well, as I lay in bed tonight, my laptop on my lap, and my mind racing towards thoughts of sleep and my upcoming birthday, I remembered you all here at tv.com. I'm not sure why, or how, but I suddenly felt incredibly drawn to this site, my hands overpowering me as I typed in the address and entered my password.

Returning seems to be a theme in my blogs I've realized as I look over my homepage. but is this a theme in my life, or just a theme in my consistency in this site? I'm not sure, as I live by a philosophy of "People Always Leave", a line stolen from the first season of One Tree Hill. But is this the truth? Do people always leave? Or do they always return? Sure, there are exceptions, as I remember that I began living by this philosophy the night my aunt die, but nonetheless, am I prepared to think that people always return? When angst is so much easier to believe than light heartedness? Will my mind as easily welcome the idea of returning as much as it does the idea of leaving? I should be the one to answer these questions.

But I cannot.

So today, as you read this, don't wonder about your own feelings of mourning, leaving, returning, or even staying, but of freshness. Think of maturity, when even though you feel every single prick of sadness, you still feel that one stap of happiness, which may brighten even the darkest day.

While I coudl ramble on about things that do not matter, I think the things that do matter are more important, as they are our life's work. Life is not meant for finding yourself, it's meant for Creating yourself.

-Keira