As you've probably noticed I've not been around much recently. There's lots of stuff going on right now and I feel like I need to take a break. I've been doing lots of shifts at work, college work and haven't got much time for Gamespot nowadays.

Braindead_hero's back is better but my dad replied to my email saying he's devastated with what I've said (about not seeing him anymore). I know I have all the right to be angry (especially since he STILL won't give me my trust fund after all that was said) but he is my dad at the end of the day and I hate hurting people so I feel terrible. I haven't replied - I don't think I can.

On a lighter note we've done a new podcast and I think it's the best one in a while - I was really in a podcast mood.

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Me and Braindead_hero drew the winner of the competition today. I got a video clip of it on my phone (we used a random number generator on Shaun's calculator). It's uploaded to zSHARE (download only I'm afraid) if you wanna check it out.

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(It sounded really loud when I played it but I dunno how loud your speakers are so I'd advise just turning them down a tad just in case! Oh and sorry about the crappy quality! And it's download only btw: I couldn't get it to work directly off zSHARE)

On a totally different subject I'm really glad Obama won, I just hope he lives up to the high expectations of him!

I don't know how long I'll be off Gamespot for but we'll continue to do podcasts and work on the site so keep checking back to:

www.tofu-hero.com

Tofu x

Hey guys sorry about the last blog which was rather depressing and thanks so much for your support It really means a lot to me ^_^

The new podcast has arrived! We repeat the competition question and keep it open for another week - if you listen in then we explain why

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The site is going through some major changes, we're hoping to put a forum up on there

Braindead_hero's owwie is clearing up nicely thanks to our lovely friend anti-biotics He came round today, we went to KFC and spent the rest of the day in bed watching tele which was nice and relaxing

Tofu x

Hey well things are going rather crap atm When I was born I had a trust account set up for me and both my mum and my dad contributed to it - there was 6k in it. They both agreed when I was 17 it would mature and I'd set up my own bank account and take control of it. I could learn to drive from it and put a deposit on a flat or something.

My mum and dad divorced when I was 5 and it was agreed that he'd pay less maintenance to maintain my trust account. He was an idiot and put it in an account that would gain no interest in 17 years - so what should be 10k is still only 6.

I asked him about the fund the other day and he said if I wanted to book 10 lessons to drive then he'd transfer a couple of hundred quid to my account for me to use. He basically wants to control what I can and can't do with my own money. For him to have control means he must've withdrawn all my money and put it in an account under his name - which means I can't get access to it.

My mum was furious with him for doing that, it was agreed on the divorce that I'd get the money at 17. I think he knows I'm starting to see him less and less. If I stop seeing him altogether then he'll run off with all the money. So basically he's bribing and controlling his own daughter into seeing him.

He lost his job a couple of weeks ago and legally doesn't have to pay any maintenance anymore. He has a big house, loads of flat screen tvs and 2 motorbikes (one of which cost him 11k). And he claims he's skint. I don't trust him with my fund, I think he's going to dip into it to keep his lifestyle going. When I told him that he sounded upset but it's the truth. I can't believe that 6k means more to him than his own daughter.

I've always had problems with self esteem and this is just another knock to it. The fact that my dad would rather have 6000 pounds than his own daughter. I emailed him saying if he doesn't transfer it then I'm never seeing him again. He hasn't emailed back. We're going to a solicitors this Wednesday.

My mum told me when her and my dad were married he wanted to buy a new wetsuit that cost 200 pounds. I'd just been born and mum was struggling to pay for nappies. She said they couldn't afford it and he went out behind her back and bought it anyway. Just shows what kind of a person my dad is.

On another sad note Braindead_hero's ill and might have to go into hospital So I've been worrying a lot these past few days. I'm having a crap time at college, my psychology teacher had a go at me and everyone picks on me in sociology. I don't even wanna go anymore, this second year just hasn't been fun at all.

It's the half term and due to oversleeping I've been feeling really fed up

Braindead_hero's coming round tomorrow so he'll cheer me up and we'll get the podcast done. The competition is still on if anyone's interested.

I found one of my old paintings (watercolour) - thought I'd share:

Thanks for reading, tofu x

Hey guys, I'm really sowwi I haven't been on GS much I've been living at Braindead_hero's for the last couple of days, only coming home to go to work. I'm catching up on your blogs as we speak

We haven't recorded a podcast this week - we've been too busy making the t-shirts today

The competition question is on last weeks podcast (which I haven't mentioned on GS yet!) LINKAGE

Me and Braindead_hero also purchased a proper domain name for our site which is: www.tofu-hero.com

Here's the logo on the front of the t-shirt:

Front:

Back:

(For obvious reasons the competition winner will not have 'staff' painted on their shirt!)

Remember to send your answers to tofu_hero_cast@live.com!

If you live in the UK then we'll pay full P&P - if you live in America you'll have to make up the difference. God knows how that's gonna work but hey If I'm feeling nice and have lots of money from work then I might pay it - depends how much it comes to. But we'll worry about that later

If we get no entries then the t-shirt will go to marktop, for his dedication to the site and helpful information. Thanks marktop!

Oh and the t-shirts might look simple but from start to finish (from penciling the design on to the final thing) took around 3 hours. And I still have the 3rd one to paint tomorrow >_>

EDIT: THE PODCAST IS UP AND RUNNING NOW, YOU HAVE TO DOWNLOAD IT IN WMA - SOWWI!

Braindead_hero's computer crashed after we'd just recorded this weeks podcast so me and him recorded a minicast. This weeks podcast was really boring so we just re-recorded all the interesting bits so even you guys that have a short attention span can listen this week

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We went out to town on saturday and I bought a new outfit and a nice necklace for 15 quid. I love Primark. I know it's immoral to buy clothes from them but it's just so cheap and has some nice stuff in Whilst I was trying them on Braindead_hero spotted some jeans - 6 quid each and a top for 3 quid so he got 2 pairs of jeans and the top - all for 15 quid Up until now he's worn really scruffy clothes but now he's seen how cheap Primark is he says he's prepared to go back and get some decent stuff

Here's a pic of us looking all snug in our new clothes:

He's also needed a hair cut for ages so we popped into a hair dressers and he had it cut for a fiver - I said it's an early Christmas present for him It's amazing what a difference a hair cut and some new clothes makes - he looks stunning! And his confidence has really boosted which is great So after some retail therapy we both went back and made some flapjack (no that's not an innuendo!)

Here's him just after he got his hair done (it's fuller once its dry!)

Btw he always pulls a face when I'm trying to take pics of him