Wow... It's been SO long since I've signed onto GS. I missed you guys!!!

So much has been going on.

I just gout out of being depressed. Finally. I wanted nothing to do with anyone for about a month so I just stayed home or at Rob's house. Im happy again though! YAY!

I've changed so much too. Im even crazier then before. But yeah... Uhh...

I always told myself I would never be a model. Just cause I wasnt into it. But I got sick of having photographers asking if Im interested so I decided to try it out. Its going GREAT! I love it. Next photoshoot is on Sunday and I have a concert I have to be in on the 13th of next month. =D

Me and Rob are are a little better now. Not good yet, but almost there. Things are changing though. I still love him with all my heart though. More and more each day. Haha. Thought I would've been sick of him by now.

I doubt you'd ever read this but just wanted to add that I love you with all my heart pookie.

Feb. 5th, 2006 - ???

Hoping I never have to replace the "???'s" with a date.

Anyways. Back to you guys.

I MISS YOU!!!!

And yeah, Im alive Corey =) lol

Oooh and just a tease =D

It's been a while since I've actually spent any time on GS and post a blog up so I decided to do so now

I had a great Christmas and an alright New Years. Wishing my New Years would've been better. Oh well. Cant do anything about that now Just hope ya'll had a good Christmas and New Years.

I miss my buddies!!!! Hoping none of you forgot about me haha

I havent seen my parents since last year! I've been at my boyfriend's house for the past 3 weeks I believe. Pretty long time I dont think my family misses me though haha. Oh well, We all need our time away from each other at times so I dont blame them. I do miss them though...Sort of... Heh heh heh.

Oh man! Me and my boyfriend woke up just woke up at 3:00am. About 3 hours ago. We had dinner at that time. We had fish and guineitos. MADD spanish But anyways, me and him were eating or whatever and when we were done I got curious to see how the inside of the fish's mouth looked. So I decided to take my fork and open its mouth up. I poked its tongue with the fork and the hand I was holding the fish's head with slipped. I went to put my hand back on the head to hold it up again. As I did that one of my finger's sunk into the fish's eye. I FREAKED out SO bad... I got up and ran to the bathroom while my boyfriend was rolling on the bed almost crying for laughing so hard... Im still not over that. That was one of the nastiest things that has EVER happened to me... I almost cryed... That sucked so much... Oh man... I just cant get over it...

Ew...

Enough about that...

Again Ill say, I miss you guys. SO much and Im trying to get  on the computer more so I can get on here and get back to the messages and your blogs and so on

Love you all! ♥

Went to a show we have once every month down here. Third time going. Live music. Underground bands. Sometimes turns into a rave. Anyway, It was great last night. I finally got to see my childhood friend for the first time in 10 years! She came with me and my best friend and his friend to the show. We had so much fun. My best friend finally let me go in the moshpit. I had a BLAST! Though I hurt my side, I had a great time and dont regret one second of it. Since boyfriend wasnt there I had alot of guys hitting on me. But I just had fun, talked back but let them know I had a boyfriend. No flirting after that. Just moshing and talking. SO much fun. lol. Freaking bands were awesome too. Eh, let me shut up about it now lol. PICTURES!!!!

Great band ~Archaic~

Best friend, KayJ

Childhood friend that I saw for the first time in 10 years, Rebeca ^_^

JUICEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

KayJ about to start moshing! Wooo

Baron... ^_^

SPIKE!!!

Spike again lol

Monkey Face Number 3!!! Joe! Just met him last night, Cool ass guy

Picture of me and the best people outside my house lol

And me looking like a retarded eskimo lol ^_^

It was great. I had so much fun. I was with my boyfriend of course, and our friends. We were in the Halloween Parade. We were suppose to be with my boyfriend's school but we decided to stay with the stripper float. lol. Some stripper there liked me. It was funny. Everytime I would look up she would throw jerry beads at me, or whatever you want to call them. She would also throw candy to me. She asked for my name and everything. lol Enough about her though... They baught a couple bottles and I had a few 'sips'. I was pretty much the only sober person in the group. So I pretty much had to take care of everyone there. It was funny though. My boyfriend was dressed up as Death, he would keep telling me to hold him so he wont lose me. He would argue with every single guy that would look at me. Dioni (boyfriend's cousin) was dressed up as Bill Clinton, at the end of the night he tryed looking up my skirt so my boyfriend hit his nuts Ryan (our friend) was dressed up as Sean Paul. He was just being himself lol. Joe (another friend) had no costume but had some weed on him so I used him lol jk. That was our little group. I was supposably a 'rock fairy' looked more like a dark angel though so Ill just say that's what I was. lol. It was pretty cool though. Saw alot of funny and strange costumes. Took my boyfriend home at midnight, called my parents and told them to pick me up, took them about 2 hours so I just layed down and slept a little with my baby. When they picked me up we all decided to go to some bar they're friend owns. I had fun there too. I just didnt drink lol.

You know... I just noticed something. I hate New York, but I dont think Ill ever be able to leave it. There's no other place like this. Haha...

Everything I said probably makes no sense at all. lol Im so f***ed up... Ha. Oh well. I miss my buddies here Hope you all had a fun and safe halloween

Here are the pictures I took over there...

Me and Ryan

Me and my baby

Me and my baby again

Me and Dioni

Dioni, My baby, and Ryan

My baby, Joe, and Ryan

Ryan

My baby and Ryan

Dioni, My boyfriend in back of him, and Joe all the way to the left

Dioni and my baby acting 'ghetto'

The rest of the pictures are just me

I got way too much going on. So ****ing depressed for so many different reasons. Just last night, I was thinking EVERYTHING over after having an argument with my boyfriend... My 'goal' was to get over it all and stop being such a 'baby'... I failed.. I just cryed all night. Tryed cutting, over and over in the same spot. But for some reason, no matter how hard I cut, it wouldnt go any deeper. All I have is a ****ing scratch. My parents keep telling me how Im going to die if I dont get back on track and take care of my diabetes... I didnt care before. But now, Im scared... Its been very hard for me to get up out of bed these past few days. For some reason, I've been waking up unable to breathe. Very bad chest pains. Its killing me... I've asked my boyfriend to go to the hospital with me. I'd go alone but I feel very uncomfortable in crowded places alone for some reason. He doesnt like hospitals so he wont go with me... I told him how I'd be right by his side if he ever had to go for any reason. And he told me that just cause I would do it and others would too, doesnt mean he would... It hurts me so much when he says things as small as that... For some reason, everytime I write, I just cant put it into words. I dont know, Its whatever. Im done here for now.