Current mood --- Totally bored and totally down in the dumps.

Okay.. so Sunday nights are officially the most boring night of the week... I am like going to die here.  Trace!! is not on MSN.. which makes me mad.. (if you're reading this gahh girl!) and neither is anyone else worth talking to because I am sooo ready to commit social suicide.. seriously.  High school and friends SUCK!  I've lost like all of my friends and there is soo much pressure to party and smoke and gahh!  Don't get me wrong, I love going out, I love being sociable but I am not up for every night partying/drinking and I draw the line at drugs, of any description.  Sometimes I just feel like I'm like this person who's cooped up in the house all the time and stuff.. it blows but yeah.  I just feel like I'm so done.  People should just grow up already.  I duhwnooo.. I just go through adjustment phases, this is one of them.  I think I'm still trying to figure out where I fit into the huge world of high school.... sometimes it just feels like everyone's moved on and I'm stuck in this one place of such intense limbo, it's confusing.  Maybe everything is about accesibility, like who can get a hold of you and how and when and your avaliability.  I totally did not spell that right.  I'm just not a person that you can get a hold of super easy (because I do not own a cellphone!!!).  I know that sounds like totally immature but I don't know how else to put it. 

Eeekkk.... I get an iPod tonight!!!  I get paid tomorrow (first paycheck!) but I'm going to camp on the weekend so this week is the only time that I have to pick it up so my parents are going to sub me the money that I don't have right now and I'm going to pay them back.  Omg.. I'm so frigging excited.  I've wanted an iPod for ages but it was always so unreachable for me because of the prices.  And I've worked really hard for the money that I've earned that I'm going to use so I'm feeling kind of proud of myself right now.. lol.

For all of you that may speak French.. check this woman out.  Even if you don't speak French, you don't really need to understand the lyrics of music right?  I saw this woman on Bon Baisers de France last night and I think she's pretty fabulous.  I'm getting her CD off of Amazon.  Her name is Marie Mai and her new album is called Inoxydable.  Check it out.

I've sprained my finger.. and it hurts.  Funnily enough it's exactly the same finger that I sprained three years ago.  Talk about weird.  Now to the story...

I had a soccer game and there was rumors that we were going to win by default because they didn't have enough players to play.  They defaulted against the last team that they played.  We were told to turn up and even if we did win by default, we would still play against them for practice.  We all turned up and we were warming up but they only had five girls.  We were thinking, yes, easy way to stay on top.  Their last two girls showed up last minute, they had enough girls to play.  We were fine with that, we haven't played in a while because of the crappy weather.  So we played and needless to say, we got six goals, they got injured and conceeded because their players were tired.  We still had a half hour so we started to play adults and kids against the team.  I was like "Ohh!  I wanna try goalie."  Yeah, I did, went for shot, hit my hand and it sprained my finger.  Now, ya know how everyone always crowds around you when you're hurt?  Everyone was literally like 1/2 inch away from me.  I walked away, I wanted to suffer in peace lol.  So yeah, now I'm trying to type with my left hand and my finger and thumb on my right hand.  It's pretty hard, I can't get myself coordinated.

I'm also employed at my local Dairy Queen!  I dropped off my application on Sunday, got called at 9:45 Monday for an interview at 11 and was starting work by two!  It's all pretty exciting!

-Amburr

It was my one year anniversary two days ago!  Wow, one year, lol!  I don't have much to show for it lol.  One editorship, 72 submisssions, 16 reviews, 974 forum posts and 49% of Level 10.  Hmm... at least it shows I have a life.. that's reassuring!

And to all GSR Club members.. our one year is in like two months (September 27th if I am not mistaken!)

Well England played a heck of a good game against Portugal but when it came down to penalties, Portugal have officially advanced to the semi-finals.

England played their best game so far in the World Cup and they really stepped their game from such games as *cough* Ecuador.  Unfourtunately Becksies, a pivotal player of the team as he takes freekicks and scored the goal against Ecuador, got injured fairly early in the second half and went off with a calf injury.  Beckham was spotted crying on the bench not too soon after, I think he realized that their run was over.  Not too long after Beckham was off, Rooney fouled a Portugeuse player in .. well let's just say an incredibly sensitive part of the male anatomy.  So the ref was over and Rooney was kind of .. uhm.. mouthing off and then Mr. Christiano "Hottie" Ronaldo came over.. he likes to make the English mad and he tried to hush Rooney and Rooney let his testosterone get the better of him and pushed him.  Red card for Rooney.  I was pretty mad.  Then the game went on for about another two hours and it came to penalties.

England has never won in a penalty shootout, too much pressure or whatever.  Well Mr. Hargreaves, Canada's hero was the only England player that actually sunk the ball in the back of the net.  And Mr. Ronaldo made the winning penalty.  It was a shame.. and I'm very sad now.

Omg.. so pumped... summer's here which of course means that I'm going to be around here a lot more which will be good.  I hope to finally get to level 11 or more .  I haven't been able to do a lot of things I used to do around here lately just because I was so incredibly busy and had only a limited time that I could actually get on here so yeah, I look forward to hanging out with you guys a lot more!  It's like two days until my official one year anniversary here so I'm pretty stoked about that.  It's been a year that I've been bugging people over at the CSI board lol!

Yesterday was possibly one of the most bittersweet days of my life.  I had to say goodbye to what was possibly one of the best schools before the principal left.  The first two years that I was there was unbelievable, it wasn't a school, more of a community where people gathered and learned.  I had teaches who taught me and who I became friends with, I had the most amazing people around me who taught me more than I could've ever imagined.  I faced my challenges and got over them and moved on, and omg.. Nickelback's Far Away just came on, and my friend made a presentation about our three years and that was one of the songs.  There was just something so positive about that school but a bombshell came at the end of my Grade 8 when our principal decided that she was leaving for a sabbatical.  This woman is like the best principal.  She understood us and never lectured us on any type of topic, only discussed with us so you can imagine the difficulty of the change when our new principal came.  But I did my dues, did my last year there and now I'm free!!

So I'm trying to burn a disc really quickly and uhm.. burning discs isn't too quick.  So to keep me occupied.. a blog post!

The day has been dreary, it has been moderately raining all day.  Went outside and splashed in a few puddles with my class during French... and omg.  So my Science teacher is pregnant and she wasn't there when we went into class today and then she came in and looked like she had been crying a lot and then went home and we're all really hoping that she's okay and that she hasn't had a miscarriage or anything like that because she was pretty upset and we know that she hasn't had the easiest pregnancy.  She's a really nice woman once you get to know her and no woman deserves to go through a miscarriage.  And.. uhmm.. WORLD CUP STARTS TOMORROW!  So now I have to tell you guys my shirt story.  So my brother and my dad both have England shirts for the cup.  I, meanwhile, have nothing.  So my dad and I were at the mall last night and I saw these shirts in a store and they say "C'mon England"  They didn't have any left in my size so I called round the rest of the stores and one store had one so I'm going to get it as soon as my disc is done burning.

No soccer tonight, the fields are pretty wet and I skipped my club's training session last night because I had a fatigue headache and I decided it was better to skip than to burn myself out.  And it's Jenlar's and my mommies birthdays on Saturday so I bought my mom Room With A View.

And that's my week and I must dash.

Okay, so I really need to get in shape and get trained for soccer and I'm determined to do it.  I'm going to keep a diary online here and hopefully if will motivate me if I keep looking at my progress and seeing how much I'm training.

So, ultimately my goal is that I will try out and make the soccer team next year at my high school.  From there I hope to be able to get a soccer scholarship to pay my way through college and then possibly play professionally for a while.  I would really like to play on a national team someday.  I have a real passion for the sport and there's nothing that I'd enjoy more than making a living playing my favourite sport.  So here it goes.. Day 1.

PS: Role model in all this: Mia Hamm

So it's almost a year since I become a member with tvtome.com.  After it switched over to tv.com I kinda had to rejoin but it's been about a year that I've been puttering around here and it certainly has been a fantastic one!  The GSR club was formed.. we had a great season with CSI and I've made many a good friend here!  So thanks for all the support and the friendship and I hope that there's many more years to come and many more friends to come!

PS:  For all of you Canadians.. watch Canadian Idol tonight, a girl that used to go to my school is auditioning and apparently gets very far!

It is 27 days until school is over.  We had our first couple of exams last week and are now getting field tests for the exams that we get in June.  I am counting down the days, believe me.  Of course with school coming to a close also means that my grad is coming up.  My friend and her boyfriend are working on a presentation about the past three years and I can guarantee you right here, right now that I am going to bawl my frigging eyes out.  The past three years have been the best of my life and I wouldn't trade them in for anything.  It's going to be so tough to say goodbye to everyone and I know it's for the best and all and that we have to move on but I cannot imagine my life without the hallways that I roam right now.  For sure I know that I am moving on to bigger and better things but these past three years will definately be something that I will never forget.  Though I have positively been a passenger on the rollercoaster, I wouldn't have it any other way.  It is going to be tough and I'm going to have to get used to it, but I know that high school will be twice the fun that junior high has been, so amen to moving on!

So it's official.. I have finally gotten around to reading The Da Vinci Code, and it's fascinating.  I think it's really amazing how the whole basis of religion was built on feminity before the Catholic church.  I have heard that it puts the whole foundation of the Christian belief into question, but I haven't gotten that far yet.  I can't stop reading it.. it's crazy.  Has anyone else read it?  Does anyone else think that it's awesomely amazing like me?  Or am I being a loser again?  Lol.

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Argg.. I am at 99%.  This blog post is solely for getting me points lol.  And to say yay for 15 days left!  And yay for GSR!!!!!

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So I've decided that I've become waayy too ADD so I need to cutback a bit on the obsession that is this site.  I have to make sure that all my homework is done before I come onto the computer because I can't afford to lose my education now, I'm only three years away from graduating Grade 12 and now I must dash because I kinda have a situation going on...

Guess what I'm counting down!  That's right, the CSI finale.  I'm so frigging excited!  Grissom and Sara and love and happiness.

In other news.. I'm doing terrible at Stocksquest and it's five degrees out and I must go play soccer against my brother's team   this afternoon.  Oh, and my neighbours who had the party?  Across the street?  They're probably moving back to Regina.  I'm very sad as I've only just become really good friends with the youngest girl.  I'm dead bummed out.

So my Social teacher has the majority of my grade playing this StocksQuest thing.  It's like you buy stocks with fake money and it's so much fun!  We're becoming sooo obsessed with it.  No joke.  And it only started today.  I'm buying stocks for the supidest reasons, like my bank because "I have to be loyal to them because they supply my plastic."  Haha.. must go buy more stocks.

New CSI tomorrow!

Yess!  It's my birthday!   And it snowed for the first 3 hours, which sucks.  I had to say goodbye to my grandma, and that sucked too but overall it has been a very good day.  I picked up an application for a job at my local grocery store and I'm very excited to get my first job.

And now onto more dramatic things.  So my neighbour across the road, who is seventeen, decided to throw a huge house party.  I get up about 10:30 to soo many voices and I'm going "What the heck is going on?"  There's about 20 teenagers on their front lawn, and they're starting to fight.  I walk out of my room and my mom, dad and brother are all freaking out in my brother's room.  Next thing I know, my mom's on the phone to the cops.  It took them ages to get there.  Oh, and they sent the helicopter.  Don't ask me why, it's a frigging house party.  So the cops arrive and then three guys take off around the corner and my mom's like "Umm.. three guys are running out the back," and then the helicopter has its search light on.  Now this light is like the sun, it's soo powerful.  And then a cop car is racing off after these kids.  Then the dad arrives and the girl is sobbing that there's blood all over the place inside.  And then we woke up this morning.  Final damage check: 3 broken windows, 2 kicked-in fences, 1 damaged drain pipe and god-knows-what on the inside.