update; heh. doode.wat a year huh? ive been off school fer almost a week and ive had an interesting week. ive been being pi$$y lately like really pi$$y. hmm. well me and jo havent moved forward like at all but on the trip he held my hand when we finally fell asleep [it took us 2 1/2 hours to get comfortable and then watch a movie] we fell asleep an hour before we got back to school and stayed asleep till we reached the school cuz noone bothered to wake us up [those hoes!] we got first place aaandd we won overall orchestras from the middle school and high school orchestras! ahha we were shouting "O'C YOU KNOW" [thats our schools chant] lmao and Jo was the loudest person so he said "O'C" and we all shouted back "YOU KNOW" and he lost his voice by the end lol [even though after the awards there was only like 2 more hours and then we went home] when we stopped at a convenience store me and Jo were the only ones that ate a meal lol and he had to go into the store cuz he lost his shoes [they were on the ground in front of the seat in front of us] lol.

weeelll me and my bf broke up. it doesnt have a story we just drifted and we ended on good terms . we still talk actually. and my friend who liked him before me but i didnt know yeaa im trying to hook them up since i know they would last becuz they both like each other but they dont want to ruin their friendship.[ i get that. specially since im doing the same thing. ]

im havin an awesome summer so far but me and Jo are drifting a tiny bit but i dont think my feelings fer him have changed. i just get like really jealous when i hear hes with other girls.

ugh gosh my BEST friend in the world is moving at the end of the summer. hes been there through everything and i MEAN everything ! he knows my deepest secret and god hes moving. imma cry, i really am when he goes. and i dont cry for nothin. heh i know we're gonna know each other ferever though no matter what. this is a friendship thatll last I KNOW IT. we're too close to just stop ourselves and stop our friendship . ill love him till the end of enternity

quote of a blog;

"Be kind, for all you meet are fighting a harder battle."

-plato

do it out for the '08 summer! -tanyadennicce

update;

ok then. well im still with my boyfriend and im content. but theres a nagging feeling at the back of my mind that says " i dont want him " but i do. i like him. hes funny and sweet and hes always doing things that i say he REALLY doesnt have to do. and if i lost him id lose an awesome friend. but im starting to think that maybe im just wasting his time. im still in love with Jo and its not fair to my bf to be doing this to him. hes awesome and he could find someone MUCH better than me. because i think that before i can get into a relationship that i need to get my priorities straight and figure out wats up with me and Jo.And if it turns out that it really is bcuz i love Jo and i cant get rid of that then im gonna go after him. i think thats the only way to figure this whole thing out. i hope it works out cuz i dont know how much more i can take of this.

happier update;

well ima go on a orchestra field trip! Jo is my partner cuz we'r bffffs and we'r gonna b together fer a whole 2 days since its overnight in cali. im ecstatic! wish me luck!

happy days

update!: k so the guy asked me out X) . on this day. i got home and thought I MUST WRITE ABOUT THIS!lawl. im ecstatic .

well heres the STORY: We were at the park k and remember the bet we made. well the bet was he had 2 prove 2 me that he wasnt gay and we were just sitting there talking and he casually slips in "well if i asked u out would that prove that im not gay and we had been facing each other at this point because he had been in the slide and i was sitting on top of it so i could just barely see his face and he stood up when he asked me that and put his forehead on mine i was like OMG he is SOOO mmmm lol and then i just smoothly said "maybe" [my voice craked soo bad lmao] and then he actually said "so do u want 2 go out?" i almost freakin screamed in happiness lol! i smoothly said "yea" [my voice was smooth fer once lol] and then the moment was perfect and then he goes and tells me "ooh theres my ride!" im like dang it! "he looked at me with his green brown eyes[yea. hot i know lol] and says "do i get a goodbye kiss?" u all know ive never been kissed. sad i know[ive had 5 bf's] but watever lol at least im not a whore lmao and i just did a quick peck and i blushed freakin pink lol[im darkskinned i dont blush red i go pink] he grinned [not smiled, grinned lol] and started 2 run cuz he had 2 go catch his ride. as i walked back 2 skool when i saw that he was gone i screamed lmao i scared some kid it was hilarious. and when i went looking fer my friends they all figured out wat happened just by the crazy smile on my face lol

im as happy as im gonna get and on saturday im going 2 a birthday party and since my old love was my partner but cant go till waaaay later into the party im gonna partner up with my bf cuz hes going 2[my friend invited him cuz hes just awesome 2 everyone and everyone loves him lol] and when my old love gets there im gonna probably stay with my bf and my old love is gonna go with someone else [theres 18 people going X)]

new name fer "old love" his new name is Jo k cuz thats the begining of his name k

dont mind the lovin part it rhymed so i added it lol

update!:

k so theres this guy! ( most of my stories start out like this lol ) well theres this guy. not my love! (who i happily have less and less feelings for him and im trying to get out their ya know.) but another guy hes funny and cute and this time my friends like him X) (lol they despised the other guy ) well i like him and i play around with him like a week ago he accidentally said i like men! i was like omg ur gay he freaked out on me im like chill ur business is ur business! and then hes like IM NOT GAY so i put a bet that he has 2 prove it 2 me by the end of the week he asked me 2day if kissing me would prove it but i still havnt been kissed so i didnt want it 2 b like that so then when i said bye he almost did kiss me but he turned at the last second and just gave me a bear hug im happy XD

orchestra update!:

ok so we went 2 festival THE most IMPORTANT thing fer orchestra-advanced [which i am in] and we got a 2[excellent] only because one of the judges was not giving anyone 1s and so he gave us a 3! horrible! they even said that they wernt inviting him back he was THAT bad of a judge the president of the music district even said we were great so we all got mad it makes u mad 2 work hard and then b underappreciated!

update;ok yeah guys suck butt yea a bit dramatic lol well the guy broke up with me about 2months ago actually lol but i finally got motivated 2 blog lol

heres the story; so the guy was retarded and knew like every other friend i have that my parents were STRICT and yet thats why he broke up with me cuz we could never see each other. other than at skool and after skool and i fergave him and now i dont speak to him cuz if he tried i would probably punch his face in lol [ now THATS anger management lol]

And now the surprise; well ya'll know "my love" [if u dont refer back 3-6 blogs k X)] ugh!! i fell fer him again i need help i know! i think its just something about him idk wat hes all depressed and fallen fer yet another guy and tells me all these RATED XXXX stories and yet i find him unresistably attractive! tell me wats wrong with me i need 2 know! seriously!! i feel like i can never like another guy without thinking of him and trying to make him jealous and the last 5 weeks ive gotten 2 sit next to him cuz our teacher got food poisoning and went to the ICU fer it and so shes still not back but :/ give me some ideas 2 y im like this just a guess even if u dont know

and now to the takedowns; ok i have finally seperated from my parents they have virtually no control over me anymore and it feels liberating i know that sounds mean but they act like im a tool that has no life and all they do is go 2 skool and b good little girls and dont want 2 go out w/ "freinds" lol but yes im done w/ them i still live here but they just stopped trying 2 make me do things cuz they know i wont X)

last story!; ok well theres this guy and he asked me out and i like him as a friend and nothing more cuz hes funny and great 2 hang out w/ but i just dont like him like that hes still waiting fer an answer and idk wat 2 say 2 put him down gently wat should i say?????!

OH AND PLEASE NO SYMPATHY I DONT WANT ANY

HAVE A NICE DAY AND COMMENT PLEASE x)