I'm so angry at myself. This site means the world to me, I've met some really great people here,.. but nowadays I just can't seem to find any time for this!

I know I should just sit down and write. and comment. but what the h.e.l.l. is this damn block I keep getting when I should. okay, this blog is mostly about complaining, but usually I wouldn't like to complain here. I have my finnish blog for that. but when I get the urge to write, it's when I feel sad and when I need to vent it off somewhere and to someone, though probably no one reads it. even the thought that someone might helps me.

but there's just so much going on in my life that internet has lost a huge part of its meaning to me. there are only a couple of pages I visit (including fb.. shame on me! ) and even during that time I'm on messenger aaaaaaalllll the time. (even now I'm "talking" with two, which makes this process really slow)

today I just wanted to stop by and tell (like nobody cares, but still) that I'm still very much alive and constantly watching tv. though now during the summer only top gear. and with work and all even that much seems impossible. I'm just waiting for fall and new seasons of lost, house, office, pushing daisies, desperate housewives, brothers and sisters,.. the lot.

funny how I feel I'm doing nothing and still I have no time. guess I'm doing something wrong.

I did do something destructive though.. I broke my glasses last week during my four day holiday. and today my phone started to seriously fall apart. not to mention my computer has just been fixed *again*.

but I'm happy with my life. I really am. what else matters when you have those around you who you love?

I did what I swore I'd never do.

I joined Facebook.

I have to say I've no idea why I did it. Well, I did find a couple of friends I thought I'd lost for good. So it's not all bad. But the bad thing is that it is extremely addictive, and I seem to be spending more time there than is necessary.

I should only think about school. And I kinda am. .. Too bad that this week is my holiday, and I could just relax. But all these haunting images of all the projects I should get done in five weeks keep my mind overactive. Plus I've exams every week, sometimes two! .. The good thing is that after these five weeks it's all about work. For two weeks I'm working at the tourist info of Turku. So please, you all, come to Turku during april or may! I'll be there answering your questions and helping you to find the best places.

And after that it's already summer! Yay! We've had the lousiest winter ever, so I'm already done with it. If it won't snow and it won't be freezing.. please, give us spring and summer. If it rains then, it's at least part of the season. I hate winter without snow.

I'm so sorry I haven't been here on tv.com.. I've been so busy in school. Hey! If any of you has been on a Disney Cruise, please let me know! I'm doing a presentation on it, and I'd love some honest opinions.

And now it's back to reading stuff about Turku.. When 1st of April arrives, I should know all about my town. And I mean ALL.

.. and on that bombshell I'll give you all an early present .

(not done by me.. but I love it.)

Fourth day of my summer holiday.. So far I've watched way too much SpongeBob, I've been sick since day one, I'm halfway through "The Dog It Was That Died and other plays by Tom Stoppard" (I love it, but I'm annoyed that the library doesn't have all the books I wanted, and I've no way of getting them), the weather has been dreary and I've only seen the new Top Gear (everything else can wait till next week).

I love this! .. well, except the flu, but cos I'm sick, I don't have to do anything. So this is a real, proper holiday for once. I don't have to work, I don't have to think of school,.. I can just be. Do what I want whether it's sleeping on the couch in the middle of the day, reading books and/or comics, watching TV (okay, SpongeBob!) and most importantly, I get to spend time with my parents. This is like childhood all over again.

Since I can do whatever I feel like doing, I decided to answer yet another bunch of weird questions. You know that feeling when you have a table full of all kinds of sweets.. when you just want a sandwich? (I've no idea where I'm going with this, but I'm loaded with different kinds of drugs and nothing works, so I don't care.) Forget what I said.

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EVERYONE HAS THEIR FIRSTS

first real friend: my cousin Tiia (I love her!)
first school: Karivirran ala-aste (I spent seven years there)
first cell phone: Nokia 3210 (once a Nokia, always a Nokia, now 6600)
first funeral: my mom's aunt when I was four (almost five)
first pet: my lovely white cat Minttu, now 14 years old.
first real trip: a week travelling around Lapland.
first flight: from Helsinki to Hamburg
first celebrity crush(s): Kake Randelin
first job: post office (more of that coming this December! yay!)

EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS

last person you hugged: mom last night
last car ride: .. last Friday from Lahti to Sysmä
last time you cried: last Friday (my chats with mom tend to be rather emotional sometimes)
last movie you watched: Shawshank Redemption a while ago (.. or was it some Ewan McGregor-movie, I can't remember)
last food you ate: coffee
last item you bought: .. I bought two comic books by Don Rosa, I've ordered the new Kent cd,.. haven't paid those yet, though. So the bus ticket Turku-Lahti must be it.
last shirt worn: the one I'm wearing now.
last phone call: .. ages ago!
last text message: hmm.. once again, ages ago.
last thing you touched: my computer of course
last funeral: my grandpa two years ago
last time at the mall: we don't really have those here in Finland..
last time you were excited for something: last Friday minutes before my summer holiday started
last person you saw: my mom
last thing you drank: .. thing? sounds weird. coffee.
last person that broke your heart: I tend to do it myself..
last time you were really happy: I'm really happy now! I'm having a holiday and there's SpongeBob from 9.30am to 4.10pm every day on Nickelodeon! I might have a terrible flu, but that won't stop me from being extremely happy.

COLORS

RED
1. Are you currently mad at someone? no reason.
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? I think that would be me.
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? of course!
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? .. I don't know.
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell/scream? I yell for a moment before I start laughing. then I just stare.

ORANGE
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a surprise party? no. (.. stupid friends..)
2. Are you easily excited? yes.
3. What event is coming up that your most excited about? a free cruise!
4. Which of your friends is most excitable? no idea. I don't care about their feelings.
5. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? "hey, I just won a load of money!"
6. If you could have anything right now what would it be? a cure for my flu.

YELLOW
1. NAME? you know it by now
2. Where were you born? in a hospital in Lahti
3. What's your main goal in life? no idea, I live one day at a time.
4. Do you want to have children? yep, but not soon.
5. How do you want to die? in my sleep when I'm over hundred years old.

GREEN
1. Do you like this color? depends.
2. gay marriage: why not, but not for me.
3. Lowering the drinking age? uppity! anything that annoys teenagers is fine by me.
5. Abortion? yes.
6. Recycling? yes.

BLUE
1. What was your latest dream? I got stuck in an elevator.
2. Which of your friends do you dream about the most? no one, I dream of random people.
3. Do your dreams come true? never
4. Do you usually remember your dreams? bits and pieces
5. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had? it involved a blue pepsi bus, I went home from school in it.

PURPLE
1. Straight, Gay Bi? straight
2. Do you have a bf? nope *le sigh*
3. Do you have a crush? not at the moment
4. Who is the best "hugger"? I am!
5. Do you believe in love at first sight? no, I believe in friendship at first sight
6. Have you ever been in love? no. depressing.

you know I really hate to update this blog.. it takes ages to get the text approved 'cos apparently I use some forbidden words. I'd like to know what they are so that I could avoid them.

hey.. if anyone knows someone who owns a hotel or a travel agency, please ask them if they'd want free workforce for two months next spring.

I'm bored so I stole a quiz from somewhere.

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Name: Johanna
Username(s): pulkkanen
Nickname(s): Yoko, Joppana, Jossu, Johku
Gender: female
Birthday: 28th January (Aquarians rule!)
Sibling(s): two older brothers

Hair color: dark brown
Eye color: dark brown with weird green spots
Height: short
What's the story behind your username(s)? nothing much, it's my last name and I like it.
What's the story behind your nickname(s)? Yoko(hama) I got while I was in Ireland, Joppana is what my mother calls me, Jossu is what my friends have always called me, and at school some call me Johku

Current mood: so and so.. I should go shopping, but I don't really feel like going.
Current music: Kent - Ingenting (great new song from a great Swedish band!)
Current hair: long, straight and brown
Current desktop picture: Nixon! from BoB
Current thought: why can't it be sunny? why are there clouds without rain? this weather is not autumny enough for me!
Current hate: homework

FAVORITES

Favorite boy's name(s): Arttu, Oskari,..
Favorite girl's name(s): Sofia, Evelyne, Elli,..
Favorite subject(s): English
Favorite celebrities: Hugh Laurie, Richard Hammond,.. and so many others.
Favorite number(s): 33! 33! 33! 33!
Favorite character(s): House, Wilson, Jim, Pam,.. etc. etc.
Favorite season: I love all of them.
Favorite pet animal: cats and dogs, won't choose. I've both.

Favorite wild life animal: otter!
Favorite planet: just to annoy those stupid scientists; Pluto
Where is your Favorite place to shop: Sokos Wiklund/Lahti
Favorite book: Little Prince, Fever Pitch, BoB, Parachute Infantry, Seitsemän veljestä (Seven Brothers by Aleksis Kivi)..
Favorite TV show: House, Top Gear, The Office, Rescue Me, Brothers & Sisters,.. and from the new ones, Pushing Daisies. I love it!
Favorite movie: Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead
Favorite quote: "What's the Norwegian for 'Oh, c**k.'?"

Given anyone a bath? only cats and a dog.. the dog hated it the most.
Bungee jumped? nope.. but I'd love to!

Broken the law? kinda
Gone skinny dipping? yes
Loved someone so much it made you cry? well, who hasn't?
Broken a bone? nope
Played Truth or Dare? yes
Been in a physical fight? yes.. kinda.
Kissed someone of the opposite gender? yes
Been in a hot tub? .. yes.
Swam in the ocean? no, when I was in Spain the water was freakin' cold!

Had chicken pox? yes
Had a sore throat? .. yes, duh.
Had stitches? I was thinking no, but them I remembered that I've had stiches in my mouth
Had a bloody nose? yes.
Had a cold? YES!

DO YOU...?

Enjoy parks? yes
Like picnics? yes
Like school? sometimes
Collect anything? episodes of Top Gear.
Like to shop? not really.
Get in trouble a lot? I'm a good girl, I am!

MISC.

If you were stuck on an island, who would you want on the island with you? Jezza, Hamster and Captain Slow .. yes, I'm that addicted to Top Gear
Last word you said? .. can't remember. maybe something I sang.. but mahna mahna (from muppets) is not really a word.
What's in your CD player? I don't have one! but computerwise.. Manu Chao's La Radiolina.
What color socks are you wearing? white
How many kids do you want? two, a girl and a boy
What are you listening to right now? the sound my computer makes, traffic, church bells (now I started to sing Nancy Sinatra's Bang Bang)
Who do you admire? my parents. .. I really do!
How many buddies on your list? what list?

Have you ever hated any person in your family? no.
What are you most scared of: death of someone close to me
Who is the last person that called you: .. I think it was my former boss. she asked me if I could help out at the post office before Christmas. the job would be in Vääksy, which is half an hour drive from Sysmä.. So not only would I have to skip school, but I'd have to travel there by bus every day from home.. of course I said yes! now I have to convince my teacher to give me the week off.. easier said than done.
Where do you want to get married: somewhere special.. my parents got married on a cruise ship. first ever wedding there.
Best song you ever heard: there are so many great songs out there.. I can't choose just one!
Have a lava lamp: gawd no. there was a time when I wanted one, but nobody would give me money to buy it.. thank you for that!
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? I do when I'm depressed enough to cry myself to sleep. it really helps to hug someone, even if it's just a stuffed bear called Kontti.
Most prized possession: I'm a hamster.. everything I own is important to me. but emotionally my most prized possession could well be the teddybear dressed in army clothes that my brother brought to me when he was in the army. that bear (who is now called Nixon, btw) travels with me everywhere and reminds me that my brother loves me and that he's always there for me.
Good at sports? me? only at watching. .. and according to others, I'm rubbish even at that! I scream, I yell, I curse,.. and I hit innocent people around me.
Good actor/actress? Hugh Laurie. I don't think I need to explain this!

Shy? with social anxiety disorder.. hard not to be.
Do you like filling these out? yes, I do. answering random questions is so much fun.
What are your plans for tomorrow? sleep, homework, Top Gear,.. the usual.