As hinted at last blog, I'm a bit hard hit on the social scene.

As some of you may be aware I consider my friends (of my age) in four groups. First are my closest friends from High School, Mitch, Dobbie and Dick, who I've been mates with since year 7 of High School. The next are who I call the new High School friends, consisting of Mitch, Dobbie, Dick, Wally, Elliott, Micheal and Johnno (notable exception of Mitch - more info here). The next group are the outsidersof Malik, Olivier and Delliott, and finally my workmates which are those who I work with. It is with my workmates that the social scene is most difficult, as most of them are girls (see my point ).

From now on I'm just going to use initials. Around the end of last year a girl, JB, asked me out and we were for a couple weeks dating. It fell through, but we've managed to keep a very good friendship. We go out every few weeks, grab lunch at work, and people from work are beginning to think that we are going out, which we are not. Just tonight I logged on MSN and saw her display name having "I love < my name >" and I'm thinking "alllll riiiighhht". I went onto facebook and found out she has started going out with someone of the same name and I let out a sigh of relief. I mean, I like her as a friend but nothing more.

The next part is where it gets more problamatic. Just before easter we had this other girl, AT, start in our department. I knew her before a little bit, and we went to the Royal Easter Show together with a mutual friend, PD (this is when I had my car accident with the cops - another story for another blog). Anyway, for the next couple of weeks I was being a bit compulsive. I wasn't ringing her up every day or going specially in to work to see her (unlike my boss with his love affair - another story for another blog), I just asked her if she wanted to meet up down the local shopping centre every week or so. Thing is, I knew from her messages that she didn't want to meet up, but from seeing her at work I got mixed messages. About a month ago I asked her just for a lunch down the road. She said yes, but then backed off at the last minute. It was then that I sent her a message basically saying that I liked her a lot, I know that she does not like me and that I would like to try just being friends. I was very sympathetic and in no way offended her in it. Ever since then we haven't talked at work (until last weekend where it was only work-related stuff) as she would purposely not sign in until I signed out. I also know that JB knows something I don't know because she let it slip that her and AT talked about me, but won't say what it was, only that it wasn't "that bad". I've gotten over AT, but I'd at least like to be able to talk once in a while and know that she doesn't feel any hate towards me. Also, I know she hasn't talked to PD, her best friend, in a while, which makes me think that it could not just be me getting her cold shoulder.

Now you might think that I only hang out with the girls from this blog, but I got a lot of male mates from work which I get along well with. Actually, I get along well with everyone at work (except maybe the store manager and SSM, but I've got a bit on them. They cannot fire me as I'm a permanent part-time [they fire me, I'll go to the AIRC or Fair Work Australia], and I'll get my friend in the local council to call a safety inspection, and we'd fail in every aspect of it, meaning thousands of $ in fines ). I've been told that people at work think I'm a homosexual (which I am NOT), but I am just generally nice to people. There are a couple of others that I'll ask out from Coles, but I'll try to not expect anything and learn from my previous mistakes. I don't know why I find it so hard to make friends