1. SUMMER BREAK IN:

and only six days of actual school left.
two of which are half days.
hellyes

2. i'm really sorry i've ditched this site for the past two weeks, again. i've got a valid reason this time though. for the past week i haven't been able to log in to anything on the internet. absolute murder. the site randomly let me in today so let's hope it keeps doing so.

the week before last really sucked. more drama with Jordan. she ran away from home late at night, so her mom made us come over. long story short, the cops came and told her that if there's ever a problem like this with her again, they aren't leaving her at her house . i guess she didn't really care, because she did the same thing the next day, and her parents actually took her to the hospital to get 'evaluated'. that night, she stayed with us so her mom could get a break. then Jordan got all angry because she thinks her mom is goning to put her in foster care and that was like, the first step. then my idiot mother is like 'she will if you keep acting like this'. i mean, it's true, but she didn't need to say it that bluntly. since then, i haven't heard anything on the home front, but she's definitely turning into someone i don't like. i really wish i could help her, all of her friends do. but she's really starting to run with the wrong people and treating the people who really care about her like sh!t. if she alienates everyone, she's gonna be completely alone, and i just don't want to see that happen.

last week was better. completely long, boring, and pointless, yes, but better. this weekend was really busy. on saturday, it was Aunt Dena's 80th birthday, and sunday it was my cousin Lauren's graduation party. and friday, i've got my friend Shelley's Sweet 16. i guess all this partying has made my mom decide that i have to have a big Sweet 16 for myself this summer, even though i really don't want one. but whatever, since i've never actually had a real party (pathetic, right?), my friend Sam is gonna come over next weekend to help me plan it. and that's pretty much it, so it's not like you missed much.

3. this week in music;

The White Stripes - Blue Orchid

my favorite song of the moment. the perfect vocals, lyrics, instrumentals, and video all rolled into one.
something better than nothing.
something better than nothing, it's giving up.
we all need to do something.
try to keep the truth from showing up.

Nine Inch Nails - Discipline
not as dark or depressing as their other stuff, but it's still heavily addicting and just a great song all around.
i need your discipline.
i need your help.
i need your discipline.
you know once i start i cannot help myself.

Death Cab For Cutie - I Will Possess Your Heart

everything Death Cab does is genius. their songs are always freaking phenomenal. this is their newest, and i'm absolutely in love with it.
there are days when outside your window,
i see my reflection as i slowly pass.
and i long for this mirrored perspective,
when we'll be lovers, lovers at last.

The Kooks - Always Where I Need To Be
just a really fun, catchy song that's making me long for summer even more than i already was.
say whatever you want.
oh, I could never judge you.
be whoever comes into your head.
oh, you know I'll take you there.

Song of the Blog: White Stripes - Blue Orchid

1. SUMMER BREAK IN:

2. hey guys. sorry for skipping out on last weekends blog again, but this week has been really tough. as some of you already know, last weekend was uber-traumatic for me. i think i've told you about how my best friend's parents are getting divorced, right? well, anyways, she's been having a really hard time with it (i mean, anyone would), but she hasn't been talking about it to anyone. he behavior has been getting more extreme and last saturday i found out that she actually tried to set her house on fire, and her mom wanted to send her to a mental hospital. i nearly crawled out of my skin. the thought of my best friend in a psych ward just about killed me. i even had a nightmare about it that night. i hardly ever have strange nightmares like that, and if i do, i don't remember them.

the next day, her mom called my mom saying that Jordan (the best friend, jsyk) had run away. so both me and my mom ran outside to try and help find her, and she was seriously right in front of our driveway with her mom. we all went back on our deck and talked about stuff for a really long time. i tried to give the best advice i could, and just tell her that if she ever needed a friend, i'm there, always and forever. after the whole thing ended, my mom was like 'wow, you were amazing. where did that come from?' lol, thanks for the faith mom. but all this week, jordan hasn't seemed as angry as usual, so that's good.

then yesterday, after i thought things were on the upswing, i found out that my grandma had a seizure at the doctor's office. apparently, she has them all the time, but it still scares me. i witnessed one when i was about nine, and it was one of the most terrifying things i've seen up to this point. we went to see her today, and she kept shaking and getting dizzy and stuff. i'm not sure if that's a big deal, but it definitely broke my heart a little bit. ok, a lot.

now that i've gotten all that sh!t off my chest, i wanna thank JD, Joey, and France for talking to me last weekend. you guys basically saved me, thanks

3. this week in music;

Blink 182 - I Miss You

ok, so i really should hate Blink 182, but i seriously love this song. it's really different from their usual crapiness, and of course, i love the random Nightmare Before Christmas reference.
we can live like Jack and Sally if we want.
where you can always find me,
we'll have Halloween on Christmas,
and in the night, we'll wish this never ends.
video.

Foo Fighters - Let It Die
if anybody was actually wondering where my name on the new forum came from, this song would be it. it's a really epic tune, and it rocks hard, as do all the FF songs i love.
heart of gold but it lost its pride.
beautiful veins and bloodshot eyes.
i've seen your face in another light.
why'd you have to go and let it die?
song.

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

story time. so i forgot about this song for a while, and then i heard it again, and i was like 'wow, that song is awesome', so i got hooked again. that was a really sucky story, but it's still an awesome song.
forget what we're told.
before we get too old .
show me a garden that's bursting into life.
video.

The Killers - My List
ever had a song that actually helps you get through some hard times? well, this song was that for me this week. IMO, every killers song is amazing, but this one has been completely moving me lately.
i need those eyes to tide me over.
i'll take your picture when I go.
it gives me strength and gives me patience,
but i'll never let you know.
song.

Song of the Blog: The Killers - My List

1. SUMMER BREAK IN:

2. well, this has been just another filler week until summer. some good stuff did happen. my grades in spanish and algebra are going up, which is good and extremely necessary. i finished my first to projects in photo, and got good grades on them. click to see the first and second (bad quality, because i had to take a picture of a picture, but whatever). this weekend is pretty packed with stuff. tomorrow, i'm volunteering with the girl scouts at a SMA walk. i'm excited, because it's actually a really good cause, and we got free t-shirts. sunday, i'm going my cousin Joanna's baby shower, because there haven't been enough pregnant women in my family. sh!t, i'm the next youngest girl . but the best part of this week was definitely tuesday. I GOT A CAR! yes, i'm aware it's a little soon after i got my temps, but there's a story of course. it's always been the plan for my grandma to give me her car, and then for her to get a new one. but she got a new one first, and there was no room for two cars and her condo. so boom, her old car is mine. take a look;

not my dream car, but it's still pretty cool. and even though it's like, half as tall as me, it'll get me around perfectly fine. now all i have to do is learn how to drive...

3. this week in music;

She Wants Revenge - True Romance

quickly becoming one of my all time favorite bands. this is such a fun/creepy song, and those are hard to find.
i know that you never loved me.
i know that you never cared at all.
maybe just one more dance,
cause that's as close as you're gettin' to a true romance.
video.

The Kills - Sour Cherry
definitely an addicting song, been listening to it for pretty much the entire week straight.
made my blood thump saturday night.
make my heart beat double time.
now i'm only sour cherry on the fruit stand, right?
am i the only sour cherry on the fruit stand?
song.

Lostprophets - A Town Called Hypocrisy

another great song that i listened to over and over again this week. the lyrics from this one really grab me, and that's probably why i like it so much.
save your sympathy.
who do you think you're fooling?
everything is dead.
now you welcome me,
to a town called hypocrisy.
video.

Radiohead - Airbag
i mean, Radiohead is amazing, so why not put them in the blog? this is currently my favorite song of theirs.
in a deep, deep sleep of the innocent,
i am born again.
in a fast german car,
i'm amazed that i survived.
an airbag saved my life.
song.

Song of the Blog: Lostprophets - A Town Called Hypocrisy

1. SUMMER BREAK IN:

2. so nothing really eventful has happened this week. grades in spanish keep going up. yay. grades in algebra keep going down. boo. everybody and their mama has been sick, including me. and i gave it to my mama. oh, sweet karma. my friend's appendix burst. ouchies. and my second bell is really boring without her. selfish ouchies. my apologies for the caveman speak, but i've seriously felt like a caveman all week.

3. a book and a movie;

Into the Wild

"So many people live in unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because thy are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservationism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality, nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure."
we're reading this book for english cla.ss and so far, it's amazing. definitely the best book i've ever been forced to read for school. and actually, it might be one of my new favorite books ever. trust me, i'm by no means a nature girl, and this book still touches me. i'm definitely excited to finish it and watch the movie.

Young Frankenstein

"Oh God in Heaven! What have I done?"
so i watched this movie after a kind of heavy week, and it seriously made me feel so much better. even though it's a movie from the 70's, the jokes still stand up and i laughed my ass off at every single one. i don't know if i'll ever be able to take a monster movie seriously again. i know, you aren't supposed to take those movies seriously anyway, but i'm a wimp. but still, this movie was amazing. ps; Blazing Saddles and High Anxiety are awesome Mel Brooks movies that i watched this week, too. if any of you are ever down, watch one of them, and you'll feel better. doctor's orders. and in this scenario, i'm totally a doctor.

4. this week in music;

The Raconteurs - Salute Your Solution

a crazy little addicting song. and Jack White is king, so anything he does is gonna be gold in my book.
i got what i got all despite you,
and i get what i get just to spite you.
video.

Forever The Sickest Kids - Whoa Oh! (Me vs. Everyone)
another song i got addicted to this week, probably because some of the lyrics hit pretty close to home on my life's current state.
why do i put myself in these situations?
whoa oh, whoa whoa oh.
i keep pushing myself even though i can't take it at all.
song.

Eisley - Taking Control

so i'm totally not telling you where i heard this song, because you would stone me in the town square. but it's a great song anyway, and i've been singing along with it for a few days straight.
you've been making a joke of our lives,
and you've been letting us go.
you've been taking control of our lives
and you've been letting us go.
song.

Muse - Map of the Problematique
one of the most amazing bands ever. and this is one of my favorite songs off of their most recent album, which i listen to constantly.
fear and panic in the air.
i want to be free,
from desolation and despair.
song.

Song of the Blog: Muse - Map of the Problematique

1. SUMMER BREAK IN:

2. again, sorry i didn't blog last week. i've just been so freaking busy. these past two weeks have been eventful to say the least. i spent a lot of it working on my NHS application thing, which took forever. but i turned it in on wednesday. thank you, ton of bricks, for finally getting of my shoulders. it's been real. also, we finally finished macbeth. thank god, i was starting to say 'tis' in everyday conversations. i was sick on monday. it was either allergies or a cold, but it seriously felt like someone turned my face inside out. i've sneezed and coughed more in the past week than i have in my entire life. but there is good news; i saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to geico. kidding. last weekend, went to a sleepover with a bunch of my friends. we watched my two favorite movies, Sweeney Todd and Moulin Rouge. and i stayed up until 5 am. i am skilled. but the biggest news of the week is, I GOT MY TEMPS! learners permit, for any of you who don't know what that means. i can drive! with an adult, at least. but i'm scared out of my mind to get behind the wheel, so who knows when that will happen.

2. eventful week in television, so i'll pick my favorites;

Battlestar Galactica, Season 4

my favorite show, back after after over a year, hell yes. it kind of lost that status after being gone so long, but by the looks of the first two episodes, it'll raise back to the top soon. i liked the second one better, but both were pretty great episodes.

Torchwood, Season Two

if you saw Exit Wounds, you know why they're crying. i believe we were all crying as well. even though i read spoilers and knew it was gonna happen, the episode got me really choked up. in my opinion, it was definitely the best of the season, and the entire series as well.

Owen: Give me one good reason why I shouldn't keep bloody screaming.
Tosh: Because you're breaking my heart.
. even though i definitely enjoyed the first, season two was so amazing. god, i'm so hoping for a third season. Torchwood just gets better and better.

4. this week in music;

The Black Keys - Strange Times

love this song. and the video, with the laser tag, lmfao.
kings and sons of god,
traveled on their way from here
calming restless mobs,
easing all of their, all of their fear.
video.

Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - Berlin
one of my favorite bands. and i've become addicted to this song.
i've been fooled by the lover,
fooled by the sinner,
fooled myself into thinking i was living.
video.

Elliot Smith - Needle In The Hay

such a beautiful song, in an amazing scene from The Royal Tenenbaums. the best scene in an awesome movie.
she's wearing your clothes,
head down to toes, a reaction to you.
you say you know what he did,
but you idiot kid,
you don't have a clue.
video.

Shiny Toy Guns - You Are The One
i know i've used this song in a blog before, but i can't get over how much i love it. it's amazing.
you are the one,
you'll never be alone again,
you're more then in my head,
you're more.
video.

Song of the Blog: Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - Berlin