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I had a breakdown...

Yesterday. It was pretty bad, at least for me. I guess you could say I'm kind of the type to let things bottle up and hope that they'll just fade away, (and usually they do... at least for a little while), because I don't really like talking to anyone about my feelings. Yesterday, however, I was being really b*tchy with my mom and sister because there were several things that had just been building up and I was extremely frustrated with everything, and so finally my mom explodes at me saying stuff like "You are such a b*tch" and "If you don't have anything nice to say, shut the hell up", and I just burst into tears because I hadn't even meant to take anything out on anyone.

I ended up telling her how insecure I am (I'm wayyyyy too insecure for one person), and how I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone, not even her. I did tell her, however, that I think I might be actually depressed, like people who cut themselves and consider suicide. No, I don't cut myself, but sometimes I feel like not living anymore would make things much better. So my mom eventually decided that I need therapy. Yes, therapy. Therapy where you talk to a stranger about your problems and they supposedly help you get better. I don't know if it will actually help, but I've been feeling so horrible about everything lately, and I don't want it to get out of control. And I don't want to think about suicide.

Has anyone on here been to therapy before? If you have, does it help? You can PM me if you don't want to comment publicly about it. Any help would be appreciated.

Posted by justjess_02, 10/23/2007 4:02pm
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you know what my mom says that to me all the time and then threatens me with therpy and i say go ahead do it! But you know what i think that everyone needs alittle therapy! IT will be fine but i hope everything gets better *hugs*
Posted 10/23/2007 4:35pm
I haven't gone, but I have a friend that does go every once in a while, and it helps. Unfortunately she can't afford to go weekly as she probably needs, but monthly. Make sure that if you ever start to feel depressed or scared you may hurt yourself or someone, schedule an emergency appointment, because it will really help. Maybe try to keep a more private diary to have time to reflect or find someone you do feel comfortable talking to. *hugs*
Posted 10/23/2007 8:02pm
Jess, I went to psychology school for 3 years.... if you trust me maybe we can talk.. and well i dont know if your mom is exagerating with this therapy thing cuz i dont know what kind of problems you have... but well basically therapy is you having a friend that will hear you and be on your side (not really, but i mean it wont be on any side, but it will pretend to be like really be in your side...) do you want me to pm you all this? so thearapy helps A LOT because is you alone with someone you can really trust and it will be like taking everything out of yourself... you will feel it really refreshing
Posted 10/23/2007 8:04pm
Oh dear! *hugs* I sometimes feel like shouting at my mum because she is so foul to me, but that was so cruel what she said to you! I have never been to therapy, but maybe they could arrange your mum for parent councilling
Posted 10/23/2007 8:57pm
I'm sorry to hear that. My sister is going through a similar problem. She just takes everything and lets it get bigger than it should. She's in therapy, and it helps, but she still has problmes. I hope you feel better, and remember, things always get better. I should know. I don't bottle things up so much as work through them myself. I wish you luck.
Posted 10/24/2007 4:24am
I have two friends who went to therapy and they came out so much better. I have considered it but I'm not sure I'm comfortable with it - I like to deal with things on my own which is probably not healthy! I'd say go for it, depression is not fun and you need help to come out of it.
I'm sorry you're feeling bad, hope you manage to overcome it *big hugs*.
Posted 10/24/2007 4:33am
im actually going into therepy! i want to move out of my moms house and in with my dad but to do that i have to convince a theripst* that my mom is not a good parent. but ive always wanted therepy!
Posted 10/24/2007 9:00am
Thanks, everyone. You've made me feel better about this whole situation. Still nervous about it - but we'll see. Thank again.
Posted 10/24/2007 4:54pm
I have never been to therapy but the youngest of the two girls I take care of has and I think it has helped her. Anyway, I am so sorry that you have to go through all this frustration and depression. *major hugs*
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Posted 10/24/2007 6:18pm
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