eyes are glazed over

mood: lazy

location: bedroom

"that's all one asks of a sermon. no possible relevance to anything but itself."

-phyllis dorothy james, the skull beneath the skin

051108, 6.57 pm

it's been three days since my last blog entry and i hate missing out on a single day. so, i'm going to recount to you the details of what mostly happened to me during those times.

050808 (thursday)

i woke up pretty early today. it's so stressful! today is the first time i woke up as early as five in the morning...and it's summer! i don't know what we did. we practiced, i think, for our teaching demo. oh, and we rushed our teaching plan and teaching content to be submitted tomorrow. i won't be a teacher, why do i need all this crap? so, i went home pretty late. typical of me to do so.

050908 (friday)

i woke up again pretty early. apostolate. we have to go to lubas watershed to mostly clean. the watershed was infested with mosquitoes! i feel like i'm their breakfast. i was bitten many times! i hate this kind of apostolate. as much as i love helping in the community, i don't like this kind of help. i'd rather do outreach programs or something.

anyway, for tonight, i ended up sleeping at jem's house, with chad. it was the weirdest thing ever. i love sleepovers, but i was not prepared. plus, i'm not really that close to jem and chad to start with. i was mostly quiet there. the sleepover was kind of pointless, too. we were supposed to do something important but i don't think we got around it. i miss the comforts of my home. i feel sick.

051008 (saturday)

today is the day where it all ends! we presented our teaching demo, something that has occupied me for the past two weeks. as far as i'm concerned, it was a success. mrs. mallillin said that being the first group to present, we really did a great job. then she congratulated us. we got 50.5/60. it doesn't seem that high to me. when you combine our teaching demo + teaching plan, we got 84.5/100. b+. ok fine, i'll take what i can get. i'm just happy i got this thing over with. for the first time in weeks, i can sleep like a baby...if my allergies don't flame up.

now that i've relayed to you what happened to me for the past three days (which must've been a boring read), i'll relay now what happened to me today.

051108 (sunday)

i woke up at nine in the morning. i was surprised to see 25 messages in my inbox. then it hit me, today's mother's day! my mom went in my room and i said "happy mother's day!" she replied with whatever or something...but she was smiling. i got out of bed and then read a book. i was in no mood to do my laundry. the book was a waste of time. it was amateur-ish. i must've liked it when i was in sixth grade. but i'm in college now.

i mostly slept. stress from last week did a number on me. i don't feel rejuvinated, though. i still feel like i've got some weights on my shoulder. something's wrong with me, i feel really sick. and my allergies are not helping. they're getting worse. i'm allergic to everything! ugh, maybe i should start eating right. i have to be better.

one more week before summer school ends.

now reading: pale immortal (anne frasier)

now watching: bones

"lord, help me heal, not only in terms of well-being but spiritually as well. amen."

time check: 8.13 pm

signing out, ciao!