Current mood --- Totally bored and totally down in the dumps.

Okay.. so Sunday nights are officially the most boring night of the week... I am like going to die here.  Trace!! is not on MSN.. which makes me mad.. (if you're reading this gahh girl!) and neither is anyone else worth talking to because I am sooo ready to commit social suicide.. seriously.  High school and friends SUCK!  I've lost like all of my friends and there is soo much pressure to party and smoke and gahh!  Don't get me wrong, I love going out, I love being sociable but I am not up for every night partying/drinking and I draw the line at drugs, of any description.  Sometimes I just feel like I'm like this person who's cooped up in the house all the time and stuff.. it blows but yeah.  I just feel like I'm so done.  People should just grow up already.  I duhwnooo.. I just go through adjustment phases, this is one of them.  I think I'm still trying to figure out where I fit into the huge world of high school.... sometimes it just feels like everyone's moved on and I'm stuck in this one place of such intense limbo, it's confusing.  Maybe everything is about accesibility, like who can get a hold of you and how and when and your avaliability.  I totally did not spell that right.  I'm just not a person that you can get a hold of super easy (because I do not own a cellphone!!!).  I know that sounds like totally immature but I don't know how else to put it. 

Eeekkk.... I get an iPod tonight!!!  I get paid tomorrow (first paycheck!) but I'm going to camp on the weekend so this week is the only time that I have to pick it up so my parents are going to sub me the money that I don't have right now and I'm going to pay them back.  Omg.. I'm so frigging excited.  I've wanted an iPod for ages but it was always so unreachable for me because of the prices.  And I've worked really hard for the money that I've earned that I'm going to use so I'm feeling kind of proud of myself right now.. lol.

For all of you that may speak French.. check this woman out.  Even if you don't speak French, you don't really need to understand the lyrics of music right?  I saw this woman on Bon Baisers de France last night and I think she's pretty fabulous.  I'm getting her CD off of Amazon.  Her name is Marie Mai and her new album is called Inoxydable.  Check it out.