07-29-2008 12:45:38

Why must my father get married? He has already ruined my life enough as it is. Why should he be given happiness if he has denied my and my family's? He shouldn't! Why does he have to pick her? Why not my mother? She was there from him. For us. And he wasn't. One of the two things he is good at; leaving and breaking promises. Oh. Three things: Leaving, breaking promises, and making things worse. And yet I was never good enough for him! Sure, I may not be his model daughter. But, he could never be proud of who I am. I am just a constant disappointment. No matter my accomplishments, I was never what he wanted. He wanted someone else. A different daughter. Maybe I am the reason why he left. Maybe I am the reason why he left my mother and brothers. Maybe it is because of me that we now have to suffer, and that my mother is ill, and my older brother joined the army. Maybe it is because of me that I am crying right now, thinking of was and what could have been. Maybe.

Love from,

Amanda

06-17-2008 11:15:43

Ok, dude. Life has officially decided to make me suffer.... My dad is getting remarried! So, now I will have not only a StepMonster. but a step-brother and sister.... Isn't that great!?! And, worst of all, my dad is moving to Ohio!!!!!! Life just keeps getting worse and worse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love from,

Amanda

03-29-2008 22:32:46

I'M ALIVE!!!!!!! Yes, after many months of drowning in schoolwork, I have come above it all!!!!!!! Ok, not really I still have another quarter to go.... But, I mean, come on! How much time should teachers expect that we put into our schoolwork? I have more important things to do.... So, anyways, alot of things have happened since... how long has it been??? Oh. NOVEMBER!?!?!?! Ol, that is messed. But, yeah. Life still sucks, but it has improved slightly since the beginning of February.... I guess. Hopefully, summer will bring something kinda resembling happiness... if that's possible.... Cyas all later!

Love from,

Amanda

11-16-2007 19:49:18

Have you ever had a book that has made you wish you were the main character? That had a hot guy who you would find yourself daydreaming about? Why is it that instead of leading a normal life, I take the lonely route and spend all of my time waiting for the man in the books that I read? If only he could jump out of the pages and save me, or better yet, I jump into the book and become one of my favorite heroins. Wouldn't that be wonderful?

Love from,

Amanda

09-25-2007 20:42:56

Ah tuesdays. After the horror that is Monday, Tuesday is like a breath of fresh air. I am hyper, school is less dull if that is at all possible, and it is most likely a good day to talk to me. Espicially if it is raining. Anyways, I shall leave you all with this question: What would YOU do for a Klondike Bar?

Love from,

Amanda