For about a month now I've been advising many of you that I'll soon be asking a favor. Thankfully you've not only patient but openly generous enough to say 'yes' without even asking what it was that I would ask of you. Thank you for that.

This is that moment. I ask that you read this information through to the end and act on it in whatever way your conscience dictates.

Thank you.

Some startling statistics:

In 2006 -

1. Three-quarters (75.9%) of child fatalities were caused by one or more parent.

2. 83% of victims are abused by parents or other family members.

3. Over 900,000 incidents of child abuse were reported.

4. It is estimated that this is only 1/3 of actual abuse cases that took place that year.

5. Every day it is estimated that 4 children die from abuse or neglect. 78% Of these fatalities occur in children UNDER the age of 4.

6. 48% of child abuse victims are boys, 51% are girls.

7. Child abuse knows no gender bias, no racial lines, no socioeconomic boundaries.

8. In 2006 - there were 78,120 documented cases of sexual child abuse, and 142,041 documented cases of physical abuse. (remember this is an estimated 1/3 of actual cases).

9. Of the reported number of rapes of children under the age of 12; 90% (NINETY PERCENT) KNEW the perpetrator.

10. Nearly 2/3 of people in treatment for drug abuse report being abused as children.

11. 1/3 of abused/neglected children will later do the same, perpetuating the cycle.

12. Children who expeirence abuse and neglect are 30% more likely to commit violent crimes.

For Example:

Albert DeSalvo - The Boston Strangler - Rapist/murderer - was abused as a child.

Albert Fish - Serial Child Rapist and Murderer. - Probable victim of abuse.

Donald "Pee Wee" Gaskins - killer of men women and children - was abused as a child.

Charles Manson - master manipulator and murderer - was abused and neglected as a child.

John Wayne Gacy - serial child rapist and killer - was abused as a child.

These are just a few, and some not even the most well known serial killers of OUR time. The list sadly goes on and on and on.

13. Annually, these numbers are on the rise.

14. Each and every one of us CAN do something to help change these facts in the years to come.

One of the things that we can do is to support institutions that help PREVENT Child Abuse. If we can PREVENT this atrocity, then we can alter the future for untold generations to come.

The following links will take you to either Amazon.com or Createspace.com and the page for a commercial fiction book called Broken.

http://www.amazon.com/Broken-Originally-Titled-Know-Enemy/dp/1440407991 - for the paperback

https://www.createspace.com/3353260 for e-book

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=kWpATBeIrkY Youtube Link

It is an unapologetic journey inside the psyche of a serial killer caught in the vise grip of out of control impulses. Lust, hatred, and a forbidden love are the gateways to a sado-sexual killing spree in the midwest that comes to a head in a final confrontation in a blood soaked motel room.

1/3 of the author proceeds are earmarked for division between; The Child Abuse Prevention Center in Dallas, Tx.; Prevent Child Abuse America, out of Chicago, Il.; and VH1's Save The Music Foundation in New York. (To help keep music programs available to children in schools).

I ask not only that you help support these wonderful agencies and all the promise they strive to bring to the future, but that you forward this email to anyone you know who is interested in lending a hand and might not know exactly how they can do that.

You CAN make a difference for tomorrow in ways you never thought possible today.

J. A. Carlton.

(statistics by: U.S. Dept of Health and Human Services. And National Child Abuse and Neglect Data Systems).

(Serial Killer history information based on research by Robert Ressler, Founder of the FBI's Behavioral Sciences Unit and Forensic Behavioral Services International - and available on trutv.com)

Due to mature content I will only post the first few paragraphs of this oneshot, but I am providing the link to my ffn page where the rest of it as well as all the WarVerse fics are accessible...

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3069592/1/Comfort

Here we go:

Comfort - SN OneShot

Mature Content:

by J.A. Carlton

aka sifichick

Disclaimer: uh huh

Love, need you ask?.... (and a little lust thrown in for spice)

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Look out! she shouted rocketing the dart across the bar just as he ducked. The dart sunk into the eye socket of the mummified looking creature, giving it just enough pause for Dean to roll out of the way, spring to his feet and swing with his bowie knife cutting the things head off in one fluid movement.

From the corner of her eye she saw Sam wrestling bare handed with another of these things... it seemed they just kept coming! Sammy Down! She cried sliding her throwing knife out of its sheath and flicking it easily into the back of the being's neck. Once again the creature was distracted enough, reaching for her knife lodged in between its vertebrae, for Sam to effectively behead it.

She stood at the pool table, leaning against it, holding a stick at the ready but apparently these guys didn't think of coming after her. All they seemed to want was the Winchester boys.

What am I? Chopped Liver? she felt herself ask and bolted awake in the chair beside the king size bed.

Scrubbing her face with her hands she shook off the dream and opened the door between their rooms. Her gaze fell on Sam who lay in his bed snoring softly, sleeping restfully. His bandages didn't look like they'd bled through too much. She closed the door softly and turned her attention to Dean who lay in her bed, a long though thankfully not deep rend across his chest from a sharpened ring.

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if anhyones interested in continuing on... the link is here I hope you enjoy.

sifi

HUGE SPOILER ALERT HERE IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THE EP AND DON'T WANT DETAILS DON'T READ PLEASE!

LAST CHANCE

OKAY

This episode was a PERFECT 10 in my book.

Even Bela (by the way Krip... this doesn't excuse her, it just means that her presence did for this ep exactly what a supporting character is supposed to do...) Even Bela actually fit right into this episode in a perfect way. (Personally I still want her shipped back to the Middle East as quickly as possible).

There was nothing about this episode that wasn't positively Excellent! From Bobby's nightmare and finally a bit of his own back story... to Dean telling him he was a father figure to him. Which was a subtle reveal actually about some of Dean's deepest issues with John... and a nice bit of foreshadowing there about what was to come.

Dean's face-off with himself, the keeper of his doubts, his own literal inner Demon(s) and waking up to the realization that he DOES deserve more, I found to be hugely emotional.

And I do have to wonder now, how this will affect his relationship with Sam. His whole life has been about investing in his little brother and now he wants to live for himself... (this episode had me filled with nervousness and hope both from the moment I first heard what it was going to be about. Last year Krip... last year!).

So speculation is going to have to run absolutely rampant about the repercussions that are going to echo through their 'brotherhood', fortunately I don't think we're going to have to worry though, as we all know it's the brother dynamic that makes the show what it is... but

One of the things that I was actually speculating about while I was sleeping last night;

Is Dean finally going to start severing the apron strings between him and Sam?

AND Okay this is going to get a little twisty maybe... I'm only still on my first cup of coffee here...

The boys both know that Dean can't HELP find a way out of the contract with the demon or Sam dies, so just how technical does that get? Could it be something as passive and subtle as 'allowing' Sam to look for ways to help him? Or does it actually have to be an ACTIVE pursuit for Sam to wind up dead.

and... What if SAM is the holder of Dean's contract and he doesn't even know it? Like on a subconscious level or something? (and of course the Crossroad Demon wouldnt' be allowed to tell him because it might screw up the plans of hte 'higher ups' [or is that 'lower downs?] even further if he didn't come into it in his own way and time [ie his powers and which way he chooses to use them] cause if you go with biblical lore... even the Devil does God's bidding so why not lesser demons as well?)

Of course back in TM7 - Bobby pretty much told Sam, "You're not gonna find it in a book..." re: getting Dean out of the deal.

So maybe it has to be a matter of will... Dean KNOWS now that he doesn't deserve to go to hell... so maybe somehow the key to him NOT getting dragged down is borne of his own righteousness... the WILLING sacrifice he made for his BROTHER, (which of course would mean that the guy he saved from the deal in CB, might too have been able to escape since he did it for his wife's life... but that's neither here nor there...) the idea is that it was the selflessness of the act that may be brought into play when it comes time for the hounds to try and drag him down.

Course the pendant could have something to do with it too... I mean this IS Krip we're talking about here... and WeeSam said, "Uncle Bobby said it was REAL special...." I mean Forest for the Trees right? the answer's right in front of their faces all along? Just a thought and I know certainly one that is shared by many.

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Okay back to the ep! I never would have figured that Sam was a fan of the movie Dreamscape. "Why Tommy Ray..." "Daddy?" AWESOME man.... absolutely LOVED it.. (and of course one of my FAVE movies from the 80's man Dennis Quaid... soo very tasty...ahem)

Jensen was hilarious as an uber-caffeinated Dean... twitchy much ? I mean wow! but I can relate.

At the end when Bobby asked Sam if he thought his own 'dream weaving' (great song 'Dream Weaver'by the way), and the quickness with which he picked it up might have had something to do with his psychic abilities... Sam just said, "no... I dn't think so..." but the look on his face was wonderfully telling... in that perhaps he'd been wondering the same thing himself or even that he knew maybe it was. The thing of it IS he DIDN"T DENY still having powers, (which he tried to do in BDaBR when Kubrick and Greely had him taped up in the chair). Which in my opinion means that something in the Sammyverse has given him reason to think that perhaps they ARE still there...

Krip is engaging us in some serious sleight of hand here... keeping our focus on Dean's Deal and HIS story while I'm certain dropping tiny hints about what's going on with Sam... that when all is said and done I wonder if he's going to draw it all together into a possible flashback episode that's going to point out exactly those key moments when Sam started heading down the dark path OR began to test/manipulate/ explore - his powers and or ability to control his own destiny.

Sam? Talk to us... Let's us know what's goin on in that freaky noggin' of your huh?

I got a HUGE kick out of his nearly wet dream about Bela... that's just SO wrong considering everything she's put those boys... well Dean through...

and Dean's "Man you were OUT! And making some seriously happy noises over there... who were you dreaming about? Angelina Jolie? Brad Pitt?"

but even more positively hilarious when Dean asked him to come over there and help him, the "In a minute" read: I gotta let this woody wilt first bro... (Jared you are seriously growing more and more delightful, and those facial expressions... MAN you must be doing some serious mirroring with Jensen... cause both of you are just absolutely DEAD ON!)

and OH MY FREAKING GOD... there was nothing but "C" bombs going off in my living room when we found out the B**H Stole The Freaking COLT!... (sorry about all those Nana I was just really really ... you know... ).

I want to see Dean PUNCH her. Maybe even a couple of times... Once for shooting Sam, Once for daring to touch the car, and the other for putting their LIVES at risk AGAIN... by stealing the Colt... She DESERVES to get decked repeatedly. He wouldnt' hesitate if it was a guy, so I'm thinkin' "this isn't gender studies sweetheart" ... She deserves a good old fashioned Beat-down.

But I do admit that in this ep, Bela's character fit in excellently. FINALLY (but like I said up there... / personally I want her gone... I know I'm just one of a many with that opinion but... please just get rid of her please...there IS NO REDEMPTION nor should there be!).

I can't believe I"m saying this but this episode has slid right up to the top, even surpassing the Christmas ep, but just by a hair (cause y'can't beat WeeChesters! and Woobie Sam or Dean).

The scene where Dean was fighting, and fighting for himself... literally just squeezed my heart so tight I almost felt tears...I would have liked more but that might have lessened the impact... we know Dean doesn't have much patience for himself or what he perceives to be his own shortcomings so to see him blast a hole in the chest of that part of him that was forcing him to FACE those truths is wholly believeable and IN character... then of course that his 'inner demon' literally became a Demon... I mean... perfectly literal and visceral...

and hey I gotta say... there was HUGE symbolism in the way Sammy was staked to the ground... almost crucifix perfect in fact... By the way Sam? Did you KILL Jeremy? It sure looked that way to me... and since I'm pretty sure you did and am going to go with that... well at least I can still hold to my 'blood innocence' stance since he was a killer in his own right... (Are you going to make it harder and harder for me to hold onto that thread Eric? Hmm?)

Anyway, imho this ep was perfection. I don't even know who wrote it... and for that I'm sorry I can't give you proper 'Props'... but I hope you get the point anyway.

As always deepest appreciation to the Kast and Krew... and special love for Jensen and Jared.

Thank you all for making this THE best ep of the season (So Far).

once again... it's only mho.

Man I LOVE the opening look this season!

Kudos to Kathryn Humphris = stuffing so much into so little time and doing it so beautifully... very not easy, despite how easy you make it look!

Well despite how easy Jensen and Jared make it look honestly.

Man I got a ton of love for this ep, for a ton of reasons, (not the least of which is issues with fairy tales in general and an odd lack of appreciation for Disney's treatment of them through the years)... oooh digressing already sorry.

Back to business.

That was one seriously deep throated bullfrog! (It was a bullfrog right?) and I LOVE Dean's "I'm sure as hell not kissing any damn frog..."

IT's not often we get to see the boys fight tooth and nail against each other, but when they do it's a little scary.

By the time Sam shouted, "YOU'RE NOT DAD!" I was half squeaking with my hand over my mouth in 'oh you did NOT just say that!' denial, and half clapping up a storm... (I"m sure it looked rather odd) ... then in the heartbeat that followed with the instant of confusion that crossed Dean's face, (could be just me... ) but I could've sworn something inside heard Dean retort, "I might as well be to you!" or some such thing that would have solidly confirmed all of fandom's suspicions that Dean was definitely Sam's most solid 'father figure'. But we know it in our hearts anyway so that'll have to be enough.

(Dean I always figured you for a WB cartooner over Disney) Hence his knowing Wile E. Coyote (I bet you do a mean Taz impression), and YAY for reminiscent moments back to season 1 - The things he can do with a pen (or in the case of Hookman - Brush). Hee !

And honestly Sam you did a great job drawing the tree in front of the house in Home... so what's up with Overstuffed Sausage man? Yikes! (course I culdnt' even do that well personally so... my stick men are crooked).

Sam's "... uh.. well maybe.. nah I got nuthin..." caught me off guard and left me chuckling.

Sam's outward knowledge of Fairy Tales - both Grimm brothers and and the homogenized versions we see today wasn't at all surprising but I loved how Dean goaded and manipulated him into just running with the ball, then ribbing him when he did.

again, if they weren't brothers he never woulda been able to get away with, "Dude... could you be more gay then just as quickly, "Don't answer that." especialy in light of the complete little brother..." you-big-jerk..." look inside his scowl. Gorgeous Jared... just perfect. (that was a cute little mouse by the way... )

Loved how the parallel was drawn by Dean from Snow White (and if you don't think he KNEW it was Snow White and NOT the porno version when he picked up that apple in the parlor... you need to watch it again) to the Sixth Sense, especially after finding out the Doc's daughter was in a coma... Smart Dean rocks.

And Jensen nails the face... after announcing he's going to go after the Big Bad Wolf...

Whoever's done the makeup for the last couple episodes, thanks for keeping it subtle, J's eyes have really been almost luminous lately. Thanks for that. And the blue in Jared's is really showing up too... so props to make-up.

back to the ep - Dean took a massive WHOOPIN' getting tossed into that china cabinet... Seriously... we know he gets tossed around at lot but that was a wicked-hard throw!

And honestly I had a moment where I thought he might just go ahead and plunge those scissors into the guys' chest (maybe cause he's damned anyway or maybe just cause it's so hard to stop in mid-plunge y'know?) but... I'm really really glad he didn't... (yes I'm still clinging to the Blood Innocence stance)

And Sam... he's killed Jake, he killed what's her face and the priest, and now he's killed a crossroad demon. Jake had succumbed to yed's influence. Whatherface and the priest (the people) were killed, BUT SO WERE the DEMONS inhabiting them. The Crossroad DEMON was also killed, as was the human it was using.

So... (after a conversation with Nevermore last night about this very thing) IT's clear that Sam's definitely more decisive but to my thinking he still hasn't crossed that line that would indicate him moving toward a dark-side. He handled the doctor quickly, efficiently, and decisively, telling him what was going on, and what needed to be done to end the situation. He might have, a couple seasons ago stood by while someone else smacked the doc in the face with the facts and simply looked on apologetically, but it seems like he's becoming more John's son than he ever intended, taking pages from both John and Dean's book to make of himself a hunter they would both be proud of.

Course what ever else may come of our once-upon-a-sweet-Sammy... time will only tell...

There were tons of poignant moments here too... Dean's insinuation that Sam should just let him go then walking off alone to make his point. That left owie marks on my heart, don't know if it did on anyone else's but yeah. Owie marks.

And well now we know... if it'd been for a lesser soul the crossroad demon might've been able to do something as she has in the past, but we have our suspicions confirmed. Dean's soul is apparently very highly prized by some very strong power... As nevermore said last night, that "Gutter trash" line was a smokescreen... and a read on Dean's sense of self worth.

as I said to her though... in response to a wondering of how much the crossroad demon actually read from Sam, just cause our fandom likes to think of those boys as inseparable and wholly dedicated doesn't mean they both don't have their resentments all the way back to childhood.

I'm sure Sam still yearns to go his own way, and I"m sure part of him holds a LOT of anger and resentment toward Dean, probably because he always WAS a 'father' figure. and probably because Sam always saw Dean as John's favorite because he was the first born, and a better hunter, and because he WANTED to follow in his fathers' footsteps...

Oh so much... my head spins...

Too much to go into in just one post.

Thank you all Kast and Krew... for yet another job beautifully done. (and shockingly enough with the preview for next weeks ep... Bela might not be as kill-worthy as she was in BDaBR...though I still prefer Ruby).

As is the nature of the game, the greatest love goes to the boys.

mho is all.

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3068041/1/The_Domino_Effect

The Domino Effect - SN fic/oneshot

by: J.A. Carlton

aka sifichick

Disclaimer... always

Love... never dies

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They say that every life touches others....

Dean and Sam exchanged a long familiar look, each nodding, knowing his part.

"Go with Sam, he'll get you out of here..." Dean said sternly to the young woman between them as he cocked his .9mm and glanced around the edge of the brick alcove.

"What?" he asked noting the skeptical look on her face and the fact that she didn't make any effort to actually physically move.

"Why?" she asked.

"What?" he asked, certainly he hadn't heard her right.

"Listen Shelia..." Sam tried to get her attention and looped his arm around her shoulders, "we gotta get you out of here...this isn't time for this right now..."

"Why? They're not here yet..." she looked between the boys on either side. She hadn't asked for their help. They'd just showed up asking the right questions one day, and apparently they thought they could change things.

Sam looked from the young woman to Dean, his confusion mirrored in his older brothers' face.

"Which is why we need to get you out of here before they get here okay?" Sam asked trying to guide her to her feet. She's in shock, that's all... it's gotta be shock... she's been home to four entities for years... she's bound to still be a little freaked...Sam read the exact same thought in Dean's expression.

"No," she shook her head slowly looking from one brother to the other.

"Shelia we don't have time for this... now you need to go with Sam... let him get you out of here..." Dean persisted though he was beyond confused by her unwillingness to cooperate. Sure they'd met folks who were reluctant to accept the truth of their situation, even after being faced with evidence, but it was as if she just didn't seem to grasp the imminent danger.

"Mmmm no," she said without the barest trace of sarcasm or emotion. Her head cocked to the side as Sam got into position to sling her over his shoulder if need be, but her hand flashed out snatching his gun from him before either of them knew what she was doing. She then stepped into the open, firing into the body of one of the entities as it approached.

It had taken almost sixteen exhausting hours for the Winchester boys to draw the four entities out of her, each expelled only to become manifest elsewhere, thankfully within a few hundred yards of her apartment. Now they just had to kill them before they tried to get back into her.

What the hell! Dean shot Sam a look that would've been funny under other circumstances. If there wasn't a woman in shock, with blindingly fast reflexes, now armed with Sammy's gun and firing into the street... yeah it might've been funny.

Sam locked his arms around her from behind, one hand closing on the weapon he succeeded in disarming her quickly and drew her back into the safety of the alcove where Dean rounded on her after taking a quick look into the momentarily empty street.

"Are you crazy!... Do you want to get us all killed?" he looked at his brother, "Get her out of here Sammy... Now!" he ordered though his expression betrayed him. Sure he was angry and surprised but more than that, he was unnerved. His brother had been disarmed and evaded by someone that seemed to have no more motivation or capability than a pampered lap dog. Did we miss one? God tell me we didn't miss one... I can't watch that again! Dean thought remembering how as each of the entities was pulled from her he could see it clawing at her on the inside, trying to remain anchored within, in some cases talons ripping through her skin, through her clothes... and as hard as she'd tried to keep from screaming... through the pain he could see in her agonized gaze she'd clenched her jaw, bit her lip and pounded anything within reach to keep from screaming out, letting them do what they'd come across the country to do. Please... I can't see her go through that again... When all was said and done all three of them had been limp with exhaustion, Shelia Evans once again a solitary being laying on the floor curled in the fetal position dripping wet and about as responsive as a rag doll. They'd tended her as if she were a child, wiping away the sweat with a cool cloth, gently coaxing her out of whatever dark place she was hiding in inside her mind.

Dean couldn't shake the image of Sammy holding her on his lap, rocking her gently and trying to get her to drink some water. For over an hour she'd been nearly catatonic until she trembling started. They were small tremors at first but both men knew it was a precursor to a full on freak out and they'd been right. Within ten minutes of that first shake she'd managed to lash out hard and panicked enough that both he and Sam were shaking their heads clear while she crouched in a corner, hands over her head and trying not to choke on her sobs.

God I hope we didn't miss one!

All this flashed through his mind as Sam guided her to her feet, this time she followed, not resisting in the least. "Be careful!" he admonished his younger brother sternly and with the rapid exchange of motions and looks he knew Sam understood and would be on his toes, just in case.

Freakin' insane-o! Dean thought then shook his head shamed by his momentary callousness. Tie her up and stick her in the trunk if you have to Sammy... we're gonna finish these bastards tonight... if I can figure out how... rock salt doesn't work, consecrated iron rounds only slow 'em down... holy water doesn't work so we know they're not demons in the traditional sense... what the hell is gonna kill these bastards! he wondered angrily and fired on the first entity as it righted itself and started moving on his position and joined by the other three, All that headway lost because she asked 'why?' Crazy!... nah... just still in shock is all... but still... she did grab that gun like... Please be careful Sammy... something ain't right...but man that was a beautiful move... so fluid...

"Sammy...." he ground out stepping into the street and firing off four rounds, delaying the entities long enough for him to get a good head start back toward the car. He'll be more careful... she took him by surprise, he won't let it happen again.... I wonder if she knows how to kill these things?

As Dean set off at his fastest run toward the car, hoping that they'd somehow find a way to get these entities to die Sam stood at the open trunk sifting through their weapons cache for something that might work on a more permanent level with these creatures, while Shelia kept watch, Sammy's gun in her hand, eyes peeled for anything amiss.

"Do you have any idea how they latched onto you?" he asked hefting a gallon of holy water to the back of the trunk.

"How?" she repeated softly, her voice soft and satiny and somehow reminding him of chocolate milk, "Mmm mmm..."

Sam cast a glance back at her, he could feel her trying to struggle through everything they'd put her through, to step out into the light in a psychological sense and he felt her essence, something in her that was bright and shiny like a new penny. He thought maybe after he'd been so easily disarmed by her, that he might be in the presence of a natural born hunter, someone who could help them in their fight against the evils in the world. An ally in the war they were apparently destined to fight.

"Have you ever been able to sense any weaknesses? Anything that could help us kill them?" he asked straightening up and looking down into her deep brown eyes.

Her gaze never wavered from his and her expression showed nothing. If he'd been talking to her anywhere other than in the middle of the street while trying to kill inhabiting entities he might have been unnerved and more than just a little wary, but given what he and Dean had put her through in the last day he figured she had a right to be a little numb.

"Uh uh..." she shook her head before cocking it to the side for a second then looking back deep into his eyes. She tucked the gun into the waistband of her pants and cupped his face, gently bringing him to her.

Well this is certainly going to be interesting... Sam thought as the familiar and happy sensation of butterflies flapped in the pit of his belly. He thought of Jess, and he thought of Sarah then he thought only of Shelia as her lips brushed his, warm and soft as satin. A tentative wisp of a kiss at first and he felt himself shudder at the base of his spine. He felt her smile in the space between them and began to smile himself as she grasped his lower lip between hers, gave a gentle pull and pressed her mouth firmly to his.

He felt something sparkly happen in his brain as the butterflies took wing through his body and his hands cupped her face then slid around her pulling her into him, her curves to his planes. A buttery groan slid between them and Sam felt her warm hands slide up his torso, over his shoulders and back to come to rest once again, cupping his face, her fingers in his hair as her thumbs traced his jaw line tenderly. He felt a small bit of pressure beneath her thumbs and knew nothing else as his body fell toward the ground, eased all the way down as she caught him gently. She leaned down and whispered into his ear before nipping his lobe and rising.

Now where... ahhh yes... where are they? I should see them by now... she thought straightening up from the trunk. Her eyes fell on Sam, unconscious on the ground under Metallicar's rear bumper. He was too big for her to try and put into the car, she'd just have to bank on the fact that Dean would be so pissed or scared or both that he'd go to Sam first... before trying to run her down.

Come on, come on... I thought you were fast Dean! she thought leaning against the rear fender and looking longingly at one of the sweetest men she knew while the other rounded a corner and caught sight of them. She kissed her fingers and pressed them to Sammy's lips then rose to her full height as Dean's consternation turned to visible anger.

"What the hell did you do to him? Sammy!" he called as she smiled and took off running over the shallow hill and deep into the town park.

"Shelia! Sammy...." he breathed letting her go as he stooped, trembling and touched Sam's neck. Relief gushed out of him when he felt the strong steady pulse and he groaned as the entities that had been chasing him veered off course and set their sights on the woman that had been their home for years. Patting Sam on the chest he rose and gave chase, hoping against hope that he could find a way to save this woman from her own stupidity.

Dean crested another hill and stopped short. At the foot of the next hill he could see Shelia on her knees, backed into a natural corner, two entities remaining as one of them cast itself aloft and slid into her screaming mouth.

"No! Shelia!" he called as he watched, heartsick as the fourth one likewise returned to its home.

He heard footsteps from behind and wheeled around, his gun in hand as Sam crested the rise and gasped at the sight of the woman on her knees in the darkness, haloed by moonlight. She straightened and seemed to clasp her hands in front of her.

"Come on Sam!" Dean urged and grabbing Sam by the jacket started toward her.

Sam refused to move and clutched furiously at Dean, "No! Dean... No..."

"What do you mean 'No'! We have to help her!" Dean hollered angrily and tried to break free from his younger brothers' grip.

"No Dean! It's over... there's only one way they can be killed..."

Even as the words left Sam's mouth the thunderous clap and flash that shattered the quiet of the wee hours struck Dean hard with disbelief.

"No!" Dean cried in horror as smoke began to drift from the small crater at the foot of the next rise where Shelia Evans had allowed herself to be re-consumed.

He looked from the smoking hole to his little brother, his hands clenched fists on Sam's jacket, his eyes liquid, "Why?"

Sam shook his head.

"Why? Sam! You tell me!" Dean stormed. All that energy and pain and he'd still lost her life... "Why?"

Sam shrugged and shook his head, "All she said was that she understands now..."

"What?" Dean asked incredulous and felt a squiggly feeling in the pit of his guts as it started to become clear to him. She'd known they couldn't kill the entities without killing her, over the years they'd become a part of her. Within her person they were subjected to the limits of her physiology, outside of her body, they had no limits.

Sirens in the distance brought their minds back to the reality of their situation. They were several blocks away and well blended with the rest of traffic as the fire trucks and police cars descended on the area they'd just left.

Though whatever was left of Shelia Evans' physical body would return to the Earth as it should, the boys were left with an unshakable certainty, part of her would remain with them always, and part of her would remain with anyone who's life they came into contact with from that point on. Through Sam and Dean, Shelia Evans had learned how to become immortal.

Please be so kind as to R&R... it's what we live for.

thanks

sifi