OK So just a quick update - I'm doing the waiting game.

Yeah I guess I could vague that up a little couldn't I? Well ok here goes then. The baby-project has reached new heights. On wednesday we went to the clinic where they were able to harvest 13 eggs. Beforehand I'd been told that it really sounded much more scary that it would actually be, and for once that was the true-truth. I guess it also helped that I was hopped up on various drugs and I also think I've kicked my fear of needles because through out the whole last part of hormones I didn't pass out despite the fact that I had to take a shot myself every night.

So yesterday we got a phone call from the clinic tell us that there were 4 eggs that had matured and were ready for use and that we were to show up at 11.20am to get one of our little eggs back. Ofcourse all we need is one at a time but the 3 others have been stored for if this first try doesn't take or if we decide that we want more than one child.

So now I'm waiting. I'm trying not to get too attached to the egg we had re-implanted because well it's SO not a sure deal. And yet at the same time I already feel very attached to it. It's like trying to walk on the egde of a knife. We won't know anything till March 17th where we get the results of the blood test that I'll have done on the 14th so like I said, we're doing the waiting game.

I want to thank y'all though. You have all been amazing through out all of this, and no matter how this turns out I'll always remember how y'all have helped me get through the darker spots and haven't just been there for all the good times.

I would like to ask for one more favour though on top of it all: if you have any good ju-ju lying around that you're not using can I have it?

Big guy-hugs & cherry pie for y'all!

T.

I can take a hint!

No really I can! Yes I have been the worst tvDOTcom friend in the past few months, but it's due to a combination of things. One that McInternship tried to kill me. Oh don't get me wrong I had a blast but getting up at 5.15am every morning is not really something that leaves you with a whole lot of energy by the end of the day. Hence me being not very active online outside of the chats i've had with a few of you via MSN. *looks around* You know who you are

In other news...

Man suddenly i wish I could get Jon Stewart to host my blog! Wouldn't that be great? No? I'm alone with that crush I take it? Ok so back to what I was going to tell you.

Y'all have read about my various ups and downs the previous year and about how the whole baby-project all of the sudden became much more of a scary 'we need the help of a full on top notch clinic and about a million docs and nurses if we want get there' and less of 'come on sweetheart lets go get nekkid and make a baby' kind of thing. And it still is - only now it's not just a theoretical sort of deal it's a 'will start first course of hormones on friday' kind of deal. It's a rollercoaster ride that's for sure!

So if you bump into me over the next few months and I'm a mess of some kind that's the reason - wacked out hormones and the funny thing is that I've full on brought it on myself so I can't even really complain.

Because my Mum's rule still stands!

Ględelig Jul!

I wish all of you love and joy - not only for this holiday season, but as a general rule.

Yes that doesn't make a lot of sense to any really but me but hey the lyrics are pretty and the song when it showed up on my MP3 which was set on random the other day while I was on the train it made me cry.

"Keepsake" - State Radio 

One gonna heal my body another gonna heal my pain
One gonna settle me down then bring me back up again

I'm gonna put my family back together again

One gonna hold my woman another gonna hold my job
One gonna help me get up, another gonna help me stop

One gonna help me talk right, one gonna lay me down to sleep

(Humming)

One gonna hold my thoughts and another gonna hold my bones
One gonna keep me warm and another gonna keep me cold

One gonna bring religon, right from a Coleman stove
One gonna help me keep em' another gonna help me tame

One gonna run me down (Hell a bullets in my way)

You're gonna keep my soul it was yours to have long ago

(humming)

I'm gonna buckle my belt around the ceiling pipe
I'm gonna buckle my knees and I'm gonna lock em' up tight

I'm gonna hold a pen while you drag my arm across the page

One gonna hold my memories another gonna close the door 
One gonna leave me restless another wanting more 

You're gonna keep my soul it was yours to have long ago

(Humming)

G & R am I wrong to say this should be the theme song for THAT fic-verse? (Sahweetie let me know if you want to listen to it, and I'll send it to you )

I can't take any credit for these two icons but I can say that I'm behind it 100%!

Sure I will have to go without my Daily Show-fix, but I understand where the writers are coming from and I will stick around and wait for this to get fixed!