So I've been seriously absent lately. I'm sorry, I just cannot get used to the new look. It makes my eyes hurt, and all the features I got along with so well are gone.

I have missed my friends of the AEA. Ela, Viktor, how have you two been? Any more singing in public? I haven't had any really embarrassing situations, but I have gotten myself a vocal coach. There has been singing, but no practicing of evil laughter. I know, I'm slipping... Oh, song in my head now.

I've been driving... Actually driving a car for the last couple of weeks. I've had a couple of lessons, and so far things have been going pretty well. So yay for that!

I have, however, been in a weird funk lately. Things at home are messy and uncomfortable, and there is not a day that goes by without fighting of some kind. Since home is my little place to recharge, to relax, this has been taking away the little energy I have after dealing with several seriously tiring people. Honestly, what do you do if someone doesn't talk to you in weeks, then you talk to him once and he suddenly texts you and thinks you're friends (again)? I am just so tired of figuring it out. Just choose already! Friends, acquaintance, strangers. Just pick one because I'm losing it trying to figure it out what I am to him this week. Tiring! Also, my sister is in the superficial faze, and it's getting annoying. She has to have all the things her friends have, has to do the same things they do, and God forbid she'd leave the house without make-up or with one hair out of place. I just don't understand her anymore, and that leads to even more fighting.

My shows have been keeping me happy, together with a nice visit to my uncle and aunt (and 13-year-old cousin), and some friends who actually make me laugh.

So, altogether, I'm confused and just very blegh. I'm hoping the funk will stop and I'll be able to be on here more. I've missed hanging out here, like the old days... *wink*

Yeah, I'm doing this on MovieTome because TV.com won't let me blog. Evil new version! Evil!

Also, a warning: This blog WILL contain SPOILERS about the season premiere of Supernatural. I might even mention House, though my memory of that episode pales in comparison to the Supernatural opener.

I loved:
- The general atmosphere of this episode. Especially in the first few minutes, where it's just Dean, the scenes were just exquisitely shot. From the first beginning flickers to Dean crawling out of his grave, from the overhead shots to the glass blowing up. This was just amazing! I needed to pause the episode so I could restart my brain after the first five minutes. Excellent!
- The reunion between Dean and Bobby. Starting on the phone, to Bobby's house. This scene was just very, very, very well-written and well-acted by both Jensen and Jim. Very impressive.
- Sam has a girl in his room. *snicker* And he doesn't remember her name. For now. It gave me some definite Dean look-alike jokes. Very nice.
- The Sam and Dean reunion which resulted in another together-joke. I loved the acting in this scene. Overall, I am so impressed by Jensen and Jared this episode.
- The psychic girl. Did they HAVE to make her blind? I thought she'd make an interesting addition to the bunch. She was witty and didn't take any of Dean's crap, she just shot it right back at him. I like that in my SN girls/women.
- The wings. Holy crap ("Holy", snickers)!!!! That looked so awesome. Overall, the effects were really nice this episode. The missing eyes, the wings, the glass and mirrors breaking, very nice.
- The guy who played Castiel (spelling?). I like him. He has just the right amount of creepy to him. He looks like an evil accountant, which makes me giggle. A lot.
- Ruby is alive! That makes me happy! A little, because... (look below)
- Sammy has cool powers now! That looked so cool. I always wanted them to do something with that, so I'm a happy camper.

On the fence:
- God has a job for Dean? I don't know about that part. It sounds interesting, but I don't know.

I hated:
- the new Ruby actress. She didn't act like the character we know at all. I think she forgot to watch her season 3 DVDs and watched Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill instead. I don't know, just blegh. I really don't like her. Can't we get Ruby another host? One who pulls off the manipulative, not quite evil Ruby a lot better.

The secrets kept between Sam and Dean are going to be interesting. Overall, much love for this episode, besides the new Ruby!suit

Since TV.com is being stupid, does anyone know anything about the SN premiere chat? When and how it works? I need to talk to people who've seen it, cause my parents and sisters just look at me funny.

I think it's been a while since I actually blogged about television. I'm making up for that right now. I thought I'd give a little personal Fall TV schedule.

What I'll be watching on Dutch TV:
- The first season of Pushing Daisies. I am in love with the atmosphere of that show. It's sort of a Tim Burtonesque fairytale type of show, and I love it.
- Season 4 of Numb3rs, when I have the time. I mean, I like the show, but I kind of need something new there. The Colby shake-up was nicely done, and there is plenty of aftermath, but some new characters or something would be nice.
- When it comes on: season four of Bones. I wanted to watch this together with the States, but I was a bit blah after the first part of the first episode. I am going to wait this one out. I miss Zacharoni. Still love Sweets.

What I'll be watching from the States:
- Season 5 of House. I caught up with that a few weeks ago and oh my lanta, I need to see more. Wilson and House, and, and... I do hope there will be more Chase (and Cameron) in this season. I get that they have new characters, but they could bring them in more. I never liked Foreman that much, and they bring him back? Well, we'll see what happens.
- Supernatural season 4! I am so freaking excited about that! I need to know what happens to Dean, and Sammy, and where the heck is Lilith now? Gimme more.
- Season four of How I Met Your Mother. Though I kind of could care less about the Ted/Stella thing, I need me some more of Barney(/Robin) and just some more HIMYM fun in general. Will we get the fourth slap this season? Will something else come up? Dun dun dun!
- NCIS season six. I'm sad that Jenny is gone, and I'm curious to see if there will be any aftermath of that. I hate the new director and his lame plan to split the team up (which will last one or two episodes tops), so we'll see what happens. I do need me some Tony.
- Chuck season 2, my latest discovery. I'm almost caught up on season 1, and I love it so far. Chuck is awesome, and so are most of the characters. I do lovelovelove Captain Awesome, and Adam Baldwin rocks my socks. I hope it only gets better.

What I might watch:
- Gossip Girl season 2. I don't know. Whatever.
- Fringe. I watched the pilot and liked it, so we'll see what happens there.
- Lost season 5. If I finish season 4 first. I'm a bit blah there. Don't know if I want to continue.
- Season 2 of Private Practice. If only to see Amy Acker once again before:

Dollhouse starts in January (hopefully... knocks on wood). Well, at least I made some plans for January already...

! First of all, I want to thank everyone who replied to my last blog: Ela, Viktor, Katherine (badgersmuffin), Kath, Shazz, Ing, and Eireangel . Thank you all for all the kind wishes. It may seem like something small, but it really meant a lot to me.

I'm doing somewhat better right now. School has started again, and I got to see two of my close friends again. I've missed them over break. Especially P, cause he makes me laugh like no other. We share this wacky sense of humor. Monty Python references and more. Probably because he's my evil twin. Or so he says...

Also, person number three, let's call him D... Well, I had a nice conversation with him recently. Nothing serious, not talking about any issues, but just talking about things and actually having fun, which has not happened in a long time. I'm happy about it. I'm not saying we're friends again, just like that, but I can talk to him now. No more ignoring and awkwardness, which is good.

Fun things:
- Saying you don't want to go BBQing and being the last to leave at 3 AM, because it was just that much fun. Plus, I found out my evil cousin G hadn't completely "corrupted" another friend of mine. I thought I was losing her, but I think we're going to be fine.
- Watching our band's conductor playing Twister. And getting it on film.
- Attempting archery again and finding out you really are not that bad.
- Finding out hours of studying notes and runs on the clarinet were not for nothing. I did good!
- Doing the Dean dance to "Heat of the Moment"
- Weird people in lectures. Teacher: "Tell me what needs to be improved in these sentences." Student: "This sentence needs more unicorns." I laughed so hard.
- Fuzzy feelings from watching Pushing Daisies. It's Tim Burton for television.
- Listening to the Supernatural playlist on my iPod.
- My teacher complimenting my pronunciation and grammar after just one **** Such an awesome teacher. If I need anything, I know I can ask her. Not many teachers have that.
- My six year old cousin telling me that she kind of has a boyfriend. The cutest thing. I swear.

Well, that's just what I can think of now... I think I'm good... There will be more time spent over here now. At least, that's the plan...

I haven't been here much over the last couple of days. There are several reasons.

1. There are several school assignments I need to finish before classes start. I have spent most of my week reading art articles and answering questions about whether a guy who puts a Christ statue in 3 gallons of urine is making real Art. And yuck.

2. I have been staying away from Messenger and all kinds of forums because I can't really deal with people at the moment. 3 people close to me are messing with my head, whether intentionally or not, and I need a little time to figure it out.
My cousin delights in making me feel inferior to her at any moment, and the fact that a lot of people hold her in high esteem even though she's a hypocrite back-stabbing bitca doesn't help much. She cuts me down, has repeatedly said that I don't matter/am not important (etcetera), and constantly pushes me aside to make room for her huge ego. (Was that rude? Oh well.)
Another friend of mine, if I can call her that, has called on me with every problem that she has, and afterwards complained that she did not have any friends. I spent so much time with her, and yet she insists on drowning herself in self-pity, almost telling me like I don't mean anything (see a pattern?). I can't deal with that, so I avoid it. (Guess I deal with it in that way).
And then there's person 3. He was my best friend once. You ever met a person who understood you completely? He was that guy. Was, until last year when everything went completely wrong. It was his fault, I think. He blames everything on outside factors. He's wrong. Some of those factors apply to me, and I don't do those things. Even now I'm protecting him. I've given him plenty of chances, only to start over and over again. I'm tired of it. Only he's still the guy who was my best friend once, and I can't stay away forever.

3. Some family issues. My dad has been diagnosed with Primary Progressive MS a few months ago. It's not the really fast, destructive form, but the impact is still huge. He had to get his second MRI to find out how fast the disease is, and I'm just scared it's worse than the doctors thought it was. After all, if House is wrong several times, who knows what real doctors find? (Yeah, that was my misplaced attempt at a joke). We have to make adjustments in stupid little things, because his hands don't work the way they used to. He drops things sometimes, and he just gets so angry and frustrated, and it's hard to watch that.

Combine all three, and you get absent Inge!

I think I'm done whining now.