Well so far everything is going well. We are getting married next May and have already picked our venue. It has a chapel onsite from 18th century and has a really nice reception room.

I have bought my dress too, it is getting made, that is going to take about 3 months. It is really lovely, has a huge long train at the back. It is a strapless dress with a really nice bodice that pulls my stomach in and makes my boobs look good!!! It also makes me look like I have no butt so all in all its fantastic!

We just went shopping for bridesmaids dresses today and luckily botht the girls found a dress they could agree on!!! It is a nice light purple short dress. It can be worn again so it will be great for the races ect. It doesnt look like a traditional bridesmaid dress. They have to be made now aswell so final fitting for them will be next January!!

Everyone cant believe how quickly I am getting this put together! Ive got the makeup, cars, dresses ect organised. My boyfriend just has to get his suit for him and his best man. So that will probalby end up beign down to me to organise cos we all know what men can be like!!!

Actually just thought of one thing we havent sorted out is the wedding bands, gonna have to get onto that cos my fingers are so tiny that it will probably have to be made as well!!!

Havent been on here for a really long time. Ive had migraines so havent been on the computer at all. So what gossip am I missing?????

I have been away for a couple of days so I havent been able to say thankyou for the congratulations you guys have all given me!!!

I went to Cairns for 5 days with my parents and my sister, it was my mums 50th birthday and my 28th so my dad wanted to treat us to a little holiday!

I am really appreciative of all the messages people have sent me it is fantastic to know that I have so many friends here. I wish I could have you all at the wedding!

I have to say I do like the idea of a cyber wedding or atleast an engagment party!!! It would be a laugh! Smawls you can be bartender anytime you like!!!

Thanks again, I am so grateful. Love you all!!!

Just a quick one to say I had a great birthday!!! I had a lovely suprise with a nice diamond ring from my boyfriend with a proposal!!!! It was so sweet!

Only thing is I go to Cairns tomorrow for a few days with my parents (its my mums 50th this year too) so I wont see him again till wednesday!!!

So gonna have to start planning a few things now, I have absolutly no idea where to start. Im sure my sister will be able to help me cos she did it all 2 years ago.

Starting to get a bit stressed with it all though, cos I think we ar going to want to do it before we have our big holiday niext July so Im gonna have to get cracking!!!

Well this time next week I will turn 28. It really should be a happy time for me but to be honest all I keep thinking about is where I am going in life.

As most of you know my work had a change of ownership. I worked my arse off to get where I was in the place, after nine years I was a dispense tech, in charge of 6 other people and basically knew everytihng about anything. When this new chick took over 6 months ago she got rid of all the extra staff, and the ones she kept have quit anyway. So basically it is only me there now. She treats me like a junior. I dont dispense scripts anymore and I dont do dosette medication boxes she took all that away from me. I am now a checkout chick basically, all my training and hard work has come to nothing. My old boss keeps ringing me up and telling me how wonderful his life is and I swear to God I want o kill him sometimes. The other thing is too since he left buisness has really dropped off big time. Today is pension day and I can guarantee when I get there we will be dead today. Part of that is due to the new owner, she has no people sklills whatsoever and nobody is warming to her. But she refuses to believe it is her fault and that it is everybody elses fault. She even had a go at me last week becasue I went on my break and she had to serve and do scripts and 2 people walked out becasue it was busy. Well that not my problem, hire more staff?? Thats a good freaking idea. It is really hard to go and find anew job at the moment because no one is hiring in pharmacy becasue there will be huge changes in august. I really do hate it though, I shouldnt be made to feel like iv3e only been there 3 months instead of 9 years.

The other thing I keep thinking about too is kids. My sister had a baby about 5 months ago and he is gorgeous. She got married 2 years ago, and then decided they wanted a baby so they were trying pretty much from day one. I never really used to think I would want children but I can feel my biological clock ticking! Plus everyone around me has either just had a child or is pregnant. My boyfriends brother's girlfreidn just found out she is expecting so they are all excited. Im so happy for them but there is that little part of my mind that keeps saying it should be me. My boyfriend doesnt want kids just yet. We have been together for nearly 6 years and we arent even engaged yet so kids wont be for a long time yet I think!!!

I just feel like everyone around me is going forward and something good is happening in their lives and Im just standing still like Im going in slow motion and with my birthday next week it is really starting to bring me down.

Hopefully I can start celebrating soon.

Well at the moment I am sitting at home having a sickie from work, probably only my 5th day or so in 9 years so not too bad!!

Well as some of you would know my old boss sold the pharmacy last november to a woman who has absolutly no idea how to run a buisness. Consequently she got rid of all the staff (or drove them away) so that it is now only me working full time, she has also kept on one girl for saturday mornings. So now if I am sick it is very difficult to get time off.

Ive been sick now for about 3 weeks, I think it is a chest infection but because I am asthmatic it has just doubled my breathing problems and in the last four days I have developed a shocking cough. It almost sounds like I have croup. So everytime I cough now my back and ribs are in agony. I havent taken any days off from work because there is nobody to cover for me so I have just had to wear it and feel like crap at work but today I had enough and I said that I had to go home. So got there at nine and left at eleven!!

Im not a big fan of winter, I mean I love getting all rugged up when the cold sets in but it does nothing for my health. About 3 years ago I ended up with a chest infection that turned into a throat infection that turned into a sinus infection and then started all over again! I was sick for 3 months and on antibiotics for nearly 5-6 months, which is not fun at all.

So im hoping it doesnt get as bad this time. Ive got another doctor appointmen tomorrow so I'll see what he has to say and what course of action they want to take.

So thats why I havent really been around much at the moment!!! God I need a laptop!

Nothing much to say at the moment. Just didnt want to keep seeing the rip clyde when I opened up my page, still painful.

So how has everyone else been???

Sorry I havent been here for a week or so I have had a really bad time at the moment. I just lost my 13 year old cat Clyde. He had been sick for a little while and the vet diagnosed him with asthma. He was on cortisone ect but gradually he got worse. The vet decided that he needed to have an endoscopy and sum x rays to have a look at his chest and throat. I had to leave him at the vet on wednesday morning knowing that I probably wouldnt get him back. At his age they were worried that even the slight anesthetic would kill him.

The vet rang me at 3.15 that afternoon to say that they had done the endoscopy and that he had a huge tumour covering his vocal cords and that they didnt think it would be a good idea to wake him up because he would be too distressed and his breathing would become even worse. They thought it would be better just to let him go and decided we should have him put to sleep. I didnt get to be with him.

I went to see him after I had finished work, he looked so peaceful, I still find it hard to believe that he has gone. We have decided to get him cremated, I didnt want to think what the vet would do with him if I didnt take him. I had decided on the cremation a long time ago, that way he is still with us and it is a kind of closure.

Im going to try and add a photo of him onto this blog, Im not sure if it will work. This is my baby boy Clyde, I have had him since I was 14 and he has lived with me and my boyfriend since we bought our house together. The house now feels complelty empty. I loved him so much and I dont know what I am going to do without him.

My sister had a little baby boy last Tuesday afternoon! His name is Cameron and he is the most gorgeous little bub Ive seen, of course I am slightly bias!!! This is her first baby so Im a first time Aunty. She brought him home from the hospital on Saturday so I was there doting on him Sunday! I have been able to hold him both times Ive seen him, he just stares at me and then falls asleep.

Gonna have to make him into a Collingwood supporter though, my sister and her husband are both Geelong!!!

Hope everybody else is good?? Any news about anything??

Well I hope everybody had a great weekend. Sorry I havent been here for a while, now I am back at work after my holidays I am finding it extremly difficult to find time to go on the computer.

Anyway my boyfriend and I went away this weekend to a place in the Yarra Valley, the heart of wine country here in Victoria. When my old boss retired his leaving gift to me was a certificate to stay for a weekend at a place called Chateau Yering and have a sunrise balloon ride. To check the place out that we stayed go to www.chateauyering.com.au The place was amazing. I have never been to a place so lovely and peaceful. The package we got also included dinner at their resteraunt. It was five courses and I have eaten food that I would never have even thought of!

The balloon ride was just spectacular, we had to get up at 5 am and we got picked up by the company gowild ballooning! There was about 15-20 other people as well. Once we got to the field we actually help to set up the balloon, the pilot actually hooks up all the cables ect but you help to unroll the balloon to help inflate it. I was freaking out abit because I dont like heights but everyone kept telling me that it doesnt feel as bad as taking off in a plane because it is more gentler and slower. They were actually right!!!

The views were so wonderful, I took heaps of photos. You could see the fog over the mountains as we rose higher. The sun coming up over the clouds was beautful.

We didnt really want to come home today, but unfortunatly we had to go back to work tomorrow and we have a cat to look after too!!!

Hope you all had good weekends!!!

Hey, just wanted to see if everything is ok cos I havent seen you on your blog for a week. Im just abit worried cos of the flooding you guys are having in QLD.

If anybody has heard from her can you let me know???

Ok all you E/O shippers out there (or anyone else in general!) I want to discuss the up coming SVU season finale. From what I have heard it is going to be about a fertility hospital where eggs have been stolen and toward the end Olivia starts to question her own choices in life, mainly to do with the fact she does not have children.

Please tell me someone has heard that we get some more E/O moments??? As a laugh I thought that we could all say what we thought is going to happen at the end.

My scenario is this, Olivia and Elliot get drunk in a bar after the case and Liv is talking about the fact she doesnt have children and is starting to regret it. Drunk as they are Elliot turns to her and says he will give her a baby and ride off to her apartment to do the deed!!!

Abit way out I know, but thought it would be funny!

It is too freaking hot here in Melbourne. We have got nearly 40C (which I think is about 100F??). I cant handle hot weather, never have been able to. I think it is because Im English, we are used to the cold. Now before anybody says "whinging pom" I dont mind when it is late 20s mid 30s thats not too bad, I can go outside and work on my tan! Just today it is too damn hot and its going to stay like that for the next week.

I just hate not being able to sleep at night because it is so humid. Im asthmatic too so that kills me. Hey, svuiskool is it still really hot in QLD? Ive heard you guys are gonna have really bad storms over new years. They said on the news that they are going to close the beaches because of high waves???

Hope everybody enjoyed their holidays. Mine not too bad, dont have to go back to work for another 2 weeks so all good!!!

Well gonna go and sit under the fan again. Man I need to buy and air conditioner!

Well we finally did it!! My boyfriend and I got off the waiting list and joined our local health club!!! We have been 4 times since we got member ship and it has been great!! Ive got a program all worked out for me to do upper body work and to help me tone up abit so hopefully soon I will feel alot healthier!

We had our work party on saturday night, all the other staff who work there are younger than me & ive known them for a very long time. We went out for dinner and then all came back to my house to play Singstar!! That was so much fun. I frigging love that game! We ended up going through about 8 bottles of wine between the 8 of us. The last person left my place at nearly 1.30 so it was a late night for this oldie!!

Work is starting to get a bit better. She still wont let me use the computer but Im not cleaning anymore. It has become abit more bearable but we'll see what happens in the new year.

My aunty, uncle and nanna arrive in Australia from England tomorrow to come for christmas. I am so looking forward to it I havent seen them for nearly 2 years. So this year will be a great christmas!!!

Well I got to work on Monday and met the new owner. I really think we are going to have a personality clash, ie: she hasnt got one.

She walzed in and just brushed straight past myself and Sigourney, didnt even introduce herself until she was in the dispensary itself.

She took each of us out the back to have a chat. I was first. She started by saying I will no longer be doing any work cover accounts, no dosette packing and no more dispensing of scripts (why did I do the friggin course then????). She then continued to say she wanted to cut my hourly rate by $2 hr and then said I can only afford to keep you for 4 days only not 5. I looked at her and I said that wont work, if she gives me 4 days I will walk. So she changed her mind and said Ok you can have 5 but at the new hourly rate. I pretty much had no choice but to accept it.

She then took the other girl out the back and offered her 5 days but only 10-3 and then cut her hourly rate back by $2 aswell. So she lost pretty much half her wages. We are open 9-5.30 which would mean I would be on my own from 9-10 and then 3-5.30. So the other girl pretty upset.

Then she took Sigourney out the back. Sig does our afternoon jobs and works on saturday aswell Sig gets to keep her hourly rate as what it is now but only gets to work on Saturday morning now, no afterschool work. So she is only working 3 hours a week and I wont see her anymore.

The new woman has also got rid of 2 other staff members and has kept one other girl on but will reevaluate after christmas.

She hasnt even worked a day in the place and she has already made quite a few decisions that will piss nearly every customer who walks through our front door off. If we dont have 2 front of shop girls on in the morning we are flat out and a most customers will get annoyed that they have had to wait too long to be served and then that they have to wait another 10-15 mintues for their scripts to be made up.

Now I dispense extremely fast, I do the dosettes very fast.I can have 15 dosettes done in 30 minutes. If she isnt going to let me dispense then what is the point in me being there? Effectivly I have been demoted. I am no longer able to do the things I love but I cant afford to leave and be out of work now.

Im just annoyed that she has made all these decisions before she has worked there. Who comes into a new buisness and slashes the staff before she starts? Wouldnt it be better to give it a month and then she can see how busy we are, when our high times are and when the low times are.

I dont think it will be a very fun place to work now. So if any of you out there live in Melbourne, Australia and know of any dispensary tech jobs out there please let me know!!!!!!!!!

Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We flew back home yesterday and had a fantastic time. Plenty sun and sand! The sunshine coast is lovely, it was quite peaceful and had plenty of time to do everything we wanted to

We went to Australia Zoo, Steve Irwins place. That was great, spent nearly 5 hours there and took heaps of photos. I even got to feed baby pigs and lambs, they were so cute.

We relaxed in the pool a lot and did sum sunbathing so I have come home with a bit of color so I dont look so pale.

Work rang me 1 of the days I was away and the girls sent me a few text messages so I didnt fully get away from everything but I wasnt as stressed as I thought I would be.

Im meeting the new owner tomorrow at work so hopefully I will maybe know what is going to happen with my job so that will be a load of my mind if i do find out.

Hopefully everyone else is ok!

Just a quick one! Hope everybody is ok. Thanks for the suggestions on my current job situation! Quick shout out....anybody living in Melbourne Australia that knows of a pharmacy needing a dispense tech, please let me know!
Hopefully I should know next week roughly what is going on so I'll let you know if she has decided to keep me or not.

In the meantime Im going to Queensland for a week, the Sunshine Coast!! God I hope it is sunny, havent had a holiday in soo long its not funny! So I want to come back with a tan.

Nothing much on the agenda, we are just going to relax and try to enjoy ourselves before coming back! Hopefully I can enjoy myself considering what is going on, but I am going to certainly try.

So have fun if anything interesting at all happens please drop me a pm and I can read it when I get back!
See ya all!

As alot of you know I have worked in a pharmacy for the last 9 years. My boss and I had a plan, in about 3 years he was going to sell up, we would both leave and then I could think about starting a family with my boyfriend. Well that plan has gone down the drain, my boss sold his buisness last week. The new owner takes over in 3 weeks.

Where it really affects me is she believes that she can run the buisness herself with just one shop girl, who would be a junior. So effectivly I could soon be out of a job.

I wanted to try and discuss this more with my boss at the moment but he has gone away for a week and then I am away for a week after that. When I get back we only have one more week together and then the new chick takes over.

Now I have to try and figure out if it is worth convincing her to keep me or just leave and let her fall in a heap. Realistically she cannot run the pharmacy herself and have one shop girl, it will not work. The jobs that I do myself include making up nearly 35 dosette packs a week, workcover invoicing, dispensing scripts, helping customers, dealing with reps, placing orders and writing up cheques for accounts. That doesnt include the fact that I answer the phone, serve customers and unpack the orders when they come in. John reckons he has said to the new woman that if she gets rid of me she wont have a buisness. She is looking at how much I get paid though, I do get a lot more money an hour than what most dispensary assistants get, but then I do a lot more than what they do. Im pretty much a book keeper as well. So I think she will try and lower my wages if she does keep me.

So that leads me to wonder do I want to stay there knowing that im going to get paid less or do I leave and try to find a new job? I love where I am now and I love the customers too I really hate the thought of not being able to talk or see them everyday. If I move to a bigger pharmacy it is less personal and you dont get the same interaction that you do in a small intimate place like we have now.

I just dont know where i stand really until I come back from my holiday, which I am really not going to enjoy know because I will be stressed fro the whole week. I might get back and meet this new woman and she may not want me I just dont know yet and I hate that.

I went to the Cranbourne Cup yesterday. It is ahorse racing event, here in Melbourne we are right in the middle of our spring carnival. We usually go to the Melbourne Cup which is a bigger event but it is always totally packed so we thought we would go to a country race meeting.

We actually had a really good day, I went with my boyfriend and my best friend, Christine and her fiance Jamie! We packed a picnic and some drinks. We all got dressed up, cos if you go to any race in the spring carnival you always have to get dressed up and the girls all wear hats! We skipped the hats this year, it was a bit windy!

The one thing that made me laugh is when we go to the Melbourne Cup or Caulfield Guiness ect it is always full of middle aged women getting absolutly piss blind drunk and making morons out of themselves. We actually thought Cranbourne might be diffrent but no, to the side of us were five women gradually getting more blind through the day and just shouting and talking at the top of their voices. Christine and I were just cracking up laughing because as the day got warmer, they were drinking more wine and started to forget about the sunscreen. I feel sorry for them because when they all wake up this moring they will be extremely hungover and be as red as beetrooots!! I would love to be where they all work today to see how they pull up

Of course I had a few bets but didnt win anything. I got a 2nd place horse and that was it. Most of the other ones I bet on actually came last!

You couldnt get too close to the horses either which sucked, with the equine flu outbreak the only human contact they are allowed to have is with the jockeys and their trainers I think.

All in all a good day!!! Hope you guys all had great weekends!!!

Happy Birthday for tomorrow!!!! Im pretty sure Im a day early but I cant go on internet tomorrow cos we are painting the house!!!

Hope you have a great day and get lots of nice pressies!!!!!