So bassicly I feel like I want to die. My mom whom I thought I could trust found out every little secrete about me that I never would tell her. Now she can't trust me I can't tust her she never will look at me the same way I don't know what to do. Talking won't work to awkward.

Ok so since my last blog post stuff is back to normal but I just have a lot of stuff going on in my life right now and I don't really have time for anything anymore. I met this one person and she is cool one of my best friends but she ruins everything drives me in to this paranoid stressed out person. When she comes to me for a favor I do it when she needs money, some one to talk to I'm there but she doesn't return the favor and when she does she is pissed off about it and then I feel bad for making her mad and then I think about it for the next few hours as I hear my friends talking **** on her a chain smoking **** and I can't take anymore. I don't know what to do. Some other little stuff is going on. but nothing big

On a brighter note I was in P.E and I therew a shoe to my friend across the room and when I did that a really bad pain went threw my arm and they said I pulled a muscle. So I can't take the pain anymore so I get to leave early and when I go to the doctor in pain they tell me I dislocated my shoulder. I had to have a IV knockout medicine why they poped my shoulder back in place. Now I'm stuck in a stupid sling for a week or a month depending on how fast it heals. This is only the second day with it and I'm already tired of it.
So I really don't know if I'm leaving I can't decide.

Ok I normaly wouldn't say a story like this but I don't know what to do. I come home from a family member house and I look like complete crap I was sleeping in a pool of my own sweat. So my dad who always has to make fun of me who can never say the right thing says "Did you wash your hair today" my hair for some strange reason matters increadably much to me. I reply yes why do you have to be such a ****(this word was censord but its not even that bad it could be in a PG movie)
and then it happend

Bam A nice slap hits my face and then I see him get up and my mom have this wild look in her eyes and my dad reach for me again as my mom stands in the middle my dad looks like he is going to punch her. So he says some nasty things to her so I take the french frys that I have in my hand and I lob them at his eye he freaks we get into a giant fist fight. So It ends up in my room where he tackles me throws my bass down steps on it and grabs me by my hair has my face like at my knees and then I see my weight underneath my bed. I then Grab the weight and pound the weight into his skinny leg and he screams stop so I say let go and then I do it several more times until he lets go. then I get up he goes across my bed and then my poor mom who looks like she is going to have a heart attack is pushed to the ground by my father she lands on my bass and then we go at it again.

Finaly my dad grabs a suitcase tells my mom you can pay the bills and leaves. I realizing I hate him and never want to see him again so there the one thing he needs for his clients is laying on the ground in my room his cell phone. I then take out my frustration out on the phone as the tears roll down my face because I realize nothing in my house will be the same. My dad will leave and my mom has no money for anything and I have to worry about him showing up again tonight. I don't know what to do I ruiend my life.

Help

Yet again I fall in this place. I hate it with a strong passion.

I rented the movie Last House on the Left and God I loved it. The movie was about two teenage girls who go to buy some pot and when they do they go into the wrong house. The movie was ***** up wich I love **** up movies. The whole movie was rape and violence. The ending was awesome.
8.5/10