HELLO EVERYONE!!!

has anybody else noticed when they visit my blog that its says 126 new views everyday and it never goes up or changes it just stays the same, which I find odd. anyways....

2 nights ago I was at a friends place like 1.5 hours away from my town and yeah I was driving home or rather to airport to pick up ppl I promised Id pick up!!! when I noticed something on fire.... it was in the middle of nowhere and it was cl-a-ss rooms on fire....I wasnt really sure what to do.. so I pulled over and called 000... yeah then I locked my car doors cause the person who lit it would have been around cause it was only started I think when I saw it.

then like 2 minutes later a car pulled up ...

and it was a guy called darrel lol... we went to have at look at the fire and yeah when the fire trucks got there the fire fighter told us that it had happened earlier today at a different place in the same town. He also told us there are gas tanks behind the ****ooms.. when we were waiting for the fire fighters the windows blew up and the flames were sooo high. I really needed to go because I was going to be late to pick up ppl from the airport.... anyways nearly and hour later I had to leave so I only had like 50 mins to get from the central vic to melb airport. hahahaha.. yeah lets just say it prob takes 2 hours to get to melbourne from central vic but I Had 50 mins.. and I got there

just speeding about 160 kms nearly the whole way...... thats like 100 miles I think in the u.s maybe its wrong im not sure...

im lucky i didnt get caught speeding I would have lost my licence and car... stupid cops.

* it wont let me type cl*ss???? why the hell not its not offensive.... wtf?

and I Hit a bunny..... rip dead bunny.

I had a dream .... last night....

yeah this gonna sound realllly strange. cause it was.

anyways I dreamt I was in canada and My friend that recently went there was there and she was leaving in 6 days and I had just got there... anyways

I was staying with a host family and the girl who I was staying with is IVY.... *(i think it was YOU) maybe not you but ur name Im not sure!!!!! anyways i kept calling this girl ivy cause I thought it was her name and like a week later she tells me my name isnt IVY.. im like what?? hahahaha

I also hated the host family parents.,... they were odd in a creepy way.. the chick *ivy) was nice but it was just really twisted.. and i remember thinking how beautiful canada was.

.... in another dream I had the other day ... I dreamt I was pregnant. ..... scary...

what do you think dreams mean....????

isnt this cute?

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

whats everyone listening 2 these days?????

im really loving mayday parade at the moment..

kings of leon

and butterfly effect

the title is by mayday parade : jamie all over

anyways I gotta go!!!!

xoxoxoxoxox

my confusion levels havent dropped any if your wondering LOL.

kyle can ur family adopt me still.

well ive been thinking so much.. (i know we are always thinking)

i havent really eaten much during the last week... soo ive lost a bit of weight!! i'm just not hungry lately.

well ive been thinking maybe a little 2 much for my own good and you know what ive figured out???

NOTHING. so it hasnt helped me.

I feel like im at a major crossroads in my life.

I really must be in suicide year

Im unsure of which way to go or what to do.

but i actually have figured out something..... I think i want to go back to school.

I WANT to be a social worker.. seriously I know what I want to be so many I should do something about it!!!!!

I would love to work in child protection actually because seriously I feel so bad for the those kids and I just know id do an awesome job at it... and well im passionate about it soo you cant beat being passionate about ur job right.

I would also love to travel the world. thats a major passion of mine. seriously I wish I lived in europe ur so close to everywhere i want 2 be.

I ALso feel like I should be going to the usa at the moment some guys I know have been working at summer camps for the last 2 years in a row.. it looks like so much fun I wish I could just leave and go now. maybe next year I dont know..

My life hasnt been getting any better....

I was going to move in with joel but the thing is yes I want to move with him.... but not the chick.. theres a girl who lives there aswell... and we dont really like eachother that much.. so it would just be 2 uncomfortable I think... I was going to move in.... but i decided not 2.

I still badly want to move out... but I decided I should pay my car off which I only owe like 2 grand on and I will pay it off in no time.... do you think it was a good choice?

I DOnt want to stay home believe me.. but it will be much easier so I dont have to pay rent and my car at the same time.

speaking of home my sister stayed over last night.. I HATE HEr. I HATE HER. and yeah i know what ur thinking was their a repeat of last week no.. but seriously everytime I saw I wanted to punch her in the head..

song pops into head* all you need is love*

ohh yeah and my brother was in the newspaper... not for good reasons...

I think the sudden urge to go back to school may be linked to my family..

as in I dont want to be anything like them. so I guess i should thank them for that... I should but I wont.. thats just being too kind.

so if i go back to school next year ill only be able to work part time cause its a full time course.

I dont care though it might be tough but it will be worth it in the end for sh*znit.

I just wish I had of done it sooner!!!!!!

but i didnt I guess I cant dwele on the past.. even though I do LOl.. its no good but I think everyone does sometimes., usually when things r bad hey. maybe thats just me???

thanks for the comments on my last blogs even though they were kinda vague blogs lol!!!

I am so thankful for one of my friends bell she has been so so so supportive suprisingly!!! how odd that her middle name is sally lol!!!

alp: canada won a medal!!!! I thought of you when I saw it on tv b4 lol. So be happy now.. but sorry canada does still seem to suck. lol. :-)

onto futher things...

if i dont go back to school next year.. im going to work my arse off and go overseas... I think I really need a break to clear my head plus I just want to go LOL

mmmm its always better when were together... im on a major jack johnson kick at the moment... odd considering my mood that last few weeks. but im seriously loving him... i never did... but i do now!

its my friends bday 2 day!!! I luv ya brid-mole!!! hahahaha I miss her sooo much I should organise to catch for alcoholic beverages.... mmmmmmmmmmm good idea B1.

i dont know why im soo cheery at this moment... maybe cause im partially venting. maybe.

ohhhh maybe its the music as well.

"Do You Remember"

Do you remember when we first met
I sure do
It was some time
In early September
You were lazy about it
You made me wait around
I was so crazy about you
I didn't mind
So I was late for school I locked my bike to yours
It wasn't hard to find
You painted flowers on
Guess that I was afraid
That if you rode away
You might not roll back
My direction real soon
Well I was crazy about you then
And now the craziest thing of all
Over 10 years have gone by
And your still mine
We're locked in time
Lets rewind

Do you remember
When we first moved in together
The piano took up the living room
You'd play me boogie woogie
I played you love songs
You'd say we're playing house
Now you still say we are
We build our get away
Up in a tree we found
We felt so far away
Though we were still in town
I remember watching
That old tree burn down
I took a picture that
I don't like to look at

Well all these times
They come and go
Alone don't seem so long
Over 10 years have gone by
We cant rewind
We're locked in time
But your still mine

Do you remember?

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Music sweet music. Has helped me through soooo many moments in my life,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJtZ5w29se4

even though this sooo is so sweet... id only hope to find someone like that.... who knows maybe I have... I doubt it ... but you never knows.

on the flip side im also loving this song by mayday parade- IF you wanted a song written about all you had to do was ask.

which happens to be my title

seriously this is an awesome song check it out....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ca8CsYNs2ro

Im getting the flu.. correction I have the flu.. im sooo tired and its only 830. its a saturday and lets just say im not in the mood to party this weekend.

besides the fact I feel like total sh*t.

im going to blame kyle.

I have to blame someone, dont I??? Lol.

So I was wondering since people r from everywhere on here...

Do any of you's know places to work like they have in the US like the summer camps???

cause yeah id like 2 know.

I always wonder what au pairs would be like, has anyone done it???

picture of the day:

ok.... i think this is getting a little bit long.

lots of love

xoxoxoxo

im so confused at the moment

well I have like a few major decisions to make and im not sure what to do.

xoxox short n sweet!

NICe title hey???

yeah thats been my overall mood since my last blog....

so much stuff has been happening with me.. and none of it has been good.

I really feel like at the moment... that I cant trust anyone anymore.

everyone in my family **** cough cough so called family are turning on me.

These ppl in my family.... gang up on ppl... b*tch about you and try to drag you down and I seriously cant handle it anymore.

they think im a C*nt cause I dont talk 2 like 3 ppl in it* so called family...all in which I have good reasons.

they are junky gossiping wh*res. and oh the other one i dont talk 2 is my dad.

theres so many things if i actually wrote on here you wouldnt believe.

My sister who I havent spoken 2 for 4 yrs... said something 2 me and yeah I hit her lol. I hurt her and yeah it felt good!!! it might sound evil but seriously you have no idea the amount of sh*t ive had 2 deal with. shes 27 a junky sl*t. and believe me I had good reason 2 hit her.

I hate them and after I move out its bye bye... im never coming back thats how much I hate them.

Its funny though you know you dont expect your family to try and bring u down but I must have been wrong. Even my own dad is like that. He has favourite children by children I mean adults who he lets get away with murder *** he actually would let him get away with murder .. my brother is the biggest pig and speaks at my mum with such disrespect my dad does nothing at times my brother has been in my mums face like he is going to hit her and he still does nothing...

yeah im moving out of home like soooo soon... im packing my stuff in a couple of days!!!!!!!!

yay yay yay!!!!!!

yesterday I went out 2 dinner with my friends since I was driving i wasnt drinking.... and yeah sally+no alcohol = no night clubbing.

except for yesterday lol.. I normally hate 2 go out and dont drink but yeah I went totally crazy!!!! partied it up like a little party animal lol!!!! I really had an awesome time.. and I couldnt believe it was without alcohol. and omg I saw one of my old goood friends out clubbing who I hadnt seen in ages and I danced for hours non stop.. i have like blisters on my feet from my shoes and yeah they hurt now!!! I got back from clubbing at like 4 am lol. yeah it was really good and I just had an awesome time which was good!!!!!!!!!!

I just read burnie mac died.. rip.. thats a total shock 2 me... its pretty sad I liked him

sorry this blog isnt so bright and cheery but yeah its how I feel.

I actually like writing about crap on here it sometimes makes me feel a lot better.

yeah....

I was pretty happy 2 see ash,james and jake last night!!! u should all come party with me, when iim not hitting pppl lol...

ohhhhh its raining!

I got new tyres for my car it cost like 700 dollars for 4 new tyres with alignment and balance and all that crap lol.. wow it sucked paying money especially since I need it ... but i need tyres sooo bad luck I guess.

Ive been rewatching some oth lately yay.. tha old seasons r sooo good season 3 is the sh*znit

I need a holiday. ummmm anything else I can think of ummmm

here is the song of the day http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qdOU5creejw&feature=related

yeah im not emo but its an awesome song!!!

hows everyone else going yeah I wouldnt have read ur blogs over the weekend yeah cause I havent been on until now....I think this blog is getting long.

the title is called israels son by silverchair check it out (do it)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ufWaNdr7yTs&feature=related

hey everyone thanks for the birthday wishes and thanks for reminding that im 20 ANA lol. I already feel old enough as it is.

yeah well 2day ive broken a record 2 blogs in oneday!!!!

well my bday sucked arse ohhh well its just another day really.

yeah I got $400 dollars, which is ok by me!

here are some nice cakes in which we can all share!!!

that cake is dedicated to jamie lynn spears!!!

this is a gift for the women

I found something I wish I got for my bday LOL!!!

Yeah I pretty much have done nothing 2day.. woooooooow

I had a good weekend though I hung out with jayden the theme of the day was kid friendly lol.

we got pancake palour and I got alice in wonderland off the kids menu.. its sooooo yummy its like a pancake with hot chocolate fudge sprinkles and ice cream... lets just say its pretty healthy LOL!!!!

we went to the shops i bought some stuff. then we were like hey what the hell can we do.... so we were like lets sneek into the movies... I could have paid If i wanted to but I thought its kid friendly day sooo I haveta keep in the spirit of that!!!,

The chick wouldnt let both of past the check point thing... she was such a b*tch.. so im like i have to go 2 the toilet and shes like ok only one yous can go.,... so I did get past but she wouldnt let jayden. so eventually he got past...... and we thought yeah its fine... so we picked a cinema.... we thought of lucky number 7 what we didnt realise on the way in that there are cameras n sh*z... soon after we got in the cinema there was like 3 or 4 cinema ppl looking for us,.. im like f*cking hell... why do they even care... there were searching with torches n sh*t lol.... it was hilarious!!

so yeah we kinda snuck back out and they were following us lol... i was pissing myself laughing!!!

we snuck into get smart... one word ew... i WOULDNT have stayed in that movie anyways. lol even for free...
so we couldnt really decide what the hell 2 do after that!

we went back to his place and we played strip poker No im joking... its not like that!!

his room is sooo bad its like a jail he has like nothing on his walls.. so I kinda made him a poster with things he liked and there are some x rated things on there... lol

I googled his name and our friend came up!!!!!!!! it was kinda weird.. I made him put the poster up. lol hes like thats not very artistic... even though he secretly liked it loll..... he better have left it up cause i put effort into that lol.

we went into the city and went to the casino

then we ended going to the movies..... for free he used to work there so he knew the ppls.

we went and saw the dark knight ....... the one with heath ledger!!

omfg that was one awesome movie... im no batman fan... Ive only ever seen the one with jack nicholson and yeah it was a very very long time ago, so i didnt remember any of it!!! but omg the movie was awesome!!!! the joker was hilarious and evil ways.... I actually thought christian bale looked hot as batman.... B.I.L.F-- Batman id like 2 F*Ck for sure...

the funny thing I actually dont think christian bale is hot normally... but in that..... mmm take me there lol the cast did an amazing job... that guy who was 2 face... omg i was creeped out by his face.... I had to look away when i first saw it.

yeah it was amazing

yeah thats pretty much all i can be bothered to write right now.

I applied for a job b4 LOL..... its right up my alley!!!!!!!!!!!! woooooooooo

anyways

hahahaha watch this video!!!

I think shes sooo funny!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ivkw27k9J0c&feature=user

title- coldplay - Yellow.... check it out its awesome....

right here

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qI8I6qcxWyU

good night and good day

xoxox