Hello everyone,

     I would like to thank you firstly for taking the time to just read this blog. That small thing means a lot to me. I never thought i would have to apologise for who i am. I have always followed the rule that people should never apologise for who they are. Whether they are a murderer or the kind lady across the road who has been attacked several times.
Being who you are is something no one can ever take away from you. But today i realised that who i am seems to affect many people. Most of that time good. yet sometimes bad.
For my stupidity i pay the price of having to carry others emotions along with me. I am not complaining i got myself into this mess so i have to get myself out.
I know i have not been on here in a while. It is not through ignorance just through the fact i have had plenty on my mind and i got sidetracked by another site.

I am not going to tell you my life story. Or the problem i seem to be holding because i realised that the only people you can trust is yourself. Putting your trust in another human being sees to much for me at the presice moment. I cannot trust anyone through the damage i have recieved.
I do not blame anyone but myself. I let this happen to myself.
So i guess your all wondering why i right this blog just to ramble on and take up your precious time.

Well i will tell you , i am writing this blog because i want to show you that you may feel like your alone and you have no one to turn to. but you all do. Do not turn into me and realise you can trust no one. You will feel isolated and hurt all the time.
I am pleading with you never to let that happen. I am always here for any one of you. I seem to have a gift with being able to listen to others so please let me use it .
 I know soon i will regain the trust of others but i am deeply hurt to take notice of others wishes at the moment so i am not being ignorant. Or i am not being selfish. for once i have to sort out my own mess .

I hope to speak to you all soon.
I wish you all the best of luck with the following week. Thanks for listening to me moan. It was nice just to say all of this.

Cya you all soon
Fab x

 Today was the day i realised. I am a auntie again ...woooooo . My sister gave birth last night to a beautiful baby girl. Yay i am a auntie again. Woo weeeee so happy.
Also Fab is abck for good and wont be leaving. Ihavent seen the new series of CSI yet so i am dying to go and explore to find out what happened muh  ha !!!!

Also i want a big shout out to my mate Sleeptight becasue he ahs been really great to me lately . And is very special to me .
So it my friend Jenlar. Even though hs ehas been very busy moving in and stuff she has still been there for me *hugs*

I am now watching desperate housewives again becasue the series finale is coming up and i am ashmaed to say i missed it i know. But i will be watching it !!!

I hope everyone is okay ? And everyone is looking forward to breaking up from school soon . i am lol ..cant wait till its over .

Cya all soon xxxx

OK-IES ! Hiya everyone hope you are all doing great ! I sure am !
I also starting to hate year 10 and dreading year 11 . ( Years at british school). they are killing me with coursework and homework and tests!! I don't even have the time sometimes to come on here.

But on the upside. I realised that i am not the only one going through this load of cr@p so i feel slightly better. Ok-ies now i am also confused cause there is a hyper link in my sentence . :S . O-kay then.
Also i am really starting to get excited because not only is Christmas round the corner . but the birth of my baby niece. Yay so happy.

that is really. Hopefully my next blog will be full of life and ten times more intresting but ya know me ..never the one to talk *others disagree* well fine then ..so i may have told a little fib but ..aww well
Cya soon everyone ..i will write another blog soon muh  ha ha