I think i just experienced one of the most awkward moments in my life....

During the entire break (like 15-20 min) i talked with tyler about different things....and then i sat back down and this girl next to me who is soo crushing on tyler but doesnt even talk to him turns to me and sasy, "So you and tyler, huh?"

Me: uhhhh....what?

Girl:You guys look like sucha couple.

Me: *awkwardly flustered* Oh...

Girl: If u guyz got married...think of the children!

At this point i just ignored the girl. She stated the most awkward thing of life...its a good thing Tyler wasnt there...that would just have made it ten times worst

My friends and I went out to eat for Halloween (Annie and I went in our costumes cuz we're cool like that) Jake was there too and apparently he still likes me even tho i completely denied his kiss and feelings. SO i pretended i wanted to see this old posteron the wall and sat on the other side of the table across from Annie and Ben. Then Tyler walked in late cuz of football and the next open seat was next to me!! (squueee) so i got to talk to him alot all night.

Then some of us went back to watch scary movies...but tyler couldnt stay late because of the SATs but this is the good part:

We were all sort of clustered together because people were leaving...now Tyler is terrible at saying goodbye to people...but at the time i was closest to him and he turned and hugged me AND he said by...but then he shuffled off by saying..."im gunna give other people hugs"...DIES

we r talking more AND a hug??? wow...lol

does this seem good? im crossing my fingers that things willl just improve!!!!

~xpg

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Okay well Jake started to like me but then he got the message through Annie (this is when i love her!) that I didn't feel the same way. And get this...he is SOOOO nice. Even tho I totally dumped him he STILL let me borrow his Sum41 CD! how cool is that? so now Jake is my biffle.

Now for little news that makes me really happy. Tyler initiated a conversation with me the other day! gasp!

He was like "Hey, I saw you the other day driving to school"

Me: "Really?"

Him "Yea I was banging on the windows and everything. Going HEY! HEy!, but u kept on looking straight ahead." * he proceeds to imitate this.

Me laughing, "Really, wow I guess I just was really focused."

HIm: "Yeah, you drive an acura right?"

Me: "Uhhhh.....no I drive a mini van"

Him: OMG! That-

ME: " That was a completly different girl!" *We both start cracking up*

THE END...i was so happy, this means its getting easier to talk to me right? *wiggles eyebros* but then i did the stupid thing and try and text him about it but he didnt respond! He's terrible texter...u can't tell what he's thinking at all...which is why i always freak out and told myself i will never initiate a text convo with him....I WILL DO THAT FROM NOW ON! sry I'm just trying to convince myself here...

~xpg

Should I tell my mom about my super crush Tyler?

Okay...i might sound like I'm obsesed with him here...but this is only because I have no outlet for it. I mean I haven't told a soul about this. I can't tell Marie because we all went to school together and she thinks that i still hate him (this oddly reminds me of hey arnold...). I can't tell Annie, because even tho she has a boyfriend , i don't know if she's over him yet (she's weirdly attached to him). And none of my other friends are even apart of this group....or i'm not personally close to them. So I think before i go psycho, i need to tell somebody...and i tell my mom everything.

on anothernote...i came home sick today (boo hum) but the good news is that i'm slowly bringing up my precal grade from a C- to hopefully something higher than a C-

I need to do hw...but I really feel like vegging out

~xpg

OKay..well imust say that i pulled off that smexy dark blue dancing with the stars kinda dress b-e-a-utifully. lol...im so full of my self. Ofcourse as usual with all homecoming traditions...there were a gazillion pictures taken by parents. Jake wont stand up straight and I'm already tall...but i decided that I really wanted to wear heels anyway...so i had to stoop a bit for pictures...cuz i WILL NOT b taller than my guy.

But here comes the good part! so the whole group that was going to homecoming, was meeting at my friends house...so as i'm walking up the drivve way, Tyler is walking up the other way (it's a circle driveway) and he was so staring at me. SQQQQUUUE! he's not the type to say 'hey u look really nice' since he's shy...and i would feel awkward anyway if he said that haha. When we got close i waved and said hi and he just lifted his hand and smiled instead of his usual 'Wassup?' HE'S SO CUTE!!!! especialy in a buttoned shirt and tie...he cleans up pretty good.

So we got in and we were talking and than Jake came in later...and mymom was like 'aren't you going to say hi to jake?" and i was like...uuuhhh....

i didn't mean to ignore him! im not that oblivious or mean! It's just Tyler look so cute/hott and he actually talks to me. At the restaurant, Jake sat across from me accasionally staring at me (sketch!) next to Annie and I was next to Tyler. (haha :twisted Jake wouldnt talk to me unless i tried to strike up a conversation so eventually i just gave up and just talked to Annie and Tyler.

Finally, after dinner...dundundun...the dance! Jake cant dance worth beans...and most guys cant...but then he started doing this weird russian dance thing. IM SUCH A FREAK TOO THOUGH! I kept glancing at Tyler throughout the night...isnt that sad? Even when I was slow dancing with Jake(btw: i did not fit very well w/ him while dancing...does that make sense?)... he was kind standing awkwardly there with Tom (another stag guy) so i tried to include everybody so it would b a complete waste a time for them. It was hilarious this spanish beat came over the speakers and i started doing a fake spanish dance with castanets...and Tyler started doing the guy part.

Annie tried setting Tyler up with some girl...but he didn't want to dance with any girl really. (my inner mind: HAH! take that!) then the worst thing happened...i dont know if Tyler saw...he might of left before...but while Jake and I were slow dancing...i was in the middle of commenting on the awful music when he tries to attack me with his lips! And the only thaough that was running through my head was "NONONONONONO!!!!"

that was the dance for the most part...i then crashed on my friends counch where i woke up several hours freezing.... i hope that im getting somewhere with Tyler!...did i mention he looked hott,smexy and cute? lol

~xpg

.....im super excited...time to make tyler love me...bwahahaa...ha...if anyone has seen the avatar abridged series they would get that (im not as creepy as zuko :p) anyway...tomorrow i'll write all about it so beware!

lalallala...happyhappyhappy...lalalala

~xpg