So, I start school in exactly ONE week(next thursday) which pretty much sucks and my summer vacay is pretty much almost over. I'm going to be a senior(woot woot) because I will finally get out of that bootsy ass school. I'm not even ready, like I'm so unprepared. I'm going school shopping this Sunday(love school shopping, lol). I love going to Office Max and getting pretty notebooks and pens and pencils and for that one day of the 1st day of school, I am organized! LOL. Then, I lose all my pens and I stop being organized and stop caring, lol. I need new shoes and that's it. School is gay gay gay Well my school is. They frickin suck. They got rid of our early day dismissals, which is the only thing I liked about the school was the fact that 2 days out of the week we got out of school really early. One Tuesdays it was 1:35 and on Thursday we got out at 2:00. Now, they kept the 2:00 dismissal, but ohh they got rid of the 1:35 dismissal like some dumbasses for a dumbass reason.

Anyway, as you can see I am so excited to go back to school!(sarcasm!) I hate 1st days because you have all these fake ass people going "OMG I T0TALLY MISSED U!!!!1! OMFG HOW WAS UR SUMMER!!"

I don't want to be bothered with it. Plus, what my school does on our 1st day of school is so corny, like last year we didnt even start classes till noon. The first 4 hours we did like these bonding excercises with our classes. GAYY! And I bet they're gonna do the same thing this year.

VENTING

I think there are times in our high school lives where you lose your best friend. Just going in different directions. I think that's what's happening between me and my best friend since 9th grade. It happened with my older sisters as well. My oldest sister and her old best friend were friends since middle school and went to the same high school But I think around 11th grade or so they just weren't in touch or had other friends. Also with my other sister(she just graduated from 12th grade). She and her friend were friends since 8th grade and they did everything together. So when my sister told my mom that she and her don't even hang out anymore, I was really surprised.

With my best friend Yale, we used to hang out all the time and talk on the phone and text each other a lot. But for the past couple of months, she's been really bothering me. She is so selfish, stubborn, ignorant, stupid, needy, fake, and narrow-minded.

Now I have another best friend Rachel who I prefer to hang out with more. We're into the same things, has same taste in guys, and we're just really alike. With her, she's a lot more understanding.

It used to be I'd called up Yale first, then Rachel. Now its the other way around. It's getting to the point where I don't even want to even be friends with Yale anymore.

My mom says "you just have to deal with her for one more year...". (we're all best friends and we hang out with the same people, so it's not like I wont ever see her)

I can't stand being around her for more than a day. Like this past Saturday when we went to the Warped Tour. We were together for 10hrs! That's all day, and I was getting irritated with her.

We used to be so very close, and I guess we still kind of are. But we don;t talk to each other as much as we used to. Only for like 10mins or so.

I used to get mad at her for when she was saying how in college that we weren't going to keep in touch or whatever. But now I realize that it will be true.

With Rachel, I know I'll be her friend b/c we both want to have the same career and similar college choices.

I just cant deal with her anymore. She bugs the crap outta me, she's incredibly selfish and inconsiderate. Like at the concert, I didn't have any money and she did. So she went and got something to eat for HERSELF. She comes back with 2 pizzas and was like I can only get a bite. WTF? I'm sitting here starving and you have 2 pizzas and all I'm welcomed to is a bite or two? I took that pizza but I have to pay her for it. When Rachel, she offers me stuff like that if I don't have any money because she'd want me to do the same for her. I'm very considerate of other people, and I'm not completely selfish.

Friday night, she was complaining to me about Rachel and how Rachek was supposed to visit her at her job but she couldn't b/c her dad wouldnt take her. I try to explain the reason why her dad wouldnt take her and she wouldnt let me explain it. She kept on saying "No, I don't care. She's his daughter, he needs to take care of her. I don't care what she told you. It's stupid, etc, etc."

(REASON why Rachel couldnt come: Her dad doesnt likke to drop people off places) But I couldnt get to say it because Yale kept on cutting me off.

Another thing that bothers me of her is that she doesnt remember sh*t. I hate repeating myself(I really, really do) so with her I have to constanting remind her about something. It's so annoying.

Another thing is she never does anything. She always want other people to do things for her. Her parents have always done that and hanging out with her is like a mother and a two year old child and I'm the mother. One time she got mad at me because I didnt text her when to get dressed(we were going to a bday dinner. It started at 7:00 and it's 6:30 and you're not dressed yet? I'm not your mom so I dont have to tell you when to get dressed. Thats something you should do on your own)

I just don't see us as friends in future.

Dude, it's so fricking hard tryna to find a job. Today, I went to two different Safeways and see if they were hiring and they're not. I really want to work at Safeway(don't ask why) I have applications for Starbucks and In N Out. Starbucks is always hiring but starting off is very cheap. They pay like 7.50 but In n Out pays 9.50 starting out, but food service? Ugh I can't be picky. Sometime this week, I'll turn in both applications and see which one calls back. Any job is better than no job.

I get annoyed so much. This has been bothering me for the longest.

I get so tired of being too nice or too mean. Whenever I'm nice, I get f*cking walked all over on but if I'm mean, I'm being a b***h. It makes no sense.

Like seriously this pisses me off the fullest. One time in class, my sister friend told me that I was mean. I was like "Wth?" Seriously I am really nice but sometimes I can come off rude but thats if I dont want to be bothered with. So she was like "Yeahyou're mean but its ok because you don't want to be too nice"

I was like "Whatever..."

And with my friends, I basically do whatever they ask me to(sometimes) because we're friends, you know. But its like enough is enough. One day last week it was lunch but my good friend wanted me to type her paper(she already wrote it) for her(I'm fast at typing) and I didnt want to do it cuz I was hungry but I did it anyway . Seriously, I dont mind doing things for my friends but it just getting to the point where its getting on my nerves.

If I say no to them if they want me to do something, they'll get this attitude and be like "whatever then."

One time freshmen year, my friend(not a close friend) wanted to use my ipod for a class and I was like "No." Its the last block of the day and I dont feel like searching for her after school getting my ipod and all that trouble. And then she was like "Fine. Be like that"

And I do so much for my friends. If I'm watching tv or whatever, my friend called me and asked me for homework help. And I already did my hw or didnt start so I have to take my tv time away just to help them!

And today I was working on this English assignment and my best friend called me, asking about chemistry(she kept bugging me about it) so I answered the phone like "I'm doing my English right now so I'll call you back" and she hung up. I don't have to drop what I'm doing just to help you.

I'm really underappreciated and I'm getting really annoyed and I dont have time to be doing all of this.

I'm tired of being "too nice" and "too mean" and tired of getting walked on. Sure, my help is appreciated at the time but I get really fed up.

What I seriously hate most is when people act like they're better than everyone else and they always have to brag. That reallly gets under my skin. I have a close friend that acts like that and it's so annoying.

Like I'm volunteering at the zoo and she's interning for this leadership program that she gets paid to do. So we're on the phone today and she's telling me about it and how hard it is, what she has to do, etc. So I say "How boring." Then she makes a comment like "Well at least I'm not cleaning up animal poo"

I don't clean up animal poo, that's not even my job at the zoo. I only clean up the goats poo in the childrens zoo if I'm in the area for that day I'm volunteering. So I'm like "I don't do that,etc"

And then something else happened, and she was like saying how her leadership actually looks good on a college application and I'm like wth? So does volunteering.

Then she was like "well anything would look good, but mines in better b/c I'm working with people and you're working with animals."

Like wtf? The only animals I come near to is the goats and sheep yard. And when I'm not in that area, I'm setting up info stations in front of the alligators enclosure or the bat enclosure or the lemur enclosure. Obviously I can't get close to those animals. I interact with people too, I tell them info about the animals and stuff like that.

I told her that I hate it when she acts like what she does is so much better than the rest of our friends are doing, like she's better than us and it's annoying.

When she said that her leadership program would look better than mine on a college application, she pissed me the hell off and I realy didn't wanna talk to her anymore.