Ya know, Ive been hearing a lot of stuff lately about frinds stabbing other friends in the back and i just want to say a few things, first of all, this is not about anyone specific, its been happening to all my friends lately. Especial one, and he does not deserve it. You know instead of hating people, or turning on people find a different way. Real friends are always there for you no matter what and should not leave you for anything really. Some people really need to take that into consideration, and to m friend who has really been hurt, you know who you are, and i am truly sorry. I am always here for you no matter what.

well today is a very special day...If you haven't already guessed by the blog title.

So this Blog is here by dedicated to Nicolaj

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know its late your time, but it is still your birthday anyway =p. *bakes you a cake and cookies and gives you lots of presents*

I hope you hve a great day and got everything you wanted, the last part of my present will be there soon don't worry.

I also hope your birthday party this weekend is awesome and you have lots of fun.

Again i cant believe your so old now =P mehhhhhhh im younger again -/-

Anyway you're an adult now so good luck And happy birtday my love, i really really really hope it is a good day.

And yes i wrote this blog in blue cause its your favorite color.

LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *gives you a gigantic hug and a kiss* =p

Kenji you are right you have been here for me from the very beginning, i thanked you for that and when i lefti offered you my email so we could keep in contact more than once, you never seemed to want it.i am sorry that was not enough, i am sorry that i was not on GS as much when things got tough for me. I am sorry for not PM-ing you, and i am sorry i hurt you. I have to say though, when ever i came on when i was on and off the site for a while yours was one of the blogs i went to first. I do appreciate all you did for me, and never once have i tried to take advantage of what you did. I always thank people when they help me. If i recall correctly i even made dedication blogs for you. So i am sorry if none of this was enough for you, but i really do appreciate it, and i will say thank you again and again, thank you thank you thank you. If you would like my email i still check that and if you would like my MSN i still use that once and a while, again i offer them to you. But please do not feel like i am ignoring or being a bad friend because i would never do anything to hurt you. And no i have no reason to report you, you did nothing wrong, you can call me what you want, it does not bother me,you have the right to your own opinion, you were a mentor to me along with Bari and if you want to end it like this we can, or we can try and work things out. Again i am sorry and i thank you for all you have done.

Bari, the same goes for you. Never once did i mean to hurt you, i never thought i did anything wrong. i made dedications blogs for you as well and again you were one of the first people i went to on this site, I am sorry if i have offended you in anyway or hurt you. I really don't know how i did this, but Kenji has made it clear i have. So again i'm sorry and i thank you for being there for me and taking the time to talk with me. You are a great friend and i never once doubted that and still dont to this day.

To everyone on this site, i am doing my best to come on when i can, if it ever seems like i am ignoring you or am being a bad friend please let me know. PM me or if you want my email to stay in touch ask me. I NEVER want to hurt anyone and never meant to hurt these two people. I am willing to apologize because iwant to prove that i do appreciate all they have done and never once didn't, if i don't thank you enough, come to me and tell me. I am here for all my friends no matter what. And i will be very upfront about this, i am not on this site alot, my life has become more and more hectic and as time goes on and i get ready to leave for college, i want to enjoy the time i have left with all my family and friends at home. If you would like me to try and comment more on your blogs, let me know and i will make an effort to do so, that i will not go back on. Im sorry if this annoys anyone. Thank you to all the friends you have been here for me, and the people who comment on my blogs.

Mike, Stitch, Nico,xlove, pikastatic, qtwanderer, Tosatsu, NALEY_23, Water78, m00nshadow, tiff, trm6.

KENJI and BARI and everyone else. It does mean a lot to me that you all take time to read my blogs and comment, so thank you to all

Mike! hey, sorry to hear its so tough, i wish i could help make it easier. Lol thats for sure, i get in a lot of disagrement. Thank you so much.

DBiz: yes i am Tamara =p thank you too

Thesoulessheart: uhh darkness, i have lived my life in darkness for almost as long as i can remember, it is my comfort, the place i feel at peace and safe, i can control what surrounds me and let it be what ever i want it to be, but darkness cant replace the one i who has changed me, the one i cherish most, and i will never let him go, he has my heart and i love him. He is now my home, where i feel safe, in his arms, i am now truly at peace.

Stitch: Thanks how are you?

Min elskede: I love you more *hugs you back very tight and kisses your lips* thank you for all you have done for me.

I hope people are doing well, senior year is so stressful, but im trying to make time to come visit you guys. Hope you all are well.

Edit: Younglink i am sorry for what ever i did, though i have no idea what i did to you. i am sorry to everyone here if i offend anybody in any way or anything. I am not trying to be a bad friend or disloyal, so please, if i ever do anything to offend, hurt, or anger anyone, please come to me and tell me cause thats not what im here to do. I will gladly apologize for anything and try to make things better. Again i am sorry to all.

Thank you min elskede you made me feel sooo special by posting that blog. I know this is late, but really i wanted to thank you here as well as when we talked earlier. *gives you the biggest hug in the world* You are the reason i smile everyday I love you so so so much.

I also just wanted to stop in and say hi and see how people were doing, well i hope.