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I am SOOOOOOOOOOO sorry.

I have been in my Rebel-Without-A-Cause / Howard-Hughes-Hermit Mode (for the last two months) and I have been as incommunicado as I have ever been in my life.

I hate the world (but not you guys) right now, and I'm punishing this planet by withdrawing from it.

I hope you all understand (especially any of you ladies who might have been thinking that you might consider sleeping with me - I am currently/surgically unable to finish the deal, although I am more than willing to start it).

I find myself in a RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE... not because I have run into further problems (except for the finishing-the-deal thing), but because this whole ordeal has dragged out, ad infitum.

My Mom (Me Mum for you UKers) is still alive and hangin in there (she's 88 - as you might remember) and I visited her a couple of weeks ago. To talk to her on the phone, you might guess she was in her 50's.

This is the first time I have felt the urge and the competency to really communicate to the 'outside' world in a long time. I hope you will understand/appreciate that I came here first. I love you all (especially any of you ladies who might have been thinking that you might consider sleeping with me).

There is (so much) more to come. Hope you will be patient... I actually do have quite a bit more to say - like I hate this new format.

Watch the sky.

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Love, Jon

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So where have you all been this past week? I was worried about you guys.

Anyway...

Just stopped by tonight (Tues PST) to say that everything seems to be all right, but it has been a very strange 10 days or so (in an upish-downish-upish-downish kind of way).

Pretty tired at the moment, and feeling kind of dumb and dull. I hope to get a REAL blog up (and some blog-reading and comments) sometime tomorrow, and fill everyone in as best I can.

Thanks for all the PMs and comments - see you then...

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Oh... and heard this earlier today, and for the first time in well over a year, I felt like getting up and...

DANCING

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... Jon

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Promised some updates on the past week... but this isn't gonna be as interesting as I had hoped. A lot of questions were answered this week concerning my health issues - but a number of new questions came up... so I'm still sort of in limbo.

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In the meantime, my sisters called and said that my Mother suffered a stroke on Friday (a coupla days after the L.A. Earthquake - I talked to her that day, and she seemed in good spirits - then). My only niece (her only grand-daughter) is getting married in less than two weeks, and we think this has all been to much for Mom.

My sisters tell me that they can't see Mom getting out of the hospital anytime soon (or ever, really), so am trying to make plans to get down there in the next 10 days or so (it's the earliest I can make it and she is better now than a few days ago).

My sisters (younger) are quite overwhelmed by this sudden turn for my Mom, my current condition (I was always more than hale and hardy til now) and the upcoming wedding in San Francisco. I am trying to tell them that this is just one of those big bumps in the road that happens to all families eventually, and that we'll get through it in time. They are two very strong women, but I haven't been able to step in as the oldest and make everything right like I used to - so it's a little different this time around.

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The surgery of May 22nd seems to have been quite a success as far as what it was supposed to achieve, but some of the complications to having been walking/limping around for the past 18 months still remain.

My lawyer is in the process of contacting all of the medical people to determine how much has been spent on all of this and how much more will be spent in the future so he can determine how much needs to be asked for.

I can see this whole thing taking up to a year to be resolved, so I'm not really jumping up and down (or bouncing up and down on my bed) with joy.

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Still getting no response from my YouTube sites (I'm a registered user who brings them a lot of traffic)... can't even click on their HELP tab. I've had problems connecting to other sites before and I've always fixed them. In fact, I lost a number of sites back at the same time as YouTube and straightened all of those out immediately. Don't know why the Tube is beeing so obstinate, but it has taken away much of the joy of posting (as regular readers might imagine).

These truly are the dog-days of summer here.

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I've also been informed that someone out there is not who they profess to be, and it really p*sses me off that people feel the need to do that. I'm not so bothered by it (I've been dealing with no-good, piece-of-garbage gamblers for 40 years), but there are others out there that might find this very hurtful.

Hope I can find a way to fix the YouTube thing (I've douched out my cookies and temp files, Tom) and tried to come at the site in more ways than suggested by the Kama Sutra... still no luck. It really diminishes my desire to post when I can't link some songs up.

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WOW... what a downer blog. I'd just cancel it - but I've spent 40 minutes or so and it's one of the few constructive projects that I've managed to complete recently, so up it goes.

Later...

,,, Jon

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I'm half-way through the week (there was a little more to the first coupla days than I thought) and here's the partial report:

So far - so-so.

Remind me to write any further blogs in the evening. I have many more creative and interesting ideas in the evening - and they're still fresh in my mind. When I get up in the morning, I'm like a blank sheet of paper, these days (it's the drugs, I'm sure).

Really won't have a good idea about where all of this is heading til the end of the week (I guess - I hope).

That is all (that I can remember this morning).

(Did every paragraph contain at least one parenthetical comment... wow, my inner-monologue is on full-alert).

Jon

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