1. SUMMER BREAK IN:

2. hey guys. sorry for skipping out on last weekends blog again, but this week has been really tough. as some of you already know, last weekend was uber-traumatic for me. i think i've told you about how my best friend's parents are getting divorced, right? well, anyways, she's been having a really hard time with it (i mean, anyone would), but she hasn't been talking about it to anyone. he behavior has been getting more extreme and last saturday i found out that she actually tried to set her house on fire, and her mom wanted to send her to a mental hospital. i nearly crawled out of my skin. the thought of my best friend in a psych ward just about killed me. i even had a nightmare about it that night. i hardly ever have strange nightmares like that, and if i do, i don't remember them.

the next day, her mom called my mom saying that Jordan (the best friend, jsyk) had run away. so both me and my mom ran outside to try and help find her, and she was seriously right in front of our driveway with her mom. we all went back on our deck and talked about stuff for a really long time. i tried to give the best advice i could, and just tell her that if she ever needed a friend, i'm there, always and forever. after the whole thing ended, my mom was like 'wow, you were amazing. where did that come from?' lol, thanks for the faith mom. but all this week, jordan hasn't seemed as angry as usual, so that's good.

then yesterday, after i thought things were on the upswing, i found out that my grandma had a seizure at the doctor's office. apparently, she has them all the time, but it still scares me. i witnessed one when i was about nine, and it was one of the most terrifying things i've seen up to this point. we went to see her today, and she kept shaking and getting dizzy and stuff. i'm not sure if that's a big deal, but it definitely broke my heart a little bit. ok, a lot.

now that i've gotten all that sh!t off my chest, i wanna thank JD, Joey, and France for talking to me last weekend. you guys basically saved me, thanks

3. this week in music;

Blink 182 - I Miss You

ok, so i really should hate Blink 182, but i seriously love this song. it's really different from their usual crapiness, and of course, i love the random Nightmare Before Christmas reference.
we can live like Jack and Sally if we want.
where you can always find me,
we'll have Halloween on Christmas,
and in the night, we'll wish this never ends.
video.

Foo Fighters - Let It Die
if anybody was actually wondering where my name on the new forum came from, this song would be it. it's a really epic tune, and it rocks hard, as do all the FF songs i love.
heart of gold but it lost its pride.
beautiful veins and bloodshot eyes.
i've seen your face in another light.
why'd you have to go and let it die?
song.

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

story time. so i forgot about this song for a while, and then i heard it again, and i was like 'wow, that song is awesome', so i got hooked again. that was a really sucky story, but it's still an awesome song.
forget what we're told.
before we get too old .
show me a garden that's bursting into life.
video.

The Killers - My List
ever had a song that actually helps you get through some hard times? well, this song was that for me this week. IMO, every killers song is amazing, but this one has been completely moving me lately.
i need those eyes to tide me over.
i'll take your picture when I go.
it gives me strength and gives me patience,
but i'll never let you know.
song.

Song of the Blog: The Killers - My List