So yea on facebook last night i started talking to this radio DJ who runs a hiphop gospel channel in New Haven in CT. So i showed him the closest religious song to fit that genre off my first mixtape which was "Utopia" It was only the lyrics because i still have yet to record.

Anyways he was able to give me a shout out a 1 o clock in the morning, it was a very good one he said my MC name and my name and where im from and introduced me as an upcoming artist. I mean most likely not alot of people have heard it but it was just pretty cool to hear that I am currently trying to get the segment from him and save it. Anyhow after that is done next week hopefully i will get into the studio and start recording my first single off the mixtape, "Up and Rising". The next song after that is going to be "Utopia" which i am going to drive up to the radio station in New Haven and try and get that played on the local gospel channel. Then after that I am going to record, "Lost Soul" which is going to be the first song leaked out onto my myspace. Then i want to record another song, "Walking On A Cloud" as the second song leaked on myspace.

Then i will leak the big single "Up and Rising" and take it from there. Eventually my goal is to get "Up and Risin" played on the 93.7 i will also try for "Kiss Me to Heaven" and "Shed a Tear For Me". Hopefully maybe i can get some calls from producers and beat makers and what not.

Im going to also schedule to play at a local stage called the, "Toads Place".

As for now i am now writing i am just jotting down ideas, i want to let this process run a little bit. Then i would like to start working on two projects, an EP(Extended Play) and an album.

Remember i still have this second mixtape with 15 songs to drop which i think is going to be a huge hit. My goal for this year is to get locally famous. Then i will have to take it from there maybe i will journy up to NY.

Oh yea and i completed GTA : The Lost and Damned it was an epic ending i will be posting the Spoilers part 2 later =D.

So yea its 2010 and im pretty excited and yet worried for what life is going to throw at me, im hoping that this year marks the start for my music career ongetting known and i really hope that all my family can stay healthy.

What i would really like to forget

- My Uncle Arnold passing away 09'

- My Uncle Ronny passing away 09'

- My friend Shayne passing away 09'

Yep all those deaths were sadely tossed apon me in the course of three months :/

- 9/11 Pretty much the biggest piece of history during this decade

- High School i really hated it and all the fights i got in.

- My depression i want to forget about that and im glad now that i can move foward happy.

- Being Lonely

- Getting mad at video games - used to get really mad lol

- rap music - Probably the worst time for rap music was in this period and now its getting better.

I would like to remember

- Me graduating highschool =D

- Programming experience it was a really nice experience to program video games and see how there mad. I think it altered the way of how my mind thinks now also met a lot of cool people.

- Putting together two mixtapes

- Feeling comfortable being me and opening the doors to hiphop.

- The late rise of underground rap music.

- The Nintendo Wii - was a great new tech. introduced to video games

- My Xbox 360 =D

- Also my dog

How about you guys?? I hope this year i can get locally known with my rap music and learn how to freestyle better. : )

Also what do you guys hope for?

So the lost and damned story line is actually very, very good it fits the perfect role of what the biker life ****is like and what can happen. Your name is John and your the vice president of The Lost(The gang name) and Billy is the leader and everyone else has many other different positions. Its a really cool feeling when you ride in a pack you have to ride behind the leader of the club house and along with Billies right-hand guy like lawyer dude sort of and his main body guard. His right hand guys name is Ray.

The game starts out where Billie is out of prison because of drug issues where he has a drug problem. In the beginning when he gets out he immediadetly wants this bike that was stolen from him by another gang, "The Angels of Death". But a treaty was put down between the lost and angels while John was holding-president. When Billie comes out he immediantely wants his bike back which he is just being devious and a trouble maker because he knows that the bike has been chopped into parts and sold off by this time. So he goes to the mechanic turns his bike on and puts his face into the tires that are moving till he tells them where the bike is at. He meets up with the angels and actually a little fight breaks out between both gangs.

The leader of the Angels comes to talk to Billie he doesn't say to have a war but basically dont F**k with us again or ill kill all of you. This happens while Billie is celebrating his release and he was really pissed that he crashed his party so as he turns around he shoots the leader in the back of the head with a shot gun. So this will obviously spark the war back up.

Now for this section of the game things are pretty straight forward your just fighting the Angels in huge out breaks of shoot outs that are actually really tough. The lost pretty much win because they blew a grenade launcher through the club houses window and demoloshed everybody in it. Then takes these bombs you toss at all the Angels drug-front vans. And as of now what i know the Angels have quit and are in hidding.

Then something terrible happens Billie sends you and your brother to go make a drug trade with the chinese, well actually were returning the drugs we got that we bought because we heard it belonged to some ruthless gang that the chinese stole it from. So a terrible shoot out between you and the Chinese happens and Billie and Ray never show up to help. Ray is a very big coward and never fights he just makes exuses and is a puppet of Billies. So we look out the window and we see that Billie gets arrested(For a long time) and he claims we set him up and wants us killed.

But we are the vice president and members elected Johny to be the president. But what happens is a civil war between the gang, Ray follows orders of Billie from Prision and splits half the gang on Billies side while the others on Johnies. We were supposed to go meet Ray because he was going to call it truths but we were going to kill him just because of how unloyal he was to the boss. But he tricks us and tries to ambush us with his men. He escapes. We then find out from this guy Ray(different ray hope i didnt get the others mixed up) that he knows where he is hiding. So we take his word and go kill him. Now were stuck working for Ray because he helped us end the civil war.

Meanwhile we worked with Elizabetha from GTA 4 where it brings us back where Nikko and Playboy meet this guy and do a drug deal and it turns out to be a set up by the FBI and they take off while the other guy runs a different way. We never knew what happend to that guy well now we know because that guy is us!It was pretty cool.

Elizabetha is really crazy one mission involves freeing a drug mule from the airport, her missions are very over the top. Anyhow while working with Ray we steal these diamonds from a huge guy known as Gay Tony" which is the next video game! So this is all very interesting.

I now understand what happend to that other guy during that mission with Nikko.

I am still wondering if the war with Angels is over.

I'm wondering if the civil war is done for good.

GREAT STORY SO FAR!!!!

B.O.B is his stage name but his real name is Bobby Ray sometimes goes by that i think. Anyhow this guy is new and upcoming and is great hes so multi-talented he sings and raps and plays the guitar and makes beats! Hes ridicilous some of his amazing songs are -

1. Put me on

2. Don't Break my Heart

3. Ill be in the Sky

4. Hip hop aint dead

Please listen to these and comment back. His album will be dropping in 2010 and also his Lupes new album as well as Cudis and Wales! 2010 is going to be a great year for hiphop. I can hear it already lol.

Cool kids

So i just found out some stuff about the long lost group of the Cool kids consisting of Mickey Rocks and Chuck Inglish. This group is basically an underground group that takes things very slow and gradual. There biggest year was in 2008 where they got some TV time on MTV also there songs were featured on video games and HBO shows. 2009 during the beginning they released a mixtape that had some good songs on it but it was only digital release and has annoying samples of the producer every 5 seconds so i couldnt stand to listen to it. The album "When Fish Ride Bicycles" was supposed to be released in 2008 and has been moved a freaking whole 2 years to 2010. Its pretty crazy, they said there producer Don Cannon was doing too much touring with Kanye West and lost track of time.

Since then a EP has been dropped called "Merry Christmas" which really is nothing special only has 4 songs and isnt great. Hopefully they have something slick hidden up there sleaves with the album they been known to keep things quite. It could epically fail or be a sucess i honestly dont know if theyll ever make it main stream. It depends on how this album does really.

Kid Cudi

Well Kid Cudi went from underground to the mainstream in the course of a year with his hit song, "Day and Night". His album was a major success because he tells a very interesting life story and isnt afraid to tell the inner feelings that he feels. The album was unique because it was broken down into sub-generes and the songs fit each genre. Every song spoke truth where a lot of people can connect to, the cool kids are more of a fun Techno jump up and down rap group. Where Kid Cudi is probably an artist who is doing his own you cant fit him in a description. His Album "Man on the moon : The End of Day - sold over 100,000 copies the first week. He is my favorite rapper of all time by the way =D. His next album is going to be a collaboration album with various unique artist so he drifts away from his story he is telling as far as i know. Then the third album will be like the first expanding on his story. So cudder is busy right now with his tours and working on this new album that has not had a release date on it, but guesses had been made for it to drop late 2010.

How was everybodies Christmas? Mine was great thanks for asking =D but like my rank i been WICKED SICK : (. Thats why i wasnt able to post a blog up here so right now i don't have any pictures like i said i was but maybe later on today i will. Im just going to take a picture of everything i got! LOl But i had a white Christmas thank God! Now the rain has washed away all the snow. The video games i got were - DJ Hero, Borderlands, Grand theft auto 4 : Lost Episodes of Liberty City, Halo ODST, Call of duty modern warfare 2 , and Mario Bros. wii.

So f ar i just tried DJ Hero and GTA the biker one. DJ Hero is really fun i finally have a game that is techno rap and everything i love where i can finally feel im part of the game :0 lmfao. Im playing it on Medium and the mixes are very good i really like this game more then guitar hero, although crossfading is tough.

The Lost and Dam-ned is a pretty fun game because it really makes you feel that you are part of a biker gang. The story isnt so compelling though and the main character isnt interesting i dont even know his name! The gameplay is very straight forward but its still fun. The dark and gloomy presentation makes you feel the biker image it was still well put together. Although the graphics werent that good in my opinnion.

Comment and how was your Christmas? =D

So as i record from my first mixtape i started writin for my second, but this process got backed up because i got a singin partner we practiced got to know each other and all that. So for the second mixtape i may go up to 18 songs! The first one is ten. Im going to try and do as much i can with the first mixtape though, meaning gettin on the local radio, showin off to producers, maybe some shows, post a couple on my myspace and get it uploaded to itunes i hope =D. So all that should last me till like the end of the summer with these 10 songs. Then ill come in with the next mixtape which will have 15 maybe 18 and at this point im hoping to get signed.

Once i finish my brain is going to need a writers break...so i will probably not start writing songs and grouping them together till like April or some time for my 3rd(hoping im signed and got beats that way) so i can drop an album by next year. Maybe even will combine these 2 mixtapes as a CD to go in stores and expand wide who knows. But here are the upcoming titles and details thus far -

1. Let the Beat Build(Lil Wayne Remix) - I use lil waynes let the beat biuld instrumental and write my own song to it, about me biulding as an artist and about the beats of life in general and how its approached. This song has tons of metaphors in it, and it has a hook which will be sung.

2. Mother moon - Is about an alien who looks like an alien and was dropped off from the moon on earth, and he feels different emotionally from any one else which is kind of how i feel. It sampels a Frank Sinatra song too.

3. Friday Nights - Is about Friday nights lol and how good it feels to listen to jazz and sip a beer this song is very jazz influenced.

4. Heaven in a dream - Is a song about a dream i had that i fell asleep and went to heaven and held hands of my dead uncle.

5. I'm Leaving - Is a song about how sometimes i feel about people on this Earth that they just make me want to leave, it can be thought of going off into space, but its kind of about me leaving CT and my hometown.

6. Make it - Is about the "New School" rap and how that rap could change too a better style and how it is.

7. Mama Watching you - Is a song about how kids tend to think there really big more then there parents and also how rap needs to be positive because this rap influences kids to do bad things.

8. Night Before Christmas rap remix - Just a dark song, met for a funny reason, just felt like it? lol

9. Over the Hill - About finding happiness.

10. Sleep - Is about sleep lmfao and how good it is somedays just to make it to that time where you can relaxe and catch shut eye.

11. Stand by me Remix - Not a rap beat the original instrumental sung over and rapped over.

12. Sundays - About how sunday mornings feel really good , compared to the night lol.

13. Tomorrows the fear - How Lots of people fear for tomorrow has many more meanings to it though about heaven.

WoW! 13 i thought i had only 12 =D.

I already have two instrumentals that i can use to get up to 15.

Then i may just pull some other ideas for 3 more songs.

So me and my singer(Dave) are going to try to am for each song we record professionally in the studio so as soon as we get the money which could be this up coming weekend or during Christmas break we are going to record in the studio...which will be are first time. We have practiced two songs thus far - Up and Risin and Utopia. So this is basically the process we are going to take the songs i have practice them till were comfortable with it and then go up in the studio and record it, then come back and take two more sounds and repeat the process over again, till we got 10 songs done. But it may be 11..not sure.

So yea i had the cool kids avatar but i dont know whats up with them there album never got released "When fish ride bicycles" it was supposed to drop this summer. But now Kid Cudi is my favorite rapper of the "New School" anyhow so i finally decided it was time to change it. What'cha think? =D

So this basically is inspiration to my music, not so much on this first mixtape but im going to use these themes in upcoming ones.

Here are the songs -

(1.) Rush Rush by Debby Harry - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4m36RMYHn4

(2.) Shes on Fire by Amy Holland - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0Gh14mnlC8

(3.) Push it to the limit by Paul Engemann - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BhsTmiK7Q2M

(4.) Im hot tonight - UNSURE who sings this lol theres two names - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ewg9Ccm0o6Q

Heres some let me know what you guys think i have many other songs like this i use for inspirtation that i will post after..

Well the first one is a song i already showed you guys it was called - "The Intro to The Valley Ahead" which originally was the introduction to my mixtape and was the first song i wrote when i started piecing together my mixtape. It was just a freestyle basically, it had some cool word play but it was too different from what people are used to. So as the first hear the mixtape (the first song) i decided to go harder make a stronger song with a hook and what not. So the new first song for the mixtape is just as the name titled, "Up and Rising".

So here it is if anyone has missed the lyrics lol - http://pastebin.com/m2773a625 . Still this possibly may be recorded as a random song not on the mixtape just leaked on youtube but obviously i will do this sometime before the release of the second mixtape.

But now the other one which i don't believe i showed you the lyrics to is called "Picking up the pieces" which was a two verses thrown on a michael jackson beat but im really not feeling the song as it doesn't show any true meaning. So again this will be released as a random on youtube too. Here are the lyrics - http://pastebin.com/m4539f88e.

Now i been trying to write a song on an alicia keys sample a sad one and the lyrics i wrote just didn't feel right so i scratched that as well and re-wrote it which can be scratched too and ill have to re-write it again =D. So here are the old lyrics for this song - http://pastebin.com/m7b4013e1

So that lyrics you see will turn into vapor and dissapear =D. But anyhow im just showing you scraps of older stuff basically my weaker stuff i want to show you all the real good stuff when im finished. By the way i did show the song "Utopia" which is one of my favorties thats the only one im showing for now =D. Just a small update!

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Yup! I guess when you hit level 30 you are considered to be a gamespot Veteran! Wow and it took me 3 years to get up to this point loll. Pretty cool though i didn't think i was on gamespot this long. Anyhow as a small update we had our first snow day this year it was a blizzard but sadely by the time i woke up turned into regular rain : ( ..ah well.. Anyhow as a countdown of my school days left i have eight! I also checked out the studio and its amazing really big so me and Dave are soon to record there. Also i cut off the song , "The Valley Ahead" and im replacing it with a new song, "Up and Risin" like the mixtape name =D. Well just a small update here..i will be blogging soon .

Well here it is that time of the year again! My favorite time of all! This year I am going to put up pictures of every single thing i get and if you guys want to join go ahead! Anyhow as an update i dont know if your remember but i was always having trouble with fighting in school, but I am now in adult ed on my last term of high school! 4 weeks left! Im 16 1 year and a half ahead of whe im supposed to be graduating!!! = )

It's been a while since blogging but i want to do it again(and not just for advertising my music). So who else is happy??? I just put up my Christmas decorations which i also want to take pictures of and put up here. Possibly tomorrow! Whats on everyones wish list lol?

http://pastebin.com/m12a2e206

The hook is with the beat and isn't provided with the lyrics.

http://pastebin.com/m68082415

Wut u think bout that?

So what is your utopia that you biuld in your mind, i think most people have done this one time or another. I often think of a perfect world completely shut off from reality.

I have a model of my cover my friend created of my mixtape cover but i will reveal that later on when some songs are recorded. But heres just the list of the songs -

1. Intro - The Valley Ahead(which is the lyrics i've shown)

2. Utopia

3. Kiss me to heaven

4. Lost Soul

5. Rest in peace

6. The Orbit of Life

7. Walking on a cloud

8. Picking up the pieces

9. The good ol' Days

10. Two Paths

Heres the lyrics - http://pastebin.com/m6583595c

There are spelling errors i need to go into that faze and fix it up but heres a ruff idea.

So as you guys know or well i mentioned this before i been struggle with a slight lateral lisp because of my braces a year ago have changed the positioning of my tounge, and i would only talk with my retainer on because i used that as a placing for my tounge to say the letter "S", "X", or "C", but i been doing very with my lessons and i am talking without a lisp and without my retainer now.

Anyhow i am thinking about ideas on what i should write to my mixtape like song topics, i wanna be very different then MAINSTREAM rappers today.

Electronic World - This is a pretty short song that i wrote, it is actually one verse, but i am going to try to fit a cool techno/rap beat in here, and find a cool futuristic sounding chorus, so it will go a long verse to chorus, or it can be chorus verse chorus. Not sure yet. But anyhow the song is about young kids now a days and how they are in love with electronics and they have to have everything new thing. I am not saying that i am not one of them. I kind of tied in a little story along with the song here, a young mother and her family, how her kids keep asking for new things that come out and don't treat her good. At the end of the verse or story for that matter i put a twist what happens to this young mother. I left along of things open in the air like if this mother had a husband, but for me when writin i wrote it thinkin she doesnt but i left in the open.

These rest are ideas so far, they are not titles of the songs or anything and they have not yet been written..

Political issues - Well this one i have got from watching a lot of the news with my parents, my parents watch Bill O' Riley who personally is a pretty nasty person, but he is a fair person where other news stations aren't. But the thing i dont like about him is that he cuts guest off and takes over when he doesn't agree with them. I am also putting down other news stations how they are clearly byass such as Fox. Also i am putting down Eminem how he made a song about Sarah Palin making her out to be a peice of meat..and how he has a very young adiuence and its not sending a good message.

The Bronx Bombers - Well i am a very huge Yankee fan, and rap has been basically some how dominated or tied in with basketball and rarely football but no other sport. When you think of a rapper you automatically infer they like basketball if not football. Kurtis blow made a song called "Basketball" well i am going to add a twist to my sports tie in here and talk about baseball..the yankees to be exact and all of baseball. Ill mention about Bob Mercer who passed away last year, Babe Ruth, Jackie Robinson being the first black basbeball player to break the void.

Wold struggles - I would like to give a big aspect how currupt the world is and was, i am going to talk about big Leaders such as Martin Luther King, Gandi(if i spelled it right), some evil leaders such as Adolf hitler Uncle Sam the serial killer, and places in destruction such as Bablyon and Mexico with the drug issues. Of course a lot more but you get the idea here.

One place, One death - Everybody seems to be afraid to die because they are un-sure if Heaven and Hell are true or if you just die and thats it. Me, on the other hand i am very relgious and i am not afraid of dying i read various books where people have died and came back to life and seen inexplainable things, some call dying as "Going Home". Also there are very religious people in my family who are catholic and i dont believe in man made rules and boring constructed masses so i am Christian and they are very upset with me, but we both believe in one God and were both going to one place. I am going to give that some type of mention in here.

Summer - Summer has always been my favorite time of the year as it is for most kids because of no school, summer always gives me a magical feelings, the hot weather, the bees, the full trees, goin in the pool, playing basketball, hangin out with the family all day, sippin booze outside with my dad, walking the dog i jus want to put all these feelings in a song, so when its cold and winter i can hopefully play this song and get that feeling of summer all over again.

Life rewind - Music in general was so much better in the late eighties and EARLY 90s it was clean and overal made you feel good. I just want to talk about some leaders back in the day, and talk about how it was back then and child hood memories and how i wish that the time could rewind.

The Autistic Kid - This ones a story about an autistic kid whos parents trapped him up inside his whole life, and how he is a really good person with great excessive enery and struggles to express that emotion with other people, and the kid feels like a sheild is hiding is trapping in his feelings from being released.

Stage fright - This one is decaded to me, how i am afraid to do speeches in school and yet i want to be a rapper, and how stage fright can get the best of us and i am trying to break that void or else it will not lead me to success and its very important to get over "stage-fright".

The mix - I wanna to take a lot of old good shows choruses are tie it into a rap for motivation, like the Jeffersons "Were moving on up..to the top", or Threes companies theme song, "Come and knock on my door". Just take a bunch of these happy sounding songs and tie it all into motavation.

EDIT NEW ADDED -

Caught up - Well this is an experience to me, these kids at school they started writing free**** and i kinda got drawn in. So i wrote acouple and then they didn't like the latest one that i did or whatever, anyhow they then said i "SUCK" at rapping. But you know what...i considered myself caught up...first off i am not a free****..what happens is free****s use all these big words and think oh look im an intellectual, im very intelligent. But you know what..it still sucks, on the count of yes your using big words but everything is made up and are your doing is just slamming you one opponent. Like i make your knees feel like jellow, or something lame like that. It sucks because you cant express your ideas and your not writing about anything in particular. So i told them im not going to free****because thats not what i do, im going to concentrate on my mixtape and own ideas.

Dreamin..of you - This is basically about a girl that i like NUFF said lmao.

Diversity road trip - Here is another story about if i just went on a road trip in my car ofcourse and recorded all the diversity i saw in the world. From people from Newyork, to Texas to all over the world. I was always interested in diversity so i thought i would expand on that.

Mellow it out - This is just a jazz background sound, played with some samples of Frank Sinatra in there with me rapping about how to mellow out using some techniques i took in a relaxation ****.i am also going to talk about some of the fights that i have gotten into because i havent YET learned how to control myself in those situations.

"Whats your name, whos your daddy" - This is a remix too the Zombies hit song, which two rappers have made remixes too one by Necro and the other by Kid Rizz i hate Necros cause it disrepect women so much. Anyhow i love this song so much i am going to chime in and make my remix to it.

These are just some of them, before i continue writing any i wanna think of some more ones that would really take you off guard.

Lol, i just realized that havent been on gamespot in like for ever and i havent been keeping up with my blogs. Like i havent done much programming in a while either i just been writin music lately im tryin to make a new mixtape. I also been seeing a speech therapist so im working on my lateral lisp which isnt a big deal, and im almost fixed it. So i really havent done much programming as ive said i just been into my music i like this new artist called K'naan he is really g00d. My birthday is this coming Friday, so i went clothe shopping with my mom to get some cool clothe, and i ordered two shoes off the interent..and im going to get my turntable and mixer on Friday!

Sorry i havent been active much on here...its just that...nothing really changes the offtopic formus are the same questions over and over and i just got sick of it.

So tomorrow i am going to a funeral and seeing my uncle ronny who died R.I.P. He will be in a coffin and i am nervous because I have never seen a dead body in person before! So it'll be interesting. My uncle died from massive amounts of heart attacks, i wasn't too close to him though.

Anyhow i started a game competetion on my college site (my second one) and i am on a team with my friend. We are making a remake to a 2D top-down alien shooter. So far we got the logo and it appears on the screen for 5 seconds and now we just displayed the main menu. Now im tryingt to get user input on the main menu and do some highlighting. Ill keep yall posted, but i haven't worked on the game play yet.