hey guys/ girls/ aliens/ santa etc.

hows life???

I have been so happy lately. Its been amazing I feel like my whole attitude has changed.. its been amazing.. I have been doing things different trying to be positive and not let things phase me. its working well might I add Ive been doing a lot more random things trying not to get stressed and relax.

Ive even been enjoying my course lmao.. amazing. everyone has noticed its just been so good.

I really should blog more cause I dont remember what i have been doing due to my suckish memory.lol

well this weekend was ok... nothing exciting.. I said I was going to homework as i always do.. but i had a party friday night.. and that all went out the window.. and I wasnt drunk.. hahahahah i really have changed.. hahahaaha I got my most favourite drink and found out that in this one drink it had 3 standard drinks.. ( i was driving that nite so I prob had about 8 drinks so my friends had to drive my car hahahah it was a funny experience.. ) quote of that night was do you want me 2 sexually assault you?? hahaha that night we also went out clubbing it was ok.. i was getting sick but still danced and sang badly which was fun but i also had guys trying to pick me up.. hahahah and this one guuy was singing to me on his knees hahahah he was funny...

saturday.. i couldnt talk... i slept most of the day... it sucked.. i still dont feel fully better ohh well that nite i ended up getting entertained by a someone.. ahhhhh hahahaha.

sunday...hmmmm was a weird but still alright day the weather in aus is getting sexual. = good in my vocab hahahah seriously.. amazingness. hahahaha. and yeah i had an even better nite hahahaha.

omg dont you hate when you run into ppl..u dont want to see.. i was shopping with friends for a present.. I ran into this guy.. who i had a fight with... and yeah I ended up running into him 2 days in a row.. scary LOL.

i am excited for my soundwave/ big day out tickets to arrive... im sooo excited i AM SEEING PLACEBO... i almost died from excitement when i saw placebo are playing soundwave.. like omfg one of my most fav bands ever in this whole world its just amazing.

hmmm so im really loving a melbourne band called british india.. you should check them out on youtube WHO LOVES muse??? i do.. loving their new album...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=72c2HuI3CBQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmXwQBV2tV8&feature=related

love muse.... im seeing them big day out..

sooo yeah being happy is great and i wish I could have felt the way I have been feeling a long time ago, i guess ive realised that maybe there are certain things i have done that have held me back and in the end the only person it hurts is me. yeah but woooooooooooooooooooooooo

times a changing i guess. maybe cause im older now hahahahah older then a month ago lol.. I just wish I knew what has changed i think my attitude definately has.. but I also think its the acknowledgement that sure i have bad things in my life but not everything is bad there are still some really good things. Its hard to see the positive things we are our own worst critics and its true.. ohhh well...

better get back to these assignments lol catch ya

xoxoxoxoxoxox

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uL1UdVGczR8

title- placebo - julien

everytime i blog about to party well not much has changed my friends.. its thursday nite mates want me to go out and im ready kinda and comtemplating if i should go...

so... im slack i know. hmmmmmm

ive been partying and drinking way too much lately... a couple of weekends ago i had a party.. there was a bar tab... need i say anymore.. I actually couldnt walk.. i had massive bruises cause i kept falling.. omfg it was bad but kinda fun.. not tha falling part.

remember that dude.. well yeah i ended up running into him.. yummy bartender dude.. and he is sexy. he doesnt have an eyebrow ring!! hes really nice we were going to hookk up that weekend but I couldnt because I was 2 drunk.. and amongst other things. LOL. i sound like a whore now... but long story short we didnt and yeah stufff happened no not that stuff.. and overall it sucks hahahaha.. i know that doesnt tell you much but I understand it and thats all that matters..

you guys should be proud of me... I went out to a party had one glass of wine and partied like an awesome sober sally.. i HAD SO MUCH FUN and maybe i dont need alcohol maybe i just like it? lol everyone thought i was drunk I wasnt.. ive found a club where the cute guys are.. LOL wooo.. im thinking bout going there now.... but i bet it will suck tonight.. and I cant find anything to wear even though i have stuff ive never worn thats cute.. im just not feeling it 2nite.. but I think if i dont go out it will be awesome. LOL. omfg im such a girl.

im going to see la roux on thursday woooooo! Im going to soundwave.. and like next week BDO lineup gets annouced and rumour has it that Muse are headlining.. look u already know im going!!!! LOL yay.. im a festival whore i'd go to all of them if i had the money.

dont start me on money. or my course. honestly... it will make me depressed and I will cry.

lifes on a downhill spiral.. i think i bring it on myself though Im not sure maybe I do.. maybe I dont.. i Dont know anymore.

all I know is.. the other day one of my closest friends said she was worried about me.. makes me feel even worse.

I have a lot going on inside my head i think i should go talk to someone.. but im the type of person that hates talking about my feelings how unlady like

hahahaha awesome.. so... anyways. I should blog more often cause i forget **** that happens cause im a retard

I cant believe it I ended up speaking to my brother.. ihavent spoken to him for maybe 4-5 years... I still dont like him or really want to talk to him.. I dont trust him and really want nothing to do with him it was the circumstances that made me. do I regret it yes. I know that sounded f*cked up but I guess ur not me and you dont know what I've been through.

I guess thats the same with everyone though. wow this is not making me want to go out... lol

happy thoughts.... no there are none atm lol

so...... im sorry ive missed ppl's blogs ill read them oneday I promise

ok.. well im going to try n go out and party... sober round 2 hahaha.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh i dont know......

title- empire of the sun- without you... wish i was going to parklife lol. awesome song and describes a lot for me well kinda LOL but its an awesome song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOmwrLgrBBI

catch ya on the flip side

edit;

ok im a good girl and went out!!!! its past 4 am in the morning... i had an awesome night... and omfg i ran into dustin.. i want to stab him... staby staby.. ahhh when i saw him i had 2 drinks.... to take the edge off!!! and I wasnt drunk I was sober I danced my arse off.. and wtf do i see guys from highschool out and they all recognise me. nooooooooo

and for the record there was so hot f*cking pieces of arse out tonight just so you all know!!!! drool drool.

I went to the bathroom.. yes i know you need to know... and this gay guy came into the toilets and sat on the seats waiting for his other friends/ girls and guys in the chick toilets.. this girl comes in and sits next to me.. look and sees that guy who you could clearly tell he was gay .... she was like get out you F*cking **** and punched him... she was very drunk I know it wasnt right but it was something u had to be there for.. it wasnt as bad as it sounds. but yeah....

still cant believe i saw him... noooooooo anyways. I had a good night and i was sober.. 2 times in a row. woot woot louder woot woot. mmmmmmm i cant sleep im wired up I shouldnt have left!!!!!!!!!

im in a better mood now lol

xoxox

I just wrote this blog i pressed somethng and it deleted itself

damnnn ill just re write it!

i had an alright time at the party.

i rocked up as the only person drunk. 'awkward' lol hahahah everyone liked my dress!! it was so hard to dance though.. I lost my speech... it was about her having threesomes and herpes my fav topics lol hahaha...

this guy called me a hooker.. i wanted to stab him in the head. i wasnt dressed like a hooker or anything .... if isee him again which im sure i will he will die. lol

i think iwas the life of the party.... i went away for like half an hour n ppl were like we noticed u were gone.. prob cause im loud n crazy hahaha. there are so manny drunk pics of me on facebook ahhh it must die also.

I hooked my friend up with joel yay he wanted her hes just 2 damn shy things r going well.

i was so not wanting to do my speech cause speeches scare me lol but i got up and did it and i cant rmember what i said but ppl said it was good... im like yeah thanks for that lol.

i finally met harry... harry scares me thats all i have to say not that any yous would know what i was talking about lol

i kept boozing on lol.... liz was awesome i had so much fun with her we both dressed up as devils lol

everyone was saying how drunk i was.... lol and pen called me the drunk one lol which he did the first time i met him

after the party we went clubbing... it was ok hard to dance in the dress so i kinda did this wiggles type dance lol hahahaha im a retard and i know it okay!!

some chick came up 2 me and was like do i wax ur box.. im like ahhh no... and she kept going on this random convo and shes like ohh i have to the toliet... im like have fun with that now! lol... weirdness.

my friend was crashing at my house n she wasnt feeling it so we left at like 3am and tried to get a taxi. lol

i sat down and made her flag one down hahahah then we started walking and we ran into this guy. he seemed really nice and we talked for prob the whole time i was making my friend get the taxi!! all i remember was that he is a bartender (yum) my age and had an eyebrow piercing lol. he was like do u have a boyfriend thats gonna pick u up....? im like No do you ? LOL... i was like in the middle of the road in front of a taxi and he grabbed my arm and wrote his number on it.. and hes like call me. lol my friend said he was cute..but i dont remember.. my friend texted him and pretended to be me then i finally got my phone n he asked me 2 go out with him. we are gonna meet on friday prob for drinks.... i have a 21st that nite 2 ahhh 2 many parties and god another speech!!!!!!!!!

this is alot shorter then my first attempt must have forgotten stuff lol. ohhh well

well i should go n do homework sorry this sucked lol catch ya

this song is so sad and beautiful

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UPGZAxNgVlQ

hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhat up? lol

I just got my hair done looks so good!!! cant wait about to get ready for my friends 21st

f*ck i havent written my speech yet!!! i hate speeches... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

im gonna get my drink/ wh*re on later hahahah.

hows everyones weekends going??????? i better get speech writing only an hour till ill be pissed ahahah ... i hope i dont say something nasty.... and hopefully i can stand!!! yayayaya lol

xoxoxoxo

hi to everyone who reads this... if you still exsist...

ok so something massive has happened since I last blog I should correct that something super-ly massive.

It was the day that MJ died. My beloved black/white/pedo/weirdo/legend are all titles i have given him over the years. all in all he was a music legend and nothing he ever did to children or his face can take that away from him!! lol sorry im in a weird mood! I really was so shocked and couldnt believe it. I remember listening to him when i was four years old- and i will be a fan for life!! Its one of his songs that made me change something about myself. and i learnt something new he had a sister called rebbie?? like where, who is she never heard of her in my life till his death!!! lol

its been so long in btw blogs and its hard to remember what i was going to talk about!

guess what its that time of year again.. you know that beloved time of year that i hate to death! MY 21ST BIRTHDAY!noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo i think thats enough ooo's! lol any of you's that have been reading these rubbish filled words should know that i hate my birthday. I cant believe im 21 or going to be 21 on tuesday. I remember being 10 like it was yesterday but also saying that it feels like a long time ago aswell. I think there is something ive learnt about myself and i think its a negative..,. there is no changing me. Im still the same i dont know how to explain but I wont take sh*t from anyone no matter how hard you will argue you points I will still believe what I believe lol. yeah its weird!!!

so anyways im not having a party.. I know shock... sally+party whats wrong with me. I know i go with parties like sally+open bars=love lol actually i think ok I pretty much know my friends have planned something for me.. all i know is this big+cream+ purple? thats the clue. the first few things i responded with dirtyness as I do lol. I just dont know what is happening all i know is im being kidnapped in the morning on friday and wont return till saturday.. arghhh l know i will get drink,drank,drunk mmmmm!!!

I still ramble on hey!! lol

i got my hair cut n coloured today it looks very sexual lol.

omg i have 10 weeks left of my course... then i have 3 weeks work experience in as a mental health worker f*ck im scared dude. I have have homework but i love me some procrastination lol I realise this year has gone so fast next couple of months r going to hard for me maybe not hards not the right word.... its not gonna be easy but its time to step and be the man I always thought i could be HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAAH sorry reminds me of cheesey line in a movie and yeah im not a man.. though i can be if you want lol hahzhaha.

I have to make 21st speeches arghhhhhhh im soooo scared.. i have 2 in the next 2 weeks.. someone write them for me. I bought the most sexiest devil tempress outfit to wear i cant wait cant wait ... i told my friend look ill most probably be drunk while doing ur speech is that ok shes like yeah why not hahahahahaha. Making speeches yikes!!!

http://www.buycostumes.com/Devils-Temptress-Elite-Collection-Adult-Costume/31765/ProductDetail.aspx

thats a pic of the dress,I love it even if you dont and it looks exactly like that

I met this reallly cute guy.. he just got out of a relationship and hes super cute and has such a good personality and likes to have a good time and play drinking games hahahaha. I realised there is a similarity actually more then one with the last guy i was seeing.. but hes 22-23 which is agood age for me.

well im super busy at the moment and this is just a short blog ill blog again sooner... so much to do sooo little time at the moment.

going to get my gym... to sweat n die! lol its fun though

I will leave you with a song.

I hope lifes good in your part in the world.

Its time to celebrate some aussie music. this song is amazing...

its hilltop hoods - fifty in five-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G136Pdb2lro&feature=related

and last confession hilltop hoods. i also heart this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7W0Jvw3Z63A&feature=related

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox