Why am I at level zero?

First I can't get to sleep early  then come morning I can barely make it out of bed.  Once I am up I am up but it is the getting there that is the problem . . . .

Now I have to come up with strategies to get out of bed . . .  so now I have set the alarm back half hour . . . that gives me about three or four good wacks at the snooze button . . .  then I created a playlist in Media Player  . . . .  music is supposed to soothe the savage beast . . . . so far it is mostly working . . .  but it is kinda sad the effort that I have to put into it. Sad . . sad . . sad . .

Another crappy morning when I am pissed at everything and everyone.  Then I go through a turn light and this huge truck breaks the light as I am going through. . . luckily my brain was working faster than I imagined and I pushed gas and burned rubber but man . . . .  that was really close.   Too close for comfort.  The thing is though . . . it kinda cured my crappy morning.

So this morning I am driving and a single thought sets off this wild daydream about the what-ifs and how I should have acted in a certain situation that I am now way too embarrassed to mention . . . you know those . .? the ones where you react ten minutes after you really should have let someone have it? . . . and all the things you should have said start coming to you .. . .? Yeah . . . one of those.

So in the middle of my oh so very elaborate and edgy renactment where I am not lost for words or too upset to put thoughts together . . I mean snappy comeback after snappy comeback . . . then whooooaaaa, I am startled . . . only to realise that I am in the middle of driving but luckily I was on autopilot but if I don't watch it I will be heading into the process of totaling the trusted Honda.

It has been one of those days.

and I have no words . . .  I am driving and thinking of all the good things that I could put in my blog, but when I get here, hmmmmm there is only air up there . . . I have no idea what to say . . .

So in lieu of greatness I will just put whatever is random and go from there.