Its been 4 months since I last posted here. Sorry guys! I have been so busy with Chase, and this is literally the first time I have been able to sit down and have a thought for myself! What has happened in the 4 months that I haven't been letting you guys know? Well....

Chase celebrated his first christmas! He didn't really get what was going on, but I think he had fun playing with all his new toys and all the new things that my parents got him, they are loving being grandparents, and Chase loves playing with his cousin Mikayla, who is my older brother Josh's daughter. She is almost 3, and she loves having a little cousin to play with. Josh and his wife Lauren live about 10 minutes away, and Chase goes over to their house a lot, and Bryant and I love spending time with Josh and Lauren.

My brother Jeff got into college! He got accepted into UCSD, Stanford, UC Berkeley, Yale, and NYU. He's so freaking smart. He is going to major in business. I don't know where he is going to end up, he can't decide. I think he should go to Yale, just because, HELLO its YALE!!! but he is worried about leaving and going that far away, because he wants to be a part of Chase's life. I told him not to worry, that Chase will be here when he gets back!

We had a memorial for my brother Brent, because March 29th was the 14th year since he died. It was really emotional for me, since he was my twin. He and I went through so much together, and I wish he was still alive. Bryant was really sensitive to me that day, and it just proved that he is perfect for me, because he knew just what to say to make me feel better. Sometimes I take responsibility for Brent not being here anymore, because I lived through everything, and he didn't. Want to know what it was, pm me.

My sister Christina got accepted into the school that I used to go to, but I don't think that she is excited about going to an all girls school, because she wants to date boys! Thats her reasoning. I don't think she will have any problems with that. She and her boyfriend Kyle broke up, but now she has been dating some guy named Aaron. I have only met him a few times, but he was drafted to the local all boys high school as the first draft varsity football player, as a freshman. Jeff says he is really good, because he is on the team at that school, so he watched the tryout.

March 23rd was Bryant and my 1 year marriage anniversary, and our 3 year anniversary together. Josh and Lauren watched Chase, and Bryant and I went out to dinner. We went to Outback, which is my favorite restaurant, and I went off my diet for one night! I have been trying to get my pre-Chase body back, and it has been a challenge. I gained about 45 pounds while I was pregnant, and I have lost 30 of them, so I only have 15 left!!

I have gone back to dance clas.s, not too much, but just enough to get exercise and get back in shape. I haven't gone up on pointe, but that is going to take time, since I took about a year off.

Chase is 9 months old, and he is starting to talk! He says cook, mama, dada, kaykay(mikayla), oshie(josh), lowie(lauren), effie(jeff), gammy(grandma, my mom), gappa(grandpa, my dad), teena(christina), gam deb (grandma deb, bryants mom), gap bo (grandpa bob, bryants dad), bed, toy, teebee(tv), up, down, couch(more like cooch), bed, bath, and a few other words. He is also walking! Usually he has to hold onto something, but he has been walking without holding onto things for a few steps recently.

I guess this is it for now. I am always willing to answer your questions, so if you have any, you can comment here, or pm me if you want. Whatever.

Love you all, thanks for being so supportive through all of this, and not shutting me out of your lives for being a teenage mother and all that. I will try to go on more now, and not wait another 4 months to post something else!

hey guys, here i am to answer some of your questions.

1. Was your son's birth difficult? Umm.. are you still in school? Are you happy?

his birth was not difficult, it actually was really good. there weren't any complications. which i was worried about. i am not going to a school, but i am being homeschooled, and i go to this special program for teenage parents, where we can take high school courses. and yes, i am happy=]

2. Umm, what do you want to be someday?

i would love to be the best mom i can be, and i also would really like to be a teacher. but that depends on how raising chase goes, and if i end up going to college or not.

3. What does your baby look like? Hmm, if you could go back, would you do something differently?

chase has lots of brown curly hair, and green eyes. he gets his hair from his daddy, and his eyes from me. some days, i think that if i went back in time, i would not have gotten pregnant in the 1st place, but then i think about how much i love chase and bryant, and i stop thinking about that. i think that my life is the way it is because of my choices, so i dont think i would do anything different.

4. Are you guys on your own or living with parents? He's 4 months so he should still be getting up 4 or 5 times/night so you must be TIRED! Tell us everything!

I am super tired, but chase is finally starting to sleep through the night, which makes bryant and I SO happy=]. haha. bryant and I are living with my parents, and his parents are still living in new york, which makes both of us sad, but we see them every once and a while.

So, if anyone has any other questions, go ahead and ask them here.

love you,

julianne

i would like you guys to ask any questions you have, then i will answer them all in one question blog. im sure there are questions about my life, school, my baby, and my husband.

so go ahead and ask away, and i will answer ANY questions. seriously, any.

i have no problems about answering anything you want to know.

love you,

julianne lawson

oh my god its been forever since i wrote.

well, i had my son!!

im gonna be on here much more, so i would appreciate if you asked questions about what you want to know about me, bryant and my new son chase, and anything about our life, and i will answer them in a question/answer blog!!!!

love to all,

julianne lawson

Wow. Its been so long since Ive been on here. Ive been so busy with planning my wedding, and bryant living with me now, and being independant, and homeschooling and just being pregnant. Its crazy. Im going into my last trimester, so its almost time, i have 3 more months. Im so excietd. I am starting to show, and its really annoying because my clothes dont fit anymore. =[

bryant and i have been very busy planning our wedding. its going to be so great once it happens though, im so greatful to be in a relationship like this. i feel honored that i was chosen to be in love with someone like him, who takes care of me, and comes home the second after school gets out, so he can spend every minute with me.

well, thats all for now. its good to be back

julianne