve one. We have two desktop computers and well that's okay, but I mean one's from the eighties I think and is slower than frozen maple surup (sorry it's the canadian in me, we like maple surup). The other one is my Dad's, and he's crazy about it so I can never use it. But I desperatly want a notebook computer.

Well I talked to him about it and he says it could happen, but price is an issue. Yeah no kidding they cost at least $700 plus all that stuff that has to come with it.

But we are talking to my mom today when we visit her in the hospital (I really hate it there). She just had a little surgery but she's fine. So hopefully I can convince her too and work out the money thing with my Dad.

Wish me luck!

How can Jesse Spencer have gotten hotter? He was a perfect ten and now he's... god i don't know like fifteen, the hotness meter isn't meant to go that high people, oh no it's broken now.

It's got to be the hair, it's shorter or longer I don't know. Poor Jenny though, she tried a new look with her hair and it's not working so great. I liked her season two look, and i don't think it would hurt if she put on a little weight. Well everyone says that but I mean even if she didn't put on a few pounds she'd still look incredible. God Jess and Jen have to be the world's hottest couple, their children could rule the world.

Which is odd because I'm not all that interesting. Anyway I'm on level four so uh, goodie? Well it's weird because yesterday I was at level 3 at only 70%. *shrugs* Well I'm not complaining.

Also there's this butterfly there too, oh wait, like social butterfly? 'cause i've just added over twenty people to my friends list? Oh ha ha well played tv.com.

Anywho I just watched wild wild west. All I can say is, if you want to watch the most pg female bashing movie ever it's for you. Seriously the woman in the movie have like 1/18 of a brain and they keep it in their boobs. Well whatever I got to see Will Smith's ass so we'll call it even.

Oh I was bouncing off the walls last night. So all the internet rumors had led my to a dark place when I read that Jesse and Jen had broken up. But then tvguide revealed they are together and the emmys were their coming out as a couple thing. If you don't who I'm taking about it's Jennifer Morrison and Jesse Spencer from House. My life sorta revolves around that show and it's actors.

I have the urge to blog, twice in one day oh boy

So since people have taken the time to track me, I might as well add them to my friends list. Well today or tomorow whenever.

Another wierd dream last night. Recently I started watching Grey's atatomy, I felt bad about it though, like i was cheating on House, the best show in the world in my opinion. Anyway for some reason I dreamt I was Anderson or whatever her name is, the tall chick who isn't quite in the same league as Patrick Demsey in my opinion.

Well I was her and I dyed my hair but no one noticed. Why you ask is this even important? Who is this crazy girl who dreams of being not even the best looking or most exciting character on a show? I don't know actually.

Well I do have my shallow moments and I don't know I like my hair, I'm blonde so I feel like I'm supposed to.

Now I've just realised that I've mentioned that I'm blonde and shallow on more than one occasion in two seperate blogs, oh yeah I've got major issues

See now when you don't pay attention to all the messages in your inbox here at tv.com you can really be in for a shock. I leave for two days and there's like twenty people tracking me. They're all from gamespot and I don't really get it, I must have done something to get all these people to track me, so um can anyone refresh my memory?

So I didn't get squat done today,  last night I downloaded The Hitchhiker's guid to the galaxy on my ipod. What I didn't realise was that it was 5 hours long!

So I'm sitting on my couch laughing randomly at all the funny bits (and there were lots) while my parents think I'm suffering from brain damage or something. I still haven't finished it but I'm about to. And if you have an ipod I highly recomend this book, Steven Fry reads it. For those who are Hugh Laurie obsessed you kow that he starred with him in a TV series over in the U.K. I watched a few episodes on VHS and they're pretty good.

It's one of those days. I wish I could say it started out fine but that would be a full out lie.

My mom woke me up this morning to tell me my bunny was very sick. Then a few hours later she came back and my bunny had been put down.

God it just sucks, I knew it was going to happen sooner or later, she was seven years old which is pretty old for a rabbit. I miss her so much, I got her for my first birthday in our new house along with her brother. A few months later we rescued another bunny to add to our happy family. Last year both boy rabbits died, both within a month of the other. I was devastated to say the least, I cried for days.

But today, I feel numb, I don't think it's sunk in yet.But I know I'm going to crash, when I grieve really badly I takes awhile for everything to sink in. That and I bake like crazy, and today I made 4 dozen cookies, jello, a pie, and a cake.

Maybe it's not a good idea for me to be posting this, but I'd like to think it'll help.

For now I'm going to go and comfort my cat, who was with my rabbit when she stopped breathing. My kitty loved her so much, she would sleep with her to make her feel better. Without her my rabbit would have suffered so much more.

I'm going to miss her so much, but I bet she's happy, where ever she is. We buried her under the lilac bush in the back, it was her favourite place to sleep and play.

So I'm trying to decide which House DVD to buy. It will probably be number 1 because I actually started watching the show halfway through season 2 and the episodes I've missed from that season I've already caught in reruns. The only problem is I don't know which season is better, and which DVD has better bonus features. *sigh* Decisions, decisions.

I'll more than likely wind up buying both, but it'll take awhile, the DVDs are like $65 in Canada, whoo lets hear it for the crappy Canadian dollar!

God don't ask me why but I actually thought I would try and watch big brother last night. And, ugh...I liked it!

It was so addictive, I'm not big into reality shows I'm much more of a Drama kinda girl, but there was just something about it. I guess this season is better than the others because this time it's the all star cast. My friends pity me and I know now why I don't tell them most things about me.

I regret to say that I plan on watching until the end just to see how that evil blonde b**ch will get hers in the end. Muahahaha. God I'm sad.

But looking at the positives I guess I'm not as sick as some fans who watch them on the 24/7 cam they have on cbs.com, now that's just weird.

Halfway through the show I so pitied the people on the show, you must be really desperate to give up every last shred of dignity left just to be on T.V.

Ugh, have you ever had one of those nights where you just keeping having nightmares over and over again. I had one of those tonight. My first one was something involving tornadoes (my biggest fear) and being all alone.

Then I dreamt that my new dog jumped out of our car and my Dad refused to go back and get him. I have some Daddy issues.

Then when I fell back asleep for the third time I dreamt my family was getting robbed.

My dreams are so weird! I usually have dreams where I'm being left all alone and I'm a baby again. Most people say dreams mean something or they have something to do with your conscious life. Maybe the baby one has something to do with my real dad leaving me and my mom when I was a few months old (yep Daddy issues).

Sometimes i have dreams that just stick with me for years. Once I dreamt I was in a Japanese ink painting, it was amazing everything was in black and white. I was talking to a old man on a mountain. He told me that I couldn't leave until I was happy again. I have no idea what that was about.

But the weirdest and most memorable dream I had was a dream where I was swimming. I was in this scuba class with all these people I didn't know. Normally my dreams aren't very clear but in this one everything seemed so real. I could feel things, smell the ocean and every one had faces.

Suddenly this guy comes in saying he found the end of the universe. We all said he was crazy obviously. Then I'm in the water and I'm floating beside this huge underwater cliff looking down into darkness. For some reason I swim down. I swim for so long until I see small bright lights. Then I realise the lights are stars and I'm in space.

I reach out to touch one star and there's bright light everywhere. I can hear people laughing and singing. And for one split second I'm happier than I've ever been. I told my friend and she said it must have been heaven. I don't think I'd go that far, who knows maybe I just ate something funny before going to bed.

Leave us blondes alone! I'm blonde and I don't really appreciate all the blonde jokes, I mean sure they are funny but why not use brunettes or redheads?

Well I'll tell you why we're stereotyped, people like Paris Hilten. God somebody shove a sandwich down that girl's throat already!

Well maybe I should give everyone else a break, there masking their envy, and here's a little secret, blondes actually do have more fun, hee!

The one thing most people would say when they think about me is that I'm a trustworthy loyal friend. I can't help but hate that about me sometimes.

The truth is I'm too scared to disappoint anyone, I'm too insecure to make an enemy. But I guess even if I tried I couldn't cause I actually am a nice person.

But there's other people, fake people you know, people who are even more afraid than me to speak their mind. They're the kind of people who put on their friendly fake mask when they talk to people, but then turn around and trash them behind their back.

How in the world can anyone trust anyone when there's people like that? 

I have to say it's been my displeasure of knowing someone like that. I saw them so differently after that, like they grew an extra head or something.

Of course after I knew I don't think I was any happier, so maybe we're all better off not knowing. After all ignorance is bliss.