Well, I wrote before that I had to pass my physics midterm in order to pass the class. Yeah, that didn't happen. So I did all of the homework twice and thought I studied really hard, but I still somehow paniced when I got the test. I knew how to do the first two, so I got those, but I didn't know how to do the last three. Looking back at the answer key, the problems were so easy, but at the time I thought that they were impossible. Everyone else seemed to do just fine, which made me feel even more terrible. I emailed my pharmacy advisor about my grade, and she said that if I failed to get a C or better in physics, I would forfeit my guaranteed admission into pharm school. Friday I just cried and cried, and my best friend and I kept saying how unhappy we were with our lives that week (she had a way worse week than I did though). I calculated that I just had to get at B- on the final to secure a C in the class, but I really didn't want all of my future career resting on one physics final. And with the way I've performed on physics exams, a B- actually seemed almost impossible. So, for the first time ever, I dropped a class. Hopefully I'll repeat it next semester, although at the moment I'm not registered for it. I have to take Microbiology next semester, and my lab is at the same time as the physics lecture. I have to switch labs in order to take physics, and at the moment all of the labs are full. Now I'm just hoping that someone drops over winter break, or wants to switch labs, so I can take physics in the spring. Otherwise, I'll be stuck taking physics a and physics b in the summer. That would really suck because that would be only give me two weeks off this whole summer. Ugh! What really gets me mad is that I'll never use physics in pharm school like I would use biology or chemistry. And I aced biology (was in the top 2% of the freshman bio class), made Dean's list my freshman year, made numerous honors societies, but I can't for the life of me pass physics. I just hate that it's this stupid class that can blow my whole career. If I had failed physiology or something, then I would understand how that would be a sign that health sciences was not for me. But it's physics! I can't figure out how to calculate the mass of a star and how far a skier will travel if the coefficent of friction is 0.75, and that is what is going to ruin my future. Well, hopefully I will ace it the next time I take it, and will go into pharm school with flying colors

In other news, I have a 12 page paper due tomorrow in my writing class and I am avoiding it at all costs. I already have 8 pages written, but I'm so tired of writing, that I really don't want to finish. It's not even for a grade. We have to turn in our drafts for our final paper so everyone can read everyone else's and comment on them. I guess the idea of getting roasted by the class on my writing isn't very appealing to me. Trust me, some people have really gotten destroyed by the class' anonymous comments, so I just don't want to sit through a session of my professor reading negative comments to me. He says that it helps us as a writer to get all of this feedback, but it just seems uncomfortable to me. Also, I got an A on my STATs midterm. I was joking over the weekend that I have two A's and one D. Lol, oh physics.

I'm thankful that I don't have anything to do this weekend. I have nothing due next week, so this weekend will be like my weekend off. I just get to gorge on all my favorite shows which returned after taking last week off. Actually, I have to proof read Ross's application essays by Friday, but that shouldn't be bad. I'll gladly help his application to SC because we both really want him to come here next year. Not like SC is his only option though. He has already been automatically accepted to UC Riverside, UC Irvine, and UC Davis because he is one of the top seniors in California. When I graduated, I had only been automatically accepted to UCR. I swear, that little smarty pants always has to top me in everything!

Song of the Day

It's a New Day by Will.i.am

Selected because: I love this music video

I've never cried before when the winner of a presidential election was announced. I haven't lived through too many, but even when Bush won both times, the election seemed far away. The election never felt personal to me, until last night. I had played with msnbc.com's electoral map enough to know when Pennsylvania and Ohio went to Obama, the next president had already been elected. I knew an hour before the West polls closed who would win. Jason called me 5 minutes before the west coast polls closed so we could countdown together and be on the phone together when the winner was announced. And yet when Keith Olbermann actually announced it, when the electoral count jumped to 286, I was stunned. I just stood there, in front of my tv, just processing for a second that it actually happened. Then when Jason yelled "Whoa, it just jumped! It's over 270!" I just crumpled and my eyes watered up. I stumbled back to my chair, tears going down my face. I wasn't prepared for that. I wasn't prepared for how powerful that moment would be. I had an hour to process it before it was announced, but it was still overwhelming. Last night was a wonderful night for America, but it was a surprisingly personal night for me. I have 18 cousins and 7 second cousins on my mom's side of my family. All of us are either biracial or multiracial. None of us look alike, but all of us are minorities. Jason's biracial and we are in an inter-racial relationship. Last night a ceiling was broken for all of us. Yes, someone from my family, maybe even my future children, can actually aspire to be president. My mom called me after Obama's speech and said that she couldn't believe how emotional she was watching it. I told her the same thing happened to me. We both agreed we hadn't fully realized the gravity of the moment until it arrived. We were both glad we were alive to witness the moment with our own eyes. Last night is a night I'll never forget. Last night is something that I'll tell my children and grandchildren about. Last night, history was made.

Song of the Day

The Times They are A-Changin' by Bob Dylan

Selected because: It just seems to fit the mood of last night and this morning.

Ok, so the first time in my life I voted for president!! Jason and I went to early vote on Friday. It was so exciting! The line wasn't bad at all; it took about 20 mins to receive the ballot and vote. Our registrar let us choose to vote electronically or by paper ballot, and there were a ton of poll booths. Literally what was holding up the line was waiting to receive the ballot and having everything explained. A lot of the booths were empty, so there were more than enough available. While I was waiting I texted by best friend and told her to come and vote. When Jason and I were leaving I saw her and her mom waiting in line. Trust me, it was like pulling teeth to get her to vote. I made her register on the last day available, showed her election resources on msnbc.com and cnn.com so she could become an informed voter, and then made her actually come out to vote. Sorry, but being uninformed or not voting in so not an option in my world. I think Jason can't wait until the election is over because at least then I won't be watching MSNBC 24/7. Anyways, now I'm holding my breath until tomorrow night. I can't believe Election Day is already here. I'm so nervous right now that something, anything will happen to just prove all the polls wrong and cause the upset to occur. Every time I think about it, I get nervous. Not only we will know who the new President is, we'll see what happens in congress and locally what happens on the measures. The absolute craziest thing occurred last week. Part of my church asked voters to vote No on Prop 8. My church has always been crazy conservative, which may be why I haven't gone in about 3 years, so no one could really believe that Adventist teachers were being asked to vote No. Everyone at work kept quasi-joking that "Jesus is coming soon". It stems from the church's belief that we are in the end times and the 2nd coming is near. Yep, that's a Seventh-Day Adventist joke for ya (yes, I'm part of the Mrs. Kim religion).

In other news, Ross did way better on his SAT. He got 2100, which is within the SC acceptance range. Since he's a guy, he'll have lower standards, so I'm sure that he'll get in. Also, Wednesday I have my second physics midterm. That's another thing I'm freaking out about. I got the absolute lowest C- possible on the last test, so I'm freaking out about not passing. I know I at least have a B in lab, and since the 1st midterm and lab are weighted the same, I think I have about a C+. As long as I can get the class average, I should be ok for the final. If I bomb again...no I don't want to think about that because that is one dark, scary place. Just have your fingers crossed for me please! Also, my computer got taken over by spyware last weekend. I only had USC's site open to check the time of game, and all of a sudden I got a pop-up that I had a Trojan and then my computer restarted. When it turned on, my wallpaper and home-page changed. I kept getting more and more pop-ups. The thing was though that Jason and I had just bought a security system from Best Buy after asking a worker which one was best. I run a full-scan with the program, which took an hour to complete, and it said that there were no threats on my computer. Yeah, a waste of $70 there. So I had to bring my computer in, and hopefully it will be fixed in two weeks. Oh well, nothing else will matter if tomorrow goes well. I can't wait!!

Song of the Day

The Final Countdown by Europe

Selected because: Nothing like 80's cheesiness to countdown to the election

While last week/weekend was Parent Weekend here at SC. My mom came out on Wednesday night because I didn't have any school on Thursday and Friday. I was so happy about that because every year on Parent Weekend they let the parents watch the football team practice on Thursday. Well of course the one year that I don't have class or work on Thursday is the year that they cancel all of the events on Thursday because of Yom Kippur. It was fine though because we just ended up spending the day with my Grandpa. He's 85 and he seriously cracks me up. The whole time I was laughing because he's just such a strange little old man. He is always talking to himself and singing as he slowly makes his way around the house.

Friday my mom and I went to a bunch of events. Two extremely interesting ones were about politics and the economy. The first event had a panel of journalist from other countries, the former and current dean of the school of journalism, and former governor Grey Davis. The panel was discussing the changing role of the media in covering politics and the economic crisis. The second was a lecture by a school of business professor about the crisis and comparing it to a similar crisis that occurred in Japan, and how we can learn from their mistakes. That was really helpful becaue my mom and I both came out feeling like we were better informed about the situation. Both events had standing room only because they covered the two topics everyone is interested in at the moment. After that we went to the football pep rally. After the rally, the only players who stayed were Rey Maualuga and Brian Cushing. Rey took pictures with a bunch of parents and little kids. It was so sweet, and it just made him my favorite player even more. I took his picture, but didn't have my pic taken with him (don't even ask me why). I also didn't have my purse, so I didn't get his autograph. At least I saw him though, so that made my day - heck even my year. All the dads were excited and kept saying, "He's a star." One lady had no clue why everyone was gathering around him, and asked him, "Who are you?" He responded, "Me? I'm a nobody." She then asked what his number was, and he said, "Oh, fifty-something." She seemed really preplexed, so he smiled and said that his number was 58. He left right after, and the lady turned to me and my mom and asked who he was. We told her and said how great of a player he was. I don't think she really got it, but she said, "I'll tell my son that I touched him."

Friday night we went to visit my Aunt Cece's. That was full of craziness, but at least I got to hang out with Ross and Joe. I helped Ross with his SC application, and helped him set-up everything he needed to file for financial aid. I always thought it was a given that he would get into SC and come here next year, but he bombed his SATs, so I'm nervous. I don't think we are going to go shopping for an apartment this winter break after all. He said though that the test was just really hard. All of his friends who took it with him re-took it later, and all of them got better scores. One girl went from a 640 to an 800 in math alone. He re-took it and is just waiting for his scores. He thinks that he did way better, so I'm just hoping so.

Saturday Jason came and we went to the game. It was good, had it's highlights. The defense - and of course Maualuga - was amazing, and didn't give up anything. The offense did ok, but 3rd quarter was aweful with all the turn-overs. The guy sitting next to us sumed it up great when he said, "They're up by 21 and I'm pissed. 21 to 0, and I'm pissed!" That's the thing about us Trojan fans, we sure are spoiled. The Rose Bowl and 21 point leads are just not enough to keep us happy. Poor Sanchez had three turn-overs in a row, and his receivers didn't seem to help him much. Anyways, boy did I hear a story about Sanchez today in lab. This one sorority girl sits across from me in lab. She was saying that she went to the 901 last night and saw Mark Sanchez completely wasted. She said that some girl was pulling him to take her home, and Sanchez started to go, but then turned to go back inside. The guy that was with the girl in my physics class patted Sanchez on the back and asked him if he was ok, and Sanchez was so gone that he couldn't even speak. The girl just ended up pulling him out of the bar. He should be careful with that. As mentioned, he's already been accused before, so getting so drunk and going home with a random chick might not be the best idea. He probably doesn't want to pull a Leinart before he even gets signed.

Anyways...

Song of the Day

September by Earth, Wind & Fire

Selected because: I was on the tram today and the driver was totally rocking out to this song.

Thursday was not a good day.

Jason's aunt is dying. His mom came back from Vegas yesterday and said that the cancer is not only in her breasts and lungs, but in her bones, stomach, and kidneys. With it spreading that much, there is just nothing that can be done for her, and they aren't sure how much longer she has. Strangely, she has had follow-ups every 6 months, and it wasn't until this last one that they found anything. Strange how cancer could spread that fast. She decided to enroll herself in a clinical study. Her statement was, "If I'm going to die, I might as well help someone else". That's the attitude I would want to have if I was in that position.

USC lost. Badly. The last 3 meetings in Corvallis, strange things have happened to the mighty Trojans. 4 years ago it was the "fog game", where you couldn't even see the players on the field because the fog was so dense. 2 years ago, we lost 33-31 after a failed last minute 2 point conversion attempt by Booty. That loss almost ruined our chances of the National Title, but it was the loss to UCLA in the last game that sealed the deal. Now, the #1 team in the nation fell to an unranked team. Sanchez was off, the offensive line didn't give him anytime, and the receivers didn't help. The offensive of course didn't even get an amazing drive until there was 1:30 left in the game, and it was too late by then. So the question is, does this take the championship game off the table? Is the Heisman trophy nod gone? I think the latter is yes, not sure yet about the first question. If this season is full of upsets like last year, I think we still have a chance. Somehow, I don't think that will happen though, probably it will be back to the Rose Bowl. Again. Yes the Rose Bowl is great, but it's not what the faithful had been hoping for. Short of the goal, short of what seemed like a guarantee, short of what should have happened yet again for the 3rd year in a row. It's just frustrating that every season the best team in the nation falls hard to an unworthy opponent and blows their chance at a title game. Worse, Maualuga limped off the field. I really hope that he isn't hurt. That would be another blow to the team, and put another cloud over the rest of the season.

The Heroes priemer was lackluster. Maybe it was my bad mood, the promos that claimed that Heroes was back, and my expectation of this to brighten my gloomy day, but it disappointed. I don't know, it just wasn't as good as I was expecting. It didn't have that "Heroes" feel of season 1, but at the same time, felt like seaon 1. I mean, Linderman coming back, Niki with another personality, again with the saving of the world, Claire whining, her mother coming back, Sylar coming back, a guy painting the future... it just seemed so tired and rehashed. Jason just kept saying that the show got stupid. I was bored. And what was with Maya's hood rat clothes and all of a sudden becoming a loose woman? Wasn't she a devot Catholic? It probably wasn't supposed to be a stereotype, but I wasn't impressed with that. There were some interesting things though that I can't wait for. Sylar and mama Petrelli, wow! That was crazy, and I can't wait to see how that plays out. Tracey with the ice power. How is she alive, and how did her power change? Matt in Africa and Peter in a criminals body. Oh future Peter, for all of your good intentions, you just screwed things up. Hiro and Ando's changing friendship. Hiro was so jarred by that, and kept treating Ando different. I wonder if Ando will still get powers and square off with Hiro. And Claire being "special", different from everyone else. I really want to know what Sylar did to her, and why she is so different. Also, Sylar and HRG working together, and what's happening to Mohinder. Can't wait for all the answers during the season.

Thankfully, The Office was perfect. I don't have to time to write alot about it, but it was so good. Jim and Pam!!! I was so happy when he proposed!!

Today the debate was good. Obama and McCain really started to engage and get into policy fights. I think Obama did well considering this was supposed to be the debate that McCain had the advantage in. What with McCain not even looking at Obama though? Did anyone else get this weird racial overtone vibe? I'm sorry, I don't usually talk about race this much. But I mean, it was in Mississippi, the old grumpy white man wouldn't even acknowledge the younger black man as his equal, kept calling him naive and saying "didn't get it". It was just weird. I think that didn't come off very well, and maybe why Obama seems to have won in the immediate viewers polls, even though the commentators were giving it to McCain.

Song of the Day

1973 by James Blunt

Selected because: It has always had this sad feel to me, and I'm sad.