omg ur never gonna guess what! ok im gonna tell you....IM GETTING MARRIED!!! me and my bf are going to be getting married sometime at the begining of april. wew havent set an actual date yet. wew are gonna do that after he gets back from te deployment. he hasnt givin me a ring yet cause that just has to be done in person. but yeah i am so excited. i cant wait ill he gets home. he hasnt told his family yet cause he wants to tell them when we go down there for a couple weeks when he gets back. i cant wait to see their reactions to this news. but anyways i just thought i would come and share this amazing news with yall before i head off to bed. i just noticed its like 3 am. so im gonna get off here now. night ppl

i really havent been on here in a while! there has just been so much goin on in my life these past couple of months. ive been runnin around doin just about everything there is to do in tennessee. me and my best friend have been hangin out just about every day. i think there was a streak of about 3 weeks where we saw each other everyday. then her boyfriend came in on his leave and i didnt see here that much then. lol. but after he left we've been hangin out, goin swimmin, partying with friends(which got us in touble with our boyfriends) and workin sometimes. but today is august first. mine and mikes anniversary is in 5 days. and we have made it thru 7 months of this deployment and only 5 months left. i am so ready for him to get home! but i gotta get off here. i got somewhere else to go today before i go to work. PEACE OUT HOMESLICE!!!!!

~lauren~

i havent been on here a lot lately. i finally started my side job (umpiring) and between that and my other job ive been workin almost every day. but anyways. i got a call from mike today and wwhen we were talking i realized that he has been gone for almost 5 months now. its amazing. this deployment has gone by faster than i thought it would. so he only has hopefully 7 more months left. but hey ive gotta get up and go eat and go out again. i hope everyone s doin good.

ok. so i sat down at the computer today after mike left amd i started typing this out.

I hate it when people try to sympathize with me about him being gone by saying, "I know how you feel." No you don't! And I hope that you never have to. But you don't know what its like to have the love of your life taken away from you and not knowing the next time you will get to see him again. Not knowing the next time you will get to hear his voice, see his face, or touch his hand. It is the hardest thing in the world to watch him walk away from you. Knowing good and well its will be the last time you get to hold him in your arms for awhile. Knowing that every second you spend together you will have to spend another apart. The nights are restless because you have no one there next to you to hold you, and make you feel safer. And those pillows never seem to be as good as him. No matter how hard you try or how many ways you arrange them, nothing beats having him lying next to you. And when he is, you never want to let him go. Time never seems to move slow enough when you are with him. And it never seems to move fast enough when you are thousands of miles apart. But no matter the distance or the time, nothing can stop you from loving him. Some people have asked me why I'm waiting for him. And all I can tell them is that I love him too much not to. We fight all the time over the stupidest things. And then make up 2 min later. He will drive me crazy, but then he will find some way to make me laugh, and fall for him all over again. I miss him more and more each day he is gone. I usually can make it thru the day with out a breakdown. But there are some days that I can't help but to just go home and cry. And then the next day I'll wake up and fight like hell just to survive. But I'll put a smile on my face just to make everyone think that I'm fine. So I count the days till he is home for good. And I patiently wait for him. I wouldn't trade this for a simpler life. If I couldn't handle it, it wouldn't have been given to me.

I am a member of the silent ranks. I have no official role in the army. But I do have an official role with my soldier. I am the one he has left behind to go fight for your right to even read this. I will always support my soldier in every way I can. I would go thru heaven and hell just to have him back in my arms again.

Remember when you go to sleep tonight that there are soldiers all over the world fighting for you. If only we had more men and women like them

Baby, I love you so much. I can't wait till you come back to me for good. You are my hero always and forever.

ok. so we are finally back home. we got here at like 3 yedsterday. i am so happy to be back home in my own bed around my own friends. and around ppl that treat me better than his family does. i had fun the last couple of days cause we were at his grandmothers and his cousin was there and shes fun to hang out with. but thats it about the trip.

its wierd what deployments do to you. like basically for the past 3 months since hes been gone. i have slept all that much. cause ill either wake up to him calling me or messaging me. or just me not being able to sleep cause i hadnt heard from him that day and im waitng for him to call me. but no matter why i still only get like 6-7 hrs or sleep a night at most. so i am constantly tired even thought i really dont do much during the day. but right now mike is home for a couple of weeks on his r&R. and even though he is home i still cant sleep that much. i think im afraid that one time ill wake up and he wont be next to me and that it was all a dream. and its still weird to have him here. like ive gotten use to him not bein here and me havin to be on my own. so its hard to cram everything in two weeks. cause i never wwant to let him go. but at the same time ive gotten use to bein alone so its wierd to have him around me. i know i should make the best of our time together. but its hard considering that hes leavin again in a week.

but thats enough for today
~lauren~