I know it's a long weekend - but it isn't for me. I have to work tomorrow, though only a half day which isn't too bad. I don't think I've mentioned yet that in December I'm moving my business back to my residential address. It's more convenient and as long as there are no complaints from neighbours things will be fine.

This weekend I need to get the shop side of the business up and running as much as possible. I've been trying all year and just haven't made it. I reckon I have 1001 things to do this weekend and about enough time to do 5 - guess that only leave 996 right? Could be worse.

Read a fascinating account of Christian Shaw the other day. Because of her accusation of witchcraft in Paisley, Scotland not long after the Salem Witch trials 6 people were burnt to death and the other 1 hanged himself before it was his turn. Ironically she became an very well-off woman in business for herself. Anyway, until next time, Love History

PS: That guy, things haven't gone anywhere - he's gone a little weird so I'm backing off!

So I had a shocker of a day at work - it's the whole don't ask situation - arghhhhhhhh! Anyway, I came home a little upset only to have my day brighten a little. I signed up to the Taken Out site - it's free and I thought I had nothing to lose. I've chatted with about 10 guys and things have been ok but tonight...listen up...I chatted with the nicest of guys - and he's good looking. Anyway, he's going to call me tonight - this is a big step for me - I don't hand out my number easily, but we just seemed to hit it off so well and I thought..."what the heck!" So you are all witness to me taking a big chance and fingers crossed it will work out...all depends how things go tonight.

More news soon,

Much love, History

I am looking forward to holidays - December's close isn't it??? I think I might be suffering from brain drain - normally I'd get two weeks off every ten of so weeks with the school term - but I think having had worked straight through is making me a little frazzled!

This week, which I would love to write was better, wasn't really. After three written warnings to one parent I suspended her son - they just didn't keep up with the payments - I made a rule they had to stay 1 week in advance - they didn't so another child got the time. Of course the parent wasn't happy and wouldn't listen on the phone but - NOT MY PROBLEM!!! Man that feels good to write that. I've been trying to apply that theory to a few things at the moment. I'm still a month behind in my paperwork but I'm hoping to catch up tonight. I think also I haven't had any time to do anything for myself - which is important. I mean for the past ten to fifteen years - since I started high school at least I've always dealt with the world and what I have to deal with by writing and I haven't had a chance to do that. So now I'm making myself spend at least an hour a day doing some writing which I think is helping - though I am so tired!!!!

I think I'll be glad when October gets here - I sort out a couple of things on the 1st of the month and I think that should lessen my stress and 'argh' moments.:-)

That's all for today.

Best wishes and love, History

I'd like to say that things are wonderful and that I'm on the top of the world, but truth be told I feel really down today. I thought yesterday that things were, or at least might, be looking up for me but I was wrong. I always seem to be wrong. I should be happy, over the moon - I mean I'm fully booked with a bunch of good clients and just starting to develop the second stage of the business. Most people would probably say that I have a fantastic life, but I'm lonely.

I tried hooking up with some old school friends a few weeks ago, but as usual I'm the one always calling and emailing - they only reply - is that real friendship or just someone who is 'there'? Whatever the case I've gone 'on strike' and consequently I haven't heard from anyone.

My Broadband contact is up in October and I'm getting rid og the Internet. I'll be using it at my brother's instead, just go in for a payment with him. I'm also going to disconnect the home phone. I only call my immediate family and it isn't like anyone bothers to call me so it seems pointless to be paying out so much money for line-rental. I'll still have the business phone and I'm getting a mobile for emergencies. Just put my car on seasonal - I have about 2 weeks left on the rego and then I'll be walking to and from work come rain, hail or shine.

God, I don't know what the hell is going on with my life at the moment. I only ever wanted to be normal. But I seem to be stuck being snesible and putting everyone else before me and me staying miserable and very much alone. It's not just that I'm single, it's that I've been single for so long and I'm tried of it. It's not where I saw myself ten years ago. Is a little happiness too much to ask for?

Anyway, being sensible I will of course carry on no matter what. Sad but true. Anyone every heard that song "Single Girl" - that song sums my life up exactly, hope I get the same happy ending that she hoped for.

Much love, History

I've been busy with work even though this is holiday time - still have a few kids coming in. Got called some nasty names yesterday by a lady whose son I had to suspend indefinitely after they didn't show up for several weeks and didn't call. Not the best of times at the moment.

Much love, History